JESPAH   191,145
150,000-199,999 SparkPoints
JESPAH's Recent Blog Entries

Dethrone the Dictaphone

Monday, December 06, 2010

This song is in honor of a lot of things. First off, it's for Lab-Lover (do you not know her? She is TOTALLY fab), who was quoted in the Runners' World blog and I know she loves Bruuuuuuce so I had to.

Plus I actually used to work at Dictaphone. Weird to work for a place known well enough to be a part of pop culture, eh? But then they were sold to Nuance Communications and became yet another mass-produced-named entity, but at least an actual word is their name, unlike new companies throwing the -ly suffix or the word blue or whatever onto a normal word in order to make something not thought of but ....

Well, let's just say there's a reason why such a fake-o word wasn't thought up before. They tend to be butt ugly.

But there's also the whole idea (the song is "Blinded by the Light") of light. It is -- duh! -- December. The month with the 20-darkest days of the year, and another 11 of the 22 next-darkest days of the year (the other 11 of those are in January of course).

Light is hard to come by. It evades us. It hides behind snow clouds and snow storms. It slips away at 4:30 and doesn't return until morning when you're chilled and wrapping blankets over your head and hoping that the alarm was somehow not set correctly even though you checked it so instead of it really being 5 AM or 6 or whenever you're really supposed to be up, that it was magically changed by the alarm gremlins some time during the night and it's really 2 AM and you can sleep for another few hours and wait for -- you guessed it -- the light.

So we compensate. We light Chanukah candles. We put up Christmas lights. Kwanzaa has candles. We crank up full-spectrum lights. We try not to curse the darkness.

And details, details! I find they are swirling around me and raining down on my head. The upstairs bathroom sink is clogged. Unemployment is, yet, again, asking me to call in because they have screwed up my file. And I cannot call them until later this week. They are rather courteous people, but sorry, I really don't want to be talking to them every single freakin' week. I may or may not have an interview tomorrow -- the recruiter and I keep missing each other. The house is cluttered and I am noticing it more because we are inside more. Work is all over the place, with some deadlines looming large because half of the company is off to India for three weeks to deliver scholarly papers.

These are, on balance, not horrible things. The plumber has been called and will be here in 48 hours or so. We are not so bad off financially that the Unemployment check can't be delayed for a few days. The interview is fairly likely to happen, it's just a matter of connecting to the recruiter. The house has always been cluttered and I have to be zen about it and remember that most of that cannot be quickly fixed. The company will be fine over the holidays.

And on and on.

I'll get through this, and so will you.

We will light our candles. We will curse the darkness, too. And, either way, it'll still pass at its own pace, in its own way, much like many things.

I am dancing around the same five pounds, and have been for a while. Now, of course my body is well aware of when I weigh 200 versus when I weigh 199. What my body doesn't know is why that particular difference (as opposed to 201 versus 200) is so important to me. So I can be positive, and patient. Or less positive, and want it to hurry up and, assuming I do the same things either way, it will all pass at its own pace, in its own way.

Light the candle.

But cursing the darkness is, I admit, kinda fun, too.

Keep room in your life for both.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CAROLISCIOUS 12/7/2010 9:16PM

    I'm blinded by the light coming home from work every day...piercing, annoying sun right in my face. By the time I'm's all gone...and I wish it were still there.

Come on back summer...I'm ready.

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Light candles. Light the bonfire. Springs a comin. I do love you. Did you know that?

Report Inappropriate Comment
LESS_IS_MO 12/6/2010 9:09PM

    Light candles. Bring some evergreen holly in from the garden to spiff up the place. Celebrate the end of the year. The birth of the universe. Invite all your friends and raise up a giant bonfire to show the sun what it has forgotten to do. Then thank the sun for remembering us and coming back to us again (after the solstice of course) Don't forget to get smashed. Gotta love the ancient customs that go back far more than 2 milennia!

