Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Thanksgiving was spent with my sons, DIL, and grandson and we all talked and had a good mid-day Brunch. I did well eating within my calorie range and I did track my food intake. My DIL made my day as she told me I looked like I had lost weight. When, they left I couldn't convince them to take home any of the many leftover desserts. So, guess who's been snacking and eating them, too ashamed to even track the calories--ME, that's who.
My DIL had made a good pumpkin pie, which we were too full to have and I had made a big fruit trifle and a double batch of my favorite banana chocolate chip muffins . . .Well, I've just about polished all of them off. I haven't had any willpower. I usually don't buy any desserts for the reason that I can't leave them alone. I should have thrown them out but I grew up in the late 40's and 50's and grew up having to eat everything on my plate. My Mom used to say, "what about all those starving children in China"? So, I guess I grew up associating food with love and throwing food away was almost a "sin". Hindsight is wonderful, if I could go back to Thanksgiving I would have given my leftover desserts to neighbors, etc.
Now, I'm afraid to even weigh myself. I haven't weighed in about 3 weeks and won't until I once again get my eating under control. I wonder if maybe I'm one of those people that "hide" behind their fat. , ,
Also, I'm leaving Thursday for a 3 night get-away with 3 of my girlfriends--and they all love to eat. . .We'll have a kitchen there so will do some cooking but I know I'll have challenges when we eat out. In the back of my mind, I remember always gaining a few pounds when I'm on vacation even if this is a mini-vacation.
For reading material I'm going to bring a copy of the book, The Sparks, and re-read it again from cover to cover as I won't have access to a computer there. I will bring my pedometer and do as many steps there as I can. I'm also going to review and re-do all my goals. . .I'm going to make this trip as healthy as I can. I hope being away for a few days will help me get on track again. I love SP and all the helpful great friends I have made. I know I can and need to do this for me and there is no time like the present. I need to re-commit to the Spark way of healthy eating and exercise. And, if there are any Christmas brunch leftovers, especially desserts, I know what to do with them . . .
Friday, November 19, 2010
Honestly, I can't believe how many things I have to be grateful for. . .
My rugs throughout my house were really in bad shape. I have hardwood floors underneath so I was hoping to have them refinished. But, found out they were in too bad of shape and needed to be replaced. Well, for various reasons, I decided to put ceramic tile floors in throughout my house (not kitchen). I decided on tile because my son knew of 2 out of work tile guys that would do the job very reasonably and expertly. They said it would take about two weeks--well it ended up being almost 4 weeks--but it was worth it. I feel grateful that my son and his father-in-law took care of getting the tiles and materials and even brought me samples so I could pick out what I liked. The 2 workers were extremely nice and did an expert job of installing everything for a fraction of what a Construction Co. would have cost me. I'm grateful because all of my sons helped in moving things, sorting through things and when they were doing each of our bedrooms we all had a turn sleeping in the living room as all our furniture was put there while they worked for days on each bedroom--and all were good "sports" about it! All my sons really showed me how much they cared about me and our house--and I'm so grateful that I have them in my life.
I also realize that in these tough economic times, I am really grateful that I could have new floors put in . . .I have been saving for a long time, but a lot of people unfortunately have nothing to save. . .I thank God every day for my blessings. . .I am so grateful that I have my retirement income that so far has covered our expenses. We have plenty of food to eat--in fact too much, most of the time.
I am so grateful that I once again have a good working computer and can get on SP almost any time of day I want. I did miss my daily SP time and friends. I am so grateful that SP is affordable to anyone who has the desire to get healthy--and has access to a computer.
The workers are now gone and it is so good to get back to my daily routines. I spent 90% of my time at home and now it reflects more of the person I am and want to be. I realize more than ever what a great family I have and I am grateful for every one of them. I am also grateful for every one of you--my Spark Friends--I did miss each one of you. I am also grateful that my new tile floors turned out so beautiful and didn't cost nearly as much as they normally would have. I do have problems and concerns like everyone else but I realize the good far outweighs the bad in my life and for that I'm grateful.
