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Sunday, August 29, 2010

Why am I at work today? WHY???? Its Sunday. I'm not scheduled to work Sunday's. I've been here since 10 am!


Its Friday

Friday, August 27, 2010

I dislike Fridays. At least until 2:30 pm when I get off work. Fridays mean timecards. I've been on this job 7 years. Timecards are due every Friday. Every Friday timecards are like pulling teeth. Why? Its the same timecard every Friday day. Some of these folks have been here longer than me and still can't fill out a timecard right. GRRRR.

This morning John calls me at 5:40 am. He slipped in the bathroom and tore his knee! My hubby, who is unemployed, took him to emergency. I'm hoping for the best for him but realize he will probably get the worst.

My other son Jake came over yesterday and told us to expect twins. Ain't that great? No job, no home, no money and now add to the burden with not one child but two??? Still I have decided that I am excited and going to try to be as involved as the soon to be mother will let me be. Baby shower anyone?



Soon to be Grandma but notÖ.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Anyone who knows me, or has spent time with me, knows more than anything I want to be a Grandma. Iím old enough. My son, John is 26. My stepson, Jake is 22. They are old enough. John has a good job; owns his own home; has no girlfriend he works to much for that. Jake, ah Jake, not quite so readyÖ.so of course its Jake that tells his father that his ex-girlfriend might be pregnant.

Hallelujah right? Not so fast. I did say ďex-girlfriendĒ. Yet she says she wants Jake to be in her life; she wants to get married; raise the baby as a family. Jake? No job, no home, no want to have either. Jake is, well nicely put, a flake. You hang around Jake a little while and you want nothing more than to be away from him. This girl just hasnít been around enough yet.

Iím sad since I realize I wonít get a chance to be anything in this childís life not matter what I want. I already know and accept this no matter how much I hate it.

Iím so sad.


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MUSTANG_SALLY2 8/27/2010 12:56PM

    This very thing happened to my brother. The couple is not married and his son is not playing an active roll in the child's life but my brother is. He has made a relationship with the mother and the granddaughter comes with the package. Not sure if that would work for you but I too want grandbabies. Not sure how that will happen since I only have furbabies and they are all "fixed" but hey, a girl's gotta dream.

Hang in there. I'm thinking of you!


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SUNNYWBL 8/25/2010 6:42PM

    I have two grandsons, both of whom sired children and 2 darling great grand baby girls were born. I went out west to visit even though I had serious doubts.............

The boys didn't stay with the baby-mommas ( or vice versa) for very long, sad to say. I see their photos on FB sometimes...... Not what I hoped being a great-grandmom would be like! emoticon

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ROSEREDD58 8/25/2010 6:16PM

    Jake sounds like someone I know. His girlfriend,married twice, not yet divorced,both staying at his mom's house. She got pregnant. 2 weeks before birth he got appartment, did all moving and setup with lots of family help, and brought home a beautiful baby boy. My friend is there for all the emotional suupport they need and has offered to babysit whenever possible. This has made a major improvement in her outlook on being a gramma and has shown them she is there, but not controlling. Good luck and I hope all works out for you. emoticon emoticonTammy

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DEBBIEKAY1 8/25/2010 1:40PM

    emoticonthat you are sad but you never know what the future holds
keep your chin up and your heart open It takes a village to raise one child!
God Bless

Hugs Debbie

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Fresh start

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

After a year of trying to maintain my weight loss, and not doing such a great job of it as I suck at maintenance (I've gained 20 pounds) I have decided to make today, 24 August 2010, the day I start again. I plan to lose the weight I gained and an additional 10 pounds. I'm thinking of adding Zumba to my walking routine. I don't ever want to see a 2 in front of my weight again and I'm scared if I don't do this now I will be back in the 200s.
Wish me luck.

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SUNNYWBL 8/25/2010 11:36AM

    Good for you! Just remember - little baby steps get the job done! emoticon

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 8/25/2010 8:54AM

    Sounds like a great plan. I've been reading a lot about Zumba and would love to try it. All I've read says that it's lots of fun and is a great workout. Let me know what you think of it please.


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SWEETLIPS 8/24/2010 11:12AM

    I send you joy, peace and strength for your journey. Be gentle with youself, enjoy Zumba and make it work the way it is best for you. You will stay in Onederland, because you want to- emoticon

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I'm not angry

Monday, August 23, 2010

I just re-read a few of my latest blogs. I think I sound so upset and angry at my life. That ainít so! I write most of my blogs without any emotion at all. Well the RANT blog was emotional, but by far most of Ďem are just whatís going on. A state of my life.

My ďunemployment ran outĒ blog. Truthfully Iíve always been broke. Living on less isnít as hard for me as most folks since its all Iíve ever known. Its been said so many times that I can squeeze a penny and get a quarter to pop out. I hate not having a buck in my pocket but I am use to it. Wonít change any time soon.

My ď81 year old motherĒ blog. She wonít talk to me. I have asked and been told to mind my own business so many times that I laugh when Iím told talk to her. Ainít happening. Best I can do is keep quiet and listen if and when she gives me any insight into her life. Big sigh, but again itís the way it is in my life. Wonít change until she wants it to change.

As for meÖI go to work every day. I come home. I walk. I count my calories. I complain about what I canít buy. I donít want much because I want what I already have. Another paycheck, winning the lottery, or a huge fat windfall would make my life easier, not better. Just like losing weight didnít change anything. Having money wonít either.


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