We'll get through it, tidy or messy! (But tomorrow, my office is getting some attention!. I need the clear conscience that comes from doing it, and being sure no bills have been forgotten!)

Report Inappropriate Comment
BELLCAT22 12/6/2010 8:12PM

    "I'll get through this, and so will you." Thank you -- how did you know I needed to hear that? :)

Here's to getting through those not-all-that-horrible things! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 12/6/2010 6:11PM

    OK, I learned something from your blog. I didn't realize that Bruce Springsteen wrote "Blinded by the Light". I looked it up on Wikipedia to find out because I wasn't sure if he covered it or what. My high school friend who loved Bruce would be upset with me that I didn't know!

Anyway, I love your blogs. They make me laugh and make me think! I never thought about all the winter holidays having lights to combat the darkness of this time of year.

Thanks for reminding me that no matter how stressed I feel at this time of year (as I mentioned in my recent blogs), I will get through it.

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 12/6/2010 3:49PM

    One very nice thing about living in Florida that even when we have a few cold days like we are now the sun still shines bright.
Another interesting blog.

Report Inappropriate Comment
4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/6/2010 10:47AM

    I have never looked forward to solstice so much as I do this year. It's probably because I've spent so much time outside having fun in my boat.

Seriously, though. I have a drysuit. I have gloves, and pogies, and fleece base layers, and a warm helmet liner, etc. The cold isn't fabulous but it isn't the end of the world, either. I can paddle in the cold. What I cannot do is paddle in the dark.

So, yeah. I just can't wait for solstice!

I agree so much I turned this comment into a blog post.

Comment edited on: 12/6/2010 11:06:43 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 12/6/2010 10:20AM

    Admit to emphasizing a tad too much on the cursing...well, maybe MORE than a!

Thx for the reminders of OTHER sources of light during these difficult months...!


Report Inappropriate Comment
DUSTIER58 12/6/2010 9:40AM

    I enjoyed your blog today, having started the day by oversleeping and having to skip my shower, no time to make lunch, going through the kitchen and giving everything a fast swipe and putting things away, taking supper out to defrost (at least I have stuffed peppers to look forward to tonight!)--well, let's just say I could really relate to everything you wrote!

May your day, and month, and rest of winter, sparkle with as much light as you can handle!

Report Inappropriate Comment

Maybe a Nice Chesterfield or an Ottoman

Monday, November 29, 2010

This song has so many bizarre non-title lyrics that it took me a while to figure out which one I wanted. Coulda also gone with, hmmm --

* Like a Llama or an Emu
* A Picasso or a Garfunkel
* Haven't you Always Wanted a Monkey?

So if you don't like the furniture lyric, feel free to grab any of the other three. Mix and match! Collect the whole set! Be the first on your block!

Eh, ewps.

I'm supposed to be blogging here.

Um, okay.

I'm in an odd mood. Well, more odd than usual. Cantcha tell???

So I am up a bit this week but it's not tragic and will be gone at some point or another. I am dancing around near getting back to Onederland but I'm not quite there yet. And Thursday morning, before eating anything, I actually saw 199.6 on the scale and all I could think of was, "Dang, now I gotta go have Thanksgiving!"



I have changed. A lot.

And you've all helped.

So if I had a million dollars, well, you know I'd buy you a green dress (but not a real green dress, that's cruel). Huh?

Party on, Sparkies.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LBEEKMA 12/27/2010 12:30AM

    I love this song...use it in my classroom to teach commas with subordinating conjunctions (got it from Jeff Anderson...a grammar guru). The students always look at me strange when I laugh at the lyrics (love K-car...a reliant automobile!). I'm such a fuddy duddy!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEALTHYME47 12/20/2010 10:05AM

    LOVE the BNL! Saw them in concert several years ago. A lot of their songs are great to exercise to.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ZSAZSAJANNY 12/10/2010 12:16AM

    I'll take the chesterfield (how comfy!) and some real Kraft dinner, mmmmmm!

