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Well, They Think They're so Cute When They Got You in That Condition

Monday, December 03, 2012

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As much as I blather on about empowerment, the truth is, I am in the thick of low empowerment. And this comes from looking for work.

This is not my first rodeo, kids. Hell, it's not even the first time I've looked for employment since I starting SP, nearly 5 (yes) years ago. It is my ... drum roll ... third.

Egad, that's a lousy track record.

So I am casting about for some ideas as to how to minimize this time out/help to lay-off-proof the rest of my career. And I keep coming up with Web Design and Development. Now, God knows I am no visual artist. I really do stink at such things. And I have little patience for things like moving something over a tiny fraction of a millimeter. Pixels? Fuggeddaboutit!

But I have been doing SEO (Search Engine Optimization) work for quite a while, and I am thinking it's time I actually learned some theory from people who knew WTF they were talking about. I also know HTML, but I don't know it that well. Again, it would be good to learn it from masters, and to correct any bad habits I may have gotten myself into. Furthermore, of course, this is a skill set that is still wildly in demand.

Also, for every long-term unemployment stint I've ever been in, I have always gotten out of it through some form of education. It has happened enough times that I am thinking it's not so much of a coincidence any more.

As for weight loss, efforts have stalled. Things aren't bad, but they aren't great, either. Things could certainly be improved. What kills me is - and Mr. j and I were discussing this yesterday - is I have already plucked the low-hanging and middle-hanging fruit when it comes to weight loss.

Eight 8 ounce glasses/day? Try eleven.
Lift 10 pound weights? No, I lift 40. Every day.
Walk 30 minutes per day, three times per week? I walk 50 most days.
2000 calories? Try 1600 - 1800.
Low carb? Yes, and so much so that it threatens to give me a vasovagal response (that's fancy talk for me getting dizzy, a condition I have had for years. I am not anemic or anything like that; I'm just prone to fainting).
I have been on thyroid meds for decades, and my dosage level is closely monitored.

I know one thing I could do would be to become more careful again with weighing and measuring. But after that, truly, I'm not really seeing anything to do that I am willing to commit to. Calorie cycling? No, no, a thousand times, NO. Real people do not live like that, and the last thing I need is to be obsessing over food like that.

Truth of it is, I am not asking for advice in that area. Right now, I'm just venting.

I need some more empowerment in my life.

  
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PHEBESS 12/3/2012 5:39PM

    Some of us luck into the perfect job - others take longer to find their passion and then find a job that fits it. (And the rest live lives of quiet desperation.)

So - if you think this is your passion, go for it!!!!! We spend nearly 1/3 of our adult lives at work - you might as well love it!

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PROVERBS31JULIA 12/3/2012 3:51PM

    I think you ought to write copy for web stories... these are funny and there's a lot of dull websites out there.

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PICKIE98 12/3/2012 3:26PM

    You already know what the answer is dear, push through that wall of indecision and make your landing on the planet design, no loss if you go elsewhere from there.

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MS.ELENI 12/3/2012 1:53PM

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DDOORN 12/3/2012 12:31PM

    Hearing you Jes...right there with you re: the struggles over food. Does sound like the web design could be your niche...go for it!

Don

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PYNETREE 12/3/2012 9:52AM

    NOW BREATHE!!

OK...You've vented, sounds like you know what to do, to get where you need to be.

