JESPAH   191,140
150,000-199,999 SparkPoints
JESPAH's Recent Blog Entries

Bargain Buildings, Weights and Pullies

Monday, September 27, 2010

You would think that, at age 48, there would be little for me to learn about my body. But there still is.

Last Friday, I went into the office. Now, ya gotta understand, the "office" is incubator space in Worcester. Cheap, cheap, cheap. As in $100/month. Of course you get what you pay for. But we are a startup. There is no money.

Hence we have electricity, and HVAC, and lights and a lock on the door. And, quite literally, that is it.

Spent the time moving furniture in. Desks and chairs being thrown out by WPI (Worcester Polytechnic Institute, the alma mater of everyone in the company but me), whiteboards, er, "found" somewhere, a few bits bought at Ikea.

The floor is a godawful mess of less than perfectly smoothed concrete. There are a few interesting small holes in the floor (note to self: do not drop pens, paper clips or the like. Ever.). There is a small separate room which we are calling the kitchen although there is no water source. But the fridge (it reeks of bleach, which is better than when it earlier reeked of old takeout) and coffee maker (I donated that) are in there. Plus every kind of tea known to mankind (another donation by me) but no way to boil water except to run it through the coffee maker, which I hope still works.

Finally got everything in and more or less to our liking, then we spent time straightening, cleaning. They had me taking apart small robotic arms (lots of fine detail work) and sorting the screws and nuts and servos that go in there. Little motors about the width of two fingers and the length of two finger joints. I put up my Wegman calendar. We (mostly) cleared the conference table of robot parts. Soldering station is up and ready. About the only thing we don't have (and will need to continue borrowing from the school) is a laser cutter.

And then it was 3 so it ended up being lunchtime. Pizza. Oof. At least they got me a veggie one. I had the equivalent of 2 large slices. Plus diet Gatorade. Frankly, I have eaten better in my life but, like I said, we have no money.

Next day, I felt awful, like I was hung over a thousand times. Foggy head. Arms hurting. Huh, what?

I am thinking the combo of pizza plus salt (Gatorade) plus too much caffeine (we had coffee in the morning) plus different exercises than usual did it to me. It took a couple of days for that all to purge out. This morning, I feel great although I am up a coupla pounds. But that's fine -- it was a salty week. I figure the weight will be off in a week or so.

But it is telling me -- eating like a 25-year-old is something I truly cannot do any longer. I need to insist on a salad of some sort. I know, I know, there is no money. Then I need to chip in for it. Because this is absurd. It should not take me three days to recover, and not just from lifting and hauling (which, fortunately, we're done with for now). So I need to position myself better. Another thing I want to do is find an area nearby where I can walk or run safely. Probably the school is my best bet. There are a lot of hills -- some are truly substantial -- so that will be good for me.

And that brings me to two things we did that were not moving stuff. One was, heh, a coworker has a remote controlled helicopter. So he christened the space and flew the 'copter around a bit. Very amusing lil toy. We're going to play with it, see if we can get it to work with the thing we make. That should be a fun project.

The other thing was, we started talking about The Robot Run.

The what?

I have run about a dozen 5Ks by now. And I love them! So I checked around in Worcester to find one I could run there. And ... nothing. There are only two 5Ks in a year over there. Then I talked to the guy who puts them on in my area. He gave me an idea on price and what it all entails. And -- remember, we have no money -- we could potentially actually make some $$ on the deal.

So my idea (which my colleagues like, but we need more info) is for the company to put on a 5K. It would have to be in April, September, October or November in order to get the students in, but while the weather is decent and before Final exams. Of course we'd call it The Robot Run because we're a robotics company. We'd need to get sponsors and whatnot. I cannot guarantee that we would do it but I think it would be a blast. This would be -- eep -- my project.

So -- just to throw it out there -- would anyone wanna come to Worcester, Mass. and run a 5K next year? I can promise you major, massive amounts of quirkiness/geekiness. Helfino what the prizes will be. We will think of something (remember, we have access to a laser cutter).

Whaddaya say?

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LAB-LOVER 10/14/2010 9:43PM

    Yes Yes!
How about April? The Robot Rabbit Run!

Report Inappropriate Comment
TELERIE 10/5/2010 5:47PM

    Oh my, I really really wish I could afford to come to do that 5K if you get it off the ground!
P.S. Pack some lunch and you're all set without pizza!

Comment edited on: 10/5/2010 5:48:09 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 10/1/2010 4:26AM

    **Note to self-- put carpet under feet so you can maintain comfort!

Also a chair mat would not hurt-- or maybe a tossed out refrigerator box you can cut to size, lol!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 9/28/2010 11:21PM

    Been getting other invites...not a runner, esp. 5K variety...but jeez you runner-types seem to have such BOATLOADS of fun...!

I'm just so partial to my bike...check out my latest blog: reached a TERRIFIC milestone!


Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLISCIOUS 9/28/2010 10:18PM

    Hmmmm...can't say yes or no. It's quite a long way for me. I'm sure I can be there in spirit, though!

I always feel awful after a salty meal.

