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It Happens to be True

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Today's entry is devoted to my greatest supporter. He's been with me through 11 sizes, 200 lbs. up and down, 3 states lived in, and 7 different career paths, all in the span of close to 20 years.

Through it all he's been unfailingly supportive and kind. He's been patient with the many changes I've gone through and takes it all in stride. This latest journey has him very excited as we're doing so much more together. When walking is already happening, can basketball, wiffleball and frisbee be far behind?

He's also been incredibly patient with the changes in our diet. We eat different foods now, and the junk food is out of the house. And that doesn't seem to faze him. In fact, without breaking too much of a sweat, both literally and figuratively, he's lost a good 9 lbs.! Plus he's become an oatmeal convert and is learning to really enjoy my new repertoire. Heck, he makes a good half of our meals. He's into it, and that helps in so many ways.

This guy I'm talking about is my incredible husband. And I call that a bargain.

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PICKIE98 3/29/2009 12:34PM

    You picked a winner!! Does he have any brothers???

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    The first paragragh sounds like my hubby except its going on 37 years but after that it all ends. He would never give up his chips and pop. He still doesn't care what I change too but he will never give up his goodies. He wants to. He feels sick all the time but he tries for a day or two and gives up. I have also been sick . My stomach is not likeing the sudden changes I have tried to give it new food with the yeast flakes and agave nectar ( which I quit after reading some negatives) and soy( which it won't tolerate). I think we have to make these changes slowly, a little at a time.

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JESPAH 3/28/2008 6:29AM

    Poor guy's gonna be sooooo embarrassed. 0:)

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TCEDEROTH 3/28/2008 12:27AM

    What an uplifting blog. I love to hear that kind of stuff.

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CHANARO 3/27/2008 10:33PM

    Awwwww!!! That's so sweet!

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State of Shock

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

No joke.

Not a good day, although it started off just fine.

Not a diet issue, not an exercise issue. Just a job issue.

So now I have to look, deal with the resume, all of that stuff.

So excuse me if I'm around less. I have to take care of this, and do it without turning to food for solace. I know I can do that -- just have to translate that confidence over to the search.

I hate looking for work. I hope it's done quickly.

See you all, soon I hope.

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JESPAH 3/27/2008 6:14AM

    Thank you. I'm feeling better 'cause now I'm on a mission.

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CHANARO 3/27/2008 1:09AM

    Good luck on the job search! I hope you find one you like better than the one that ended.

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MUNTERMORMOR 3/26/2008 10:08PM

    Oh no! I was wondering what happened to you. It is awful when we get blindsided like that. I went through losing a job I loved, but had a feeling it was going to happen. Just wasn't ready for it when it did. Everything turned out okay.

I'll include you in my prayers tonight.


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JESPAH 3/26/2008 8:52PM

    Thank you. Feeling a little better now that I have the resume together.

I wonder if my suits fit. Oof.

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KARBIE18 3/26/2008 8:48PM

    So sorry to hear you're going through hard times. My thoughts will be with you. Go out and knock 'em dead!


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Red Sox, you are the only only only

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Okay, yeah, I'm a fan. A huge fan (although I'm getting smaller).

Today was Opening Day and it all started super-early because it was being played in Tokyo. Things did not look good for our boys. They were losing, 2-0 in the first inning, then it was tied, then 3-2 (and they were still losing), then 4-4 and an extra inning and then it was 6-4 and we were winning (well, they were; I didn't actually swing a bat for them although I did so in spirit), then Oakland scored and it was again not looking too great. But they pulled it out and won, 6-5.

But this entry isn't about the Red Sox, not really, despite the title.

It's about pulling it out even when things look hopeless. It's about turning things around.

Not to be too self-indulgent, but a plateau is sort of like that. It's easy to feel that it's suddenly hopeless, that the good times are behind you because YOU SCREWED UP BADLY. Even if you didn't screw up, even if you did everything right, that nagging feeling creeps into the back of your brain. You know that feeling, that little voice. That's the one that says, "You're not meant to succeed at this. You're never going to be thin. It's meant for everyone but YOU. YOU will never get there. So just throw in the towel, right now, because it's hopeless."

But there's more than one inning in the game, and more than one chance in life. Right now, I'm in a small slump. But the key word there is "small". The way you get out of a slump is, you keep batting. You keep swinging. You keep trying. Because eventually you're going to connect, and then it'll be as if the slump never happened.

I am here to say that I am still batting. I am still swinging. I have not taken my bat and gone home. No, no. Not yet. NOT ME.

