Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Anyone who knows me, or has spent time with me, knows more than anything I want to be a Grandma. Iím old enough. My son, John is 26. My stepson, Jake is 22. They are old enough. John has a good job; owns his own home; has no girlfriend he works to much for that. Jake, ah Jake, not quite so readyÖ.so of course its Jake that tells his father that his ex-girlfriend might be pregnant.
Hallelujah right? Not so fast. I did say ďex-girlfriendĒ. Yet she says she wants Jake to be in her life; she wants to get married; raise the baby as a family. Jake? No job, no home, no want to have either. Jake is, well nicely put, a flake. You hang around Jake a little while and you want nothing more than to be away from him. This girl just hasnít been around enough yet.
Iím sad since I realize I wonít get a chance to be anything in this childís life not matter what I want. I already know and accept this no matter how much I hate it.
Iím so sad.