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Coming to Town With the Brief Case Blues

Monday, November 07, 2011

So - I am, already, bored silly.

I think it has more to do with the facts that (a) the weather is changing and I KNOW that SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is on its way and (b) this is the kind of job I was trying to get away from when I went to work for the 'Bot Boys.


It's not horrible. Really.

I have a wonderful commute, and I can walk home for a good 25 - 30 mins every night unless it's icy. The people are nice. The pace is easy (despite what they seem to think; truly, there is not too much happenin' here. Then again, I multitask so much that it often seems like there is less to do than, perhaps, there really is). I am updating my skills. I am meeting people. I am repairing my bank accounts and paying off my mortgage.

And I am, flat-out, bored.

In other news, I completed my 24th 5K yesterday. I did it in 44:47, which is an okay (worst third or so of my times) time for me, and I was dead last, which is a position I am more than used to, so no worries.

I also did it - CONFESSION TIME - using performance-enhancing drugs.

I know, shocking, right?

I am a naughty girl.

Those drugs were 2 Advil. And it was a much nicer 5K than I normally have. I had taken the 2 tablets about 3 hours earlier and forgotten about them. Then, as I am joggin' along, I thought to myself, hey, the bottom of my foot doesn't hurt. My shins feel good. I am not feeling like I have to constantly wheeze.

I am so in space that it took until about Mile #2 before I realized why I felt as lovely as I did.

Heh, so, this one needs a big ole asterisk. Mucho scandal!

One more to go this year (Somerville Jingle Bell Run), in December. And then we wrap it up until March (Somerville Ras Na Hieram Run).

The December race will, hopefully, not be too snowy and cold. Yesterday, I definitely wore the right combo of clothes (performance fleece hoodie, long-sleeve performance something-or-other material shirt, shorts, workout tights, 2 pairs o' socks, sports bra, unmentionable underthingies, sneaks, a Red Sox baseball cap and convertible mitten-gloves). When I got hot, I de-layer-ified. When I cooled down, I re-layer-ified. At any rate, I'd like to keep the same outfit for next month. I gotta say, I am glad to be married for a lotta reasons, but one of 'em is the fact that I get to not give a damn about what I wear to a race. I KNOW I look wicked bizaah.

But I am wearing a Red Sox cap while doing it, which accessorizes pretty much any ensemble but a Prom dress.

Onward to less boring times.

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STRINGS58 11/13/2011 11:03AM

    still moving forward! I saw that you got a 1000 monthly fitness award the day that I'm writing this. congrats all the way around!

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MS.ELENI 11/9/2011 5:02PM

    I just think you are awesome all the time

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CODYG123 11/8/2011 7:58AM

    Yeah for your wonderful blogs. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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DMPRIDER 11/7/2011 10:33PM

    I hope the financial remuneration makes up for the boring part until something better comes along. I am bored and not happy with my work too. I am just starting on the track to change that and it's going to be a long haul.

Congrats on your race. I hope to get back to running someday or at least get the OK to do some serious walking and start walking some 5Ks.

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    So how much do you jog and how much do you walk? I only did one 5K. MM's fundraiser for a charity she supports. I had fun but not only was I last, they took away the finish line and went on with the festivities and nobody cheered for me except me. I think I will try another. But I am only going to walk. And I want to do one with you.

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CAROLISCIOUS 11/7/2011 8:14PM

    You make me wanna sign up for a 5K.

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PROVERBS31JULIA 11/7/2011 5:55PM

    Red Sox sounds like a nice enough accessory, I guess ..... but if you are bored, I guess you could try wearing a Dallas Cowboys hat for real excitement. Who knows? it might even vastly improve your 5K times, as you find yourself having to trot MUCH faster on your commute home, to avoid all the angry faces!!



Happy Monday!


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MALCONTENTION 11/7/2011 1:57PM

    Sorry your job is boring, but I'm glad there's a paycheck to compensate you. I also know that you know how to find other types of entertainment!

