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Racing Through the Human Jungles at Night

Monday, January 03, 2011

www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdl5_3HX8bU

I wish the video had the full intro as it is one of the greatest rock riffs ever -- it builds with all sorts of instruments, almost like how an orchestra does its thing.

Anyway. Onto the blog entry.

I came across a great cartoon in the Sunday paper yesterday and I just had to share it. It was a buncha teenagers and tweens, and the caption was just, "We're bored with 2011."

And I was thinking -- now, I recognize that life isn't always perfectly exciting. Most of our lives are spent doing things like waiting in lines, filling gas tanks, paying bills and washing clothes. Life has few moments of greatness, like the moment you say "I do" or you see your child for the first time, or you say good-bye to someone you loved very much, or you graduate, or the house lights come up to thunderous applause for you.

It's funny because we, as a civilized species, have been this way forever -- we record and commemorate and celebrate the hole in one, the prize heifer and the handing down of the tablets from Mount Sinai, but what is often missing from our historical accounts are the way we REALLY live, and have lived. It's hard to know how the ancient Egyptians really lived. I mean the working people, not the Pharaohs. I bet they scolded their children when they were naughty, argued with their spouses over money and forgot to pick up their dirty clothes, sometimes, too.

We, as people, as dieting people for, let's face it, that's the segment of the population we are all in -- we tend to celebrate the big successes all too well. The Personal Record in the run. The new low on the scale. The mastery of a new recipe. The triumph of saying no to the candy dish for the first time.

But what about all of those other times? The ones where we forget to celebrate? You know, where you go out and run because you like it, and you do eh, but you don't care, because it's fun and you got exercise and you spent time with friends and supported a good cause and just plain did something out of your comfort zone? Or where you don't even notice the candy dish because you've passed it by so many times? Or where you make the good-for-you-and-good-for-everyone foods because you just do -- because that's how you cook and you don't even think about it and no one else does, because that's just what you cook?

Yeah.

THOSE.

They have meaning, too. They are the fabric of our lives and, for real, they are more. Because there's only one first time. There's only one best time (although it can change). But there can be a million other times.

Let's not forget about those as we seek out the first times and the best times. We're going to have an awful lot more of those "other" times.

Let's give them their due.

  
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OLIVERNABBYSMOM 1/10/2011 9:19AM

    I loved the blog. Reminds me of the title of a book ... Today is Just the kind of day I hoped it would be. It suggested we say that every single day TODAY IS JUST THE KIND OF DAY I HOPED IT WOULD BE.

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KSGROTHE 1/7/2011 8:52PM

    Well, I'm just catching up on the last 2 of your blogs. I think you're saying here that we need to recognize and celebrate our good habits, the ones that have become so automatic that it's easy to forget that we have actually do them. Sometimes, one gets an epiphany, a realization that, "Hey, I'm doing this good thing that I would not have done before I decided to live a healthy lifestyle, and I've been doing it for a while now." Perhaps more reflection is in order to recognize these occurences more often.

Great blog! Happy New Year! I'm sure you'll make 2011 a great year!

- Karen

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STRINGS58 1/4/2011 6:34AM

    It is something to create a new weave and even a new design in the fabric -- as I'm waking up to do my boot camp video and reading your blog, this relates to me more with scales as I return to orchestra rehearsal tonight. It is a joy to get that interval right, but most people don't know the hours of practice as they only see the performance.

cheers emoticon to all the little installments that create the fabric that we really like in our lives! (and thanks for the Mellancamp! emoticon)

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TRACYZABELLE 1/4/2011 5:56AM

    I have to say I dont get bored often-- there is a new adventure around every corner~~

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CAROLISCIOUS 1/3/2011 8:18PM

    Ahhhhh...here's to the million other times.

Like like like!

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TELERIE 1/3/2011 6:02PM

    Thanks for the reminder to give ourselves a pat on the back for all of THOSE reasons and to celebrate each day because it's got LIFE in it.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 1/3/2011 4:13PM

    Yup. And it's the consistency that matters more than the high points. Without the consistency there wouldn't BE high points...

Keep on keeping on!