PS I got to meet Jim Rice today, and got his autograph! :)

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JESPAH 3/26/2008 6:11AM

    Oh my thank you all. You're so kind. :) (blush)

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TCEDEROTH 3/26/2008 2:40AM

    Great attitude! Kenny Rogers wrote a song about a little boy who kept telling himself he was the greatest ballplayer ever. He kept throwing his ball up and swinging at it and missing it. When the time came for him to go home, he walked home, telling himself that he is the greatest, that's a fact, but even he didn't know he could pitch like that. You're the greatest pitcher there is, and you WILL win the ballgame. P.S.- f you want the song, sparkmaiil me with your regular email address and I'll send it to you.

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VANYELMOON 3/26/2008 12:30AM

    It's wonderful how you are staying positive and what a great analogy. We all can get out of this slump we just have to keep at it.

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KARBIE18 3/25/2008 10:18PM

    In the middle of a plateau too, but still swinging as well. It's people like you who have made it easier to stick with it this time. So glad you are staying positive. Keep it up.


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BRIANS103 3/25/2008 8:28PM


This is - by far - the best blog entry I have read since being on SP. You get it. Congrats and never give up!


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It was nowhere except for where they stood

Monday, March 24, 2008

I'm on a plateau. While they're less than fun, they're not the end of the world. And, frankly, it may turn out to be better for me as, when you continue following plan during a plateau, you tend to lose inches. I haven't been seeing much of an inch loss lately so in some ways I welcome it.

Also, ha, one of my coworkers said he was really noticing my weight loss now. Particularly last Friday -- when I was wearing chinos that I hadn't worn in years -- so the look is out there. I just don't see it because, let's face it, I look at myself with a critical eye all the time. Hence the incremental changes don't look like much of anything to me but that doesn't mean they're not happening.

In the meantime, I stay on plan and do the usual. I'm going to try to mix up my food and my exercise, and get plenty of rest -- all of the things that they say you're supposed to do in order to bust a plateau. It'll go away whenever it wants to, of course, but in the meantime I'm going to, to coin a phrase, stay the course but also try to do what I can to make it shuffle off to Buffalo. Here's another place where patience is going to prove to be a real virtue.

I'm going to play around with the stability ball and see what else I can do with it. I realize that there's plenty that can be done with it, I just need to explore it.

I also want to vary my life a bit by doing some writing. My friend who writes called me yesterday and that was a reminder that I haven't done much of anything in quite a while. He's right; I need to get cracking again.

That'll also take my mind off things. I bet the plateau will be gone before I know it. In the meantime, here's some Nirvana unplugged. Cobain and company goof off quite a bit but they do eventually get down to business. Just like the rest of us.


You say you don't know

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Okay, so the video is weird.

Anyway, the idea behind it is that I got some serious honkin' exercise yesterday.

We did a 2 1/2 mile walk! And a good third of it was uphill! What happened was, I had a package to return and so we walked to the Post Office which is partly uphill. Then it turned out the package was actually UPS so we ended up walking to the closest UPS place, which is by BC! That was even more uphill. The whole thing took about 1 1/2 hrs and we did stop for breaks hence I have listed it as 2.5 mph. It was a very good day and I feel fine albeit a little stiff this morning.

More importantly, I want to get in another walk today. I am enjoying them, particularly getting all that sunlight, which I really need. Can it be that I am starting to actually like exercising? Stay tuned.

PS Re the title: my scale is doing odd things. I am listed as a good 1.6 lbs. higher than yesterday, even after weighing myself at more or less the same time and wearing more or less the same stuff. I recognize that when you have as much exercise as I did, plus eat well (which I did), that kind of increase should not be happening. I do hope it's not breaking, or the battery dying. I'm not worried as I know I'm not bigger or, even if I am, it's muscle, therefore, so what? But I'm a measurements kinda gal so it sneaks into my consciousness as being something troubling even if I don't want it to be. Phooey!

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JESPAH 3/23/2008 3:35PM

    Good advice, thank you.

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KARBIE18 3/23/2008 2:47PM

    Ignore it - it means nothing. If you're being honest with yourself about eating, and you're doing all that exercise, I'm sure the gain is just one of those annoying daily fluctuations. Keep up with the good work, and continue your focus on measurements, and I guarantee you'll be losing again soon. So many of the people on here who have had HUGE losses have gone through the same thing, and, knowing this, I hope you'll tell your conciousness to chill out.

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