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DDOORN 11/7/2011 12:19PM

    Kudos to keeping up with the 5K's! And am I ever WITH you regarding the seasonal changes...this Daylight Savings upheaval, ugh! These months ahead can't hurry along any faster...sheesh!


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VEEJAY3 11/7/2011 12:01PM

    Well, you just make me feel a million times lazy. Because last night ... I crocheted with performance-enhancing drugs: two Aleve. Seems I have a bit of arthritis in my hands (how could that possibly BE????? HUGE shock to Baby Boomers when they have an "old person's" issue).

Yep: that's you running, and me crocheting. (I DID swim a mile earlier in the day ... let's count that, shall we?)

Sorry you're bored; you could always mentally write a novel while mindlessly going about rote tasks ...

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ARLENE_MOVES 11/7/2011 11:45AM

    I love you -- you make me smile every time I read your blog. Such a way with words. It's amazing how I can almost see you from your description.!! emoticon

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IFDEEVARUNS2 11/7/2011 10:02AM

    I take performance enhancing drugs all the times when I race. Couldn't do it without Advil!
I'd actually like to see that prom dress with the Red Sox cap. But then my daughter gave me a chicken purse for my birthday (gotta take a pic) so what do I know about style!

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VALERIEMAHA 11/7/2011 10:02AM

    Less boring times indeed -- like the glee of reading a Jespah Blog!!!

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My Supper Dish, My Succotash Wish

Monday, October 31, 2011

Yeah, I know it's Halloween, but I'm not gonna blog about that, not really.

Anyway, there was the first snowfall of the season the other day. And while much of the remainder of the East Coast was, effectively, hammered, Mr. J and I sighed a collective "Meh" at the devastation wrought by ...


... wait for it ...

MAYBE three-quarters of an inch of the white stuff IF you were being mondo-generous.

The 5K we were supposed to run was cancelled. And that one starts (I kid you not) right outside our house! In any event, I am guessing that the race organizers could not get in. There were, after all, parts of the Commonwealth which were walloped by a good 30". But by us? Not so much.

I am fully aware that things will get ugly soon enough, and I will be wishing for this. I just found it a tad amusing.

This morning, the roads were clear and extremely low on traffic. Both of the other people in my department worked from home today (in fact, by my boss's place, he said it looked like a tornado had hit). I suspect plenty of other people did as well. Lots of folks lost power, some for days already.

Again, huh?

I know, I know, karma.

So I'll shaddap now about the weather, except to say that it seems that Winter really is arriving early, snowfall by my place notwithstanding, as it is getting cold again. This is less me with my chattering teeth when the mercury dips below 50 as opposed to actual, measurable temperatures. As in, by the time I got to the office this morning, it was 33.

Yeah, I don't envy the trick or treaters. Nope. Not one iota.

It feels like we should be handing out espressos.

"Here ya go, kid! Trust me; you want this more than a Mounds bar."

Actually, we keep our light off. Yes, we are THOSE kinds of people.

But, in all seriousness, we live in a college bedroom area. Most of the "young" people are old enough to drink alkyhawl. Any small children need to be imported. And sorry, I am not gonna bring in candy (and its resultant temptations) to our house in order to give it to, in all seriousness, perhaps 2 kids who go by. Or to a passel of BC students.

"Go Eagles! Here are your 50 Mounds bars."

Perhaps I'll give them the espressos.

Come to my house.

Bring your own mug and spoon.

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LAB-LOVER 11/1/2011 7:09AM

    Halloween was cancelled here... No need to hide with the lights off because there are no lights! We are among the lucky with power and heat, but no cable. But for my iPad, I would not be online. Happy November!

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DDOORN 10/31/2011 10:06PM

    Yeah, Halloween? No big deal around here. I celebrated by heading back to my fitness center which finally re-opened. Now we can peaceably walk through stores with the Halloween treats tucked away and brace for the Christmas goodies! :-)


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VALERIEMAHA 10/31/2011 11:31AM

    A woman after my own heart..."Here ya go, kid! Trust me; you want this more than a Mounds bar." I'll be right over with my mug!

