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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 18

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Day 18

Today I am thankful for special quesadillas, although I really shouldn't be. Anywhere else other than here in the Imperial Valley a special quesadilla is one that has meat inside it. Tortilla, cheese, meat. "Special". Here, we do special in a different way... we deep fry it. So, we made a raw dough, jam it with cheese, fold it up more or less empanada style, and fry the sh*t outta that mother. The result is decadence. I grew up eating these things and every time I have one, I'm transported back to childhood (also a time when I wasn't allergic to beans- sadfacetear) and when I was happy and carefree. Now, eating one of those fatty things will either upset my IBS or go straight to my thighs or whatever. WORTH IT!!! So, so worth it. Imperial Valley special quesadilla is definitely an element of my "last meal"... you know, should I ever get the chair (firing squad is my preference, though.)

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/29/2013 2:08PM

    lol, I've actually been reading about the kinds of fats that we use to fry out tasty foods, and although high in fat, it's high in the good fats. So not TOO sinful, lol. Looks super tasty!

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SMILINGTREE 11/22/2013 9:59AM

    For me, it's a grilled cheese sandwich -- the worst white bread, slathered with butter, and the brightest yellow/orange American cheese. Plus potato chips. My face feels greasy just thinking about it.

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ARCHIMEDESII 11/19/2013 1:29PM

    YUM !! It's okay to be grateful for a special quesadilla once in a while.

moderation, not deprivation.


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ARUNNINGKAT 11/19/2013 11:43AM

    Oh those do look good! I was a quesadilla kid too, although ours weren't as fancy as yours. emoticon My parents used to take my brother and me to a little Mexican restaurant downtown (back when there were only two kids) and I always ordered a quesadilla. They were so yummy!

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144AUTUMN 11/19/2013 1:17AM

  Keep up the good work!!

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 11/19/2013 1:11AM

    Those quesadillas looks awesome!

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 16 & 17

Monday, November 18, 2013

Day 16

Today I am thankful for power toothbrushes. I have a basic rechargeable Oral B. And I love it. My teeth feel so clean. I'm sure I haven't mentioned this before, probably because it's like... weird... but, I kinda have an obsession with my teeth. I carry around a travel toothbrush and travel toothpaste in my purse. I can't stand teeth that aren't clean and squeaky and they have to be smile ready all the time. Even though I don't smile much these days (mostly because it still feels fake) but that doesn't mean I'm never going to smile again- I hope- so they gotta be ready at all times.

Day 17

Today I am grudgingly thankful for the local community college I attend. I say that because I'm thankful for it's mental health services that are free for me and because I can continue to work on what I need to to get into a Master's Program. On the other hand, they don't offer several of the classes I need and it's the only college here, so I'm going to have to figure out what to do about that... Makes things pretty inconvenient. Oh, well. I'll keep plugging along until I find a solution. With what I've got available. Thanks, IVC.

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 11/18/2013 12:18PM

    OMG, your teeth pic is hilarious. Love that you are finding things both big and small to be thankful for!

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/18/2013 12:18PM

    My daughter has an obsession with white and straight teeth. She has started to rub off on me and I have started to notice teeth all the time. emoticon Bravo to the purse toothbrush!

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/18/2013 10:09AM

    Power toothbrushes are the best! :-D

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 13, 14, & 15

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Day 13

This one I've been putting off for 3 days to write... not because it's not true, but because I'm afraid it might be someday. As long as I keep working on my goals and myself, I know I'll be okay, but damn if depression isn't some of the darkest sh*t I've ever experienced. This has been particularly crushing. I'm just amazed I'm not clinical.

So, I'm thankful I'm not suicidal. And years ago, when I was a few months away from ending my last relationship- with that abusive jerk- I was. Daily dread and the thoughts of how easy it would be to just do it and not have to live that sort of existence any more. Luckily I pulled myself out of that depression (which didn't feel the same way this depression does, so it probably was situational, not necessarily chemical) and ditched him before I did anything drastic. I reassure myself and the few friends that I've confided in about my current depression that they need not worry because I'm not suicidal. But, the scary [terrifying] thing is, I can see why depressed people attempt or succeed at it. Because, frankly, I wouldn't want to live for very long if this is how I had to feel every. single. day. I'm not there now, though, and I hope I never get to be.

Day 14

Today I'm thankful for my sister-in-law's dog, Aiden (or BooBoo as we call him). When my lil' doggie passed away last year, for the first holiday I was going to be home, I knew it was going to be weird. Our canine companion had been in the family 12 years. And I wasn't there when he passed, so I was going to be coming home to an empty house. But, the BooBoo was there to ease that transition and pain. Having another canine around made it less weird somehow. And the BooBoo would go out in the back and lay down on my doggie's grave and mourn him, too, so it was comforting to know we were all in pain together.

Day 15

Today I'm thankful for Starbucks Peppermint Mochas. They are my favorite of the holiday drinks (even more so than Pumpkin Spice, gasp!) And they taste like coffee got together with a candy cane and went dancing in an ocean of whipped cream. I do get mine with nonfat milk. Too much fatty dairy es no bueno with the ol' digestive system (thanks a lot Salted Caramel Mochas). Anyhow, I've had two this week, which is starting to make it less of a treat and more of a too-much-of-a-fat-thing. Oh well. It's not like they're around all year.

