Friday, August 26, 2011
I've been trying to Lose a Significant Amount of Weight since I joined Spark in 2010. At first I was really motivated and rapidly lost 15#s and was so excited that my Goal was to Lose 60#s by the end of the Year. Well, 2011 came and due to my unhealthy Choices and Inconsistent Exercising I wasn't even close to that WL when I "rang" in the New Year of 2011.
I was Discouraged but Never Thought of Giving Up as I guess I thought by just Sparking and having Good Intentions I would lose the weight by "Magic" and Wishing It Away. Well, I'm no Princess and this isn't a Fairy Tale so my Only wanting it and not working hard towards my goals I was only down 20#s after a whole year of Sparking. I was very unhappy with myself and my lack of Determination, Willpower and Choices. I was actually embarrassed that friends might be critical of the fact that my Weight Ticker was stuck for many months and never moved. As, I was always telling them, You Can Do It and Make Healthy Choices even if I wasn't following my own advice.
Then a few months ago one of my Spark Friends asked me to be her Accountable Buddy. I was game even though I doubted it would help me with my "Stuck in the Mud" attitude. Since then, after every meal we report what we ate and how many calories and it's surprising how that makes you think before you put something unhealthy and high calorie in your mouth. The Goal is to stay within my calorie range every day and give each other helpful suggestions and comments.
The first month I plodded along even though my Accountable Buddy was doing well and she gave me great suggestions and comments on my excess eating and lack of exercise. She is a very Smart and Determined Lady and slowly I stopped "Yo Yoing" or gaining 3 pounds one week only to Lose 2 or 3 pounds the next hence I was in a Standstill with no WL progress. It was around that same time that I had a "lightbulb" moment and realized she seemed to want it for me more than I did! I realized no one but me could make this WL happen but me! I was only hurting myself if I didn't make those necessary choices and changes.
So, I have a much Healthier Mindset and realize a significant WL will happen for me if I keep on making healthy food choices in proper portions and exercise. I've Lost 7#s this Month so I'm "Happy Dancing". . .and will Continue to until I reach my WL Goal of Losing 100#s. I only have to drop 1 more pound to have lost 10% of my Starting Weight!
I so Appreciate my Accountable Buddy and have grown to Love Her Like a Sister. She gave me hope and encouragement and seems to love me Unconditionally. I'll forever be grateful for her. If it wasn't for her and her great idea I hate to think where I would be with the Unhealthy mindset I had. So Don't give up on yourself as there is always hope. . . and with God's Help may we all work hard towards our WL Goals!!
Love & Hugs,
Monday, July 18, 2011
Recently, due to my not focusing on my goals and some upsetting things in my life I'm not as determined and motivated as I want/need to be to get this weight off and get healthy! I think of myself as a positive person but recent things in my life have me even questioning that about myself.
Over the last couple of months or longer all I've been doing is losing then regaining the same few pounds so I'm mad at myself about that. As, I have all the resources right here on SP, read lots of blogs and articles and find myself wondering why this Journey to get Healthy and Fit has been so hard for me to do. I don't seem to have the Spark like I even did a month ago! I'm happy for my Sp friends who in a year or less take off a significant amount of weight but at the same time it makes me wonder why is it I seem unable to do what is necessary, ie, eat well within my calorie range and exercise more to have WL success myself.
I do track my food and do well until hours after dinner when I get hungry--I know I can't be really hungry as I've eaten a full days worth of calories. It's more of an emotional hunger that I can't get a handle on and it's gotten worse recently. Recently, I did join a small Team that deals with this very issue so I'm praying that it helps me get back on Track.
Being morbidly obese like I am has so many negative health consequences and would be greatly helped by losing weight and exercising. So, when I have all this good information why do I sabotage myself almost every day?? I'm really not sure--maybe I need a Shrink!!
When one of my Teams had a 3 week Exercise Challenge of exercising 30 minutes a day I was so motivated and hardly missed a day of exercising. I even noticed I had more energy and didn't even need my afternoon naps. So, I can't understand why I make so many excuses for myself not to exercise now when I know it makes me feel better both physically and mentally. Do any of you have this problem?
