Monday, October 14, 2013
I am making progress every day.. I still haven't lost a pound in quite a while but I am making healthier choices.
In September.. I hit my 30 mile goal! My Nike Sportband for some reason actually told me I hit my goal at 28.something miles.. but I did the rest of the miles to make sure I hit my goal for real. It felt amazing. Some point during the month I actually thought I wouldn't hit my goal.. but I pushed and did it! Here is a couple pictures of me with my monsters who helped me get there. My daughter Exandria walked with me one day and we found a trailer with Free Veggies written on it.. and they had jalapeno peppers so we grabbed some. My son Levi wanted me to play soccer with him.. Let me tell you.. it took 3 hours of soccer and MANY more muscles to get in 3 miles on my tracker than if I had just walked. I was sore for 3 days straight. I could barely climb our stairs.. but it was worth it!
Today I did the first day of Shaun T's Focus T25 workouts. It is a 10 week program and it is only 25 minutes a day. Don't let that fool you, they are intense workouts. Not quite as intense as his Insanity ones but still quite intense. I am hoping that once I finish this program, that I will be ready for Insanity.. because seriously, after ONE day of Insanity, I give up. I feel good tonight after 1 day of T25. I feel it in my muscles but I don't feel overdone. I've turned this into a short term goal for myself.. To finish T25.
I feel like I am actually making really good changes with my life. I just need to learn how to control my portions a little better and to eliminate unhealthy foods out of my diet. I haven't been eating the healthiest of foods lately.. but I am making BIG CHANGES to get there. I am trying to eat healthier and I am determined to stay on track that way. Tonight I did have some Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream. Yummy. But that doesn't mean it is going to be a daily thing.. or that I am only going to eat junk. I know it isn't realistic for me to eat 100% healthy 100% of the time. I am just going to focus on eating healthy as often as I can. Another change I need to make is adding in water. I don't know why I can't seem to even get 8 glasses in a day!
Another fun goal for me is to buy myself Roller Skates and gear (as in helmet, pads, mouth guard, etc) so I can roller skate with my kids. They are both in Roller Derby and love it. I think it would help if they had mommy to practice roller skating with! Kinda nervous though because in a couple weeks, Levi turns 7 which means he will be upgraded to the group which does actual bouts. Right now he is with the younger group focusing on roller skating basics such as the multiple ways of stopping, skating forward/backwards, walking on toe stops, and falling correctly.
We also took some pictures this last month. My mom took them for us because I couldn't afford to have kids school pictures taken, so I asked her to do some pics. I asked her to just do kids but we took some of our family and some of just me and the husband as well. I LOVE them.. and on a whim I asked her to do the one of us laying down in a circle and it turned out to be one of my favorites. I absolutely love my family!
Friday, August 09, 2013
Lately it seems that all I can think about is all the things that are going wrong.. The cars that broke down, the wallet that got stolen, the people that have passed away. All of the things that are meant to drag a person down seemed to be happening to me at once. They say that bad things happen in threes? Mine went well beyond that.
For a period of time, I was depressed and let all these things drag me down.. to the point of emotional eating and seemingly not caring about anything.. including my health. And then a phone call from my dad changed that. He told me that I need to think of things in a more positive light. He told me that instead of having a bad day.. that I need to turn it into a bad moment. Just because something bad happens doesn't mean I need to have a bad day. I need to be upset for a moment and then turn it into a good day. And just like that, my days have been happier. I've found myself appreciating things in my life rather than digging myself further and further into depression. It's funny how something someone says to you can change your life in such big ways.
Then, it hit me like a light bulb. That doesn't just apply to bad things that happen. It applies to weight loss/getting healthy as well. Just because we ate something that we probably shouldn't have or had a bad meal, doesn't mean we should continue to eat unhealthy the rest of the day and say 'I'll just start again tomorrow, on Monday, etc.' We need to start over at that moment. So many times we've said 'I've already ate this much.. what is a little more going to hurt?' When you've already eaten too much, any extra calories, fat, carbohydrates, etc are just going to be stored as fat. If we can stop ourselves from being in that mindset, we can be that one step closer to losing the weight we want to, rather than gaining an extra pound or having to work off those extra calories we ate. Trust me.. I knew before that we shouldn't continue to eat unhealthy just because of one meal.. but that relates to everything in our lives. I've seen pictures lately that say things about continuing to eat unhealthy because we've had one bad meal is like dropping your phone on the ground and smashing it to pieces because it has already fell.. or I've also seen one that says it is like slashing the other three tires because you already have one flat tire. We've got to learn to turn things around when we can.
We need to turn our bad days into bad moments and our bad moments into good days because who doesn't want to have a good day, everyday?
