JILLYBEAN25   22,976
SparkPoints
20,000-24,999 SparkPoints
 
 
JILLYBEAN25's Recent Blog Entries

If I sabotage my life any more, the CIA will have to arrest me

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Good Lord. I am on a downward spiral. In everything I've got to do.

I haven't gotten any exercise in in about two weeks. I have eated horribly. I haven't tracked anything- food, exercise, etc in even longer. I'm sure I'm way back over my start weight!

I have so much homework that I keep putting off. University is not the place to do that. I've gotten an F on one assignment so far. I've gotten a C on something I turned in late, but would have gotten a B if it had been on time. That is not like me. I'm an A and B student.

I haven't slept in two weeks.

I have so many "little" obligations to meet in the coming weeks. I can't seem to get my brain to seperate them into small, manageable tasks- I just keep seeing the bigger picture. I have to send my transcripts to a local community college for summer school, my wisdom teeth need to be removed- first I need to find a dentist and the money for copays, I have to go to summer school, I need to find a house for next year, I need to get and send my mom a Mother's Day gift, I have to work Friday afternoon, Saturday morning, I have another assignment to finish that was due YESTERDAY, and one that's due this Friday, next week I have to see a play for class, my friend is visiting this Saturday before she goes to Europe for 2 months... I'm going to stop there. All these tasks need to be accomplished in the next few weeks.

I'm slipping into shutdown mode. I'm trying not to, but this is difficult for me. I am feeling completely overwhelmed. OVER-WHELMED!!!

emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ERINBELLOWS1978 5/10/2008 11:10AM

    Jilly...honnie relax!! Take a deep breath!! You can do this!! It's time management. I know it seems like there is never enough time in the day, but you are such a strong person that you will get through this. Take one thing at a time. Make a list and prioritize it. List what's most important first and go from there. Do one thing at a time. You HAVE to go to class, you HAVE to go to work, and you HAVE to sleep. Inbetween just take a deep breath and jump in. Do one project at a time and focus only on that and as your list shrinks things will get better. Dont stress too much honnie. I know it seems like a lot, but you'll get through it. Keep posting and blogging. It's the best therapy!! Just write it out and a little of the stress comes out thru your fingers. I'll keep your fingers crossed for you kiddo!!

Erin

Report Inappropriate Comment
CASSIEKC 5/8/2008 9:11AM

    Hey hun ... one day at a time okay?

So the past two weeks weren't the greatest .. you can change that today! Dont be too hard on yourself .. school is stressful .. have a great thursday!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CLAUDIA1333 5/7/2008 11:39PM

    oh hun I so remember those days. Just remember to breathe! It sure sounds like your life in insane right now but it's ok. Do you have a daily planner? Maybe it would help if you actually sat down and wrote down everything you have to do and set a schedule for when to do it all (if you haven't already). College is really hard for those of us unlucky enough to have weight control issues but you will get through this and when you do you will continue farther on your path to better health! You can only do the best you can. Good luck!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ZMONEY 5/7/2008 4:10PM

    OMG I totally hear you :)

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SWEETZMIX 5/7/2008 3:48PM

    Hey Girl!!! Listen I know life gets sO crazy. I work full time, I go to school, I got other priorities, appointments...the whole nine. This is what I do:

I go lay down & rest when I feel like this. I lay down & think about what is truly important & prioritize. I sit there & say work is the most important because then I can't pay rent. Then I say school is next, & let me get on my game & take care of this work. I procrastinate a lot with school work, but I don't like bad grades either. I sacrifice going out & cooking & everything to make sure the assignment is due on time. I break down everything from there & try to remember school ends next week.

It's like I have to say to myself what is really important. I let people know this is going on & I am not free. About not sparking and doing all the good stuff. Go & get a good workout...it will help relive the stress. Then just start working out again when u can. As of today tell urself, I may not have time to work out but I am not going to keep eating this way. Make better choices & start tracking ur food.

I hope everything works our for u!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
KYRRDIS 5/7/2008 3:32PM

    I had to come look when I saw the title.

CRISIS INTERVENTION TECHNIQUE:

Stop. Clear your mind of EVERYTHING. If you must have a mental image, picture yourself on the beach. Take a deep breath. Take another deep breath. Do this until the buzzing in your mind stops.

Now, hear this: You will survive this time. Good results, bad results, it doesn't matter. You will survive this time, and in the grand scheme of your life and its cosmic meaning, it is only one tiny brilliant speck of stress.

Time will march on, and this crisis period will be over.

Now: Make a list of everything you need to do and put it into some sort of chronological order (happens on Monday, happens on Tuesday, etc.). Put it on paper or in your computer. Stop holding all these details in your mind at one time - this is part of the problem.