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DDOORN 1/3/2011 11:03AM

    Excellent point!

We enrich our lives when we can give ourselves credit for making those zillion healthy choices which result in those greater milestones!

And the more our lives are rich and full of meaningful action, the less likely we'll develop that craving for food to fill the void of an empty life.

Don

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MS.ELENI 1/3/2011 10:27AM

    another good one. Your blogs always make us stop and think. Thanks for sharing

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MARCHMAID 1/3/2011 9:52AM

    Nice. Well said. See ya 'round--in both ordinary and extraordinary times. : )

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HEALTHYME47 1/3/2011 8:43AM

    Yes, you hit the nail on the head - we need to celebrate the little things too! You have a great attitude!

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THISISFORME924 1/3/2011 7:07AM

    Great insight!

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LAB-LOVER 1/3/2011 6:50AM

    You mean its possible NOT to notice the candy dish....

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Now it is Analyzed Just as Though it were Fiction

Monday, December 27, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=V85gk_lbvbU

This song is here, mainly, because it's so dang white outside. We got a good foot or so of snow, possibly more. Hard to say, as it's all packed down -- at least the bits that haven't drifted all over the place. Put in over an hour of shoveling today, and so did Mr. J. This makes us, heh, about 1/3 finished. Seriously.

But it's also here because this is, of course, my retrospective of '10.

I am currently 20.2 lbs. heavier than I was on January 1st. I am one serious three-part surgery later, and nine 5K races later, as well.

All of my measurements are larger, with the total being 14.25" (for bicep, bust, band, belly, hip/butt and thigh). Two or three inches, here or there -- they add up.

I have also been out of work (really) for the entire calendar year, although I've been busying myself with working with a startup robotics company for an equity slice and a dream.

My 5K average race time is also 1:58 less than it was in '09, and I completed three more races this year, including one more than I'd expected to do.

I changed gyms and started to really go more, despite the fact that I could really use the $58/month in my checking account that instead goes to the Y.

I got a lot better at networking and pummelled my resume into submission. I went to a few job interviews but, aside from the 'bot boys, there were no takers.

I dealt with my parents deciding to sell their house and downsize, and the emotions that come with realizing the place where I grew up is about to become someone else's home, and the walls will hold someone else's photographs. I have coped by asking my Dad for his patents, so I can display them here. I don't want anyone else having them except, if he wants them, my brother.

I didn't see friends as often as I wanted to, or as often that would have been best for me. I ate too much that was forgotten or minimized. But I also exercised like a fiend, and hit 90,000+ fitness minutes, a figure that staggers and shocks me. That's 1500 hours, folks. Most people work a good 2,000 or so hours in a year. I imagine I'll hit that magical 2,000 hours (AKA 120,000 minutes) some time in '11 or '12.

And so here are my thoughts for next year, the Nigel Tufnel Year that goes all the way up to 11:
(1) 10 or more 5K races
(2) Gym 3x/week, cardio outside the gym 4x/week unless sick. Weights every day.
(3) Watch the freebie foods as they are not freebies
(4) Hope to get the 20# back off, and more, but see what happens. I've been doing this for a while, plus I'll hit 49 next year. It only gets tougher. I hold out no hope for miracles, just the belief that I can and will do as much of the right thing as possible.
(5) Spend more offline time with friends
(6) Write a boatload more fiction, and think about it, as it is one of the things that makes me happy
(7) Do my best to either get the 'bot boys to succeed or find myself a paying gig.
and --
(8) Continue to be with all of you, to read your thoughts, watch your videos, comment on your silliness, write haikus with you, share bad jokes, support each other when we're down and lift each other up as we find and follow our bliss, whatever that is and wherever it takes us. I am in this for the long haul -- this continues to be a fight to the death.

The prize is you.

  
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WOLFKITTY 1/3/2011 3:09AM

    I love this, Janet!
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LBEEKMA 1/3/2011 12:14AM

    Wow, you've accomplished a mountain of things this past year. I can really relate to your "fight to the death" comment! The struggle really never ends, does it?! (as I gaze at the 7 extra lbs on the scale this morning that I worked so hard to shed for 2 months) We are still fighting so we're still winners! Good luck on the running. I hope to enter my very first 5K (since I was 15) this year!

