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gained back 79lbs so ashamed :(

Sunday, March 10, 2013

well that just about says it all...really mad at myself but I am determined to get back on track emoticon

  
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VHALKYRIE 3/21/2013 6:28PM

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ARCHIMEDESII 3/21/2013 3:43PM

    You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of !! Every single member of spark people has gone through the same thing. We're all experts at gaining, losing and regaining the weight over the years. Well, that was the past. You can't change the past, but you CAN influence and change the future.

As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for the positive things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy.

Take baby steps literally and figuratively !!

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HEALTHY-SPARK 3/21/2013 3:38PM

    Your little monster picture is so cute. Sorry to hear about your gain -- but it's good that you are back! You can do it. Today is a brand new day-- it doesn't matter how you got here, just where you decide to go from here.
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PS. I love that water hole backdrop photo -- what a fun place that would be to go swimming!

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LIZAPOPE 3/11/2013 9:09PM

    i love your little monster guy- how often I feel just like that. How hard it is to express all the frustration and other "bad" emotions. How often have I stood in the same place you are now. Too many times to count. So I keep in mind that starting again is so important as it is way to success. Hang in there! Liza

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WILLOW49 3/11/2013 6:35PM

    So glad you are back with us :) I missed you! The past is just that. Leave it there and move forward!
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TEDYBEAR2838 3/11/2013 6:32PM

    Ya know, we all BEEN THERE DONE THAT!

That's why you are here. We love having you and we welcome
you to start over ANYTIME you need to .

Perfection is NOT the name of the game. It's a journey and we
are on it together, to help each other.

SO, jump right back on were together in this!

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JESSICA_0029 3/11/2013 5:26PM

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NEWMOON 3/11/2013 2:29PM

    I know it's the last thing you want to hear right now, but I want to celebrate the fact that you lost it in the first place. Gaining it back only means you're human. It's so hard to find something to replace the role we've given to food. I know that because I struggle with it every minute of every day.

I am sending you a cyber hug right now, so close your eyes and feel it, and know you are NOT ALONE.

You are a superstar for not giving up. No one knows how strong we really are unless they are going through this too.

I'm here. Reach out.

XOXOXOXOXO

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NONIE_C 3/10/2013 6:19PM

    I am so so happy that you are back. YOU ARE BACK! Which means you have not given up, which means you should not feel any sense of failure. Did you know that I'm actually heavier now than when I started Spark people?!?! Well, it's the truth. In the past 4 years, I've gained close to 50 pounds. BUT, I have come so far from where I was when I began this Life Long journey to healthy living. And I know you have made positive changes in your life too...the weight is only part of this puzzle. Please read my 4 year sparkversary blog...you may find you have more to celebrate than you thought.
WELCOME BACK!!!

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.DUSTY. 3/10/2013 5:25PM

    As someone who's been on SparkPeople for years and a Team Leader I can tell you no one is really going to notice. There's a lot of turn-over here and new members all the time.

The important thing is you're back in the game. Remember you're NOT alone!
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OLAFGLADANDBIG 3/10/2013 5:25PM

    You did it before, you know you can do it again!

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JOYOUS1917 3/10/2013 5:03PM

    Do not beat yourself up. Life happens. Just start tracking everything....even if your calories go over....eventually your brain will get on board to help you...Lots of mixed greens, juicing veges helps, I do a cup of frozen fruit w/water in a blender plus stevia, I love omelettes first thing. I also cannot do grains except for Ezekiel Bread. I do soups a lot. Reward yourself for starting...a flower, a vision board, a hot bath....reward yourself even if you fail for determining to start over....ALWAYS, ALWAYS BE POSITIVE.....TOWARD YOURSELF. emoticon emoticon
Yep, you are a baby chick and you are emerging into the beautiful loved person you already are!

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SPSPSP1 3/10/2013 5:01PM

    Let go of the anger, guilt, and frustration. Otherwise, you'll end up using it as an excuse to keep yourself down. Also, beating yourself up a lot is undoubtedly what got you here in the first place. Instead, understand that the part of you that has seemed to be "out of control" has been trying to protect you in its own distorted way. That part of you has been trying to distract you from even more painful thoughts. Every time you crave food or want to binge, stop for a few moments and think about what is really bothering you. It would be great if you could write it down too. For now you don't need to do anything about it. Just truly notice.

Another thing to do before putting ANY food or beverage in to your mouth is to say to yourself "I choose to eat/drink" this. It's an important reminder that you are always in charge of what goes into your body.