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MS.ELENI 10/31/2011 11:07AM

    We are one of those with lighs out too.After giving out tons of candy here for 30 years we decided to stop.

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CAROLISCIOUS 10/31/2011 10:47AM

    I'll be the first to hold out my mug and spoon and yell, "TrickorTreat" at your door!

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We'll Get There Fast

Monday, October 24, 2011

I am thinking of warm weather (cantcha tell?). It isn't even Halloween. Egad.

So, silly me, I looked at the weather for the week, saw it would be up to 60 something today and figured, hey, I can wear a tank top under me sweater.

Oh, no, no, no, gentle reader.

It's a HIGH of 60-something (64, I think).

The day started off at 40.

For those of you who think in metric - 40 is - freakin' cold. As opposed to 30 which is MORE freakin' cold; 20, which is EVEN MORE freakin' cold; or 10, which is TOTALLY freakin' cold; or 0, which is FUGGEDABBOUDIT.

See, coffee is a multi-tasker. Not only is it necessary in order to pry my eyelids open, it's also needed for warmth.

And so it goes.

What else?

I got m'self new sneaks. This was necessary as the old ones were giving me a hard time. This happens earlier and earlier these days, as I rack up more mileage, faster than ever. We have a 5K a week from yesterday. I could not be getting nastiness from my sneaks from just walking, let alone jogging.

Last year (this will be the Oak Scare 5K), I had a slight wardrobe malfunction, so it'll be interesting to see what happens this time around. One thing I have been doing, ever since two 5Ks ago, has been to, on a daily basis, stretch the sides of my hamstrings. That is, I shoot my leg off to the side and stretch a bit. I'm hoping this can help in the quest to avoid too much in the way of post-race pain and suffering. We'll see.

In other news, I will be in New Hampshire tomorrow, to meet more work people and attempt to, well, I dunno what. I am unable to remote into my work machine, so the day may turn out to be pretty blah and slow. And two plus hours, round trip. Let's not forget that fun. I am not a fan of driving long distances but the weather looks to be decent and the only thing I will have to worry about is, perhaps, a few wet leaves on the highway and the occasional wayward wild turkey or moose. Or deer.

Er, excuse me, deeah.

As we say heeah, "Don't hit a deeah, it'll total yah cahh."

I will be careful. I think the deeah have little to worry about.

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AIRPEACH 10/25/2011 2:55PM

    Yay new sneakers!
I'm happy to see the heat of Summer finally leave, although some more time of in-between temps would have been nice. Of course, who am I kidding - lol!

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DMPRIDER 10/25/2011 12:28PM

    I hear you about the weather. I find that the cold is getting to me earlier and earlier each year and it takes longer for me to warm up in the Spring. Ah middle-age!

Safe travels to NH. Hopefully the sunshine and turning leaves will make it a pretty drive.

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ARLENE_MOVES 10/24/2011 6:30PM

    Stay safe on your trip to NH. By the way, several years ago, I hit a deer, or should I say, the deer hit me, and it did total my cahh. And scared the crap outa me. I still have trouble driving by the stop.

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MS.ELENI 10/24/2011 5:46PM

    When I lived in NC I had a large black bear run in front of my car. No one believed me. emoticon

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DDOORN 10/24/2011 4:06PM

    I hear you on that cold...! I saw the forecast yesterday for sunny & 60...thinking YES! Get out on the bike!

It was 39 in the morning, when I usually like to leave so I have the whole day ahead to enjoy on two wheels!

Yeesh...lotsa stuff to do around the house until 2:30 when it hit 50...THEN got out on the bike for a quickie 38 mile ride...yes! :-)


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BIGGEEKDAD 10/24/2011 4:00PM

    Good luck on the 5K

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MARCHMAID 10/24/2011 2:38PM

    Here I thought the real message was going to be "We'll get there. FAST!" (i.e., don't eat.)


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CAROLISCIOUS 10/24/2011 2:31PM

    I see you have another Florida fan! I'm sure by now your day is almost done. Hope you were able to stay warm and out of the path of wildlife!

