Friday, December 12, 2014
I have been maintaining my "goal" weight for just over 2 years 10 months, only 2 short months from my 3 year maintenance anniversary. These past nearly three years have been crazy. I have gone from over obsessed, to not caring at all and now I am FINALLY just feeling normal. I went from my goal weight of 160 alway down to 130 very unhealthy pounds and all the way back up to 160, some days give or take a few pounds.
I am now steadily maintaining around 150. 160 May be my "goal" weight but 150 is my ideal weight. I am finally feeling less stressed. I still track everything I eat and my exercise but it doesn't consume me. I don't let my eating habits, the number on the scale or my insecurities ruin my days. I care but I also realize I'm human.
Point of this blog? Maintenance is hard, but so is life. Once you make it past the uncomfortable stage, maintenance is beautiful.
Monday, June 02, 2014
So.... 3 months have passed since my last blog. Don't worry, I haven't fallen off the wagon and I haven't given up.
Mainly I just live life. I have been enjoying life in my new body, after all that is the ultimate goal, to be healthy and "normal". It feels great to not be completely obsessed with my weight. Don't get me wrong I still track all my food and exercise, I just don't spend all day thinking about what I ate, or how much I need to exercise. I do feel like it was necessary to be consumed with my weight loss while I was losing weight, but it is so freeing to know that I can be more normal now.
These past 3 months have been great. I trained for and completed a half-marathon, with a time of 1:56:42, which was more than 3 minutes better than my goal time. My time also got me 2nd place in my age division. I was the 6th female to finish overall. It was a hard race, over 1100 feet in elevation climb and 1000 decrease; although I swear I don't remember going DOWN any hills. LOL! It was also a gravel road, OUCH! Everyone that I talked to after the race said it was the hardest half they had ever ran, of course I would choose that as my first. Overall the experience was AMAZING! I'm not sure if I'll do another half-marathon, the training is rough. I love 10k's, I've ran 2 of those and am getting ready for another next month. They are FUN!!
Remember over the course of this process, your overall goal is HAPPINESS! You don't have to be the perfect size, the perfect weight or the perfect person. You just need to be the perfect YOU!!
Sunday, March 09, 2014
Maintenance for me has been such a set of trial and errors. I have been maintaining my "goal range", which has also been quite the learning experience. Anyways for the past year I have been maintaining at the top of my range, which even though is in range, it not my goal weight. So for the past year I have been actively, all be it not very seriously, trying to drop about 10 pounds, yeah that's right 10 pounds! My goal range has a 20 pound spread. Like I said it's been a learning experience but for me this works. Anyways I have been battling between losing weight and eating treats, most of the time treats win but I have still managed to keep at least a 3500 calorie deficit every single week and yet haven't lost any weight.
So this past week I bought a heart rate monitor, just trying to get a clearer idea of calories burned. I mean I am tracking everything, have a deficit and still am not losing weight, there has to be a reason. Well turns out it's because I am WAY off on how many calories I am really burning. I have been basing my calories burned from the machines at the gym, BIG MISTAKE!! Turns out I am burning about 40% of what the machines say, even my distance tracker is about 50%. So here I am thinking I am doing so well, turns out I have barely been burning what I eat. Man that was a punch to the gut. I thought I was doing so good.
My husband thought I was crazy for getting so upset, I mean it has seriously taken me 3 days to get over the feeling of being violated. I tried to put it in terms he could understand, I went with money. Lets say that you are putting in a fulls day work thinking you are making $100 a day, then you get paid and it's only $40 a day. I mean you'd be pissed too.
I understand that a heart rate monitor is not the end all be all, I have noticed that it loses the signal occasionally, but I would far rather under estimate than over estimate. Besides I have signed up for a half marathon and it would be far easier to run if I weighed less. So I will got with what my heart rate monitor tells me, although I would much prefer to believe I am burning a lot more!! Damn technology!!!
Either way I am still killing it at the gym!!
Sunday, February 09, 2014
So I made it to that all magical 2 year mark.
Supposedly when you make the 2 year mark of maintenance your chances of regaining the weight drop down to 50%, not great odds but much better than the 95% within the first year.
But really what do those odds mean? Do those odds keep me from eating whatever I want? Do those odds drag my butt out of bed and to the gym? No! Just because my odds are increased certainly doesn't mean that the I can relax on the hard work.
During my first year of maintenance, when the odds of me regaining all of my weight were a staggering 95% I was scared to death. I not only keep up my extreme weight loss routine, it actually became more restrictive. I was so scared of those odds that I literally was killing myself to not gain it back. That first year of maintenance was rough.
During my second year of maintenance I started to become more relaxed, maybe even a little too relaxed. I gained some weight back and in turn gained back some of my sanity.
What I have realized about this process is that it is all about learning. While weight loss have a very structured plan, maintenance doesn't. There are no rule books telling you how maintenance works. If there were, no one would be overweight. So while the first year for me was about learning to not gain the weight back, the second year was about learning to live again.
I know that I like food. I know that there are going to be occasions where I want to eat crappy. There are going to be occasions where I will want to eat healthy. Hopefully there will be a lot more of the latter. I also know that exercise is a part of my daily life. For me exercise is what keeps me going, and more importantly keeps me succeeding. While you can't out exercise a bad diet you can counter act a bad choice, or two.
As I have went a long in this process I have learned that this new lifestyle is becoming less of a chore and more of a routine. Eating healthier is just what I do, I have relaxed enough to allow myself treats but for the most part I just eat what I eat. Exercise is less of a task and more just a part of my daily life. There are still days where I have to remind myself why I work so hard, but there are also days when I have to tell myself that I have to shower too.
Reaching my goal weight.
1 Year Maintenance Anniversary
2 Year Maintenance Anniversary
This journey from start to finish has been challenging, exciting, trying and a roller coaster. There have been ups and downs. I have had to learn as I went, man have there been a lot of learning curves, but in the long run I have finally learned that self acceptance, dedication and hard work are the "secrets to success"! and even though the statistics don't mean all that much, it's still nice to know that I am now on an even playing field.
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