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The Door is Locked, Just You and Me

Monday, November 22, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=UTNpaaPHENE

I firmly believe that a lot of us are here because of distorted self-images. We might have lied to ourselves about how good we thought we looked -- and did that for years -- and then suddenly, oops, we're huge!

That is what happened to me. I own a perfectly good full-length mirror, but it's in a different room and so it's very easy to avoid it. I would just look at the, heh, mirror in the bathroom, and I could only see my upper torso. While I saw my face was getting wider and wider and more distorted, I would tell myself, oh, it's not so bad. I'd ignore all other cues and signals, such as my own silhouette, or how I looked in reflected shop windows and the like.

Or you might see the opposite, where you think you're huge and unlovable but the truth is, it's not too awful and you deserve to be happy and healthy but you're just not seeing it.

We don't have to go into funhouses to distort our own selves, our own senses of self.

The truth can really be painful, I know. God knows, I know.

But it's got the benefit of being the truth going for it. Be kind, of course. This is not a license to trample on people.

But do tell them the truth.

And you'll find that you tell yourself the truth more often as well.

  
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CAROLISCIOUS 11/24/2010 1:09PM

    Mirrors, cameras, and the scale...my best friends. They always tell me what I don't wanna hear, but what I need to hear...the truth.



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TELERIE 11/23/2010 9:10AM

    I think you're absolutely right. My self-image is still distorted, but healing slowly. It has been broken for a long time. I do double-takes when I see new or old pictures of myself and really can't trust my eyes. They show me what is in my brain, not what's out there for everyone else to see.
Thanks for putting it so eloquently!!

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/23/2010 7:46AM

    Ah truth. I got here to Spark because of two events; because a brave friend, my dearest friend next to the DH, confronted me about my weight, how I carry it, in the most dangerous way, right in my belly. And because my Spark pal LabLover had made remarkable and very visible changes in her body and she told me about Spark. I will say straight out and proudly that I am open to constructive feedback and I work hard to stay open to it when I can trust the source (or when I have no choice but to face up to the truth). In order to dish out truth to other people one had better be prepared for angry rejection. And one had better be ready to face the consequences. The fact is for some folk who overeat addictively the way an alcoholic drinks the addiction may have a life of its own and may fight back. In that case it may be more effective to model health and wellbeing. Sometimes the best we can do is sew the seed and hope our loved one or friend or acquaintance will be able to find their own truth.

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DDOORN 11/22/2010 7:45PM

    Mirrors and me...ugh! I tried for a while putting a full length mirror in front of my treadmill at home. I just beat myself up too much and eventually threw a blanket over the mirror...!

Doubt I'm ready to try that again just yet...it would be a true test of progress though, being able to see myself and be okay with it.

Don

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TRUE_TEXAN 11/22/2010 4:19PM

    I made the mistake of getting a treadmill at the gym that was in front of (a distance away but still in front of) the full length mirrors they have on the wall for the free weights area. It was diheartening to see myself jogging on the treadmill at how big I was. But I just tried to not look and be happy that I was actually there. I do many times see myself thinner than I really am and then those days when the realitiy slaps me in the face it's very hard.

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KSGROTHE 11/22/2010 2:49PM

    Sometimes it's hard to tell someone the truth without coming across as making fun. My sister once teased me for getting fat, but it really hurt when she said it. Now she is bigger than I ever was, and I figure she knows it so I don't say anything. I've invited her to SparkPeople a couple times, but now she doesn't even have internet access at home. She's really a mess, and I don't even know what to say because her mental state has not been great recently. So, I just try to be supportive. I keep a lot of what I'm thinking to myself because I'm sure she'd take it the wrong way. We've never gotten along great (OK in recent years, but not great).

As for myself, I tend to be harder on myself than I should be. My self-image has been pretty poor for a while. I'm working on it.

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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MARCHMAID 11/22/2010 2:06PM

    Truth hurts--never minded the extra weight as much as I mind the irreversible years! LOL emoticon

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KIMROID 11/22/2010 10:21AM

    I'm guilty of taking a quick glance in the mirror. I'm afraid if I look too long then I'll see the damage I've done to myself by making very poor healthy lifestyle choices.

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MS.ELENI 11/22/2010 9:59AM

    I am starting to think I need to take a good look in my mirror every day to remind me of how big I am. I need something to get me back on track.
It is easier when we don't look in full mirror

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FIT_TERI 11/22/2010 7:59AM

    This is great. I've seen a truth recently myself -- not about how I look, though, but about something else I need to change. Reading this reinforces my feelings about the next steps I need to take. Thank you.

