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Thursday, May 02, 2013

I received a Sparkgoodie from one of my Sparkfriends earlier in the week wondering how I have been doing.

So, to update any who might be wondering...

August 2012 - stomach issues landed me with a colonoscopy...came back clear, though I am now on the 5 year program.
Fall 2012 - Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. She had a lumpectomy, then a mastectomy. She is on a pill treatment that lasts....the next 5 years...I think. She is doing well with that. She is also in therapy, and finally dealing with the grief from my dad's death a few years back.
January 2013 - Back to the doctor, stomach still not feeling well...gall bladder, it turns out! I had it removed in February, and then came down with a lovely case of C. diff. After a 3 week antibiotic course, that is much better.
Late February 2013 - my bum ticker ended me up in the ER, though my symptoms disappeared before they could get me on the EKG. My cardiologist put me on a one month monitor, which recorded some PVC's (early heartbeats, which we knew I had), and SupraVentricular Tachycardia....that is most likely what I was feeling when in the ER. Now I will be seeing a Cardiac Electrophysiologist. While in the ER, the X-Ray showed...something?? They wanted me to check back with my doc in 3 months, but he and I decided to check again in a month. My follow up X-Ray was Monday, waiting on results.
April 2013 - My mom has been scheduled to have her gall bladder removed in May.

So, the struggles continue. I'm not crazy about my late 30s right now, and have been dealing with anxiety and depression to boot. I feel like I'm in a stall, just waiting to see what the docs will determine.

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ENLIGHTENED7 5/9/2013 12:13PM

  I have been thinking of you and little Mira (and your mom too) a lot these past few months. I'm SOOOOO sorry to hear that you have been going through all these struggles. I certainly can empathize, as I have had a lot of my own (with the HOCM).

You are young and beautiful and, I am sure, with wonderful medical help, you will be back to your old self in due time.

Hang in there! It will start to look up, I'm sure. emoticon

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JEZEBELSK 5/6/2013 1:16PM

    Mira is doing ok -- though we are in potty training mode. That is making me want to pull my hair out! LOL

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JAXMOMMY 5/5/2013 4:47PM

    Hi! I too am struggling with the anxiety and depression right now! How is your little girl? I hope the test results are all OK. Keep us posted!

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KING_SLAYER 5/2/2013 8:58PM

    If there is an upside to all of this it would be that going through all of these things now means that maybe your 40's will be a breeze!

I hope you and your Dr. get your issues worked out so that you can at least feel normal and not have to worry so much about your health.

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JEZEBELSK 5/2/2013 5:41PM

    Unfortunately, until I can get my heart issue straightened out, cardio is out of the question, and I have to be careful about my strength training, too. It's frustrating and depressing!

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FUSIONFITNESS3 5/2/2013 4:59PM

    You've certainly had your challenges these past months. When life's challenges fall our way it's so easy to be side tracked and fall off the wagon. Hope your finding some strength to be able to continue to work on your healthy life style. You are worth it. The steps don't have to be huge but each one counts. Do it for yourself.

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On Hiatus

Monday, November 12, 2012

I just wanted to give my friends and teammates from SP a little heads-up on life for me right now. I already notified my team leaders, but I hate to disappear without saying a little something.

First of all, I have been sick. I've had a bug that has held on for 4+ weeks, a first for me. My ENT said it was a virus, and I should drink lots of fluids and stop talking. 3 weeks later, still sick. So, I went to the Minute Clinic. The Nurse Practitioner didn't see any signs of infection, but felt sorry for my and gave me a round of antibiotics, plus recommended that I take some allergy pills - doing both, hoping for recovery. In light of all the sickness, my fitness routine has disappeared. I just can't workout if I can't breathe.

But, that, unfortunately, is not all for me.