Monday, November 08, 2010
My name is Jill and I don't exercise like I might have said I did. I am really embarrassed to admit it and even I don't understand why I don't. It's not as if I don't have exercise DVDs--I do--even some new ones I ordered and have never even tried. So, what is wrong with me?
It's true that it's a bummer having to exercise sitting down as I can't stand long enough to do regular exercises. But, other Sparkers exercise that way and I don't hear them complaining about it. Is it that I am lazy? And, with all the motivational blogs I've read you'd think I'd get right in there and do my thing--but do I, NO I don't. Years ago when I was 100+ pounds less for many years I took aerobics dance classes and loved them. I also used to work out with the my Richard Simmons Exercise Videos--they were so much fun!! Heck, as a kid, I used to exercise right a long with Jack LaLanne.
I know not exercising has to be the main reason my weight loss is stuck at 13#s as I'm usually within my calorie range for the day--well, the high of it. I get around in my house with a walker and don't burn many calories that way--and I sit around the house--mainly reading or on the computer and you don't burn many calories that way. What I need to do is get off my big butt and start to Move, Move, Move like Marsha says. I've reread Sheila and Joanie's blogs regarding their exercise routines and I get motivated and say to myself I can do that--but do I? No, I don't. Do I need to be in therapy to find out what the reason is? I want so much to be healthy and not drag all this weight around so why don't I start to exercise? I will admit right now they are set to start tomorrow to install new flooring in my living room where my TV, DVD and computer all are. So, I really won't have access to a visual to exercise with--but I certainly could march or dance sitting down or do leg lifts in bed, etc. I need to get off my duff to start losing weight again SOS, can any of you Sparkers diagnose or help me solve being allergic to exercise like I seem to be? I appreciate any and all suggestions as I need help and I feel myself sinking in to staying the way I am and don't want to be and that thought truly scares me--mainly for health and mobility reasons. Thanking you in advance of any suggestions you can give me!!
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
Tomorrow morning, before I eat and get dressed I am going to weight myself as haven't done that in well over a week. I've ben sick for over a week so haven't exercised but haven't eaten too much either. . .Today is actually the first day since a week ago last Saturday that I almost feel like myself again.
I hope to have dropped a pound or two and that will motivate me to try harder now that I feel better. When I was so sick I really didn't care too much as felt nauseated just thinking about food and exercising. I haven't been sick like that in years--and I am grateful for that.
On top of being sick, I'm having new floor tile put in all rooms in my house except the kitchen and laundry. So from about 9:30 am to 6:00 pm it is very noisy here with tile cutting, hammering and all the noise they make. They worked all last week, when I was so sick, and they started first in my bedroom. All my mismatched bedroom furniture and junk went into the living room and that's where I slept all week.
Today, they put most of my bedroom furniture back into my newly tiled floor and I couldn't bear to let them put a couple of pieces of furniture back as they are so shabby and I need to give them to Salvation Army, etc. I also told them to leave the bags of clothes and junk in the living room and I will be going through it. I barely started looking at all the bagged items but already I found a new really nice wallet that I had bought over a year ago and never used--I actually forgot about it. I wish I was more organized, but somehow that just isn't me. . . Again, I need to sort through all my bagged clothes and stop saving them and just give them away to others that need them.
Tomorrow they are starting my son's bedroom. They have already taken out all the carpet but for the next day or two they will be preparing it to lay down the new tile. Then they have another bedroom to do and will finish up with the living room/dining room and long hall. I hate having people work in my house but they are very polite and neat and come on time every day. They always answer my questions with knowledge and understanding. So, I consider myself lucky to have them recommended by a good friend.
My house is going to look so much nicer when this tile installation is over and I can get back my normal quiet life. The floors, so far, do look beautiful . . .and I can't wait until it's all installed. They had estimated it would take them 2 weeks to do my entire house--well it looks like it's going to take twice that long at the rate they are going!!
Getting back to my weight. . .I hope I'm down a pound or two . . .as that would so encourage me. I need to try harder to exercise every day--that definitely is a must and my weak area. I know it would help speed up my weight loss. Life is good and I'm thinking positive especially now that I feel better!! Success in healthy eating/ living is my main goal and it is doable with friends and SP!!
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