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 1/1/2011 10:31AM

    This is such an upbeat and happy blog. In spite of your real world challenges. This is what it is really about Jes, I think. You haven truly nailed it and I hope and expect to be right along beside you.

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CAROLISCIOUS 12/29/2010 8:37PM

    You've done good, girl. Taking over and hour to do a 5K is a far-away memory...huh?

Here's to good things in 2011!

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LESS_IS_MO 12/28/2010 8:49PM

    Sounds like a good year overall. (maybe the gaining 20 could be lower down the list, so as not to let it blare out on top of the other accomplishments!)

Great goals! I have to find some seriousness in 2011 as I have gained some weight too - maybe about 7 lbs? I want to find a way to sustain my efforts for more than a half a month. I'm sure a whole month of effort would pay off with some kind of habit formation.

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VALERIEMAHA 12/28/2010 1:18PM

    Winner indeed...in ALL the ways that matter! 2011...WE'RE READY!
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Maha

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MARCHMAID 12/28/2010 12:34PM

    I had sworn I would quit if I didn't reach my goal. I didn't. Some reasons for just barely holding steady were beyond my control--I think. Others were, as usual, my own darn fault.

Thinking maybe Spark can't help if I won't do the work, so will choose what to do soon. I think I'd miss you though, so may have to stay on line.



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DDOORN 12/27/2010 10:20PM

    What a year it's been! Wouldn't have been the same without you!

I'm seeing some of me in your goals ahead...need to be getting out more with others! WAY back in high school / college I dabbled with writing. Short stories and such. Now? I put a creative spin on my assessments and notes...lol! Looking forward to a multi-day, possibly multi-state cycling tour...we'll see what, when and where it turns out to be!

Kudos on all of your goals...they sound PERFECT for you!

Don

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HEALTHYME47 12/27/2010 7:28PM

    I'll bet that some of that 20 pounds is MUSCLE.

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MS.ELENI 12/27/2010 6:06PM

    A lot of us have gained back but we can get it off again.We did it once didn't we.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 12/27/2010 5:22PM

    Sounds like a full year to me, emoticon. I would say you did very well considering all you had to deal with. Here is to 2011! Victoria

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IFDEEVARUNS2 12/27/2010 5:11PM

    You are a winner in my book! emoticon

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Nobody Wants to do the Crazy Things We Used to do Before

Monday, December 20, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=yO-n1bjlUgI

Actually, lots of people do.

Yesterday was the last 5K of the year. It was, of course, holiday-themed so there were Santas and naughty elves a-plenty. Plus an Elvis Santa, a guy with a buncha reindeer, a gal dressed as a Christmas tree, a huge Nutcracker, a guy with a hat with a soft menorah on top and, of course, two guys with Santa hats, sneakers and Speedos (nuthin' else -- oh my).

I love this race. It's just so silly. And, because we were timed with chips behind the bibs, they were able to track everybody! There were a few spots where there were race people with laptops and they'd look up your number and call out your name and town if they could. I distinctly heard them mention Brighton. They may have mentioned my name but I was huffing and also hearing Queen on the iPod so, heh, helfino. At least I heard my city section mentioned. Go Gateway to the Galaxy (Brighton is the Gateway to the Galaxy, at least according to me, because Boston is the Hub of the Universe and Brighton is the Western section)!

Today I'm returning to the gym for the first time in over a week. My cold is gone, despite all that exercising out in the elements yesterday. I am made of sterner stuff than a cold.

What's in store for next year? I am, of course, starting to think of that. More to come later, but I've been trading out the same 6 or so pounds for the past 14 weeks. That's over 1/4 of the year. Ridiculous. That's gotta change. Next year will also bring more 5Ks. And, hopefully, better work/work for pay/no more dependence upon Unemployment (thank you for helping nudge Congress to pass the dang extension already).

I do know that I will be here. I just passed 90,000 freakin' fitness minutes, so I've gotta keep that going. I have so many because I've been here for going on three years. And I count EVERYTHING. And I know you will all come with me.