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STRINGS58 10/24/2011 12:56PM

    It's a gorgeous day in Florida - these days are rare, starting out cool and then get lovely -- usually it starts muggy and then gets HOT and muggy.

I hope you enjoy meeting the new peeps and yes, avoid hitting deeah! Keep up the work. It is about lifestyle.

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Our Goose is Cooked

Monday, October 17, 2011

This is going to be a bit of a mixed bag blog 'cause I don't have a central focus right now.

Topic Numbah One.

I am cold.

Well, not RIGHT now (as I am in the office), but this is nuts. Here it is, we are less than 2/3 of the way through October and all I can think of is, I hate this, I am miserably cold and we aren't even halfway through the autumn.

Now, some things are conspiring (but hear me out!) to keep me cold. One is, I could be wearing a warmer jacket. But I did that last year, and all that happened was that I was still cold, and then, when it got really bad and I was at Defcon-5 in terms of bundlage, I had nowhere to go, for months.

At some point, one gets too Eskimo-ey, and you end up looking 5' x 5' and are wearing a ski mask and hey, I suppose I could knock over a liquor store while I'm at it. Long as they've got heat.

So my plan for this year is to make the effort to stay strong as long as possible. Hence this morning, I had on a short-sleeve shirt, a long-sleeve moleskin shirt over it, a fiberfill vest, a pair of fiber-y fake-o pretend wool gloves, a pair of chinos, regular socks and regular sneakers. And I was cursing the day and thinking about how much I wanted my leather jacket. But I am trying to hold out for an under 50 degree morning for that, or November first, whichever comes first.


Yeah, yeah, yeah, I moved to New England voluntarily. And I love it here. But after losing a good 135 lbs. (and despite the fact that I still have a passel o' insulating fat), I am still freezing once the mercury goes below 60.

See, this is one of the things they don't tell you about losing a boatload o' weight - JUST HOW FREAKIN' COLD YOU WILL BECOME FOR THE REST OF YOUR *(CHILLY)* DAYS.

Don't tell me to chillax.

Every day is chill, babe.

Topic Numbah Two.

I am working now (I told everyone on the planet; I have little doubt that you are now sick of this), and the world of regular work is, still, a source of great amusement, mystery and fascination. I find the land o' cubicles to be captivating much of the time. Life's little observations, as it were.

Case in pernt.

This morning, I break out the NEW oatmeal. It is not much different from the old stuff, save that it comes in a nifty vertical pack to save space and it has some mild chocolate-y flavor. I am looking forward to this as I have a sad little life and need the excitement. I go to the coffee area (where, among other things, there is a cappuccino machine the size of Neptune that makes sounds like an aircraft carrier when it's engaged) and I begin to pour hot water into the acid green bowl (hey, it wakes me up!) and then I start pouring coffee into my big honkin' BU mug. I figure it is good coffee if it is named after some Third World Country (in this case, Sumatra).

And I must've been staring at the oatmeal a lil too long, as I am tired and I am zoning out, plus I am not yet caffeinated and the NEW oatmeal has larger oats than the old stuff and so it is not absorbing the water as quickly. I suppose I appeared contemplative.

So some dude I had never seen before comes over and says, "I can never get the amount of water, right, either." And I snap out of it and realize he is talking about the oatmeal. We begin discussing the fact that the only good way to eat oatmeal is if it is barely wet. Flavored wallpaper paste is my oatmealian Nirvana. The spoon MUST be able to stand up.

I go back to my desk (Note: Oatmeal Dude is kinda good-lookin') and I suddenly think, Was Oatmeal Dude hittin' on me?

I have no idear. Not that I care or anything (I am married, etc. and even a serious bonding experience over Splenda-flavored spackling will not make me jump ship or anything), but it did give me pause.

That was a few hours ago and since I never saw Oatmeal Dude before, and I have not seen him since, I am instead suspecting that this was a Sumatra coffee-fume-influenced fever dream and instead I was probably just talking to the cappuccino machine.

Topic Numbah Three.