My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in October. She had a lumpectomy on Halloween, which was to be followed with radiation and possibly some chemo. The results from the lumpectomy showed multiple microscopic tumors throughout the breast, something none of us expected, even her doctor. So, she has to have a mastectomy the week after Thanksgiving. This is to be followed with chemo and radiation. Her health isn't the best to begin with, so I am quite concerned for her. I am grateful that, considering the small size of the tumors, she was able to detect anything through self examination.

So, I am just not with it. Between being sick and run down, and concern over my mom's health, I just don't have the energy to throw into SP right now. I will still be lurking, so you may see me around.

As I said, I have notified team leaders so they know what is going on, and I have left a few teams. I have gone into 'Sick Bay' on my BLC team, but will faithfully weigh in every Wednesday. Other than that, I will do what I can, when I can. In the meantime, I will attempt to make lemonade out of this big truckload of lemons life just served me.

I would so appreciate prayers for my mom. Feel free to keep in touch, I will get back to you all as I can.

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TANYA602 11/13/2012 8:25PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, and that you have been under the weather for so long now. Yes, take this time to get your ducks lined up. You are indeed in my thoughts and prayers.

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KATIBUG49 11/13/2012 3:15PM

    Prayers are with you & your family! Keep Strong!

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RUMBAMEL 11/13/2012 8:27AM

    Hey girly, let me know if you need anything. I'll be thinking about you and mom a lot. Does mom need anything? Meals or help?

love and huge hugs,


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JAXMOMMY 11/12/2012 11:32PM

    Oh Susan, I'm so sorry! sorry you have been so sick and sorry to hear of your mom's breast cancer. Strides are made every day in treating BC and a good Spark friend of mine as well as several real life friends have beat it! Prayers will be coming for your mom and for you as you deal with her illness. How is your sweet baby girl? Did she get sick too? Follow the MD's orders and get rest, drink your fluids and take your meds! I was worried when you seemed to disappear from the Firecrackers! Thanks for updating us! Hang in there my friend! We are all here for you! When you don't feel strong enough to hold up on your own, know I am here with an arm around your shoulder to help boost you! Take care and feel better real soon!

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A-NEW-TARA 11/12/2012 8:59PM

    You, your mom and family are in my prayers.

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    Hugs to you and your mom! I will continue praying for both of you. Just take care of yourself and do what you can. Hang in there!

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HANDYV 11/12/2012 5:50PM

    You and yours are in my prayers.

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BLC 20 Re-Boot

Monday, October 22, 2012

Ok, so I haven't been as successful in BLC 20. My goal is to lose 20 pounds by 12/5. 6 weeks in and I'm less than 5 pounds down. To be honest, my weight has stayed in the same 5 pound range for 2 months. So how about the rest of my goals?

1) Size 16 - in a 18/20 right now.
2) Less than 50 inch hips - met 10/13/12.
3) Less than 14 inch arms - currently at 14 and 14.25
4) Less than 37 inch chest - currently 38.
5) Less than 38 inch waist - currently 38.5.
6) Less than 25 inch thighs - currently 26.25 and 26.
7) Less than 16 inch calves - currently 16.5.
8) Work out at least 4 days a week - I'm averaging about 5 days.
9) Drink at least 4 glasses of water a day - not there yet.
10) 5 real pushups - I can do 20 three steps up on the stairs.
12) 20 second plank - met 9/24/12.

I am very close on my measurements, and think I will meet those goals. I'm pretty happy with my workouts, and have increased the time from 30 to 45 minutes on average. I really need to work on my water. I think I will have to be happy withb1 real pushup. I am getting stronger, and decreasing my angle on the stsirs, but I don't know that I'll be ready for 5. On the other hand, since I blasted through my 20 second plank goal, I think I can go for 40 seconds!!!

Some good, some bad. But progress is being made. My thighs have each gone up a quarter inch, so I have been trying o work my legs harder. I don't know if I'll meet my weight goal, but I'll keep trying!!!!

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NEWLEAF16 11/7/2012 1:30PM

    You're doing great! Hang in there and keep it going emoticon

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JAXMOMMY 10/24/2012 12:02AM

    Good chance your thighs are growing in muscle mass and not fat! I bet you can get that 1 full push up in soon and conquer 5! You are almost there with a 20 second plank! Keep progressing! You are doing great!

