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So this happened

Saturday, September 28, 2013

That left ankle hurt so bad in my tap class on Thursday, I actually cried. I think I'll be needing to switch to some flat Oxford-style tap shoes instead of my beloved character heels. So far there's only been pain. None of that weird toe numbness. The back of my ankle (behind that jutting ankle bone) is a little swollen in a spot. I've been unsuccessfully trying to RICE the beast. The resting and icing I'm having the most problems with. I'm just usually so active and on the move. Staying in one place is proving to be difficult. And icing... well, I only have two ice packs, so icing for 15-20 mins every hour is difficult in that my ice packs aren't always fully frozen again for the next go-round. Compression is fine- I can keep the beast in an elastic ACE bandage no problem. Elevation I am able to do when I'm complying with the Resting part.

As for righty, I accidentally stepped on the cat's tail yesterday. So, in his defense, it probably hurt and his reaction totally justified. In my defense, he's mostly black and was stalking the door to the room across from mine in our inky dark, windowless, almost black hardwood floored hallway, so he blended in, didn't move and I didn't see him at all. Poor thing (both him and me). He seems fine. I checked him out later. I'm "fine" except that the scratches are pretty deep and burn continually.

So, it's putting a temporary stop to my exercise routine. I may just start this whole bootcamp challenge over from the beginning. I didn't do anything this last week. Struggling with iron deficiency and probably depression this week has made life in general very difficult. I could certainly use some prayers, good vibes, happy thoughts, and some encouragement, if you have any of that to spare. Thanks.

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SMILINGTREE 10/1/2013 11:39AM

    As always, I'm late. That looks terrible! I understand both about the trying to rest and about the depression - even a minor case of the blues can really make it hard to do the things you KNOW will help.

Get better, all around, soon :)

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ARUNNINGKAT 9/30/2013 12:30PM

    Oh, girl you look like you hurt. Sending happy thoughts and prayers your way! Cat scratches are the worst. Just make sure they don't get infected - that is what my MIL is always telling me. Hope you feel better very soon! emoticon

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OLIVIANIGHT 9/30/2013 7:22AM

    Aw I'm so sorry you're injured and scratched up. I hope you heal quickly and I'm sending lots of prayers your way.

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 9/29/2013 12:16PM

    Sending you lots of good thoughts and healing vibes, Jill! I know how hard it must be to feel so stuck. I hope the RICE-ing begins to help more. Thinking of you!

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LODESTONE 9/28/2013 7:26PM

    those are some mean looking scratches do keep them medicated boot camp will still be there when you are ready to attack again
Hugs! emoticon (helping out with a teensy pity party-- but it is over now)

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ARCHIMEDESII 9/28/2013 6:54PM

    Jilly ! IOUCH !!!

Keep putting ice on that ankle. it really will help. What to do ? Do you have any frozen bagged peas ? There is also a brand of ice pack called peas technology or something like that. It's a bag of glass beads that you freeze like a bag of regular peas. CVS has them.

Do you have a regular bag of ice ? That might work better than the solid ice packs.

Don't worry about any exercise. If you want to do something, just do some upper body strength exercises while sitting in a chair. You could just take a couple of weeks off too. Believe me, you won't derail any of your efforts at good health if you take a couple of weeks off.


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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/28/2013 6:30PM

    Oh Girl...sending you prayers, good vibes, happy thoughts, encouragemet, love and healing hugs! Please keep those scrathes clean and use Neosporin with pain relief!
So sorry you are laid up...and not in a good way...LOL
Hope to hear of rapid recovery soon!

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SLIMMERJESSE 9/28/2013 6:19PM

    Hope things get better for you soon. You may want to just shuffle from now on when in the dark and cat's whereabouts unknown. Like you do in the ocean to avoid stingrays.

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Keeping On! YEAH!

Monday, September 23, 2013

Alright, so my re-do of week 2 still didn't go that stellar, but I think I improved on it, so I'll consider it done and move on to week 3 of Spring into Shape.

Do daily toning video
Track food 3 days this week
Do 20-30 mins cardio 5 days this week
Do bonus video twice this week
Freewrite 4 pages this week
Address any/all health issues this month

I found it easier to not do things daily per my crazy schedule and state of mind. So, I did do all 7 videos (except Monday or Tuesday because I was having internet issues, so I did a Coach Nicole DVD that day instead. Win.) I just didn't do one video per day. I did more like 3 "big" days of workouts instead of 7 "small" days. I would like to be a bit more consistent, though, so I think I'm going to try to work on that this week. I think I may have come up short on cardio minutes, too, but luckily that will be for week 3's challenge. I did track my food at least 3 days, and stayed mostly in ranges-woo! I counted my off-day with the DVD as my 'bonus' video... plus I used a stretching video from Coach Nicole for dealing with shin splints.