There was a recent article, er, somewhere (perhaps in my fever dream) about what Steve Jobs can teach us all about the world o' work. And all I can think of is, now that the dude is dead, his name is gonna be used to invoke all sorts of stuff. Not that this was inaccurate or not nice or whatever, but I predict that, at some point, we will begin to see those awful chain letters with positive messages of hope that, if we break the chain WE WILL DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH INVOLVING SHOVELS.

But ... the article.

It said, among other lovely things, that one should do meaningful work.

And yeah, that's an awfully nice thing.

And I know people, here and elsewhere, who do awesome, meaningful work. They are nurses, they save the environment, they are teachers, they invent stuff, etc. etc. etc.

But yanno something?

Quite a few of us do things that are pretty dang mundane. This morning, I ran four database reports. Now, financial decisions will be made based upon my stuff (yes, the company I work for is more or less right in the gunsights of the Occupy movement - we see them nearby, every morning. There are often the sounds of singing coming from their lil encampment), but, really, c'mon, people! Empires will neither rise nor fall based upon my happy little database reports.

And yanno something?

It's all good.

And I don't mean that in a patronizing - "oh, it's okay that you're not important" kind of passive-agressive BS manner. No.

Instead, what I mean is, many of us do not make either the grand gestures or even the midrange gestures. We make small gestures. And those remain vital as well. Empires may neither rise nor fall, but we still help make the Earth turn.

We make your morning coffee. We drive your bus. We deliver your paper. We walk your dog. We fix your computer. We sell you your insurance. And yeah, we deliver database reports, too.

We are the fabric of life, just as surely as the heart surgeon and the astronaut and the soldier are. We are everyday Janes and Joes. I hesitate to use the phrase "everyday hero", as I feel it is overdone. But the finish line is the same for all.

And yeah, there's even an actual weight loss point in the midst of all of this Sumatra-fueled brain mixmaster detritus, so thick that you can stand up a spoon in it!

We all LOVE the grand gesture, the big thing. And big things are nice. They are happy things where we circle the date on our calendar and we burn it into our brains.

But the real work of weight loss, and of maintenance, is in the little gestures, the small moments. That piece of pie that goes untouched. The walk that is ten minutes longer. The heavier groceries that are carried. The water that is drunk instead of soda. It adds up, and it works.

And it is what makes our own, little, private Earths turn.

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GEE-KNEE 10/22/2011 7:09PM

    The cold is weird isn't it? The first year after I lost the first 100, it was painfully cold. Like my teeth would chatter and my bones hurt... strange. It's gotten better, but I live in CA where it rarely gets under 60 degrees.

And secondly, I have one of those emotionally rewarding jobs. I do behavior therapy with kids with autism. Those jobs pay crap... rich in emotional payback, but not enough to really live on. I like nice things... I need a MA just make a living wage in my field... Oh and I occasionally get bitten, scratched, and hit. :)

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KAYWEB555 10/22/2011 6:51AM

    I do so enjoy your writing ! So don't think that you don't add something to the pile. WE each do someting that is worthy of our taking up space here on Earth!

As for cold. Just think of it as another way of getting your metabolism to work harder at losing the weight! It takes calories burning to warm your body and those calores come from the fat that you have stored up ! Look at it from the bright side !

Thanks so much for sharing with us !

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    You may me laugh and that is a gift in my life. Sorry kid. Nothin ordinary about you. It just aint so. And I am so glad to have you in my evenings.

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MADERINERUE 10/18/2011 6:44PM

    You ARE a writer, Jess! This made me laugh out loud:

"I am instead suspecting that this was a Sumatra coffee-fume-influenced fever dream and instead I was probably just talking to the cappuccino machine."

Of COURSE dude was hitting on you. You are so funny and wise and interesting that everyone wants to stand next to you and talk about oatmeal. I know I do!

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KINSBAILE 10/18/2011 9:54AM

    You should be a writer :)

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CAROLCRC 10/18/2011 8:56AM

    Loved your blog. As a fellow database report geek - it spoke to me.