A little funny since it kind of applies to my blog:
Thursday, August 01, 2013
2013 is certainly not my year. In the past 3 months, I've had 2 cars become undriveable, lost 3 people close to me (I got the phone call today that one of my cousins committed suicide), had my wallet and our tackle box stolen (by my brother of all people.. while he denies it completely), had my husband wipe out on the bike, and was also told today that I was kicked out of my online class because I hadn't gotten a default clearance letter from my previous college. They emailed me and told me I had 48 hours to get it taken care of. For one, I rarely check my emails.. You can't tell me my advisor or SOMEONE couldn't call me so I was aware of it BEFORE I was kicked out. For two, 48 hours? That is not enough time to have a paper sent to me and then send it out. So I spent the last 3 weeks submitting papers every Sunday, Monday, and Wednesday for absolutely NOTHING.. because I was told even if I got the letter, I'd have to restart my class. What college waits until the 4th week of a 5 week class to tell someone they need a paper.. and then kick them out without warning? I am irate. Needless to say, I don't think I'd recommend CTU to anybody. I may continue college there if I can get the paper before the next classes start but I think what they did was ridiculous.
As for my wallet, I was super upset. I had $85 in there that was supposed to go to start our small claims case so we could get paid for our car that the lady without a license/insurance hit. I also had $40 in there from donating plasma so my kids could have fun at the fair.. and then Saturday night my aunt handed me $200 for our kids to have fun at the fair (I'm sure because she knows that Jeremy is out of work and we're trying our best to give the kids the best we can despite the situation.) She shoved it in my pocket and walked away before I could do anything about it. On top of that, I had my debit card, social security card (which was only in there cuz I had to have it to start donating plasma), and all the other cards I own. We stayed at my dad's house that night and I put my wallet in the bottom of our bag of clothes because all I hear about with my brother is the things he's stolen (a big majority from family members.) Woke up the next day and went to look for it and it was miraculously GONE. Surprisingly enough, our tackle box also disappeared from our truck. I suppose our things just grew legs and walked away..
All this added stress has caused emotional eating like no other.. so of course I have gained some. I believe a little over 5.. Maybe close to 10 pounds. I am getting back on track though before things get out of hand. I really am just hoping at this point, that the bad is done.. because I really don't know how much more I could handle. I was counting all the big things that have gone wrong in the past 3 months and I came up with 7.. and then my mom called me today and told me about my cousin and I looked at my husband and I said there is number 8. He asked me what, I told him, and then I just cried. Once I hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up, right? Soo depressed and overwhelmed and I just need a break.
Saturday, July 06, 2013
At this point, I can't even explain how stressed out I feel. Is it Murphy's Law that says 'Anything that can go wrong, will.'? I'm pretty sure it is right.
I meant to post an update after I updated my status.. but have been super busy with my life, so haven't had the chance. So here goes.
On July 15th we went to Awesome Biker Nights in Sioux City, IA. After we were done there, we planned on going out to eat so my father-in-law took my husband up to his sister's motorcycle that he had rode into town. He had to park it on a hill because the battery was dead so they had to pop start it. We had gone ahead.. and I had just rode on the back with his mom. His sister went into the restaurant to go to the bathroom and yelled 'We gotta go.. NOW. Jeremy wrecked.' We didn't know at that point if he was ok or not.. and I was devastated. I had just lost a friend in a motorcycle accident and since his accident there have been 2 more people I know in motorcycle accidents but lived (thank god!) What happened with Jeremy though is he got it going and when he got to the stoplights, it turned from green to yellow.. so in order to avoid a ticket, he tried to stop. In doing that, the braking system in the bike made him lose control and he fell at about 10-15mph. Luckily, he didn't hit his head.. but he did break his leg. 3 cracks and a bunch of pieces at the top of the bone just below the knee. It is actually considered a Tibial Plateau Fracture.. as it is the part of the bone that flares out.
Of course, the only income we have at this point is his.. because I am doing full-time school. He is eligible for short-term disability through his work but that is 50% of his paycheck. So.. around 800 dollars a month. Oh.. Did I mention he got a ticket for $195 for failure to maintain control and it is due on the 17th of this month. We are hoping to go to court and get an extension.. because clearly we can't afford anything at this point.
Then of course on 4th of July, Jer's dad bought some fireworks.. and we went to fire them off and had our neighbors come out and flat out said he is going to call the cops on us. I would have been more willing to be quiet if he wasn't such a jerk about it and while I didn't get too worked up, a couple of the other people decided they wanted to be really loud afterwards.. I guess it was too late to be firing them so the cop did tell us we had to stop.. so we took them out to Jer's parent's farm and did a few more. On the way out, we blew a tire.. in the vehicle we are borrowing from his parents because ours are both undriveable.. and wouldn't you know it? Our spare was at home because when we went camping we didn't have enough room to fit it in with everything else. UGH.. Seriously.. My bad luck is never-ending.
At this point, we have bills we can't pay. Car insurance coming out today for two cars we can't drive. We had short-term disability papers faxed FOUR times to CNO's so the doctor could fill them out. They lost them all 4 times. So we don't know if the person that was supposed to receive them has because they said they faxed them.. but we have no confirmation from the person supposed to receive them since she is out of the office til Monday, and the papers have to be there by Monday in order for Jeremy to receive a paycheck next Friday. Seriously, if we don't.. I don't know what I will do. I am already overwhelmed taking care of the kids AND Jeremy now, on top of the house and school. I'm thinking I'm going to have to get a job too. How? I don't know. I also don't know how much more I can take.
The UPSIDE? I haven't given up weight loss. I have been a little off track due to being camping and away from home.. but today I am back at it!
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