Congrats on such an upbeat outlook on life. I love the lyrics to the song. Everytime I hear it on the radio I'm all smiles, grinning ear to ear!

I'm sure your Thanksgiving was grand and now it's on to a fine Christmas feast! We'll all enjoy it with restraint as our loving companion.
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 12/2/2010 6:19AM

    If I had a million dollars I prefer a red dress ~

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLISCIOUS 11/30/2010 8:29PM

    Great video. Great song. Great you.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JOPAPGH 11/29/2010 9:40PM

    "All those crazy elephant bones?"

These guys were great in concert. Really tight.

Report Inappropriate Comment
LESS_IS_MO 11/29/2010 9:34PM

    But not a real green dress LOL. You'd look awesome in a green dress and should buy one when you stick onederland again. After all isn't green a perfect CHanukah colour, lol.

My fave is "I'd buy you a K-car, a nice reliant automobile." LOL. This was one of my fave songs in the 90s. Love the kids dancing in the front..they're not listening to Uncle Ed's advice about the Club members, he he.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 11/29/2010 5:03PM

    I like your odd mood and those crazy song lyrics! emoticon

You'll get back to Onederland soon, I'm sure. emoticon

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
KARBRUCE 11/29/2010 12:20PM

    I love me some BNL, but am I the only person who does not know what Onederland is?
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
BOBCATRN 11/29/2010 9:51AM

    This is one of my favorite songs by Barenaked Ladies.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 11/29/2010 9:49AM

    This time of year puts a lot of people in strange moods.
You will get back into onederland. No doubt about it. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TELERIE 11/29/2010 9:22AM

    If I had a million dollar's I'd buy another trip to see you!
I'm up / have stalled completely and I'm with you - let's join forces and get to One-derland together.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KARBIE18 11/29/2010 7:46AM

    Hope you enjoyed your Thanksgiving, despite its effect on the scale. Living your life is much more important than a number, and, as you wrote, that will go back down - of that I have no doubt. Congrats on seeing Onederland. Knowing you, very soon you'll never have to see two hundred anything again (weight-wise, anyway).

Report Inappropriate Comment


Go Girlie
That is purty.
No wonder your brain is all over the place.

Gawd this so so tantalizing. GoGoGoGoGo

Report Inappropriate Comment
MADERINERUE 11/29/2010 7:23AM

    If I had a million dollars, I'd buy your love...Oh, wait, you give it to your Spark Buds for free! xoxo, and congrats.

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 11/29/2010 7:19AM

    WTG Jes!


Report Inappropriate Comment
REJ7777 11/29/2010 6:53AM

    You'll be in Onderland soon... with or without a green dress! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
BILL60 11/29/2010 6:43AM

    Very different!!

Report Inappropriate Comment

The Door is Locked, Just You and Me

Monday, November 22, 2010

I firmly believe that a lot of us are here because of distorted self-images. We might have lied to ourselves about how good we thought we looked -- and did that for years -- and then suddenly, oops, we're huge!

That is what happened to me. I own a perfectly good full-length mirror, but it's in a different room and so it's very easy to avoid it. I would just look at the, heh, mirror in the bathroom, and I could only see my upper torso. While I saw my face was getting wider and wider and more distorted, I would tell myself, oh, it's not so bad. I'd ignore all other cues and signals, such as my own silhouette, or how I looked in reflected shop windows and the like.

Or you might see the opposite, where you think you're huge and unlovable but the truth is, it's not too awful and you deserve to be happy and healthy but you're just not seeing it.

We don't have to go into funhouses to distort our own selves, our own senses of self.

The truth can really be painful, I know. God knows, I know.

But it's got the benefit of being the truth going for it. Be kind, of course. This is not a license to trample on people.

But do tell them the truth.