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TANYA602 10/23/2012 8:45PM

    The BLC is proving to be a great challenge in terms of keeping us going. I know that by the end of it we will come out stronger. It's a lot harder than I thought, but thus the word "Challenge." Keep pushing and you will reach your goals!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/23/2012 9:30AM

    i think you are doing great susan love.not to forget you may not be losing as much weight as you would like you are looseing inches which means you are builing up muscle which are dense that fat so will also slow down your weight the water if you leave a bottle by your bedside all the time and have a glass in the morning when you wake up and a glas at night that is already 2 glasses then have a glass with every meal and snack depending on how many meals and snacks you should meet your 4 glasses goal easy.hope this helps i think you are doing great love.keep up the good work and donīt forget to smile.

train dirty

eat clean

row hard

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HLFPINT 10/22/2012 8:54PM

  You have done a great job. Be proud of yourself. You have a lot to show for all the hard work you have done. emoticon

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Happy Sparkaversary To Me!

Saturday, September 29, 2012

No, not the Sparkaversary that everyone else celebrates on SP. No offense, but this one is so much more important to me. 2 years ago today, my team of doctors insured that Mira and I would live, meet each other and have the strongest bond I can imagine 2 people can have.

On 9/27/10, I woke up with my heart racing and struggling to catch my breath after just a short walk. My nurse practioner directed me to my cardiologist, who, thankfully, got me in. As expected, they kept me. My heart had gone into a-fib and was beating over 200 bpm. I was put into Cardiac ICU. Their nurses stared at my monitor in awe. You know things aren't right when those nurses are shocked at your condition! They tried throughout the 27th and into the 28th to fix my heart with medication. Finally, they told me that they would have to cardiovert (shock) me, and it was scheduled for 9/29.

Did I mention I was 7 months pregnant at the time?

After 20 hours without food (never starve a pregnant woman!), they took me to a delivery room. They were concerned that shocking me might alter Mira's heartbeat (which, miraculously, was fine). If she went into a-fib, they would have to deliver her (c-section), and shock her again! First came the camera that I had to swallow to look for possible clots...then nighty-night! They put me to sleep, and I woke up.... still pregnant and with a normal heartbeat!

The 6 weeks that followed involved twice daily injections of blood thinners, but I made it through, and so did Mira. Less than 2 months later, on November 24th, my little doll came into the world...healthy, beautiful and amazing.

So Happy Sparkaversy Mira! I'm sure someone had a nice paper in a medical journal about us, but I don't care. We have shared the most amazing experience, and before you were even born!

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FITPRIS 10/4/2012 11:59AM

    Thanks for sharing!!!

See you this weekend? Are you coming to the dietician tonight???? 7pm in the main clinic lobby!

Have a great day!

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JAXMOMMY 10/3/2012 10:35PM

    I am simply awe struck! You & Mira are both miracles! What a spark indeed!

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A-NEW-TARA 10/3/2012 8:27PM

    Such a touching story! It amazes me every day the medical advances we make and how grateful we have to be here in North America to have access to these technologies. Happy Sparkaversary!!

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DANCINCAJUN1 10/3/2012 2:14PM

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 10/3/2012 9:19AM

    Fabulous story/blog. I am so glad all went well. Your little girl is something. You can just sense the love you two share through your posts and on your page.

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ENLIGHTENED7 10/1/2012 2:40PM

  You KNOW I care and think about you all the time. May your two year anniversary multiply exponentially! And may little Mira enjoy every one of them with you. I'm so proud of and happy for you both!

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KING_SLAYER 9/30/2012 9:43PM

    Grats on being 2 years post "heart shocking". I'm sure it a very difficult time for, especially being pregnant and not being sure how your baby was going to be affected. Glad to hear that everything worked out just fine.