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DMPRIDER 10/18/2011 12:01AM

    Thanks for the reminder that we are all part of the fabric of life even if we aren't making the grand gesture or saving the world etc. And thanks too for the reminder that the little things add up in weight loss efforts too. Both good things to be reminded of, so again, thanks.

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CAROLISCIOUS 10/17/2011 7:18PM

    #1 I'm cold all the time too...and I live in Florida. The downside of being a skinny betch.

#2 That was great fun to read! I love your writing!

#3 We ALL, great and small, make the word go round. And yes, with weight loss, that seeming small stuff counts more than I'm sure I realize. Thanks for the reminder.

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ARLENE_MOVES 10/17/2011 7:13PM

    Neat read - love reading your blogs - so human! You are human right -- yea, you have to be to love Bostons so much. Have you gotten one yet? Hope so, it would really make you happy!!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 10/17/2011 3:58PM

    Oh man. I was SO COLD yesterday while on the river kayaking. Yes I had long underwear on under my dry suit. But oh man. It is that damp sort of cold that crawls up your spine, chills your core, and stays there. Screw being strong. I'm putting on more layers. And I don't care if I look like the Michelin Man, ready to knock over a gas station. LOL

And yeah, the little things can even add up to big things, so yay little things.

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JOPAPGH 10/17/2011 3:56PM

    Were those the TPS reports? Did you get your own red stapler? If you never saw "Office Space", nevermind.

I love that Bostonians drop all kinds of "R"s ("party" = "PAH-DEE"), then add then where they don't exist ("idear")

And you are right: the day to day mucking and grinding is what leads to successful weight loss and maintenance.

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DDOORN 10/17/2011 3:42PM

    True, true enough...! Feeling the cold here too...BUT: I hate wearing any more clothes than necessary and am willing to put up with the cold. Yesterday's bike ride I was the ONLY ONE in shorts & T-shirt...everyone thought I was crazy...including MYSELF when the wind was!


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TRICOTINE 10/17/2011 12:41PM

    I know how you feel about the cold in New England... Freezing my Mediterranean self to the bones every winter... brrrr

Gaining weight for the cold season is like a life-saving thing; preparation for winter means adding a layer of fat, hopefully a thin one you can get rid of easily in the spring... emoticon

That's what I have been doing for years now...

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MS.ELENI 10/17/2011 11:15AM

    You sound like you are doing good.

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VEEJAY3 10/17/2011 11:14AM

    As always, I love to follow your quirky, smart brain around when you're pensive. RE Topic #3 ... have you ever read The Fred Factor? I heard the author speak once (and Fred, himself, was in the audience!) ... it's about doing whatEVER you do -- even if you're a cleaning lady, a postman (as is Fred) or Steve Jobs, with passion.


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MARCHMAID 10/17/2011 11:05AM

    You may be certifiable. Or at least certifiably amusing. Bundle up and enjoy October. The best month of the year in my book. ; )

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VALERIEMAHA 10/17/2011 10:41AM loves your MIND!!! emoticon

My but Sumatra has quite a following it seems. Sumatra Dark Roast Organic is my bean of choice because it is particularly low acid but HIGH on flavor!

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VANYELMOON 10/17/2011 10:33AM

    Nicely put and quite amusing. Thanks for waking me up! I think I'll have one more cup of Sumatra :)

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What's in your Mind

Monday, October 10, 2011

Right now, there's not much in mine. I have a lovely cold, first one of the season. This is, in part, related to the temperatures wildly fluctuating recently. It's also due to the stress/lifestyle change of starting a new job. My sleep schedule is different, my foods are different (albeit good), my exercise is different, my clothes are different. You get the picture. Differences, in my life, abound.

I had a talk with my folks relatively recently. They are considering moving, and have found a good, suitable place (my father is eighty; my mother is not too far behind). And ... suddenly there is a lot less enthusiasm for the move. I don't know if it's that they've run out of gas. I suppose that is a part of it.

But another piece of it is a resistance to the changes. The place will be smaller. They will be in another section of town - which means distance from some friends. Shopping will be different. Etc. etc. etc. on and on, changes, big and small.