The chorus of this song is: "Nobody left to run with anymore
Nobody left to do the crazy things we used to do before
Nobody left to run with anymore".

Bull.

  
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LBEEKMA 12/27/2010 12:28AM

    Wow! 90,0000 fitness minutes is fantastic! Thanks for the inspiration...I'm only 88,000 minutes behind you :]

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STRINGS58 12/26/2010 9:38AM

    I'm not cue-ing up the song because I've got twilight zone on tv -- I have the whole series on DVD, but I still love to catch it randomly on tv == and yes, I was watching Star Wars on tv last night -- even though I have the dvds . . . .geeky me

Congrats on the 5k and the fitness minutes. I'm hoping you have a year with NO surgeries! Just good health and lots of new things to do and enjoy with your acquired fitness!

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TRACYZABELLE 12/24/2010 6:28AM

    You so need to take pictures next time! Sounded like fun!

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MS.ELENI 12/23/2010 10:32AM

    As always I enjoyed your blog.Congrats on another 5k. Have a womderful holiday

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WOLFKITTY 12/22/2010 2:35AM

    You've got such a great attitude!! :D
HUGS!
Joce

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DMPRIDER 12/21/2010 1:55AM

    I'll be here with you too. I've been here coming up on 4 years. I was stuck for awhile, got it movin' again, then back slid a bit the past 6-8 months. It's time for that to stop and get back on the losing track! I want to do more 5Ks in 2011 and I've decided to make a plan to work up to running slightly longer distances. Glad to know we're all in this together!

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CAROLISCIOUS 12/20/2010 8:15PM

    I'm rounding 2nd to my 3rd year here. Don't plan on going anywhere.
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KSGROTHE 12/20/2010 5:45PM

    emoticon on the 5K! It sounds like you had a lot of fun!

Wow! on 90,000 fitness minutes! I've been on SP for over 3 years, and I'm up over 42,000 minutes, but I don't think I've always tracked as diligently as I could.

Good luck on the weight loss and employment next year! Let's make 2011 a great year!

- Karen

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FIT_TERI 12/20/2010 12:18PM

    Have fun at the gym! You will kick those annoying 6lbs to the curb and then some, as you work toward your ultimate goal.
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I'm glad that your plans for 2011 include being here. You'll have lots of us here to run with you. And, apparently, some guys in Speedos. emoticon
Way to go on that 5K!


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MARCHMAID 12/20/2010 10:32AM

    Like the song says, "I'll be there. . ."

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GREENLILY 12/20/2010 10:12AM

    Awesome! :) All hail the flying J!

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 12/20/2010 10:02AM

    Yep me too. Walking along behind you. Picking up your dropped wisdom.

I sense a renewal of power and energy in this blog. And in you. Yes that same little package of pounds has been bouncing back and forth for too long now. Let's go for it.

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HEALTHYME47 12/20/2010 9:28AM

    Good job on doing a 5K!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 12/20/2010 8:50AM

    I'm still here!
I'll be running along with you. emoticon

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Tales of all the Fails and Tribulations

Monday, December 13, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYJhhKSXOBo

Ignore the first minute and a half of intros on the video.

I'll explain the reason for the song later. Right now, this blog is a call to arms.

No. Wait. Louder.

THIS BLOG IS A CALL TO ARMS.

NO. WAIT. LOUDER.

_T_H_I_S__B_L_O_G__I_S__A__C_A_L_L__T_O_
_A_R_M_S_

Dammit Spark! Why don't you have bolding??!??!?!

Anyway, this blog is a call to arms.

To what, you say?

Unemployment extensions are running out. I am one of millions of people who are affected. And, in all fairness, my husband is also affected and he has a job. I have two more weeks. Yes, the end of it all is the week of Christmas.

Now, I don't celebrate Christmas, so it's not fraught with meaning like it would be for many other people, but I can't help feeling it's all so terribly Dickensian. As Scrooge said, "Are there no prisons? No workhouses?"