Picture your life as a ball of multicolored yarn. Instead of staring at the mess, pick one strand out at a time. You can only do one thing at a time. Focus on doing that one thing, then go to the next thing (check your list to find out what that is). Let go of what happened with the LAST thing you did. You need the brain space for NOW.

Finally: Make some time for sleeping. If you CANNOT sleep, and it's been two weeks, you need to see a doctor. Your sanity is more important than whether you get your wisdom teeth out right now.

I wish you luck and a better-behaving brain in the future. You will make it through this.

Report Inappropriate Comment


New Quarter, New Plan

Monday, March 31, 2008


Yup, that's me up there... using the fat kid's trick- the oldest one in the book- BAGGY CLOTHING! I'm too ashamed to post the one of me scarfing the s'more! Hahaha!!!

So, my plantar fasciitis was officially diagnosed by a medical professional. It's been difficult in the healing process. The best way to heal is to stay off your feet. Yeah, right! Like THAT'S gonna happen! I have stayed off them as much as possible.

That means having to modify my routine. I haven't gotten any kind of "real" exercise since being injured (and school has been a tremendous struggle all quarter), so now I've come up with a few new ways to get moving without straining my poor patas.

First, and this is the one I'm really excited for, I'm taking a swim aerobics class. This one comes straight from a suggestion by a wonderful, gracious member that commented on my last blog. I think she's correct in that swimming and staying in the water will reduce the strain on my arches. Plus, I know I'll get a swell workout! I go twice a week, and I have 2 swimming pools in my apartment complex.

Second, using the resources here at Sparkpeople, I've favorited some exercises that are geared for people to do sitting at their desk. If I can't be standing, then I can at least workout while sitting, right? It's at least a start until the tootsies heal completely. I've got to do something!

Thirdly, I need to be more diligent when it comes to eating better. I'm a major emotional eater and when I stress, I grab anything in sight. I've made a list, printed it out, and hung it on the wall of my guidelines. They are as follows:

"No More Fat Ass"

1) Exercise 3-4 times a week
* 30-40 mins. Cardio [Treadmill, elliptical, stairs, bicycle, etc]
* 2-3 days of hammer strength [work each muscle group]
* 2-3 days of circuit weights [work each muscle group]
* 2-3 days of core training [choose 3 exercises per day]
* 10 mins. of Stretching [stretch each muscle group worked]
* Explore new exercises: boxing, aerobics classes, walking in the ‘hood, etc.

2) Eat healthier meals
* Add more fruits and vegetables
* Add more whole grain
* Add soy products
* Add lean meats [fish, chicken, etc.]
* Reduce fats, red meats, salts, carbs, calories, etc.
* Take vitamins daily!

3) Make better choices
* Split the meals
* Choose Chicken!
* No fried foods!
* Drink water
* Don’t be lazy!
* Take the stairs
* Get adequate sleep

So, those, in addition to academic goals, are what I'm focusing on for the next 11 weeks. Healing feet, losing weight, and getting healthy in addition to good grades and quality work... I have quite a quarter ahead. I'm looking forward to [most] of it!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CLAUDIA1333 4/11/2008 1:23PM

    Wow, sounds like you've got a lot going on, but congrats on taking these steps while in school. I know how stressful being a college student, esp a theatre one can be and never had the energy or motivation to do anything more than stress about it along with the rest of college! lol. Sorry to hear about plantar fascitis, my aunt's had it and i can understand it's a huge pain!! It's really awesome that you took it as an opportunity to look into alternative exercises instead of a reason to give up. Your goals for the rest of the quarter are looking good! Good luck!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LORENE1955 4/7/2008 9:54PM

    You know - I'm prone to things like plantar fascitis, too. I'm also having a pretty strong flare up of my fibromyalgia symptoms right now. I try to do EVERYTHING intuitively - and I visualize what I want a lot. I find that sometimes just doing ANYTHING beats the heck out of doing nothing - so even though I might not be working myself really hard - I'll get out and just go for a stroll, maybe. Being out in the sun and moving around helps me to feel better and release some of my blues - and pumps me up emotionally and mentally enough for me to keep up with my program.

I think you've set some real concrete, realistic goals for yourself.

See you thinner!

Lorene

PS - I lived in San Diego for 26 years - I just love it there and miss it SOOOO much! Enjoy the beach! It's a wonderful place to keep yourself moving. I walked on it as much as I could when I lived there.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPRING4FAL 3/31/2008 8:30PM

    Congrats on turning over a new leaf. Your goals are great and "do-able." I hope that this leads to success and once you get a taste of it, it is very motivational and you will want to keep going!!! Eating is EVERYTHING when you can't workout like you want to. Way to go!!
Leah

Report Inappropriate Comment


Plantar Fasciitis

Friday, February 22, 2008


Man, just when I'm getting back into the groove of things...