And, well, YEAH. Things are going to change. For better or for worse, they are going to change. And they are going to change whether that change is desired or not. A choice is made, even when no choice is made. Instead, it becomes a passive choice, an acceptance, perhaps, but also inaction.

Just because they, perhaps, do not move, or do not move with gladness in their hearts, does not mean that moving stops being a good idea. It does not mean that time ceases in its endless march.

And the same is true for all of us.

As we step along, we can choose to be healthy, and do the right things, or not, or we can sit around and let life happen to us.

It is often a lot easier to just let life happen to us. And as we go along, and it's a chore to climb stairs or walk a mile, we shrug and say to ourselves things like ~

* That's just how life is
* I'm not meant to be at a healthy weight
* It's my bone structure/my genetics/my mother/my horoscope/whatever that is to blame
* C'est la vie; I'll fix it later

And later never comes. Or, if it does come - as is in my own case, BTW - it is so much harder, for we are older, and that makes the gradient that much steeper, and we have gained more weight, which makes the road that much longer.

And it's so hard to eat right, or drink the water, and we shrug and say things to ourselves like ~

* I'll only have a little bit - but that bit isn't so little
* I can't drink that much water! I can't live in the bathroom
* Only 400 calories for a meal? I can't live this way!
* I'm a junk food junkie. Don't take away my burgers and fries!
* The kids' Halloween candy doesn't count because it's their candy, right?
* If I don't track it, it's like I never had it, right?

And on and on, in these seemingly endless circles of denial. And I understand some of it, or at least some degrees of it. I get the thing about the bathroom - so the answer is to do your best to spread out the water, and it won't be so bad. And you'll get used to it (Really!). I understand the 400 calories thing. It can feel like deprivation when you are getting started. But you will get used to that as well. And you will get used to eating better foods as you go along, too. You become used to what you do. Continue eating junk and you'll never get used to eating right, and eating less. But eat less, and eat better food, and you will start to actually CRAVE it.

Resisting doing well for yourself is not harming anyone but you.

Complaining about what you need to do is not getting you anywhere.

Cheating on the tracking, the weight training, the water drinking or anything else is not somehow fooling the rest of us. We are watching, a little, but, frankly, we're doing our own things, yanno. And we are not weighing and measuring how you are living YOUR life. Ultimately, you have to do well for yourself, and be honest with yourself, and face up to what you are or are not doing for YOURSELF.

The rest of it is noise.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ERIN1022 10/16/2011 11:25PM

    This post ROCKS and gave me a needed kick in the pants!

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/16/2011 5:11PM

    Sorry to hear about your cold. I guess it's just that time of year.

Great blog. Thanks for the insight.


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TELERIE 10/13/2011 9:29AM

    You're so right!

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DMPRIDER 10/12/2011 10:18PM

    Thanks for the reality check!

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    Wow was this in time for me. Great Blog. Great reminders.

Sorry you are sick. But you are productive. That is for sure.

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MARCHMAID 10/12/2011 6:19PM

    Let's here it for Caroliscious and the salad goody cravings!

Maybe that should be the new Nun thread: Nuns do it with salad! Let us count the ways and ingredients. : )

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DDOORN 10/11/2011 9:57AM

    Count on Jes to tell it like it is...! Love your "ultimately" sentence!

Thx for being there...


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CAROLISCIOUS 10/10/2011 7:38PM

    I have to disagree with your first sentence. After reading this, there is a LOT in your mind. You are SO right. Excuses keep you fat. And I totally CRAVE my nightly salad...and I love planning all the wonderful healthy things I can add to a bowl of lettuce!

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BLUEANGELLK 10/10/2011 1:23PM

    So true... so true....

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MS.ELENI 10/10/2011 1:10PM

    Ok OK I guess I need to stop making noises and do something constructive

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JOPAPGH 10/10/2011 12:28PM

    Congratulations on the new job and ensuing life changes.

I am fighting my first cough/cold. I blame recycled airplane air on a transcontinental flight back from San Diego.

Hope this passes soon; I run my first marathon in less than two weeks.

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