I think I only wrote 1 or 2 pages in my freewriting journal. Lame. I know I need to be consistent with that, too, in order to see any marked improvement in my writing skills. And I made it the doc this week to get on some meds to help level me back out from last week's hormone-fluctuating psychosis. It was very upsetting to be so out of control over my emotions. I'm sure half the people I encountered that week either thought I was just a total b**** or clinically depressed. I sure felt like both. And to make matters worse, I was in intense pain (if my uterus had a fist, it would have been punching me really hard... in the uterus) and I felt weak (probably pretty anemic) and ill most of those days. I'm glad to be back on some meds. THANK. GOODNESS!!!

Tap dance this week was fun. I was thrilled to have not pulled any groin muscles. HOORAY! However!!! In the last 5 minutes of class, my left ankle started to hurt. I figured it was just done. That class session involved a lot of jumping and joint-bearing steps/moves. So, after 55 minutes, I figured my time was up! I wrapped up my ankle in an ace bandage when I got home and it was pretty sore the next day. Additionally, I have felt some numbness in my big toe (also on the left foot), so now I'm wondering if I should be concerned. Seems like there's some sort of neuropathy happening, right? It's not even my whole toe that's been getting numb, either. It's just the side of my toe. It happened when I was practicing tap at home, too, so... hmmm... Anyone encounter this before? Ankle is still sore, too.

Well, I'd talk more about my "special friend", but really there isn't much to say. We haven't spoken a whole lot since his birthday weekend "fiasco" (which I still have residual feelings about) due to his work schedule, out of town relatives visiting, playing uncle to his sister's kids, and apparently he got a cold on top of all that, so we've had about 10 minutes of any sort of contact in the last week or so. Sad, disappointed, lonely? You bet I am. But, what can I do?

So, instead, I'll be wrapping this up with my week 3 goals and heading off to study for my chem exam tonight (this whole blog has been one giant procrastination).

Week 3 Goals:
emoticon Track food 3 days this week
emoticon Increase fruit & veggie intake by 1 serving per day
emoticon Daily toning videos
emoticon 30 mins minimum cardio 5x this week
emoticon 4 pages of freewriting this week
emoticon Address any health issues this month

Peace, homies.

Yesterday my granny and I both wore plaid shirts with 3/4 sleeves and those nifty rolled sleeve fastener thingies on them.

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JSALERNO 9/24/2013 6:31AM


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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/24/2013 12:41AM

    I love the plaid shirt pics! I have to tell ya I hate those dang rolled sleeve fasteners...pain in ass to roll, get even and button...guess I am lazy! But 3/4 sleeves and plaid...like! Plaid is very Fall!
Sweetie, hope your sadness, disappointment and loneliness soon disappears!
So glad you have relief from that female trouble...oh, my!
Love you!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 9/23/2013 5:50PM

    You and your Grandma are styling!

Good job on the Week 2 Re-do! Great goals for Week 3, too. You can do it!!

I hope your toe and ankle feel better soon!

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Take 2!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

So, my week 2 of Spring into Shape didn't go so hot. Recapping my goals:

emoticon Do daily toning video
emoticon Track food 3 days this week
emoticon Do 20-30 mins cardio 5 days this week
emoticon Do bonus video twice this week
emoticon Freewrite 4 pages this week
emoticon Address any/all health issues this month

Let's see... where did I go wrong?

Well, Sunday and Monday were kinda tired/lazy days. Too lazy. Sunday I was exhausted and I'll go ahead and give myself that, but I don't have any good excuse for Monday. Tuesday I made myself do better. I got in some cardio and caught up on my toning videos. Although I kinda overdid it on the squats and lunges (Tuesday's video) and ended up *really* sore for a few days. Which probably played into the horrors of Thursday, which I will get to. Wednesday my upper body felt great (since it wasn't my legs or my abs) so I doubled up the toning video on that one. In retrospect, that would have been a great opportunity to do a bonus video instead. Lame! The cardio portion of that workout was tough- I could feel myself not working as hard or putting in as much effort, due to my overly sore legs. Regardless, I still ended up hot, sweaty, and huffin' & puffin'. I'll take it.