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JOHNTJ1 11/22/2010 7:18AM

    This is very true.

People tell me I am looking so good all the time. I went to a family reunion of sorts this past weekend and everyone told me how good I looked and I was mentally scratching my head going "Huh?" I see myself as enormous.

Thanks for putting this out there. It is something I really need to work on

Much Love

John

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REJ7777 11/22/2010 7:02AM

    "We don't have to go into funhouses to distort our own selves, our own senses of self." Very true! It's easy to be in denial, especially since the pounds tend to creep on so slowly.

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CARROT143 11/22/2010 6:53AM

    Thanks for that self image uplift! And working towards that truthfulness!

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I Can Live and Breathe and See the Sun in Wintertime

Monday, November 15, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vhebiuuLqU

This is, hands down, one of my favorite songs of all time. It consistently makes my Desert Island Discs list. You know, the ten or twelve or so song-long playlist that you'd absolutely, positively HAVE to have if you were stuck on a desert island.

With food, fresh water, sunscreen, medical care and an iPod.

But apparently no means of actually contacting anyone and getting off said desert island.

But I digress.

The imperfections of the world continue to be thrown into stark relief. The skies are getting darker. The air is getting colder. Unemployment is running out. And the time is running, and it can feel like a running in place.

But it's just a Winter that's coming. It's not permanent. It's not a downfall. It's a means of rising up.

For alcoholics, when you hit rock bottom is when you make a choice. You either decide to live, and to recover, or you give up, and you begin to accelerate the process of dying.

This is not that heavy, of course. And it isn't even rock bottom, not by any stretch. But it is the feeling of despair that can come with Winter. That, for me, can come every single Winter. For as Veterans' Day slips away and Thanksgiving looms, the cold seeps in and the dark permeates and it holds itself in and I hold myself in and if I don't watch it, I become wrapped in my own flesh for months until I suddenly wake up in March and realize, heh, someone's gonna see my arms soon and so I'd better get them in shape again and shed some poundage.

Success is, without a doubt, a very good thing, and the best thing about it is being able to hold onto it during dark times. Even if it isn't weight loss success. Even if it isn't recent. Being good and capable, being loving and kind, being able -- this is what can be hung onto. It's what can lead you past darkness and remind you that this, too, shall pass, and that you'll be back out there soon enough and Winter -- although it may SEEM longer -- is really only ninety days.

If there is no sun in Wintertime, make your own.

  
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CODYG123 11/18/2010 12:08PM

    Seriously wonderful post Jespah. When reading after listening to the song I shed a couple of tears. I love the song too, it's big music.

I live in the Hawaii of Canada, on Vancouver Island. We rarely get snow at street level, but the moutains are covered with it. And the further north you go, the longer the nights are, so, I love Daylight Savings Time, it keeps summertime just a wee bit longer. This time of year I love to put up lights and wear my fleecy house boots and get out the sweaters. I have some USB led star lights which hover over my PC monitors. They glow in rainbow colors. We light up our dining table with lots of candles too. And instead of burning wood, our fireplace glows with stacks of candles and glass rocks. I'm always giving flashlights, candles and socks as presents. For anyone who knows me, they know the one thing I fear is freezing in the cold and dark.

Thanks again for sharing your thoughts and experiences. You rock.

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MARCHMAID 11/17/2010 4:36PM

    Oddly, the darkness doesn't bother me much, but I HATE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME!

One of my kids has a real problem with winter--by February he's about ready to slit his wrists and tries to head south just to be warm again. So I get it--but second hand.

Take care. Light candles (it's flattering and makes you think you're just trying to be romantic.) Might light fires in the bedroom, too. : )

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/17/2010 7:45AM

    Oh how you speak for my spirit. The Solstice is coming. It will be getting lighter every day after that. Let's spend the dark days pumping up our energy and our muscles. Before we know it it will be spring.

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PICKIE98 11/16/2010 6:22PM

    Only 90 days of winter for you?Where do you live?? Oahu? We have less than 90 days of summer.. if we are lucky,, by the time I get my pool opened and water warmed, I only have acoupl emonths left before closing it!! bummer,,
my sunshine comes from my DD and church, shoveling snow,, scraping ice off my windshield,, lots of Vitamin D then....