And you'll find that you tell yourself the truth more often as well.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CAROLISCIOUS 11/24/2010 1:09PM

    Mirrors, cameras, and the best friends. They always tell me what I don't wanna hear, but what I need to hear...the truth.

Report Inappropriate Comment
TELERIE 11/23/2010 9:10AM

    I think you're absolutely right. My self-image is still distorted, but healing slowly. It has been broken for a long time. I do double-takes when I see new or old pictures of myself and really can't trust my eyes. They show me what is in my brain, not what's out there for everyone else to see.
Thanks for putting it so eloquently!!

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Ah truth. I got here to Spark because of two events; because a brave friend, my dearest friend next to the DH, confronted me about my weight, how I carry it, in the most dangerous way, right in my belly. And because my Spark pal LabLover had made remarkable and very visible changes in her body and she told me about Spark. I will say straight out and proudly that I am open to constructive feedback and I work hard to stay open to it when I can trust the source (or when I have no choice but to face up to the truth). In order to dish out truth to other people one had better be prepared for angry rejection. And one had better be ready to face the consequences. The fact is for some folk who overeat addictively the way an alcoholic drinks the addiction may have a life of its own and may fight back. In that case it may be more effective to model health and wellbeing. Sometimes the best we can do is sew the seed and hope our loved one or friend or acquaintance will be able to find their own truth.

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 11/22/2010 7:45PM

    Mirrors and me...ugh! I tried for a while putting a full length mirror in front of my treadmill at home. I just beat myself up too much and eventually threw a blanket over the mirror...!

Doubt I'm ready to try that again just would be a true test of progress though, being able to see myself and be okay with it.


Report Inappropriate Comment
TRUE_TEXAN 11/22/2010 4:19PM

    I made the mistake of getting a treadmill at the gym that was in front of (a distance away but still in front of) the full length mirrors they have on the wall for the free weights area. It was diheartening to see myself jogging on the treadmill at how big I was. But I just tried to not look and be happy that I was actually there. I do many times see myself thinner than I really am and then those days when the realitiy slaps me in the face it's very hard.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 11/22/2010 2:49PM

    Sometimes it's hard to tell someone the truth without coming across as making fun. My sister once teased me for getting fat, but it really hurt when she said it. Now she is bigger than I ever was, and I figure she knows it so I don't say anything. I've invited her to SparkPeople a couple times, but now she doesn't even have internet access at home. She's really a mess, and I don't even know what to say because her mental state has not been great recently. So, I just try to be supportive. I keep a lot of what I'm thinking to myself because I'm sure she'd take it the wrong way. We've never gotten along great (OK in recent years, but not great).

As for myself, I tend to be harder on myself than I should be. My self-image has been pretty poor for a while. I'm working on it.

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 11/22/2010 2:06PM

    Truth hurts--never minded the extra weight as much as I mind the irreversible years! LOL emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
KIMROID 11/22/2010 10:21AM

    I'm guilty of taking a quick glance in the mirror. I'm afraid if I look too long then I'll see the damage I've done to myself by making very poor healthy lifestyle choices.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 11/22/2010 9:59AM

    I am starting to think I need to take a good look in my mirror every day to remind me of how big I am. I need something to get me back on track.
It is easier when we don't look in full mirror

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT_TERI 11/22/2010 7:59AM

    This is great. I've seen a truth recently myself -- not about how I look, though, but about something else I need to change. Reading this reinforces my feelings about the next steps I need to take. Thank you.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JOHNTJ1 11/22/2010 7:18AM

    This is very true.

People tell me I am looking so good all the time. I went to a family reunion of sorts this past weekend and everyone told me how good I looked and I was mentally scratching my head going "Huh?" I see myself as enormous.

