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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 6

Thursday, November 07, 2013

Day 6

I'm still struggling with everything that's happened in the last few days.

Anyway, today I'm thankful for Netflix. I don't have cable. I don't even have a t.v. I haven't had cable service for about 4 years. So, most of my entertainment comes from Netflix. In a way I'm glad. Television can suck up sooooo much time if you let it. People think it's weird when they find out I don't do television, but I honestly love it. Yes, there are a few shows that I wish I could watch (The Walking Dead, Once Upon a Time, also the Wonderland version, Downton Abbey, Ghost Adventures...) but, really, there aren't enough shows that I regularly [would] watch to justify the cost of having cable.

So, Netflix instant streaming works great for me. I watch the same stuff over and over anyway (Futurama!!!! YOW!!!) and really I only need a movie on for the background noise about 95% of the time. The $8 a month for Netflix is just right for my needs. (It is remarkable that Netflix plays on my dinosaur laptop, too.) Thanks Netflix!


Spark resizes things ridiculously small. This one was my April Fool's category: Movies That are in English But Still Require Subtitles.


This one was an odd recommendation: because I watched Family Guy it recommended I watch The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. What?!?!

  
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GREGGWEISBROD 11/8/2013 3:46PM

    Snatch and Trainspotting... brilliant! :-D

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ARCHIMEDESII 11/7/2013 12:52PM

    You're not alone. I don't have cable. I refuse to pay for TV !! LOL !!

I can't see paying for cable. If there is something I want to watch, I can watch on the network website. I like Once Upon a Time too. If I miss an ep, I can rewatch it here.

http://watchabc.go.com/once
-upon-a-time/SH55126545


Many network shows do that. Cable shows, you have to wait a bit. but eventually, you can find full episodes of any of your favorite shows posted on YOUTUBE. that's another great place to watch TV. lol

I know the last few days and been rough, but remember you are a strong woman !! things will improve !!




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SMILINGTREE 11/7/2013 12:45PM

    Having Netflix and not cable would suit me, but not my husband. He loves Adult Swim (and Futurama, too!)

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/7/2013 12:06PM

    I would love to drop our TV, but it is a hard sell with my hubby into just about every sport there is. I have noticed it taking so much of our time in the evenings and I don't like it. That being said, I LOVE Netflix and have a whole list of movies on my list that I want to watch some day. emoticon

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ROSEPETAL80 11/7/2013 4:22AM

    We do the same. We have a tv but dropped cable and use hulu and netflix. MUCH cheaper.

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 5

Wednesday, November 06, 2013

Day 5

This is a tough one because the last thing in the world I'm feeling right now is thankful for anything.

Discovering (through FACEBOOK no less!) the guy you've been dating is in a relationship with another woman is a tough pill to swallow. I did write him a note on FB telling him that I was very hurt by this turn of events. I even took the high road: I didn't use any foul language. I didn't tell him what a big, fat effin' jerk he was. I didn't even try to guilt trip him by telling him how much I've agonized over the last several weeks wondering what I had done wrong to make him back off so suddenly, taking on the blame and guilt myself and ultimately having to seek out counseling from a psychologist because I've lost control of my life and my emotions... Nope. I kept it short and sweet. "You cut me off because you didn't want to see me and decided not to tell me. It hurt." That's pretty much it.

He wrote me back an explanation and apology. I didn't even want to read it, but my OCD kicks into gear big time on FB and having that little number notification on the side drives me nuts! So, I waited until WAY after to read it. Turns out he met this gal back in July (and started dating me literally within weeks after that) and that he's basically been stringing me along this whole time. He never wanted to be with me. He wanted to be with her. I got used. And it doesn't feel good. At all.

I did make myself go on a walk/jog today to start training for Iron Girl in December. I also thought it would help be a de-stress, antidepressant... not so much today. I discovered it is very difficult to sob uncontrollably while still trying to jog/walk briskly. Also, I didn't have any kleenex with me. And most of my route was going into the wind. Which made breathing difficult. I still somehow managed to pull off about a 16 minute mile and I did 2.32 miles. Not bad considering I haven't done much since my ankle went bunk at the beginning of October.

Anyway, on to the "thankfulness" bullsh*t part of this post... Leah is always telling me that sometimes our emotions follow our actions. In other words, fake it 'til you make it! So, I'm going to FAKE being thankful for this, and hope that eventually I really will be thankful...

I'm thankful for not only myself, but for anyone else who has ever "dodged a bullet" so to speak by having someone reveal their true colors before you got in too deep. He has always been a nice guy and that is what he projects himself to be. I think he does so because he sincerely WANTS to be a nice guy, but his true self is a thoughtless, soulless, stereotypical man-jerk. He said I was nothing but a good friend to him, through all the crap he's been going through lately and that's he's sorry. Cold comfort and hard to believe from someone I can no longer trust. I guess I'm glad I found out now that I can't trust him instead of sometime down the line.

I don't have a photo today. Sorry.

  
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GREGGWEISBROD 11/8/2013 3:45PM

    Ugh. That guy makes me want to vomit... all over him. I'm thankful that you found it in yourself to not only write about it all, but to do so in such a wonderfully brilliant way. You're actually quite delightful to read in your wonderfully scathing tone. I hope you shake off the emotions of the past while that have been the result of this colossal bunghole. Good luck with your training, I'm kind of excited to read how that goes. Hope your ankle is alright!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 11/6/2013 1:57PM

    Well, at least you have some closure and you don't have to keep thinking you did something wrong....IT WAS ALL HIM!! I'm so sorry. Dealing with guys can be so rough, especially when they're as insensitive as this guy. Good for you for getting out there and running! 16 minute mile is great! Looking forward to seeing you next month!