My feet revolt.

I've been "unofficially" diagnosed (by my trainer, waiting for doctor appointment) as having plantar fasciitis (heel spurs). What a painful journey its been! I've been having problems with my feets for more than a month, but as is common to college students, I tried the 'ignore technique' first. And it has come back with a vengeance in a bad way!!!

The pain/discomfort is constant. I feel like an invalid. My school's campus is all hills and my classes are miles apart from each other... or so it seems. I have to be on my feet for 6 hour stretches at work. My friends try to drive me around as much as possible. What did I do to my feet to make them do this???

How does one maintain an exercise routine and weight loss journey/ lifestyle change when one can hardly walk? I am so despondent. This is a worse setback than that dumb cold I caught a while back.

Much weeping is had.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ANEWCARI 7/27/2008 12:59PM

    I know EXACTLY how you feel. When I was in the Basic Training for the US Army I was diagnosed with plantar fasciitis. I know how painful it is! And the worse thing was that I COULDN'T stop exercising, still had to march, still had to run 2 miles every other day, and still had to pass my Physical Testing. I passed, (running 2 miles in under 18 minutes) with plantar fasciitis, bronchitis, TWO broken legs (3 stress fractures combined), shin splints and a whole other array of problems! If I can do it, YOU can do it! emoticon Keep your head up it could be way worse! You could have no feet at all!!!

-Cari

Report Inappropriate Comment
WOLFKITTY 4/20/2008 5:05AM

    Oh my gosh, I think I have this! About a week ago my arch started hurting down toward my heel, plus I often have foot pain first thing in the morning - that's been going on for a few years. Guess I'll have the doctor check it out. I'm glad I came across your blog.

I hope you've gotten treatment and feel better! Anyway, I just looked it up on Spark A-Z.

"The outlook is excellent for most people with plantar fasciitis. At least 90% of patients respond either to the first six to eight weeks of conservative therapy or to conservative therapy followed by six to eight weeks of wearing night splints. "

Report Inappropriate Comment
MAINEROCKS 2/22/2008 4:13PM

    Oh no! I had that once and it is PAINFUL! Eek! So sorry for you. :-( Does your campus have a pool? I think swimming would be great exercise without the strain. Also, you can try to do a lot of ab, butt, and leg stuff that you can do lying on the floor. SP has two good videos (in my favorites) and you could probably find some more. Can you borrow someone's bike? That would make getting around campus easier and alos easier on your feet. Bkiking at the gym might work too without bothering it? Hope you heal soon!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Setback Already

Friday, January 25, 2008


I technically started my weight loss/nutrition/lifestyle changes two weeks ago. I started at 196lbs, and am down to 187lbs. I've been eating better and making sure to get in my cardio and follow my trainer's instructions as best I can.

I had a big setback, though. It's unfortunate that it was mostly out of my control. I woke up on Wednesday at the time I normally begin my day with a migraine. It was the worst migraine I've had in 2 years. I could not stand up, I could not have bright light or loud noise, and I could most definitely not make it out of the house to class and work. I called in sick and emailed my professors and TA's. I spent the day in bed, trying to stay hydrated. My stomach was upset, so I ate very little. Medications didn't start helping until well into the evening.

Ever since then, I've had absolutely NO energy. None, zero, zip, nada, zilch... I'm not tired. I don't feel sleepy- I feel drained. Malnurished maybe. But, I definitely haven't the energy to walk to school or around campus, let alone get in my normal workout. I'm so discouraged! I can't get myself up and moving without feeling what energy I have leave my body. I expected to feel weak and tired on Thursday, just as a recovery time from such a bad, soul-sucking migraine. But, it's Friday and I still feel drained. Most discouraged and angry.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ANEWCARI 7/27/2008 1:02PM

    I know how this feels too, sometimes when i go hiking, it sets of a migraine (I think from the heat) and I get laid up in bed for TWO whole days! It feels like you have bricks tied to your limbs!!! Fortunately I figured out WHY I was getting them and fortunately you hardly ever get them! Drink lots of fluids, and eat healthy foods and hopefully you will recover quickly! emoticon

-Cari

Report Inappropriate Comment
JILLYBEAN25 1/29/2008 1:26AM

    Apparently I was waiting to catch a cold. A good one, with a fever, stuffy sinuses, body ache, and sleeplessness. :-(

Report Inappropriate Comment
GETTO140 1/25/2008 7:36PM

    Hello, Jillybean25. I noticed your blog. Perhaps you are not eating enough for the amount of exercise you are doing these days. There are some great articles about that if you look under the tabs "Healthy Lifestyle" and"your Health" about things like what you described. Or maybe you might need to see a physician to have a check up...make sure you are all right. Let me know how you make out..Jan

Report Inappropriate Comment


First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37