Thanks for putting this out there. It is something I really need to work on

Much Love


Report Inappropriate Comment
REJ7777 11/22/2010 7:02AM

    "We don't have to go into funhouses to distort our own selves, our own senses of self." Very true! It's easy to be in denial, especially since the pounds tend to creep on so slowly.

emoticon Here's to Sparking our way to a reflection in the mirror that we enjoy looking at! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CARROT143 11/22/2010 6:53AM

    Thanks for that self image uplift! And working towards that truthfulness!

Report Inappropriate Comment

I Can Live and Breathe and See the Sun in Wintertime

Monday, November 15, 2010

This is, hands down, one of my favorite songs of all time. It consistently makes my Desert Island Discs list. You know, the ten or twelve or so song-long playlist that you'd absolutely, positively HAVE to have if you were stuck on a desert island.

With food, fresh water, sunscreen, medical care and an iPod.

But apparently no means of actually contacting anyone and getting off said desert island.

But I digress.

The imperfections of the world continue to be thrown into stark relief. The skies are getting darker. The air is getting colder. Unemployment is running out. And the time is running, and it can feel like a running in place.

But it's just a Winter that's coming. It's not permanent. It's not a downfall. It's a means of rising up.

For alcoholics, when you hit rock bottom is when you make a choice. You either decide to live, and to recover, or you give up, and you begin to accelerate the process of dying.

This is not that heavy, of course. And it isn't even rock bottom, not by any stretch. But it is the feeling of despair that can come with Winter. That, for me, can come every single Winter. For as Veterans' Day slips away and Thanksgiving looms, the cold seeps in and the dark permeates and it holds itself in and I hold myself in and if I don't watch it, I become wrapped in my own flesh for months until I suddenly wake up in March and realize, heh, someone's gonna see my arms soon and so I'd better get them in shape again and shed some poundage.

Success is, without a doubt, a very good thing, and the best thing about it is being able to hold onto it during dark times. Even if it isn't weight loss success. Even if it isn't recent. Being good and capable, being loving and kind, being able -- this is what can be hung onto. It's what can lead you past darkness and remind you that this, too, shall pass, and that you'll be back out there soon enough and Winter -- although it may SEEM longer -- is really only ninety days.

If there is no sun in Wintertime, make your own.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CODYG123 11/18/2010 12:08PM

    Seriously wonderful post Jespah. When reading after listening to the song I shed a couple of tears. I love the song too, it's big music.

I live in the Hawaii of Canada, on Vancouver Island. We rarely get snow at street level, but the moutains are covered with it. And the further north you go, the longer the nights are, so, I love Daylight Savings Time, it keeps summertime just a wee bit longer. This time of year I love to put up lights and wear my fleecy house boots and get out the sweaters. I have some USB led star lights which hover over my PC monitors. They glow in rainbow colors. We light up our dining table with lots of candles too. And instead of burning wood, our fireplace glows with stacks of candles and glass rocks. I'm always giving flashlights, candles and socks as presents. For anyone who knows me, they know the one thing I fear is freezing in the cold and dark.

Thanks again for sharing your thoughts and experiences. You rock.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 11/17/2010 4:36PM

    Oddly, the darkness doesn't bother me much, but I HATE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME!

One of my kids has a real problem with winter--by February he's about ready to slit his wrists and tries to head south just to be warm again. So I get it--but second hand.

Take care. Light candles (it's flattering and makes you think you're just trying to be romantic.) Might light fires in the bedroom, too. : )

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Oh how you speak for my spirit. The Solstice is coming. It will be getting lighter every day after that. Let's spend the dark days pumping up our energy and our muscles. Before we know it it will be spring.

Report Inappropriate Comment
PICKIE98 11/16/2010 6:22PM

    Only 90 days of winter for you?Where do you live?? Oahu? We have less than 90 days of summer.. if we are lucky,, by the time I get my pool opened and water warmed, I only have acoupl emonths left before closing it!! bummer,,
my sunshine comes from my DD and church, shoveling snow,, scraping ice off my windshield,, lots of Vitamin D then....