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/6/2013 12:16PM

    I have done more than my fair share of trying to run while crying - and you are right, it doesn't work so well. But on the bright side, I am glad you went out for a run. That is probably just about the healthiest options you could have chosen under the circumstances. And I am so sorry this guy turned out to be such a loser. You are right. It is good that you found out now, but that doesn't take away the pain and heartache. emoticon

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DSHONEYC 11/6/2013 11:11AM

    emoticon Yes, my friend - you have to kiss a lot of frogs out there.

I am so sorry for your hurt. I know what it feels like. It was April 2000 when I finally discovered "He will never leave you".

While I have not found my soul mate (still), I am at peace with His love and am looking in some better places now.

Thinking and praying for you, sweet and trusting woman.

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SMILINGTREE 11/6/2013 8:58AM

    In the moment it's probably really hard to be thankful, but really...you don't want someone who is less than honest to play the love-interest in the story of your life. And big congratulations on the jog/walk! It had to help -- even if it didn't feel great. I remember sobbing a time or two last winter while attempting to train for the half marathon. You're right - it's not easy.

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BLUENOSE63 11/6/2013 4:14AM

  Well that sucks! I sincerely hope that your life takes an upswing after this debacle with FB. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and if you have to cry doing it, so be it. This guy is acting like a jerk and you can and will do better!

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 4

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

Day 4

Today I am thankful for Louis. He's my brother's cat technically, but very much "everyone's" cat. He certainly spends a lot of time with me. They say having pets is good for your health (but maybe not my allergies) and I do tend to enjoy my life more when I have pets around. Living in San Diego for 4 years without a pet was kinda a bummer, especially since I've had pets since I was 8 years old.

Louis is a sweet cat. Everyone that gets the chance to interact with him immediately falls in love with his chubby, squeaky, fuzziness. He loves my gray robe, too. He'll come and sit in my lap and just purr and knead my robe and stay there. I actually find it very relaxing to have him come snuggle with me. Occasionally he sleeps in my room with me. He has this high-pitched squeaky meow that's adorable and he always extends one paw to you when he's talking to you. He doesn't have those tiny little teeth between his fangs, so there's just black gums there. It makes it funny watch him meow or yawn since it's like this dark emptiness. Like a cute hillbilly cat. Anyway, he's a treasure and really helped me heal when the MeowMeow passed away.

How could your heart not melt with that lil' punam!




  
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KARENE10 11/6/2013 8:50PM

    Hillbilly cat~ emoticon emoticon emoticon SO funny! He does sound like a sweetie emoticon

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DSHONEYC 11/5/2013 2:42PM

    emoticon Ahhhhhhhh. I love my kitties.

It is good to share your life with animals.

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ARCHIMEDESII 11/5/2013 1:34PM

    Now that is a contented looking cat !!

I do miss having a cat. They do make good companions even though they tear around the house on Saturday nights. LOL !!

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/5/2013 12:07PM

    Oh he looks a lot like my cat, Libby! So cute! And she does some of those poses too!

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 3

Monday, November 04, 2013

Day 3
Today I am thankful for the two guys who sit next to me in chemistry. Jonta sits to my left, and Gabe sits to my right. They make the class much more tolerable, plus we struggle together, get angry and frustrated, fail tests together, compare each other's homework answers (inevitably all 3 of us have 3 different answers, ugh!) and I feel better knowing I'm not the only one. These guys are warm, friendly, and on my level. I lucked out getting them in my class and for fate sitting me with them. :-)

I don't have a pic of Jonta or Gabe, so instead here's Kyle (aka Cop Car) "helping" me with my chem homework.

  
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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 11/5/2013 5:38PM

    Loving reading about your Thankfulness! Looking forward to following along all month!

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GREGGWEISBROD 11/5/2013 11:57AM

    Yeah, that's pretty stinkin' cute, lol! :-D Everything is easier in life when you can share your struggles and your triumphs with someone else. I'm glad you have those guys in your life too!

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ARUNNINGKAT 11/4/2013 5:44PM

    Mr. Kyle (or Cop Car) is adorable! Looks like he has a lot of personality!

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40PUDDLEJUMPER 11/4/2013 4:22AM

    Sometimes the people around us make everything feel much better, some of my classes were like that, we were all confused together!!!

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144AUTUMN 11/4/2013 1:20AM

  You can do it!!!!

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ZRIE014 11/4/2013 12:59AM

  cute

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CHIBIKARATE 11/4/2013 12:51AM

    cute enjoy your Day hugz

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30 Days of Thankful 2013 Edition- Day 2

Sunday, November 03, 2013

Day 2
I'm thankful for what my granny refers to as my "ugly gray robe". I got this robe for Christmas several years ago and over time it has become my security blanket. I wear it year-round (yes, even on those 115 degree summer days in the desert) not for temperature regulation, but for comfort. I wrap myself in my robe and my mind becomes at ease. I almost feel naked not wearing it when I lounge around the house. Despite the fact that I'm ALWAYS wearing it, I seem to have few photos of me actually in it... Anyway, I did scrounge up one from January of this year.

My security blanket ugly gray robe is worn and, yeah, now it's ugly, but it's my favorite clothing item in the whole world.

  
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ARUNNINGKAT 11/4/2013 5:44PM

    Everyone needs a "grey robe" even if it isn't offically a robe. Something that comforts us is priceless!

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 11/3/2013 10:29AM

    I LOVE your gray robe...the fact it brings you such comfort is awesome!
If it ever passes over to the other side, you must save a piece to frame or
Have as the Center piece of a throw pillow! Enjoy...
Love & warm gray robe hugs!
Mary

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