So, today I'm going to take the time to re-evaluate my Sp goals and maybe change or tweak some. What I'm doing is not working well for me so I need to look deep within myself for some answers. I'm also going to re-read the book, The Spark, as it really helped motivate me and make me more determined to get Healthy
I love and enjoy all the wonderful friends I've made on SP--and wouldn't give any of them up as they do support and encourage me. Overall, the biggest success of Sparking for me is my friends and I do feel connected to them as we're all alot alike in wanting to get healthy and more active. Thanks to Sparking and feeling connected to a wonderful Community I am happier than I was before I discovered Spark so that is great success as happiness can't be bought.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
I've been at a Weight Loss Standstill for way too long and I read an article on MSN called "The Golden Rules of Weight Loss" and most of them I'm not consistently doing! I believe most, if not all, are part of the SP Plan but maybe I'm more open to implement them in my quest to get at a healthy weight. I have lost 24#s which is a start but a far cry from the over 100#s I still need and want to lose. Maybe what shocked me into fine-tuning my strategy, besides the standstill, is the fact that according to my age (64) and my height (5'8") my BMI should fall between 18.5 to 24.9 and OMG mmy BMI is a shocking, to me at least, 41.4--way, way off the Chart! So Here it goes:
1. Write everything down you eat. Well, I want to say I do this religiously but then I think I don't always count those bites or sips, usually late at night. Every day in my Journal I'm going to rate how Healthy I ate that day--1- being an unhealthy day up to 5 for a Super Healthy Day.
2. Measure what you Eat! For some reason this is a hard one for me. I have all the tools to do that--even bought measured bowls to try to help but usually don't use them. I still want to "eyeball" my portions but if I'm honest I think I under estimate the quantity of the foods I eat. As when I do measure, say cereal, and a 1/2 cup is a serving, I'm shocked at how little that amount is. So I'm setting all all the measuring cups, bowls, etc. and dusting off my digital food scale which I bought but only used a few times.
3. Beef Up Your Protein - I'm going to try to spread my Protein throughout the day as it helps keep me satisfied as it takes longer to digest. Right now I'd have to say I eat most of my Protein for the day at dinner--so that needs to change.
4. Add Color To Every Meal - I'm going to increase the colorful fruits & veggies I now eat and try some new ones! I love all fruit but unfortunately there are some really healthy veggies that I've never learned to like so I need to re-introduce some green and yellow veggies and hopefully I will now like them.
5. Stop Grazing - Awhile back there were quite a few articles on how eating 6 or more small meals are better than the 3 a day, with 1 or 2 healthy snacks. But, A Study in the 2010 Obesity Journal found that people who ate 3 meals a day and a healthy snack or two lost more weight than the ones who ate the 6 or more mini-meals a day. This article said the reason is when you are always eating it increases the salivary secretion and the production of digestive enzymes and that stimulates your appetite. I'm going to stick with the 3 meals and a snack or two throughout the day. People with the 6 mini-meals or more can't really tell if they are hungry or not, so the Study says.
6. Always Have a Plan - I haven't been doing meal planning like I know I should. So, every Saturday I'm going to plan out my Healthy meals for the week and that way I won't be stressing out about what to fix, especially for dinner, and I can shop more Healthy and Economically.
7. Slow Down Eating - I'll bet, most of the time, I wolf my meals down in about 5-7 minutes. I've, unfortunately, always eaten quickly. I plan on slowing way down and making my meals take 15-20 minutes. For lunch and dinner I'm going to have a salad for my main course and learn to chew and savor my food instead of inhaling it. Maybe that's why both of my Sisters are slim as they eat very slowly. Studies have shown that people who eat quickly until full are more than 3 times as likey to be overweight than people who take their time and eat slowly. This will be hard one but I believe I can Do This!
8. Do Not Rush Weight Loss - Hey, I'm sure not guilty of this one as I've been on this quest to lose weight longer than I care to mention. But for you Newbies, it says it takes at least 3 months to learn to plan, shop healthy and read labels--I guess where it becomes a habit. Needless to say, I'm on the "late Train" on this one. I have learned not to give up when I have that extra cookie I just take those 2 steps forward as I'll never quit trying to get healthy.
I would add that I think Exercising and Sparking also really help with Weight Loss. I'm getting back to exercising and I always love the encouragement and support I get from SP friends--You are the Best Motivators to Me!
Monday, March 28, 2011
I didn't really become obese until about 15 years ago when I was going through my divorce after 26 years of marriage to my college sweetheart . . .It was the beginning of a slow weight gain due to not really caring about myself anymore (depressed) and falling into really bad unhealthy habits. It was the first divorce in my family and I didn't find much comfort or support from my Mom and Sisters and I sure could have used some. They made me feel like I was less of a person being single and unattached plus I had three teenage sons to fully support as their Dad hadn't worked the last 10 years of our marriage. . .