I wish you the best!

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CIRANDELLA 3/10/2013 4:59PM

    emoticon back Jessica! It's wonderful to see you back with us again...and please don't feel awkward about regaining some of the weight you've lost. You have still made SO much progress, and you know what it takes to lose that weight. You can do it again emoticon Gee, if I told you how many times I gained and lost weight before - at age 60 - I finally got to my current weight, you'd be dizzy and lose count somewhere along the line. In fact, I'd hazard the guess that MOST of us here have joined and rejoined too many times to count. If I saw a list of all the screen names I've had on Spark over the years, I'm sure I'd just faint!

Just the fact that you did it once tells me you can do it again. And I've always found spring a great time for new beginnings... all the best in your quest to be on the path toward progress once again! - Susan

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100 pounds gone

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Today I hit the 100 pound mark. I'm so happy and excited for all the new opportunities I have allowed myself by losing this weight and getting healthier. It's not all about the numbers but about how many more things I can physically do. I would like to do something nice for myself but I am undecided on what to do. Any healthy suggestions emoticon
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MELLABELLAS 4/28/2011 4:09AM

    You are so inspiring to me! 100 pounds is quite an achievement

I say, do whatever your heart desires. You deserve it!!

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NONIE_C 4/28/2011 3:06AM

    Congrats, my friend. I've missed you so much and I'm so happy to hear that things are going well for you. Keep up the great work, and definitely do something special for you.

Maybe a new accessory, or maybe a spa day...whatever your pleasure! You deserve it!!!

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SUSIEMT 4/14/2010 11:35PM

    I don't know how I missed this blog Jessica! Way to go!!! Doesn't it feel good.

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WISH4TODAY 3/29/2010 2:36AM

    WOW you go YOU! I'm so happy that you've hit the big 1 0 0

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MITIME4ME 3/24/2010 1:19PM

    WooHOO! Great job! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DAISES2 3/24/2010 9:27AM

    well done 100LB gone
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DJS-DEBBIE 3/24/2010 4:32AM

    Way to go, Jessica! That is wonderful news ~ I am so happy for you. A new outfit is a nice idea but hopefully you have bought some new clothes already. I imagine yours are falling off. I would go with a new hairstyle myself. I cut my hair when I lost a large amount of weight and it really made me see just how far I had come.
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TEDYBEAR2838 3/23/2010 10:25PM

    I am so proud of you. That is emoticon
You are doing so well.

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TRAVELNISTA 3/23/2010 9:07PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I am so proud of you!

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BLOSSOMKITTY 3/23/2010 9:01PM

    WOW, WOW, WOW!!!!!!!! Congratulatins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have done a crazy good thing for yourself! You ROCK girl!!!!


Id say getting yourself a really good purse that you can carry with you for a beautiful reminder of what youve done is agreat idea!!!!!



HUGS!!!!!!
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Steph

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 3/23/2010 6:33PM

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a new pair of shoes or a new purse ALWAYS make a healthy reward. I bought my reward purse last fall & it's just sitting in my closet waiting for me to get to my 100 lbs goal.

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JUSTWANTTOLOOSE 3/23/2010 5:16PM

    emoticonon 100 lbs. gone! That's emoticon!
Rewards...I'm not sure...maybe do or buy something nice for yourself!

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WILLOW49 3/23/2010 3:46PM

    Oh Jessica, I'm so very proud of you!!!!! I can imagine how you're feeling! I'm not good at rewards, so hopefully someone will have ideas for you.
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LISAWILLBEFIT 3/23/2010 3:44PM

    Congrats on the loss.You should go and buy yourself a new outfit.I think its wonderful thhat you lost all that weight.Lisa

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QUEST4CHANGE 3/23/2010 3:34PM

  Wow! I'm so thrilled for you :)

How about a new family portrait? or a portrait of you?

a new, beautiful piece of clothing in your current size or a size smaller?

Whatever you do, I'm so glad you're taking the time to celebrate! Enjoy :)

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FLAMINGOLESLIE 3/23/2010 3:27PM

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How about a trip where you can do some hiking, tennis or anything that you used to only dream of being able to do?!?!?!? You are an inspiration to me and I hope I can do it too! I am adding you as a friend. Please keep posting!!! Again- emoticon

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GRAMTOTWO 3/23/2010 3:19PM

    emoticon Congrats on your loss. You must be sooo proud.