Thursday... ah, Thursday. I spent a nice afternoon with my "special friend" and he ended up having to drop me off at tap class. I still was a bit early, so I spent about 10 minutes trying to do a quick warm-up and some stretches in about a 2x2ft piece of floor-real-estate. My legs were still sore and wobbly from the over-exertion of Tuesday, and I tap in character shoes- they're about 1-1.5 in. heels. Should have known it was a recipe for disaster! About 10 or so minutes into the class, I flap/ball-changed/shuffle/ball-changed on ol' lefty, and repeated on righty. When I hit that flap down on the floor, something went "AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!" in the general area of my adductor longus/gracilis, where my leg meets my pelvis. And, because I'm stubborn and stuff, I just kept going for the other 50 minutes. I struggled through all of it. By the time I left class, I could hardly walk. My "special friend" had to help me into the car and then practically carry me out of it when he dropped me off back at home. I was sore and hardly able to be on my feet the remainder of the night. That meant I also didn't get to my toning video that night. The next day, Friday, the pain was no longer sharp. Just kind of a sore, obnoxious, constant ache. I decided it would be a terrible idea to push myself into doing any exercise that day, too. I did go run (or walk very, very slowly) errands at a few stores for the family and that was enough. On Saturday I felt more sore than on Friday, so I think that was pushing it too much. So, I didn't do anything on Saturday.

Today is Sunday. I haven't technically done anything yet, but that doesn't mean I won't. I walked down to my local Starbucks (it's about a 10 minute walk), but it was like 100+ degrees out, so I went very, very slow so I wouldn't heat stroke on the way. I had a heavy backpack full of chemistry B.S. to study. Which I'm SO FRUSTRATED BY!!! It's so hard and I'm glad to know I'm not the only one struggling. In fact, I'm about 99% sure that 99% of my class feels as frustrated, angry, and hopeless as I do. So, maybe we'll talk to our instructor about it. He's having us memorize A TON of things for our test and it's impossible to keep it in our brains, and with only 1 week memorize it all.

I'm having a rough weekend emotionally. I'm now almost positive it's due to an impending ToM bit of "fun", but man oh man my emotions just need to f*** off! It's my "special friend's" birthday today and last night his friends threw him a party at a local bar. He invited me to go, of course, but I wasn't able to make it... mostly due to the fact that I don't have a f***ing car!!!!!! Once again, that fact is interfering with my life. I couldn't believe my reaction to not being able to go. I was in tears, inconsolable! I binge ate homemade browned-butter popcorn, candy, and candy corn Oreos- which DON'T taste like candy corn, by the way; more like butterscotch. I watched sad movies and continued to sob my way through them. Any of this sound like me?! NO! And I still am unable to digest the fact that I couldn't be there to celebrate with him. I actually found myself hiding him from my Facebook News Feed until I can stop feeling so sh*tty about it. This weekend would have been a great one to do some boxing training, like I've always wanted to do, 'cuz I've really REALLY felt like punching something really hard... in it's f***ing face!!! Over and over and OVER!!!

Well, at least this week I'll get to work on my last-listed goal of address any/all medical problems this month. Get myself back on some hormones so I can stop this madness. And also the ovary-exploding madness. That needs to just knock it off, too.

Okay, I'm all talked out. Plus I have a chem quiz on Monday and a chem exam on Wednesday to study for. Also, possibly, a medical terminology quiz, so I guess I better study for that, too.

Game of Thrones flamin' archery game at Comic Con. I rocked that simulation!

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/18/2013 9:30PM

    Okay, so you know we want more info on the special friend!?
Sorry the school is so hard and you do not have a car...life is hard!
Wishing you some relief and renewed spirit!

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SMILINGTREE 9/16/2013 6:14PM

    Apparently I have missed A LOT OF STUFF. You have a special friend? That seems like great news...except of course you're all emotional...

And, wow! You have set up some challenging goals - you will feel so fantastic if you even get most of that stuff done.

Good luck with the soreness. A little soreness feels kind of nice, but constant, horrible soreness is just terrible.

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Digging in to the 2nd Week

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Well, this blog is better late than never right?

I did pretty well on my Week 1 of Spring into Shape Bootcamp. I didn't do 30 mins of cardio 5x a week as the challenge suggests, but I did do 10 mins of cardio (at least) 6 days a week (which was the goal I set for myself). I did the challenge video daily. And I tracked my fitness daily. Good start.