I wasn't really slim even 15 years ago but weighed about 170#s but being tall I think I still looked pretty good in clothes and I then I didn't have any healthy problems and could get around well. For one of my sons college graduations I had to walk the length of a couple of football fields and I sure didn't have a problem doing that. But, now I wouldn't even try doing that as it would be so hard doing with a walker, huffing and puffing the whole way. . .plus my back and knees would be killing me and I'd have to sit down every couple steps or two . . .
Today I weigh 273# and that is after a 21# weight loss with SP. Yes, I was and am not very far from the dreaded 300# mark.
Before I retired, due to poor health, at age 61 I worked for 25 years for the City's Recreation Department and with my weigh gain I must have weighed around 250# then. . .I would always get embarrassed and hate it when they had to take my picture for our Quarterly Recreation Classes Brochure as I sure didn't look like I had taken any of the wonderful exercise or activity classes we offered--I was morbidly obese by then and didn't look nor could I participate in many of the exercise classes as before I retired I was barely getting around with a cane. . .my walker came later.
While working, I would get up around 5:30 am and Diet Pepsi started out my day with usually no breakfast. I would come home for lunch as my office was only 5 minutes away and drink more Diet Pepsi and not eat. I usually got home at night around 6 pm and was ravenous and would start eating all the junk food I could stuff in my mouth as I was so hungry and couldn't wait until I prepared dinner. I would eat a huge dinner and within a couple of hours I would go to bed often with an unhealthy snack in hand. I drank Diet Pepsi's all day long . . . My only exercise was doing housework and walking around the grocery stores or good old Target. . .I was a couch potato for sure and it showed!
When I retired I was up to 260#s and by that time I had two bad knees, a weak back, diabetes, and a slew of other medical problems. I looked puffy and fat and really got so I didn't really care about keeping myself up anymore--and to think I was the one that used to not go outside without makeup on and my hair combed in case a neighbor might see me. I now wear shifts and loose dresses thinking maybe it hides some of my fat but there is no disguising it when you weigh almost 300#s!
As a result of becoming morbidly obese I go around the house in a walker as my back and knees are both bad and it throws off my balance and I can't stand long unaided. If I'm going out for a short time with a friend and I know it won't involve me taking steps or stairs I usually can manage going with my pronged cane. I have turned down lots of invitations to go somewhere because I'm scared that there will be too much walking involved or steps/stairs that I'm afraid to even try. This is definitely not the retirement I looked forward to. . .I imagined myself taking exercise classes such as Yoga or Tai Chi and going on lots of great Senior Trips. . .Now, it's just easier and safer for me to stay at home--at least that seems to be my mental attitude now.
I do feel older than I am as I'm not enjoying life nearly as much as I could. I'm missing out on so many things. . .When my sweet 2 year old Grandson takes my hand and wants me to play on the floor with him I can't--as I know I couldn't get up again. When he was a baby I couldn't walk around with him in my arms and I longed to be able to do that! I want to be healthy to do things I haven't been able to do in too many years . . .
I would think my sons would be concerned about my weight but they never say a word to me about it. I know they want me around as long as possible so they must pray for me to get healthier and slimmer. . .My oldest son, age 37, is disabled and I feel very guilty thinking about possibly not being here for him as long as I want to be. Nowadays he helps me as much as I help him. . .I depend upon him to help me do things around the house . . .
I am responsible for my weight gain and know there are no excuses for gaining all the weight as it is my fault--no one force feed me but me. . .Now it's up to me to make healthy choices every day to be the best and healthiest me I can be . . .Being fat is no fun and it could kill me!
I am so glad I accidentally found SparkPeople. Even though my weight loss is slow and a work in progress I'm finally doing something about it. I usually stay pretty close to my calorie range but my weak area is doing exercise and I know it would make me more mobile and speed up my weight loss. So, that is my goal to join the 10 minute a day exercise Team and do that much and more. I do want to be a success story and get the life I dreamed about . . .It's Up to Me Now but I know I'm on the right track and will be successful--I just have to be patient--it took me 15 years to gain all this weight but I know it'll take me a fraction of that time to lose it all.
I sure appreciate all your support and the motivation you give me. I thank the wonderful and inspiring and dedicated Team Leaders--You are doing a great job! So, it's my turn now to meet these Challenges Head On and Be the Best and Healthiest Me I Can Be!
Hugs to All,
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