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CAROLISCIOUS 11/15/2010 8:06PM

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DDOORN 11/15/2010 8:04PM

    Oh MAN am I struggling with the long, dark months ahead!

I always struggle some, but I think this year...the year of the BIKE has me so keyed up about the outdoors that getting out of work and seeing it's already getting dark...? REALLY clips my wings!

I'm struggling to "tolerate" my treadmill and now see why some of those folks who run outdoors call it the "dreadmill!"

Yes, it IS only 90 days...sigh...

Don

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KSGROTHE 11/15/2010 2:46PM

    Good luck seeing/making sun in Wintertime! emoticon
I love following your progress in your blog! Thanks for sharing! emoticon

- Karen

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ANONYGIRL 11/15/2010 12:43PM

    That is a great song.

I'm depressed on the sunniest and brightest of days, so winter can be something of a tunnel for me. And not one of those kinds with a light at the end. More like one that ends at a coal mine.

You've inspired me to learn how to use the fancy integrated USB media radio thingy in my new car so that I can burn some island playlists of my own and listen to them on the way to work in the morning. It might be dark outside, but I can at least try to lighten the mood. And I'll try to keep in mind that this winter, for me, means being finished with this blasted master's degree.

Thanks for that Jespah!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/15/2010 11:56AM

    I'm getting through winter by continuing to paddle outside on the weekends (in a drysuit), and signing up for pool sessions.

...and by refocusing on my fitness routines.

But yeah, I hear you on the whole creeping despair thing. I got my shrink to up my meds too.

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JOANOFSPARK 11/15/2010 9:20AM

    "If there is no sun in Wintertime, make your own." What a great quote..and boy, lately does it seem as if I need it... Not that the weather is all that bad, nor do we even have snow yet, and probably won't have that much. It is as you said the cold gets down into your bones and you just want to curl up and your bones ache from the inside out and you just want to give up and give in...

BUT, WE WON'T...why because we SParkers make our own sunshine. We have the reserves to maybe not stride through it but to determinedly bulldoze our way through it...and we will make it through to the other side..Here's to Spring and all the promise that it brings...Here is to our pursuit better health, which will keep us going throughout the long cold, dark winter...

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MS.ELENI 11/15/2010 9:08AM

    If there is no sun in Wintertime, make your own. This is a good one.
I am so fortunate that I live where we usually have sun and warm weather for most of the winter.Only a few scattrered cold days. emoticon

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THECITYMOUSE 11/15/2010 9:03AM

    "....I'm not expecting to grow flowers in the desert... but I can live and breathe and see the sun in wintertime...." LOVE. IT. One of my favorite songs, too.

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Love this blog. I cannot tell you how I've had these thoughts muddled in between my deep and profound brain things. I made a commitment to work on my bikini body now...cleaning up my diet again..seems like when it gets cold I just want comfort food and hibernate under baggy sweats and sweaters. Not this winter. In the midst of so much shizz going wrong, I'm gonna do this one thing right.

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Iíll Fix these Broken Things

Monday, November 08, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_CqMFKak1c

Broken?

Well, not bones.

Habits.

I broke some of the better ones earlier this year.

And now I am finally recovering from that.

Yes, folks.

It's annoying. I spent about four months doing less working out less (June through September), and paid for it, big time, in weight gain, in slower 5Ks, in clothes not fitting as optimally (or even at all, in some cases).

Things are turning around, but it is a chore.

Here are some numbaz.

Total miles walked (per pedometer):
January 56.70 (I had abdominal surgery on the 15th, hence the total is low)
February 75.52
March 78.88
April 75.57
May 83.03
June *66.42*
July *58.25*
August *66.83*
September *65.78*
October 78.39

5K times (didn't run a 5K every month this year):
April 40:31
May 40:44
July *47:26*
August *43:36*
September *46:39*
October *43:04 and 44:27*
November 41:28

Average weight:
January 182.35
February 178.55
March 176.8
April 180.95
May 183.12
June *185.05*
July *175.55* -- I suspect that this is about when the scale broke; I just didn't know it yet
August *170.28*
September *184.5* -- note half of the measurements are with the old broken scale, half without. When only the newer #s are used, the average is a far more believable 202
October 204.8
November so far 203.1

Big, big shocker here. Walk less, get slower in 5Ks. Gain weight. And lose the size 10s and 12s and re-embrace the 14s.

Not fun. Not fun at all.