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GAYLLYNNE 3/23/2010 3:09PM

    Wow!!! WTG!!! That's so fantastic and you should be soooooo proud of yourself. I agree that a reward is in order. I think a new pair of sneakers, something really sturdy that will take you off on new and even more exciting adventures. You are amazing!!!!

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RUNNING4MYLYF 3/23/2010 3:07PM

    A hundred pounds....you dang well better do something nice for yourself. How about a healthy cooking class, a dance class, tennis lesson....something that instills the things you're incorporating...but something you'll enjoy, too. Heck, I love massages. You're definitely deserving of a two-hour whoop-de-doo massage, in my opinion.

So happy for you. Way to go.

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360 pounds!!!!!

Monday, January 04, 2010

When I started sparkpeople I was so afraid of telling anyone my weight. I want to change this now. When I joined a new team (50 pound challenge) I was shocked that I now had to share my weight. On my weight tracker I have always just shown how much I lost. I have changed this now and will share my weight. I have made many goals for myself this year. They are not all about weight. I will make it a positive effort to not be so hard on myself. My weight is 360 pounds and no that is not where I want it to be, but it is not where it was. I have been working really hard to lose weight and finally be healthy. For me this is not just all about my weight. It is about living an incredible active life. This is becoming a reality for me and I'm loving it. My life is becoming better and better everyday. ALL of you have helped me in so many ways. I can't thank you enough!!!

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DJS-DEBBIE 2/21/2010 12:53PM

    Hey, Jessica, that was a big step for me, too. I was 420 when I started and I had never admitted it to anyone before posting it here. It really helped!
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TEDYBEAR2838 2/21/2010 12:47PM

    I am so proud of you for coming out of hiding. we are who we are and we need to be able to share the good and the bad. I need to take lessons from you.

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Here for you along this journey to a Healthier US!

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HARMONYAGAIN 1/23/2010 4:05PM

    That is awesome.

I can't bring myself to do it yet. I posted pictures and that is as strong as I am right now.
Not so much for the individuals on Sparkpeople. But if anyone in my physical world knew the number I would be devastated. I know they can see me and guess but to have the number known. Nope I can not handle that.

I envy you your strength. Way to go!

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BLOSSOMKITTY 1/14/2010 2:16PM

    I so get this! I did the same thing whn i first started spark..... Its a really hard thin to do and i know it takes a whole lot of work that no one can even see, because is the work you do inside.

Congratulations on the weight loss, but even more, congratulations for overcoming those emotioal hurdles......


Youre awesome!


Steph

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MARATHONGIRL29 1/11/2010 8:00PM

    Congratulations. That was a huge step. You are doing so well you don't have a reason to hide anymore. This was just another way to hold yourself accountable. I am proud of you, I know that it was hard to do. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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ANNINTENNESSEE 1/11/2010 7:25PM

    That is great! I am so glad you life is getting better and better!

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MITIME4ME 1/8/2010 11:39PM

    Great job, Jessica! emoticon You are doing a great job already and it sounds like an excellent step towards further empowering yourself. I still cringe every time I enter my weight in challenges not specifically geared for us 300#+ folks, so I have a lot of respect for your decision.

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WISH4TODAY 1/6/2010 11:51PM

    ok Jessica--I'm with ya in posting my weight and not just saying I have 200# to loose. If you're brave enough to do it, I'll try to be brave too and join you.

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WISH4TODAY 1/5/2010 11:05PM

    Congratulations Jessica! Its awesome how far you've come, and you know what? There's a saying in the 12 step program I'm in that goes something like, together we can do what we can't do alone. SOOOO we'll do it together won't we? We are so much more than the number on the scale.

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STEFFIIE 1/5/2010 10:11PM

    You have been doing so great already emoticon You've already made fantastic progress! emoticon emoticon

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PAR2GO 1/5/2010 5:32PM

    You are so awesome and inspiring! You are doing so well! Isn't it amazing how the little changes we make can be so liberating. Keep up your great positive attitude because it is very contagious! Thanks for being a great friend!

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TRAVELNISTA 1/5/2010 10:02AM

    emoticon Now that is what I call accountability! I know it was a hard thing to do but we are all family here and no one is pointing any fingers and saying he or she weighs how much! You are doing a great thing here by being on Sparkpeople. You are getting healthier and stronger everyday, not to mention shrinking in size. You can do this! We will all do it together! That is what make SparkPeople so special! emoticon emoticon

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NEWME0519 1/4/2010 9:30PM

    Honesty may help you commit to the journey! Good luck!