Currently, there is a spending bill to continue the extensions, but it's bogged down because it's getting attached to continuing the Bush-era tax credits. While I don't love the tax credits, sorry, folks, I gotta think about my own interests here. And I'm not the only one! There's a lively Spark group called Laid Off and Staying Strong:
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=28013


And they are, undoubtedly, only a surface scratching of laid off Sparkies. There are, I am sure, many, many more of us.

Unemployment is different from Welfare. Workers pay into it. I did. You did, or do. Your coworkers do. Your neighbors do. And it's intended to get us all back on our collective feet. But there is a disconnect, because there just aren't enough weeks of benefits. I have been out for a little over a year, and am running out of my second extension. Others have been out far longer. The economy is not picking itself up and dusting itself off fast enough. We still need Unemployment. Why? Aside from the obvious (to have $$!), let's see --

* to pay the mortgage and maintain a good credit rating and not become homeless
* to have discretionary income to stimulate the economy and help us all pull out of this recession
* to purchase exciting luxury items, like thyroid medication, bread and dental floss
* to keep local folk in business like the hairdresser, the fishmonger and the dude who delivers the papers
* to give to charity because, yes, there are plenty of folk who are worse off
* to maintain a sense of self-worth and dignity

You can write to Congress here:
https://writerep.house.gov/writerep/
welcome.shtml


And even if you're from outside the US, your support is still greatly appreciated. Because there's no other word for it -- this stinks. It absolutely and thoroughly and completely reeks. I hate being out of work. I work, actually, but it's for an equity share. I still depend on Unemployment to fuel my dreams and make it so that I can push along a startup company which, in the future, will hopefully start employing people. You know, becoming an engine for the economy and helping to prevent future recessions? Yeah, that.

And now, the song.

It's dedicated to someone here who is more of a political person than I am (most people are): QUEENOFTHEFOREST. Her real name is Mary. And what impresses me not only about her, but about Spark in general, is how we can all get together and really be a force to be reckoned with. Together, we can shape and change the world.

Because when it's time to get it together and tell Congress to give all of us unemployed folk a break, to stop punting this political football around so much that it no longer looks like a spheroid, to get off their duffs and get this passed before the holiday break and remember what it's like to not be so fortunate, to be wondering when savings will run out, to be contemplating how to play Bill Roulette and see what can be late this month, and to be thinking that being healthy isn't worth it because the food is so damned expensive --

then and then and then

Along come friends and supporters, Sparkies as champions.

Along comes Mary.
Along comes Kathy.
Along comes Don.
Along comes Maureen.
Along comes Donna.
Along comes Tracy.
Along comes Ebony.
Along comes Marit.
Along comes John.
Along comes Aurelia.
Along comes Eleni.
Along comes Jess.
Along comes Carol.

They all come, and all of those whose names I don't know, or I've forgotten, or I never knew. Because we are a force. We are a MOVEMENT, dammit.

This is a call to arms.
THIS IS A CALL TO ARMS.
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And then along comes Mary
and then along comes YOU.

Thank you.

  
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MARCHMAID 12/18/2010 5:14PM

    HI, I've been writing congressmen and senators and general letters. Just read this today and think things are moving. Stupid tax cuts for the wealthy make NO SENSE! I'm pretty political and don't mind saying publicly that the Republicans have done the country absolutely no good for the past 12 years--especially the last two by saying "NO? to everything. Poor Obama is trying everything he can and even his own party can't get it together--as usual!

My husband's still employed--nothing like old fashioned tenure--but the University is in trouble, too, so I may join others in the bread line eventually.

Keep at it Jes! (Janet) My name is Judy. . . although I think of myself as an Edith. And I LOVE the Association. ; )
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WOLFKITTY 12/17/2010 11:40AM

    I agree.

:'(

I don't wanna be homeless, Jes!!

My 3rd extension expired. No word on anything more, because of the stalling in Congress, I suppose. We are not buying any Christmas presents for anyone this year, even my nephews.