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLISCIOUS 11/15/2010 8:06PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 11/15/2010 8:04PM

    Oh MAN am I struggling with the long, dark months ahead!

I always struggle some, but I think this year...the year of the BIKE has me so keyed up about the outdoors that getting out of work and seeing it's already getting dark...? REALLY clips my wings!

I'm struggling to "tolerate" my treadmill and now see why some of those folks who run outdoors call it the "dreadmill!"

Yes, it IS only 90 days...sigh...


Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 11/15/2010 2:46PM

    Good luck seeing/making sun in Wintertime! emoticon
I love following your progress in your blog! Thanks for sharing! emoticon

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
ANONYGIRL 11/15/2010 12:43PM

    That is a great song.

I'm depressed on the sunniest and brightest of days, so winter can be something of a tunnel for me. And not one of those kinds with a light at the end. More like one that ends at a coal mine.

You've inspired me to learn how to use the fancy integrated USB media radio thingy in my new car so that I can burn some island playlists of my own and listen to them on the way to work in the morning. It might be dark outside, but I can at least try to lighten the mood. And I'll try to keep in mind that this winter, for me, means being finished with this blasted master's degree.

Thanks for that Jespah!

Report Inappropriate Comment
4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/15/2010 11:56AM

    I'm getting through winter by continuing to paddle outside on the weekends (in a drysuit), and signing up for pool sessions.

...and by refocusing on my fitness routines.

But yeah, I hear you on the whole creeping despair thing. I got my shrink to up my meds too.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JOANOFSPARK 11/15/2010 9:20AM

    "If there is no sun in Wintertime, make your own." What a great quote..and boy, lately does it seem as if I need it... Not that the weather is all that bad, nor do we even have snow yet, and probably won't have that much. It is as you said the cold gets down into your bones and you just want to curl up and your bones ache from the inside out and you just want to give up and give in...

BUT, WE WON'T...why because we SParkers make our own sunshine. We have the reserves to maybe not stride through it but to determinedly bulldoze our way through it...and we will make it through to the other side..Here's to Spring and all the promise that it brings...Here is to our pursuit better health, which will keep us going throughout the long cold, dark winter...

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 11/15/2010 9:08AM

    If there is no sun in Wintertime, make your own. This is a good one.
I am so fortunate that I live where we usually have sun and warm weather for most of the winter.Only a few scattrered cold days. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
THECITYMOUSE 11/15/2010 9:03AM

    "....I'm not expecting to grow flowers in the desert... but I can live and breathe and see the sun in wintertime...." LOVE. IT. One of my favorite songs, too.

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Love this blog. I cannot tell you how I've had these thoughts muddled in between my deep and profound brain things. I made a commitment to work on my bikini body up my diet again..seems like when it gets cold I just want comfort food and hibernate under baggy sweats and sweaters. Not this winter. In the midst of so much shizz going wrong, I'm gonna do this one thing right.


Report Inappropriate Comment

Iíll Fix these Broken Things

Monday, November 08, 2010


Well, not bones.


I broke some of the better ones earlier this year.

And now I am finally recovering from that.

Yes, folks.

It's annoying. I spent about four months doing less working out less (June through September), and paid for it, big time, in weight gain, in slower 5Ks, in clothes not fitting as optimally (or even at all, in some cases).

Things are turning around, but it is a chore.

Here are some numbaz.

Total miles walked (per pedometer):
January 56.70 (I had abdominal surgery on the 15th, hence the total is low)
February 75.52
March 78.88
April 75.57
May 83.03
June *66.42*
July *58.25*
August *66.83*
September *65.78*
October 78.39

5K times (didn't run a 5K every month this year):
April 40:31
May 40:44
July *47:26*
August *43:36*
September *46:39*
October *43:04 and 44:27*
November 41:28

Average weight:
January 182.35
February 178.55
March 176.8
April 180.95
May 183.12
June *185.05*
July *175.55* -- I suspect that this is about when the scale broke; I just didn't know it yet
August *170.28*
September *184.5* -- note half of the measurements are with the old broken scale, half without. When only the newer #s are used, the average is a far more believable 202
October 204.8
November so far 203.1

Big, big shocker here. Walk less, get slower in 5Ks. Gain weight. And lose the size 10s and 12s and re-embrace the 14s.