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2BMYOWN 12/3/2012 8:03AM

    I dunno about you, but I think web design would be an awesome thing to get into. It's certainly in demand in a big way and I don't look to see that change any time soon, since it seems everything is becoming dependent upon the web, anymore. (sigh) Seems like that would definitely be a lay-off-proof kinda career field. But I can certainly identify with the lack of empowerment. There's something about not being able to find a job that makes you kinda feel like a worthless commodity to people, or at least that is what it did to me. All of my ideas withered to dust, pretty much, so I ended up going back to the nursing, since I could not find one other thing. If I had not had that as a fall-back, not sure what I would have done, other than lose my house and the shirt off my back. I'm thinking that further education is the way to go, but with being unemployed for six months, with no income coming in at all, it's not like I could afford to do even that, so I was stuck like chuck. Kinda makes you feel like nothing more than a passenger in your own life, in a way. People kept telling me all of the nice little inspirational phrases, like 'don't sweat it, don't worry, the universe will provide you with what you need." Well.....I dunno where that universe was 'cause it didn't seem the least bit interested in an old phart like me whatsoever. LOL As for the weight loss, I had to go back on the Medifast plan to get myself kickstarted again because even that seemed to fail me, too. Dunno why this stuff has to be so flippin' hard, but it is. I wish you all the success in the world, if I could send mojo vibes your way, I would certainly do that.

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 12/3/2012 7:32AM

    Venting's good. Feeling in control is good too. What does make you feel in control? Must be some good stuff? I hope so anyhow. You are certainly in control of my funny bone when you choose to exercise your creative writing muscles. Have I told you this week I lurve you for that?

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Voice Too Loud

Monday, November 26, 2012

www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wYS0u0s1Wk

I don't have an enormous amount of time to post today as I am, as they say, an hour late getting up. So now I'm chasing that hour all day long.

Except it's about two hours. Ewps.

Hey, I was dreaming that I was pals with Johnny Depp! It was an IMPORTANT dream.

Anyway, it was nothing untoward. We were just pals, going to some dinner that required a lot of stair-climbing. He was also impressed with my weight loss. ;) Wacky.

Anyway - reality time - the year is rapidly drawing to a slamming close. The air is different. It is wintry, yes, but things are itchy and dark and ... off. I've gotten, no lie, a good five phone calls today. Exactly one was job-related. Everything else was various weirdnesses. And, like I wrote above, I don't have the time. But I listen just the same, as I am told of the latest family hullabaloo, or about a proxy vote for some security that I forgot I owned, and I only own maybe 20 shares. Or the hang-up calls, always a personal fave. Whatevs.

In the meantime, it gets rough, yanno? I am getting to a time of year that I truly dislike. I do not celebrate Xmas and Chanukah, though lovely, was not a really big deal when I was a kid. The end of the year is filled with medical appointments that I'm getting in before the calendar closes, and oil burner service and a haircut and one last 5K.

And through it all, I am chasing that hour. Good thing I can run these days.

Enjoy The Who.

  
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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/29/2012 8:13AM

    Yeah. The dark days are tough. We don't celebrate either. Sometimes I wish I had a tradition and a family. Other times I am relieved. Don't want to wish my life away waiting for the return of the light. Or wish away the hour either.

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PHEBESS 11/27/2012 6:47PM

    OMG, don't you love dreams like that???? I'd waste an hour on Johnny Depp too!

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DDOORN 11/27/2012 1:13PM

    Ditto, re: this time of year being "rough." Am so "with" you in that department! I survived Black Friday, er...Buy Nothing Day. Now if we could just kill off the whole commercialism of this time of year...?!? Never was one who enjoyed queuing up with the masses...

Don

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BESEVEN 11/26/2012 11:32PM

    Maybe it's the season. . .or the moon. . .or something. . .but the other night I had a dream I was hanging with George Clooney. So vivid. Sometimes you just really hate to wake up more than others.

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SEXBOBOMB 11/26/2012 6:55PM

    Funny, that, about Depp!

(Personally, I spent most of Saturday night hanging out in a hotel room with Daniel Craig. Waking up was such a drag!)
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MS.ELENI 11/26/2012 6:43PM

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PICKIE98 11/26/2012 4:38PM

    Some people have their priorities all out of whack!!
Let me get this straight: You are in a dream with John Depp, got him all to yourself in that dream, and your big disappointment for the day is a lost hour??? I will bet in that lost hour you did a lot of "stair-climbing"!!!!!!!!
I will give you that hour or two, if you dream it again tonight, let the thoughts flow right onto the blog page to share!! Now THAT is a block of time I will help you with,, Answer your phone, make your appointments,etc. i will even go to your family Chanakuh celebration to steer them clear of you if you want!!LOL!
We all know how those get-togethers are warm and fuzzy,, Norman Rockwell if you will...