So I'm seeing the changing back, and that's interesting. I'm doing what I can to not beat on myself for fouling up for so long. And I also don't want to use the convenient broken scale excuse, or at least not overuse it. After all, I was still eating, etc. Just not picking up on what was happening. But my clothes weren't broken. The race timers weren't broken. Just the scale.

I am a grown woman and am responsible for my choices and whatever consequences are derived therefrom.

I offer this information to those who are tempted to slack off -- although I suspect you will need to learn it for yourselves like I did.

No shortcuts.

No highway spurs.

No meandering.

But also ...

No blaming.

No backpedaling.

No regretting.

Just get out the glue and the nails and fix it.

  
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TELERIE 11/9/2010 5:37PM

    Love this! You (and I) can do it, I know we can!

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TRACYZABELLE 11/9/2010 3:20AM

    This time of year stinks I think all of us struggle with winter weight and with the bermuda triangle of holidays we are screwed for sure! But if we get a grip and just put our minds to it we can succeed!

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FIT_TERI 11/8/2010 11:27PM

    well, you know what's broke. And you have glue and nails. No sense dwelling on how you found yourself here (unless there's something you can learn). You know what to do, and you'll do it. I am confident.
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MARCHMAID 11/8/2010 6:36PM

    I'm with you! Gotta stop eating brownies!

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CAROLISCIOUS 11/8/2010 5:39PM

    Gotta lil rennovation goin' on over here too.

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/8/2010 4:41PM

    Great Blog. I bet you feel just great going in the right direction.

In spite of the fact that I love the way I feel when I am staying the course I still go off from time to time. And then I feel rotten. Anyhow that is about me. This blog is about you and is helpful to me and that what Spark is about. Thanks buddy.

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PICKIE98 11/8/2010 4:35PM

    What is a highway spur?

I am in the same boat, so hand me an oar!!!! emoticon

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KSGROTHE 11/8/2010 1:40PM

    I'm glad to read that you aren't beating yourself up over this. I have no doubt that you'll fix these broken things.

I have trouble with being a grown up and not beating myself up. It has gotten worse the last few years. I don't want to always be responsible. I'm having trouble breaking my bad habits because I just don't want to do it sometimes. I'll get there eventually, though.

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- Karen

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MS.ELENI 11/8/2010 11:59AM

    I am a grown woman and am responsible for my choices and whatever consequences are derived therefrom.

Just get out the glue and the nails and fix it

I need to get better glue and nails that don't fall out. But I have not given up.Always get good info on your blogs.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/8/2010 10:42AM

    Right there with ya!

Spent all of MY summer gaining 20 lbs. Result? Lose the 8s & 10s, and embrace the 12s. LOL It's a very familiar story.

So I'm going back to basics and having a weightloss contest with myself of last year.

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VALERIEMAHA 11/8/2010 9:41AM

    I'm shoulder-to-shoulder with you'n Eleanor!
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HOKIEJEN13 11/8/2010 8:51AM

    Sometimes it's hard to break those habits. But, keep the nails and glue out for 30 days and I think you'll recall that those bad habits fade and the good habits become natural once again! Good luck, you can do this!

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THECITYMOUSE 11/8/2010 8:38AM

    "Just get out the glue and nails and fix it". I'm right there with you, babes.

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TRAVELISMYGAME 11/8/2010 8:29AM

    Great post! Good luck to you!

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I See a Ship in the Harbor

Monday, November 01, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftJZomwDhxQ

The name of this song is "Blue Monday", but this Monday is anything but blue. Even though my knee hurts.

Many lovely things to tell.

First off -- the song is not only because it's Monday but also because it's now in my running rotation. I used it for the first time on Saturday, when my husband and I ran the Oak Scare 5K. This one quite literally goes right past our house. It made perfect sense to do it as an extra race this year.

And it was a good run. My final time (44:27) does not look too awesome, but there was a good twenty seconds or so in there where I had to wait at a street corner for a cop to let me cross and continue (the whole race takes place on the streets of Brighton). But I won't shave that off the "official" time.

The running felt good. Really good. In fact, there was a downhill part that was so much longer and more delicious than any downhill we normally have in 5Ks. And I was hearing a song where I'm normally going UP a hill. Once I realized that, I started to really go. FAST. So fast, in fact, that I bounced enough to have a, heh, sports bra malfunction. Nothing showed, but I ended up with the bra under my armpits. I will not draw you a picture, dear readers. Suffice it to say there's a good reason why I wear it with a tee shirt and not by itself. Heh.