Week 2 has started pretty rocky, but I am catching up and determined to finish it out strong. When Sunday (day 1) rolled around, I was exhausted. Like, could barely get out of bed, didn't wanna get dressed, tremendous effort to just brush my teeth kind of exhausted. I felt like I could have slept all day, literally. I didn't. I didn't even nap. But, I also didn't do my Day 1 video. I didn't do anything except read- some for pleasure and some for school. Monday was a little different in that I had every intention of getting in my workout, but I kept getting sidetracked by one thing after another after another after another and before I knew it, I had to go to class! I spent the whole day in my workout clothes and didn't actually workout. Lame!

So, I made up for it as best I could today. I did 20 mins of cardio (I intended to do 30, but knew into my second 10 min round that I was not going to be able to do that) and I did both Monday (day 2) and Tuesday's (day 3) video. For the cardio, I did Sunday's video twice. This might not mean anything to those that haven't done one of the bootcamps here on Spark, so I'm sorry. Anyhow, let's just say the lower body workout is what clinched the not-doing-a-3rd-10min-bought-of-cardio, it was that intense! Tomorrow I take my mom to the dentist in the morning, where I plan to do my chem homework while I wait, then come home and do 20-30 mins of cardio and my Wednesday (day 4) workout.

As part of my "September Start-Up" I'm also focusing on a few other healthy habits or health-related things this month. I am going back to the "lady doctor" to get back on b.c. so that the obnoxious and HUGE cyst I get on my ovary can go away. And so my skin can return to a normal, calm, blemish-free (mostly) state. And so my hormones can regulate and level out. I went waaaaay back in April for my "yearly" and had blood work ordered (basic labs, nothing major). Then I got "that job, ugh" and didn't get that done. So I did, finally, today... only 5 months late! Woo! Another thing I'm doing is free-writing in a journal several times a week (ideally it would be nightly, but alas, other homework jumps to the top of the priorities). I wrote down about 30-40 topics on strips of paper and stuck 'em in a jar. Then, I draw out a topic and free-write a page on said topic in a notebook. It's not that I want to be a writer and therefore should practice writing daily... it's more like, I want to be a good blogger, and practicing writing will help with that. Like any other skill, it takes practice. And, having said that, I have some big-ish plans in the works for my blog in the near future, so I'm working on that also.

Before I forget, I should tell you about my tap class briefly. I attended ballet (and tap for the first year) at this studio several years ago and stayed until I moved to San Diego. I was a crazy, shameless 22 or 23 year old at the time. Cracking jokes, taking almost nothing seriously... had a partner in crime in the classes with me (my bff at the time). I walked into the studio last Thursday night after a nearly 6 year absence and was greeted warmly by those who remembered me. Needless to say, my reputation preceded me! I also discovered I'd be in a class with someone with whom I worked at the gymnastics club. She remembered me as well and kinda, sorta, in a way hinted at offering me a coaching job down there again. That would be nice! I liked coaching. It kept me active, it was part time and didn't interfere with my schooling, and I never had to worry about overtime 'cuz if there isn't a class scheduled, then you don't work! So, I'm planning on bringing it up again soon. As for the tap class itself- so fun! I love dancing, even if I have no rhythm and I really suck at it. It keeps me active at least 1 hour a week, doing something that isn't stressful (until recital comes around), and I get to do it in character shoes like Ginger Rogers. Ha! If only...

I'm still plugging right along with school. Chem is hard. I got a C on my first "exam". I am disappointed by that grade, but the reality is, a LOT of people didn't do so well on the test either. There is a lot of material to cover, so the class is fairly fast-paced. :-S I'll keep on keeping on. Medical terminology is still fun and since I have some idea of the material, I'm finding it fairly easy. Which is good. I'm enjoying it.

That's pretty much me in a nutshell. I'm very tired, it's after midnight, and this is long enough, so...

I'm out!

The BooBoo gives me kisses after tap class last week.

Almost forgot to summarize my Week 2 goals right quick:
emoticon Do daily toning video
emoticon Track food 3 days this week
emoticon Do 20-30 mins cardio 5 days this week
emoticon Do bonus video twice this week
emoticon Freewrite 4 pages this week
emoticon Address any/all health issues this month

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 9/11/2013 11:55AM

    Sounds like the month is starting off strong, Jill! Keep it up!

I took tap with 3 of my best friends in high school and I'm pretty sure I was absolutely horrible at it!

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LODESTONE 9/11/2013 8:03AM

    You certainly stay busy. and even though you don't seem keen on exercising, you love tap! great way to burn stress, calories and just plain have fun. like zumba - but with a recital. As you say, keep on keeping on. You're doing great!