I'm lucky that I don't have kids or a pet, even, because I can try to survive on less, but it would be hard to try to make them. I'm scraping together money to pay my apartment's rent at the end of the month. Maybe I should go back to Don's Laid Off SparkTeam. I just feel so all alone. :(

(hug) Thanks for your blog.
Jocelyn

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TRACYZABELLE 12/15/2010 2:26AM

    It sure is not easy! I have a friend who just took a job that is too demanding on her 53 year old body at a BIG cut becasue her unemploymentran out.. I am so grateful for my job-- even though it does not pay all the bills, I have benefits and I have been here 15 years.. Best of luck finding a good job soon!

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TELERIE 12/13/2010 10:14AM

    Along came Marit - wishing there was something I could do, other than offer my support here. I realise Norway's been spared during the recession and our unemployment rate is at 3.5%. I'm not terribly familiar with the US system, and I'm afraid I tend to take the Scandinavian high level of social security for granted.
At least I'll pay my taxes with pleasure!

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MS.ELENI 12/13/2010 10:03AM

    I do hope you and all others get an extention. It is so sad to see so many people having such a hard time. It has touched us all in some way

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SANDYBRUNO 12/13/2010 9:30AM

    I have been unemployed for 2 years and my husband for a year and a half. Luckily our house is paid off but we still have 3 children who like to eat. Without the tax cuts we will barely make it. Food, utilities and clothes continue to go up in price. Unfortunately income does not.

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 12/13/2010 8:56AM

    MMMMYes. While I usually keep my politics out of my Spark life because fitness and weight loss (and their opposites) are non partisan I am with you Jes. I live in the country. There are only 10 families on my road. Of those 10, three bread winners have been laid off because of the recession. That is an awfully high proportion. Please support the extension. For Jes and for all those folks who have worked and earned the benefit.

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DDOORN 12/13/2010 8:54AM

    Been Diggin' & Twitterin' like crazy on this along with the incomprehensible extension of tax cuts for the wealthy...ugh!

Thx for putting this out there!

Don

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FIT_TERI 12/13/2010 8:46AM

    Thanks for posting this. I just wrote my Congressman who is a Democrat and, I learned from reading his site, already supports the tax compromise which will extend the benefits...but it doesn't hurt to add my 2 cents of support. My SIL will lose her benefits soon if there's no extension, along with many other sparkers and members of my local community. I hope they fix this soon, so you all can at least not have that as another worry.


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Dethrone the Dictaphone

Monday, December 06, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNN_bPJ4Ubo&
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This song is in honor of a lot of things. First off, it's for Lab-Lover (do you not know her? She is TOTALLY fab), who was quoted in the Runners' World blog and I know she loves Bruuuuuuce so I had to.

Plus I actually used to work at Dictaphone. Weird to work for a place known well enough to be a part of pop culture, eh? But then they were sold to Nuance Communications and became yet another mass-produced-named entity, but at least an actual word is their name, unlike new companies throwing the -ly suffix or the word blue or whatever onto a normal word in order to make something not thought of but ....

Well, let's just say there's a reason why such a fake-o word wasn't thought up before. They tend to be butt ugly.

But there's also the whole idea (the song is "Blinded by the Light") of light. It is -- duh! -- December. The month with the 20-darkest days of the year, and another 11 of the 22 next-darkest days of the year (the other 11 of those are in January of course).

Light is hard to come by. It evades us. It hides behind snow clouds and snow storms. It slips away at 4:30 and doesn't return until morning when you're chilled and wrapping blankets over your head and hoping that the alarm was somehow not set correctly even though you checked it so instead of it really being 5 AM or 6 or whenever you're really supposed to be up, that it was magically changed by the alarm gremlins some time during the night and it's really 2 AM and you can sleep for another few hours and wait for -- you guessed it -- the light.

So we compensate. We light Chanukah candles. We put up Christmas lights. Kwanzaa has candles. We crank up full-spectrum lights. We try not to curse the darkness.

And details, details! I find they are swirling around me and raining down on my head. The upstairs bathroom sink is clogged. Unemployment is, yet, again, asking me to call in because they have screwed up my file. And I cannot call them until later this week. They are rather courteous people, but sorry, I really don't want to be talking to them every single freakin' week. I may or may not have an interview tomorrow -- the recruiter and I keep missing each other. The house is cluttered and I am noticing it more because we are inside more. Work is all over the place, with some deadlines looming large because half of the company is off to India for three weeks to deliver scholarly papers.