Share Johnny with us!!

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DOLPHINSINGER72 11/26/2012 3:25PM

    Have a good day. I hope you catch up.

I love your background. That is a really cute dog. :)



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I'm On That Midnight Beat

Monday, November 19, 2012

www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fRqgZJRtRM

I guess I kinda have to be. This is a short week. And of course that means cramming in as much as possible during the shortened time frame. Relax? What's that?!?! You silly people.

For someone who isn't working, I actually work pretty dang hard these days.

Part of it is actual work. I do some SEO work for a friend. I also spend time looking for work. I write. I blog (not the same thing - writing for me means fiction; blogging means commercial type stuff). I promote stuff, both my own and for more than one website. I have family stuff like everyone else does. Housework? Eh, when the mood strikes (which is rare) or things are dire and someone is coming over (now you're talkin').

And of course there's the myriad of diet-y, exercise-y things going on.

I am getting rather close to 5 years of doing this. Oy vey and lord a-mighty, that's an awfully long time. It is ... drumroll ... 1/10 of my life.

Ye gods.

I have been doing this long than I was in college. Longer than I was practicing law. Longer than I worked most jobs, I might add (no wonder I always seem to be looking for work).

It's a long, long time.

One thing that happened recently was that I transferred over my iTunes account from one computer to the other. And, in the process, I lost my old playlists, including the one for running and the one with all of my blog songs. But yanno something? I am totally cool with it. Wanna know why? 'Cause it is hurtling rapidly toward 5 years of this. 5! The playlists were getting long and unwieldy. And it was the kind of retentive behavior that, truly, I need to not do so much of. So I am glad to see them go. I re-create what I like. Other stuff, not so much.

It's a clean slate. And that means other things can fill that vacuum.

In the meantime, I hope the start of the holiday crunch isn't too difficult for most. Take it easy and enjoy Van Morrison.

FIVE YEARS, BABY!!!

  
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SAINTBETH 11/26/2012 10:49AM

    5 years is a long time. It must be working! We can do this.

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GUITARWOMAN 11/22/2012 1:10PM

    You can never lose your purchased iTunes music.

Whatever was in your playlists is also in your library on iTunes.

And in the iTunes servers somewhere in cyberspace.

But, what the heck, new playlists are good too!

Happy Thanksgiving!

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DDOORN 11/22/2012 7:58AM

    Can't have too much Van Morrison...sure helps those five years fly by with a spring in one's step! Kudos to keepin' on, keepin' on Jes!

I just inherited my son's old iPhone 4 and am wading into the iTunes waters and playlists. My Sansa Clip has been so simple: just put good stuff on it, shuffle and GO!

Have a terrific Turkey Day! :-)

Don

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WOLFKITTY 11/20/2012 10:20PM

    I've been thinking about my 5 years, too. Next January. It's amazing, but also seems a tiny bit unreal, so I'm obviously still getting used to it.

Actually, around the time that I first started here, I jokingly asked myself that cliched question, "So, where do I see myself in 5 years?" ;) Interesting to see the end of that, and yet the future stretching out before us. There really aren't very many real endings.

Have a good night!
Joce

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MS.ELENI 11/19/2012 12:14PM

    I thought it very interesting that you once practiced law. Learn more about you all the time. emoticon

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JOPAPGH 11/19/2012 10:46AM

    Bought this on vinyl when it first came out, but can't remember the last time I heard it. So much so that I didn't recognize your lyric reference, which is rare.

Congrats on 5 years of Sparking!! I took a break because Spark wasn't cutting it for me but I have dipped my toe back in and I'm starting to feel it again, but in a clean slate, simplified way. (To quote Drew Carey from "Whose Line is it Anyway": "The points are meaningless, like a Democrat in Texas.")

Enjoy your fresh start. Viva la Tabla Rasa!