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September Start-Up

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

Alliteration for the win. I didn't want to say September Start-Over because I don't feel like this journey is a stop and start thing. It's more of a waxing and waning process, ya know? So, I'm back to a little more waxing, a little less waning these days. I got on the scale on... uh... Sunday? Sure, sounds about right... And was very saddened to see the number that glared back at me.


UGH! I had gotten as low as 172 or 171 or something right before I moved back home. And I was well on my way to hitting below 170. Life certainly does throw you for a loop, doesn't it? So, on my Spark MotherShip Page, where it says in big, black, bold letters POUNDS LOST, there is a 27, where previously there was a 45. Mega sad face. So, naturally I've decided to do something about it.

I've been in my waning phase for so long now that I think I'm going to have to take it back to the beginning and build up the good stuff again from basically scratch. Although I do have more wisdom to add to this mix. So, my plan for the month of September is basically this:

Spring into Shape Bootcamp- complete that mother!
Week 1
emoticon Do all the 10 minutes-ish videos for each day (I really hated the abs one [Day 2] so I may sub that with a different abs video for the rest of the month)
emoticon Do 10 minutes of cardio 5 days of the week (minimum)
emoticon Start tap dance classes (Thursday nights)

I'm not going to focus on nutrition this week. For me, exercise is the hard part, so I wanna lay the foundation for that first, then incorporate the nutrition jazz into next week. Not that nutrition isn't hard because it is. And lord knows I've been eating like craaaaaaaaaaaap lately.

Next week my goals SHOULD look like:
-increase cardio to 20-30 mins
-do video each day
-track food 3 days during the week
-be more mindful of WHAT I'm eating (more freggies!)

In the meantime, I'm plugging right along with school. I'm taking a chemistry class and medical terminology class.

Chemistry is hard. I'm just not good with this sort of stuff and right now there is A LOT of math involved. I am terrible to the max with the maths. So, even though I'm just starting the 3rd week, I already find myself struggling. I want to get a tutor, but I'm without my own set of wheels now, so I have no way to get back and forth to campus. In fact, I'm not entirely sure how I'll be getting to class tonight. Or the rest of this week for that matter. :-S

Medical terminology is fun, though. I posted a Facebook status that pretty much sums it up:
"It's a shame medical stuff makes me so queasy 'cuz I find it so interesting and fascinating. I can't be a nurse 'cuz I'd prolly vomit. I can't be a doctor 'cuz I'd prolly vomit. I can't be a surgeon 'cuz I'd prolly vomit. Hell, I couldn't even be a dermatologist 'cuz I'd prolly vomit. That being said, I think I'm going to enjoy my medical terminology class... assuming it doesn't make me vomit."

That's what I'm up to in a nutshell.

I hope all ya'll are doing wonderful things for your September!

Cursory photo to keep things interesting:

The Majestic BooBoo

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WOLFKITTY 9/4/2013 11:32PM

    Ooooo.. Look out! :)


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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/4/2013 11:24AM

    Hi Friend!
You are right, it is not a start/stop thing...you got this! AND, you and I both know in past times we would have gained much more and delayed it, and not realized it is a lifestyle!
Good for you for setting up your plan/goals! Go for it...
Oh, I know how hard those classes can be...will say a prayer for you to get through them!
Do you think a tutor might come to your place to tutor? Just a thought! I know I would need a tutor! Wish I could get you a car...if I win big in the lotto...you got one!!!
BooBoo is so cute...who does he belong to?
Good Luck for a great September!
Love you...Hugs,

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SMILINGTREE 9/4/2013 11:10AM

    Have you looked [or an online tutor? Seems like there are some decent services out there...[or [ree! (the letter that comes between e and g on my keyboard died! I'm using the [ until a new keyboard arrives!)

Anyway, good plan. It's good to tackle the tougher part [irst. And you are right - it's a continuous thing, not a stop and start thing.

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DSHONEYC 9/3/2013 3:30PM

    emoticon It's another case of "been there, done that, got the T shirt". It happens to all of us and never fear you will get back on the plan. I'd bet the Medical Terminology class alone will help you "food wise"...see a donut, think .... you fill in the appropriate "vomit-visualizing word".

Seriously, Jill - emoticon

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    Sounds like an awesome plan, Jill! I know you can do it!!

I hope you find a way to class this week! ;) I'm so happy that I'll never have to take a chemistry class for the rest of my life!

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ROBBIEY 9/3/2013 2:37PM

  The plan to jump back in is excellent. I wish you all the luck and I am sure that you can starting losing weight again.

Good Luck!!! emoticon

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