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RASCALOO 1/4/2010 8:34PM

    You are doing great! That 360 will become 260 and lower as you continue along the path. Congratulations on your committment to a healthier you.

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ANNIESADVENTURE 1/4/2010 7:35PM

    You have done so well. I can empathize with you about not wanting to list your weight. I'm still there, just listing how many pounds I want to lose. Can't believe I put on this much weight! But we are working on reversing that. Keep doing whatever you've been doing. Your progress is impressive.
Annie

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WANDAC2013 1/4/2010 7:14PM

    Continued success!!! And, good for you on posting your weight...own it, lose it, and continue to be an unabashed inspiration to all!!!! emoticon

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LIFE-FAITH 1/4/2010 6:55PM

    Jessica - Keep up the great work!
You are an encouragement and an inspiration!
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I am sorry I dont get by your page more often, you are so loyal in your comments to me. My time is so limited on the computer, by choice; as I am a computer addict who could sit on the computer all day long.

You keep up the great work!
God Bless you!
You are doing great!
jeanla

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XFITSTRONG 1/4/2010 6:43PM

    We joined SP around the same time. You have done so well!!!! Congrats on your success so far!!!!

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JAKEANDNELLIE 1/4/2010 6:41PM

    You inspire me.
I was just asked to give my weight to join a team's challenge and couldn't make myself do it. Instead, I asked to be dropped from the challenge and even offered to leave the SparkTeam if it was necessary.
Maybe I'll rethink my decision. I don't know.
Sheila

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45 pounds gone!!!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

I have lost 45 pounds and am so happy. Things that were almost impossible for me are becoming much easier. I have increased my work out routine because I'm able to do more now. I can't thank my spark friends enough it's all of your positive comments that help push me along. I know I have a long way to go but on the positive side it's getting closer and closer the more I do!!
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STEFFIIE 1/1/2010 10:05AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon I hope you took a few minutes to just stand back and congratulate yourself on how far you've come!!

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PAR2GO 11/19/2009 6:30PM

    Congratulations on your weight loss! That is great! It is so nice when you can see the progress is not only on the scales. It may be in the clothes or in the things we can do. Great job! Thanks for the positve comment on my activity feed. I really appreciate your support.

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WISH4TODAY 11/6/2009 10:26AM

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!! look at you go girl! emoticon

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45 pounds gone!!! Good Job you should be very proud Claire

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WILLOW49 11/3/2009 10:37PM

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TRAVELNISTA 11/3/2009 10:20PM

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45 pounds kicked to the curb!

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TRENTDREAMER 11/3/2009 9:13PM

    That is so awesome! Congratulations. Continued success to you.

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A Good Day

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Well today was a pretty good day for me. I spent the day at my mom's house and usually these two things never go together but today it did. She did not give me too much grief about bringing my own dinner and not eating the same dinner as everyone else. I think she is sick of asking me why I don't eat her food or the junk food she tries to bring over time after time. I think she is just fed up with her rude comments and bad behavior not getting to me any more. I feel better when I eat food that is good for me. I know she will never understand because she has never even been over weight and definitely would not understand what I have to go threw being obese. I don't expect her to understand but at least I had a good day with her without rude comments or her insults she was pretty pleasant and didn't even offer me desert. I feel accomplished today like me standing my ground with her is paying off.

  
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BLOSSOMKITTY 10/19/2009 3:49PM

    Hi!

Im glad you had a good day:-) we all need those, for sure! Im glad you have the resolve to keep going on this healthy way of life.

Thanks for stopping by to say hi the other day.....


Stephanie

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WISH4TODAY 10/12/2009 2:32PM

    WOW, you are sure doing well with your food program. Bravo for taking a stand for yourself and your health. In the long run, she may come around but if not, hey---you're not doing this for her are you ? emoticon

I'm so proud of you!!! It really works great to have a back up by bringing your own stuff so you always know you'll have something healthy to eat!!! Way to go

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TRAVELNISTA 10/11/2009 10:05PM

    emoticon Your Mom is finally realizing that you are serious and this time you are going to succeed, with or without her. emoticon

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GRAMTOTWO 10/11/2009 11:04AM

    emoticon on standing your ground. Your inner strength will lead to success!

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WILLOW49 10/11/2009 1:32AM

    Glad to hear that you had a good day at your mom's house :) emoticon Keep on standing your ground! May be that your mom will never understand, but at least she is starting to respect your decisions! emoticon

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