But the whole thing (despite that) felt good. It felt, not like when I normally just kinda jog along, barely getting my feet up. Instead, it felt like, ha. It felt like I was running like a child. Now, I am well aware that I was assisted quite a bit by gravity. And that's fine. And, I am totally paying for it today as my left knee in particular is asking me why I flat out ran for about 3 1/2 minutes two days ago.

But it was still great fun. It was still a YAY moment.

And here's another YAY moment.

My company is in the finals for a business plan/presentation competition. As in, the top three of a field that was originally some 46 or so companies. The actually final is on November 9th, when we will all get totally dressed up (I have a black velvet dress that I will probably choose) and the boss will present and we will all hand out business cards and smile and be on our absolute best behavior.

And there will be some $$ awarded. Even the company that comes in third will get something. Plus, since we have to finish the business plan for November 9th, that will free up other things. We have some other things coming that will only come with a completed business plan, so da boss and I are working on it this week.

This week's plan is: I will go to the gym three days. Starting today. And I will then shower and head on over to da boss's and we will type and confer and figure out what we're doing. Plus we'll continue to work on his presentation. He knows it really well already but needs to talk a bit slower. There are places to pause and let certain comments sink in so we need to practice the timing.

When the money comes -- for I am feeling it is no longer if, but when -- I will go permanent, full-time with them, most likely in Q1 of '11, as the VP of Marketing (yes, I am getting a promotion or at least a fancier title).

Oh and yeah, the weight loss thing? Down another .8 today, and almost all of my measurements are down. So fat is going back to muscle. Another YAY moment.

Oh, I see a ship in the harbor all right. I do believe it is, as they say, my ship coming in.

  
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CAROLISCIOUS 11/7/2010 1:17AM

    Great news on all accounts!
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LBEEKMA 11/4/2010 11:17PM

    Congrats on all of your positive news! I love it when a song pumps me up...it's like magic. Who doesn't need more of that?!

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MY_HEALTH_BABY 11/2/2010 9:56PM

    Positive thinking and sheer will !!! Always works out~~ I am happy for you!

Still laughing over the bra malfunction

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MARCHMAID 11/2/2010 7:48PM

    Have to agree with the Queen. Things are where they should be. Word of caution: you better preview the kids' get ups. . . Do they know how to dress appropriately?
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IFDEEVARUNS2 11/2/2010 4:15PM

    I hear you about that knee! I'm suffering too, and trying to ignore it. Not sure I'm being too smart.
So glad things are looking up - you've had some interesting times this year!

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LAB-LOVER 11/2/2010 5:56AM

    Congrats on another 5K. Sorry about the sports bra malfunction... I am guessing that banana hammocks also malfunction from time to time. heh!

And congrats on regaining your focus. I've got mine too and it feels good! Let's beat the odds and actually LOSE this holiday season!

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TRACYZABELLE 11/2/2010 5:12AM

    Run Jes run, lol~ I wish I could do a 5k.. heck a 1 k I will settle for, lol

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DMPRIDER 11/2/2010 12:14AM

    I'm sorry your knee is hurting, but I'm glad you had a good run.

And thanks for sharing such excellent news! We're all pulling for you and the robotics boys. I hope everything goes to plan and wish you every success!



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DDOORN 11/1/2010 11:58PM

    Kudos on reaping all your sweet, sweet rewards!

So well deserved and earned!

Triple Woo HOO's! :-)

Don

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 11/1/2010 9:17PM

    Under your armpits? Hmm.

Everything else in this blog is where it is supposed to be. I am soooo glad you are back on a losing streak. Now life will truly be rewarding as you succeed at all your goals. I even bet that knee will begin to ease up as the weight falls off. You are awesome.

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MS.ELENI 11/1/2010 5:26PM

    I am so glad everything is looking so much brighter. Congrats on everything emoticon

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KSGROTHE 11/1/2010 4:35PM

    emoticon on your run, the job prospects, and the weight and measurements loss! It sounds like things are going well!

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- Karen

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GREENLILY 11/1/2010 1:24PM

    Awesome Flying J! :) Your strength and experiences always seem to make my day... Keep up the good work, Ms. VP... :)

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AESOPSREED 11/1/2010 10:04AM

  What a fabulous uplifting post. I'm so glad to see things going well for you! Congrats on all your hard work paying off!