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SMILINGTREE 11/22/2013 9:57AM

    After my dog died, it really helped that we had a pup in the house. It didn't make me miss Martha any less, but it did give me a snuggle companion.

A very, very long time ago, I would indulge in suicidal thoughts. I understand how people get to that point. But I also know that you get to decide. It took me years to figure it out -- I get to decide what I think about. (This is not to say that everyone can decide, but for me, that turned out to be the case. Please don't think I'm offering advice with that statement -- your counselor is far, far more qualified to do that than I will ever be!)

You have tried an amazing variety of Starbucks drinks. It makes me feel boring. I always just get a skinny vanilla latte because I know love it. Not too adventurous, huh?

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/18/2013 12:26PM

    Thanks for sharing! I am glad that you are able to share with us here..and I am very glad that you are not suicidal too. I so hope you start to feel better soon. I have struggled at times too (and definitely do some days right now) and it is not a fun way to live. As for Starbucks Peppermint Mochas, they are one of my many favorites! I try to limit myself to just one surgery splurge drink from Starbucks a week, but it can be a challenge because there are so many good ones right now and they won't be here long.

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/18/2013 10:03AM

    My lovely Jill, you've simply not enjoyed the best of Christmas until you've had an eggnog gingerbread latte. :-D That is of course if you like eggnog. If you do, it will BLOW your mind... if you don't, then you'd probably just retch it back up I suppose. I'm thankful you haven't hit a place in your current bout of depression where suicide starts to seem like a reasonable option. Your life is a treasure, your mind and your soul are uniquely brilliant, sometimes we just need the right mirror held up so that we can see ourselves for how we truly are - and not how we think we are.

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SLIMMERJESSE 11/16/2013 1:39PM

    I don't trust myself to try them. (smiling) They look so delish that, once started, I'd be hooked.

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 11 & 12

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Day 11

I've been drained of all my energy lately (I'm attributing it to this stupid depression because really, I don't have any other reason to be so tired all the time) so I totally forgot to post my thankful thing yesterday.

And, of course, it being Veteran's Day, I am thankful for our veterans. I have a family member or two in active service and more than my share of friends who are now or have been at one time in a branch of our military. From Iraq to Afghanistan, the people I've known have been there, on the front lines, risking their lives and safety. They've done something I don't know that I could do myself. These people are amazing and wonderful. They are truly heroic and brave. And I love them! So, veterans get a big "thank you" from me and to know I am thankful for them.

Um... I don't think I have a veterans-y pic, so....

Day 12
Today I am thankful for old friends. Real ones. Not friends that have known me for the last 7 years and I've only *thought* I've known them. Yesterday I got together with some of my "old friends" to remember and reminisce about our friend that passed away. It was nice to reconnect and see familiar faces and just sit and enjoy each other's company for an afternoon (an afternoon that was just too short as it turned out). I've known one friend since elementary school and the other since junior high. And for a period of time (mostly while I was living in San Diego) we lost touch or didn't communicate as frequently... but, yesterday was a great time to catch up and spend time together. And hopefully, continue to do so more in the future. I left that day thankful that after all this time, they're still wonderful people and best of all, they're still there.

1999 (I was a junior in high school)

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/18/2013 12:20PM

    Love the flashback photo! Friends like that are so amazing. So glad you have them.

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ARCHIMEDESII 11/13/2013 3:42PM

    JIlly, you are far to young to have had a friend pass away. That's so sad.

I'm in touch with one dear friend from high school and I owe her an email. LOL.
I see one friend from grammar school, but that's only because she still lives locally. Everyone else seems to have scattered into the wind.

I would say I have more co-workers I've known over the years who are friends, than anyone in high school. Over the years, we really did grow apart.

You were Sailor Moon ! How cute !

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/12/2013 4:48PM

    I have maybe four or five friends like that. It always is the most amazing thing to be able to not see them for a year or two, but then completely reconnect everytime you see them - as if no time had passed. Really sorry to hear about your friend. :-(

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 10

Monday, November 11, 2013

Day 10

Today I'm thankful for vanilla rooibos tea lattes. If you've never had one, get thee to a Starbucks and enjoy! I make mine at home now (but, I still have to buy the tea bags at Starbucks). They are so ridiculously delicious. Perfect hot beverage on a cold night. Vanilla tea with some honey and non-fat foamy milk. It's a hug in a mug. It's my absolute #1 favorite thing to drink in winter (even more so than the Gingerbread coffee from Trader Joe's- that stuff is OFF THE HOOK GOOD, too!)

Vanilla Rooibos Tea Latte, the beverage of champions.

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SMILINGTREE 11/12/2013 11:14AM

    Since vanilla is one of my favorite flavors, it's shocking I haven't tried this. It's probably because I always order a vanilla latte at Starbucks. Or any fancy coffee house.

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DIANER2014 11/11/2013 11:25PM

    Sounds yummy! Will have to try it.

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 11/11/2013 12:11PM

    Hug in a mug! Love it!

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ARCHIMEDESII 11/11/2013 9:43AM

    emoticon YUM !!

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