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MAMISHELI53 11/19/2012 9:28AM

    You did a great job, girl! Maz'l tov! BTW, my daughter has two Bostons, one they bought, and one they adopted ( rescue). They are a stitch! i made a video of them, maybe you'll get a kick out of it - here's the link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fou2
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Keep up the great work! Que Dios te bendiga! (God bless you!)

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Not to Put Too Fine a Point on It

Monday, November 12, 2012

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My personal life has been quiet lately, and I gotta say I'm grateful for that, as the outside world, between the hurricane and the election, has more than made up for that.

And now I'm ready for, hopefully, something else to happen.

Well.

The job search continues, but it is slow again. And that was before the election, so don't say it was due to the election's outcome. Instead, it just seems that things are slowing down. AGAIN.

Very annoying.

Also annoying to know that I went through 5 interviews last month and only 2 are still viable. And I have serious doubts about one of 'em. I am sure the figure is really 1 - I just haven't seen that absolute, final nail rammed into that coffin.

Whatevs.

Onto sports.

Or, rather, the weight loss world.

In this area, there isn't a helluva lot to report, either. I continue to trade around the same five or so pounds. I continue to walk and lift weights (er, not at the same time). I shoveled snow last week. And so it goes.

And -- things are kinda dull.

But in a way that's good. For while it may feel routine, the truth of the matter is, life is routine because this IS my life. Daily walk? Check. Healthy food? Check. More water drinking than I'd prefer? Check that, too.

It's true, you lose enthusiasm. And that can lead you to backslide right into ugly, old behaviors. It's boring!

But the boring part, isn't that kinda what we're striving for, anyway? For things to feel normal? For when they feel normal, I think we feel less tempted by other stuff. I mean, why be tempted by uncomfortable things? And unhealthy behaviors, I've found, are pretty damned uncomfortable in the long run.

Have I convinced you yet? I sure hope so.

Now I gotta go convince myself. ;)

While walking. :)

  
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WOLFKITTY 11/20/2012 10:13PM

    I confess that I came here first even though I was replying to your goodie because I love this song. ;)

Hugs! I like the tedium. It's comforting. It makes me think twice before driving through a fast food place - - It makes me notice how extra salty take out food is. It makes me miss exercise if I'm sidelined for some reason.

Yay for that kind of tedium. I'll take it over the headaches, lethargy, and back pain, oh and boredom from eating the same gross-y junk food.

Hugs,
Jocelyn

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/14/2012 5:13AM

    OMG "The same old ugly behaviors." They are boring. That is for sure.

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DDOORN 11/12/2012 8:31PM

    The new normal...such a quiet challenge, isn't it? No bells & whistles, no fanfare, just plugging away and locking things down so that they are automatic.

Cheers to that and enjoying "quiet times"...gotta recharge so that we're ready for "interesting times"...! :-)

Don

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PHEBESS 11/12/2012 4:16PM

    Routines keep us from backsliding - because the new routine becomes the new norm.

And job hunting slows down during holiday season - it's that last quarter of the year, businesses focus on accounting and partying, and then start a new fiscal year in January - should improve then. Not easy, I know, but true.

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MS.ELENI 11/12/2012 1:51PM

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JOPAPGH 11/12/2012 11:57AM

    Here's to the new normal, boring and all. Saw TMBG just a few years ago with my son, who is a rabid fan. Good time.

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SEXBOBOMB 11/12/2012 11:42AM

    I'm a TMBG fan as well -- less so of their current stuff, more of their older stuff.

Do you know about this?
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CHEETARA79 11/12/2012 11:38AM

    That song really brings me back. I was obsessed with that album when it came out. I saw TMBG live at WPI back in the late 90s!

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I'm not a Coward, I've just Never Been Tested

Monday, November 05, 2012

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Again, this is a song that I picked up long before Hurricane Sandy. There are quite a few images of devastation from my home town and surrounding environs. And it really is awful to see. My folks, who still live in the area, fled after a few days of no power. According to a neighbor, there is now power on an adjacent street. Hence when they return on Tuesday to vote, I think we can assume the electrons will be lassoed and corralled and back to doing what they were supposed to have been doing all along.