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UHYEAHABOUTTHAT 11/1/2010 9:36AM

    I knew exactly what song it was when I read your title! Great song!
So glad your run went well, besides your wardrobe malfunction. :) And YAY for fat turning into muscle!!!

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Don't Turn Around

Monday, October 25, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Guvo7gUdUnE

Sometimes, I just need a fix of some 80s silliness, hence the song.

I am kinda tired from the weekend. It was a two-day company event and I was mainly on my feet, and not in the best of shoes. Despite how I generally feel, it is not easy to do that much meet and greet and not feel the aftereffects. Gym will be either today (after I see a potential customer who I think just wants to flirt with me) or tomorrow, plus Wed. and Thurs. That seems to be paying off -- a nice loss this week.

This weekend is one 5K, next week is another, then that'll be it until December, and the December one will be the last one for the year.

So I am on track for exercise, and it paid off with a two and a half pound loss. I am going to have to keep this up, despite fatigue, despite everything. There is always some place where it gives, where you push down hard enough and it's like a game of Whack-A-Mole, something else comes up and you try to clamp down on that as well. And, for me, going to the gym is actually close and easy and relatively fast! It's the aftermath that kills.

But it's gotta get done.

One of the things Spark advises is, make yourself an unbreakable appointment to get your fitness in. I have a schedule for blog entries. Friday I go into the office. Events spill into evenings, weekends and, like today, lunchtime. Cleaning is all but abandoned. Somewhere in there, we go food shopping, pay bills and get the laundry done. And, in the middle, I get in the fitness minutes.

I have some 85,000 fitness minutes or so. Which is insane. But I have it because I've been here nearly three years and I record just about everything.

But I also have that figure because, without fail (some exceptions for when I was right outta surgery), I have done ST and at least tried to pull on resistance bands. The day doesn't start, not officially, until ST and resistance bands are done. There may be no other working out. I may spend the rest of the day lying back and watching TV. But at least that part gets done. It's the least common denominator.

Which is funny, because the least common denominator used to be, of course, doing nothing.

Now it's getting harder and harder for me to envision doing absolutely nothing. Hmmm.

  
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DDOORN 10/25/2010 11:31PM

    The Spark way of life: just gotta DO *SOMETHING*! :-)

A lot of things have fallen to the wayside...things I don't miss, like TV...absolutely have NO clue as to the TV schedule, shows and actors / actresses these days...and I don't really care.

But I've lost touch with my guitar playing, which I miss. How to make all of this work....? Hmmm....

Don

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 10/25/2010 9:37PM

    2 lbs! Yes! And of course the best part is that ticker is going the right direction. Tick Tick Tick.

I love that idea about getting the exercise into an unbreakable appointment. Great idea. Thanks.

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TELERIE 10/25/2010 6:00PM

    I didn't know there was another version of that song, I remember Falco doing it in the 80s.
And what a change not being able to envision doing nothing. I know the feeling, and I am proud of us because of that!
I believe it actually helps me to have been so overweight, because there's no WAY I'll go back down the road of lethargy and doing nothing if I can help it. Better make unbreakable appointments of activity to be on the safe side.

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KSGROTHE 10/25/2010 2:57PM

    emoticon on fitting in some exercise and losing some weight this week!

I would say your lifestyle change has stuck if you can't envision doing absolutely nothing! Good job!

By the way, I have to say that you gotta love the '80s hairstyles seen in videos like this one!

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

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CAROLISCIOUS 10/25/2010 12:01PM

    I liked the whack-a-mole analogy. So true. Congrats on the 2 pound loss. This journey is so much sweeter when it works!

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WOLFKITTY 10/25/2010 11:24AM

    I can't "do nothing" either. I've all but given up TV. Your strength training is admirable. I have said so often how I need to do this or that for ST, and never really did it. Thanks for that glimpse into your routine.

Hugs! I hope there is much success to b e found from all of the time put in at working.
Jocelyn

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MARCHMAID 10/25/2010 10:51AM

    Sound like both of us are picking up our routines! Onward!

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MS.ELENI 10/25/2010 10:47AM

    Sounds like you have had a busy weekend. You are right about the exercise. I am limited to chair exercises but it is one thing I can do every morning and I make sure I do at least 10 minutes.i know.Thats nothing compared to others but some days that is all my body will let me do.
Always enjoy your blogs emoticon

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