These are, on balance, not horrible things. The plumber has been called and will be here in 48 hours or so. We are not so bad off financially that the Unemployment check can't be delayed for a few days. The interview is fairly likely to happen, it's just a matter of connecting to the recruiter. The house has always been cluttered and I have to be zen about it and remember that most of that cannot be quickly fixed. The company will be fine over the holidays.

And on and on.

I'll get through this, and so will you.

We will light our candles. We will curse the darkness, too. And, either way, it'll still pass at its own pace, in its own way, much like many things.

I am dancing around the same five pounds, and have been for a while. Now, of course my body is well aware of when I weigh 200 versus when I weigh 199. What my body doesn't know is why that particular difference (as opposed to 201 versus 200) is so important to me. So I can be positive, and patient. Or less positive, and want it to hurry up and, assuming I do the same things either way, it will all pass at its own pace, in its own way.

Light the candle.

But cursing the darkness is, I admit, kinda fun, too.

Keep room in your life for both.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CAROLISCIOUS 12/7/2010 9:16PM

    I'm blinded by the light coming home from work every day...piercing, annoying sun right in my face. By the time I'm home...it's all gone...and I wish it were still there.

Come on back summer...I'm ready.

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 12/7/2010 5:43PM

    Light candles. Light the bonfire. Springs a comin. I do love you. Did you know that?

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LESS_IS_MO 12/6/2010 9:09PM

    Light candles. Bring some evergreen holly in from the garden to spiff up the place. Celebrate the end of the year. The birth of the universe. Invite all your friends and raise up a giant bonfire to show the sun what it has forgotten to do. Then thank the sun for remembering us and coming back to us again (after the solstice of course) Don't forget to get smashed. Gotta love the ancient customs that go back far more than 2 milennia!

We'll get through it, tidy or messy! (But tomorrow, my office is getting some attention!. I need the clear conscience that comes from doing it, and being sure no bills have been forgotten!)

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BELLCAT22 12/6/2010 8:12PM

    "I'll get through this, and so will you." Thank you -- how did you know I needed to hear that? :)

Here's to getting through those not-all-that-horrible things! emoticon

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KSGROTHE 12/6/2010 6:11PM

    OK, I learned something from your blog. I didn't realize that Bruce Springsteen wrote "Blinded by the Light". I looked it up on Wikipedia to find out because I wasn't sure if he covered it or what. My high school friend who loved Bruce would be upset with me that I didn't know!

Anyway, I love your blogs. They make me laugh and make me think! I never thought about all the winter holidays having lights to combat the darkness of this time of year.

Thanks for reminding me that no matter how stressed I feel at this time of year (as I mentioned in my recent blogs), I will get through it.

- Karen

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MS.ELENI 12/6/2010 3:49PM

    One very nice thing about living in Florida that even when we have a few cold days like we are now the sun still shines bright.
Another interesting blog.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/6/2010 10:47AM

    I have never looked forward to solstice so much as I do this year. It's probably because I've spent so much time outside having fun in my boat.

Seriously, though. I have a drysuit. I have gloves, and pogies, and fleece base layers, and a warm helmet liner, etc. The cold isn't fabulous but it isn't the end of the world, either. I can paddle in the cold. What I cannot do is paddle in the dark.

So, yeah. I just can't wait for solstice!

I agree so much I turned this comment into a blog post.
http://www.sparkpeople.com
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DDOORN 12/6/2010 10:20AM

    Admit to emphasizing a tad too much on the cursing...well, maybe MORE than a tad...lol!

Thx for the reminders of OTHER sources of light during these difficult months...!

Don

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DUSTIER58 12/6/2010 9:40AM

    I enjoyed your blog today, having started the day by oversleeping and having to skip my shower, no time to make lunch, going through the kitchen and giving everything a fast swipe and putting things away, taking supper out to defrost (at least I have stuffed peppers to look forward to tonight!)--well, let's just say I could really relate to everything you wrote!

May your day, and month, and rest of winter, sparkle with as much light as you can handle!
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