But through it all, considering even this, the truth is, the blog title still stands.

What awful things have happened to me? I lost my grandparents when I was pretty young - I never knew my father's father at all. I have lost jobs, and I have held work that I hated. Other relatives are gone; I am utterly uncle-free now. Friends have been through divorces, and have lost their parents. I have been through some weather muck of my own.

But in much of it, it seems, I am the detached observer. My parents are still here. My house is still standing. My credit is not torn to shreds. My marriage is strong and vibrant.

I am not asking for calamities to now fall on my head. Don't misunderstand me. But I am trying in some small way to gain and nurture perspective.

The other day, amidst all of the FB status updates about Sandy and getting power back and helping others, or not having power, or waiting in gas lines, or concern for others, or about the election, there was one Facebook status update that stood out like a sore thumb.

It was someone whining about gaining a few pounds.

I about leapt out of my seat.

Cripes.

Now, for this person, perhaps that was the end of the world. But really!

Slow down. Take a deep breath. Look around you.

A boatload (heh, pun partly intended) of people are now homeless. Schools are still closed. Infrastructure needs to be repaired.

There's an election going on. There is a lot of unemployment. Cancer and HIV still ain't cured.

Let's go global. Ever see pictures of an Indian slum? How 'bout pollution in Bulgaria? Animals that we call pets other people often call food. There's a lot out there, and a lot of it isn't sunshine and roses.

But through it all - the focus was on - what?!!??! - a few pounds gained.

Hey, you had pounds to gain.

The world is not just a black cloud. There is plenty of goodness. There are reams of wonder. There are wild horses, and there are people falling in love. There are folks who are fighting for change. There are scientists working for cures, and doctors delivering babies. There are ancient folk imparting their wisdom and there are engineers designing better tools for our lives. There are kids helping little old ladies across the street, and there are families adopting puppies and kittens. There are stars and there are chrysanthemums. There are books to read, and there's art to appreciate, or even to critique.

Pounds will come, and pounds will go. Step back and have some perspective and chill the F out when it comes to only a few of 'em. I am not saying to let yourself go.

What I am saying is - give yourself a break, and give the world a break. Hell, ya both need it.

  
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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/7/2012 8:55PM

    Funny that. On my FB page there appeared the usual Spark updates..."hit like if you did 10 minutes of fitness"...sort of stuff. In the midst of all kinds of chaos being posted by pals. I usually like it. And I like it here. But Spark posts felt out of place during Sandy. It ought to be a relief to keep the focus on something I am woking to control. It isn't though.

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PICKIE98 11/6/2012 3:12PM

    I am embarrassed for that person, to be so shallow and narcissistic! I hav eno aunts, no uncles, no dad, no grandparents, a handful of cousins and a mom and two sisters.
I am grateful I had some of those lost for a while in my life,, I just replaced two toilets!! I did not grumble, because I HAVE TWO TOILETS, TWO BATHROOMS... they are enclosed inside walls, not flooded or without power.. I was able to pay for them, able to work to get the $$ to pay.. etc, ad nauseum..

I gained too: a new perspective on what is really important in life..


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TEMPEST272002 11/5/2012 2:50PM

    Perspective really is key. And you're absolutely right - a few pounds gained is not a calamity.

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MS.ELENI 11/5/2012 12:20PM

    Well Said !!!!!!!! emoticon

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GUITARWOMAN 11/5/2012 12:19PM

    You know, I believe that those of us who go through life and do the best we can with what we've got are being tested every day.

Don't sell yourself short.

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QUAIL75 11/5/2012 12:10PM

    I completely agree! You have to keep things in perspective and count your blessings!

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DDOORN 11/5/2012 11:58AM

    Great thoughts Jes, a little perspective goes a long way toward keeping one's sanity, eh? :-)

Don

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