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LOVETOLAUGH56 9/30/2012 4:20PM

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Happy Anniversary to you both. Thank God for modern technology. Your story is so amazing and wonderful and I think that Mira has a birthday coming up soon!

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NEWNAC304 9/30/2012 1:01PM

    Thanks for sharing your amazing story! Your little miracle is a real cutie too!

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LABRATIAM 9/30/2012 8:07AM

    emoticon To you!

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    That is such an awesome story! Happy Sparkaversary!

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SUNNY332 9/29/2012 6:46PM

    OMGoodness, I have tears running down my face. What an awesome story. You and Mira are indeed miracles.

Thank you so much for sharing your story and Happy Sparkaversary to you.

You are my SHERO today!

Hugs, Sunny
Ivory Falcons

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BLC Weekend Assignment - Pics & Plans

Sunday, September 16, 2012

From the front :

From the side:

And the dreaded back shot (oh the horror!):

I recently posted my 12 week goal for the challenge. In addition to losing 20 pounds, I intend to lose inches all over, drop a size, increase my water intake, as well as get to a point where I can do 5 real pushups and a 20 second plank.

OK, it's all well and good to set goals, but I need a definite plan to make it happen!

Breakfast: Eat a fiber-filled breakfast daily. The fiber helps me stay full longer.

Monday-Friday: Have a well balanced & portion controlled lunch 4/5 days. One day a week I will have lunch out, usually at Subway, again, portion controlled.
Saturday/Sunday: Fix a portion controlled lunch.

Hubby and I take turns making dinner. I go for healthier options, and he is trying to lean that way too. We are enjoying more veggies at dinner, and fewer desserts. Like lunch, I am practicing portion control.

Monday-Friday: I pack fruit or veggies for snacks, planning on 2 per day.
Saturday/Sunday: No mindless snacking, I count and measure all.

Occasionally, hubby is home late or not at all, and I have to wing it for dinner. Those days I make dinner for Mira and enjoy a protein shake myself.

As for my water, after my 16 oz each of milk and coffee, I drink lots of water. Sometimes I have a diet coke and an even rarer light beer, but usually it will be water.

Monday-Friday: minimum of 30 minutes fitness at night. Stationary bike, Sp video then back on the bike to make my full 30 minutes. Tuesday and Thursday will have ST.
Saturday: Yoga class, treadmill then Big Changes class totalling between 2-2.5 hours fitness.
Sunday: same as weekdays, but in the morning.

I hope to do 1 mile walks on Saturday and Sunday with my family as well.

Each day I get fitness in at home, I will be practicing my pushups and plank.

My goal is a minimum of 4 days of fitness per week.

There you have it! 12 weeks to awesome!

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 10/5/2012 3:54PM

    Fantastic! You inspire me to tweak my plan! You are going to be rockin come new year's eve at the pace you have set for yourself. That little girl of yours will be watching and picking up on your good habits. emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 10/5/2012 3:55:34 PM

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FRESKA 9/20/2012 7:04AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon sounds like a plan stan! and planning on the good choices (and not so good) are a huge huge huge huge factor in this journey!

12 weeks!! it will be exciting to see where in the world you will be at that point! as long as you keep on track it will have to be a much healthier version than now right? :)



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NEWLEAF16 9/18/2012 2:01PM

    Thank you so much for the encouraging comments on my blog post, that really meant a lot!

I love your plan, very well thought out. I like how you planned by meal for each day, great idea! And it's awesome that your husband is helping with the cooking-lucky! You got this!


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LOVETOLAUGH56 9/18/2012 11:12AM

    You have it all so well planned out. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TANYA602 9/17/2012 2:47PM

    YES! I love that DH is going lean in his cooking with you! I've found this really helps. You did a terrific job really spelling this out, and I can't wait to see your behind shot (wink wink) at the end of 12 weeks! You will be amazing us all!

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JAXMOMMY 9/16/2012 10:10PM

    Already an awesome plan! I know you will do all you have set out to accomplish! Family walks sound great! Have fun!

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