Not fun. Not fun at all.

So I'm seeing the changing back, and that's interesting. I'm doing what I can to not beat on myself for fouling up for so long. And I also don't want to use the convenient broken scale excuse, or at least not overuse it. After all, I was still eating, etc. Just not picking up on what was happening. But my clothes weren't broken. The race timers weren't broken. Just the scale.

I am a grown woman and am responsible for my choices and whatever consequences are derived therefrom.

I offer this information to those who are tempted to slack off -- although I suspect you will need to learn it for yourselves like I did.

No shortcuts.

No highway spurs.

No meandering.

But also ...

No blaming.

No backpedaling.

No regretting.

Just get out the glue and the nails and fix it.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TELERIE 11/9/2010 5:37PM

    Love this! You (and I) can do it, I know we can!

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 11/9/2010 3:20AM

    This time of year stinks I think all of us struggle with winter weight and with the bermuda triangle of holidays we are screwed for sure! But if we get a grip and just put our minds to it we can succeed!

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT_TERI 11/8/2010 11:27PM

    well, you know what's broke. And you have glue and nails. No sense dwelling on how you found yourself here (unless there's something you can learn). You know what to do, and you'll do it. I am confident.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 11/8/2010 6:36PM

    I'm with you! Gotta stop eating brownies!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLISCIOUS 11/8/2010 5:39PM

    Gotta lil rennovation goin' on over here too.

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Great Blog. I bet you feel just great going in the right direction.

In spite of the fact that I love the way I feel when I am staying the course I still go off from time to time. And then I feel rotten. Anyhow that is about me. This blog is about you and is helpful to me and that what Spark is about. Thanks buddy.

Report Inappropriate Comment
PICKIE98 11/8/2010 4:35PM

    What is a highway spur?

I am in the same boat, so hand me an oar!!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 11/8/2010 1:40PM

    I'm glad to read that you aren't beating yourself up over this. I have no doubt that you'll fix these broken things.

I have trouble with being a grown up and not beating myself up. It has gotten worse the last few years. I don't want to always be responsible. I'm having trouble breaking my bad habits because I just don't want to do it sometimes. I'll get there eventually, though.

Keep up the good work! emoticon

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 11/8/2010 11:59AM

    I am a grown woman and am responsible for my choices and whatever consequences are derived therefrom.

Just get out the glue and the nails and fix it

I need to get better glue and nails that don't fall out. But I have not given up.Always get good info on your blogs.

Report Inappropriate Comment
4A-HEALTHY-BMI 11/8/2010 10:42AM

    Right there with ya!

Spent all of MY summer gaining 20 lbs. Result? Lose the 8s & 10s, and embrace the 12s. LOL It's a very familiar story.

So I'm going back to basics and having a weightloss contest with myself of last year.

Report Inappropriate Comment
VALERIEMAHA 11/8/2010 9:41AM

    I'm shoulder-to-shoulder with you'n Eleanor!

Report Inappropriate Comment
JURI62 11/8/2010 9:31AM


Report Inappropriate Comment
HOKIEJEN13 11/8/2010 8:51AM

    Sometimes it's hard to break those habits. But, keep the nails and glue out for 30 days and I think you'll recall that those bad habits fade and the good habits become natural once again! Good luck, you can do this!

Report Inappropriate Comment
THECITYMOUSE 11/8/2010 8:38AM

    "Just get out the glue and nails and fix it". I'm right there with you, babes.


Report Inappropriate Comment

    Great post! Good luck to you!

Report Inappropriate Comment

First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 Last Page