Report Inappropriate Comment

    I'll be there in a New York minute. How bout that?

I am most interested in your pizza hangover. I think my own recent bug was food related. Not tainted. Just too rich and too much and sugar too. I had a couple of days of binge and I felt miserable on Sunday. And I also put on a few pounds. last week. Who knew? The worst was the sluggishness and the lack of energy. Again. Who knew? Anyhow. A lesson learned. Back to the gym. Is there a gym near your office?

Report Inappropriate Comment
WOLFKITTY 9/28/2010 2:21AM

    LOL, I don't think I can afford the ticket.

But that sounds really great!! I love it!
And thanks for the tales of your new office.
(Oy! Sodium got me this weekend, too. I accidentally consumed a Panera sandwich that had all the sodium I needed for the day, plus a little more. Ate out the rest of the day to get just over 3x the normal limit of sodium.)


Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 9/27/2010 7:43PM

    We've got a great 5k for Farmland in Hadley on October 17. . . check (shameless plug)

By now I'm sure this has occurred to you, but why not pack a lunch? A salad, you know how. . .

Sounds like fun and work and a challenge on multiple levels. Good on ya.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 9/27/2010 1:41PM

    It sounds like you have a very interesting life right now! emoticon

I can't help you out with planning a 5K, and since I don't run (yet) and live all the way across the country, I doubt I would be able to come participate. But I'm rooting for you and your little startup! emoticon

Keep up the good work planning and learning both about the job and about your body! emoticon

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
JAREJIL 9/27/2010 12:35PM

    What great ideas !! I look forward to hearing more of this journey!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONECOOKIETWO 9/27/2010 12:03PM

    Hey Jes,
This sounds fun. I am going to be in Boston in mid November this year. Any chance you could arrange your 5K in a coupla months? Not so much? Didn't think so. I do wish you major good luck on the fundraising, better luck on getting your biz off the ground, and best luck in the continuing journey toward the perfect life (a lifetime journey, or course).
Yer bud and distant admirer,

Report Inappropriate Comment
DMPRIDER 9/27/2010 10:23AM

    Hi JES, just want to say first that I've been reading your blog regularly, I just haven't been commenting much. I love reading about your adventures with your start up.

I live near Worcester and my hubby and I will totally come to your Robot Run. Hubby is a geek too and I'm a science nerd so your company's slant to it will be a bonus. We really enjoyed our race experience yesterday and want to do it again.

Also, just to let you know, according to this site:
there are 5K races in Worcester every week.

Good luck!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 9/27/2010 10:10AM

    I see you are busy as usual. If I was able to run I would come join you for the run emoticon Ok I am lying. But I would be one at finish line cheering for you.
I do hope your job starts paying off for you.Seems like more work for no return right now.

Report Inappropriate Comment
NOLAZYBUTT110 9/27/2010 9:58AM

    why not sell mini robots? Or have the winner win a Robot......who ever runs the 5K the fastest? That would get a lot of geeks interested. Or why not get people to donate their own phones and other junk.... things you can rewire or recycle to make a robot?

Report Inappropriate Comment

Hey, Letís Go All Over the World

Monday, September 20, 2010

So, like, what's new?

Me, oh nothing. Just a thirty-seven pound increase. In one week.

Huh? That's impossible.

Yeah, oops, you're right. It was actually 37.6 pounds.

Huh? So, er, jes, are ya pregnant? You know, with the World's Fastest-Growing Mutant Super Alien Ninja Baby?

Uh, nope.

So you had surgery and they put hardware in? Artificial leg, perhaps?


Incredible, Guinness Book of World Records-worthy parasitic infection?


Is it -- uh -- really possible to gain that much in a week? Like, lard cake for every meal, all week long?

No way. A pound is 3,500 calories, my metabolic rate is something like 2,000/day, so just to gain seven pounds in a week is to eat 5,500 calories/day, every day, with no working out whatsoever, and this is over five times that. Hence I'd probably have precipitated a heart attack by Thursday or so.

So what is it?

It's a new scale.

Yes, the old one was THAT bad.

It was lying, lying, lying to me even as my 5K times declined, and even as my clothes started to give me a hard time. And, looking at my measurements, they are comparable to when I was last between 195 and 205 pounds. I am certain that this one is accurate.

So I was never in the 170s, and God knows I was never in the 160s, although I definitely hit the 190s and may very well have hit the 180s. There was a slide, but it was not as huge a skid as the numbers would imply.

And it also got me thinking (and you know that's dangerous). If I can put out there, for the world to see, this crazy super mutant ninja weight "gain" (or difference, or correction, if you prefer those words), then surely every moment of shared intimacy is all right. I suspect, at some point, you will all yell "TMI!" at me. But until you do, my life to you is an open book.

Of course I have privacy. I have secrets and hidden things, just like everyone else. And I try to respect others' privacy (particularly my family's). But me you can get.

Am I disappointed? Only slightly. I love seeing happy, pretty numbers as much as anyone else does, I won't lie. But they are merely numbers.


Today's number is comparable to, I kid you not, late April of 2009. And what has happened since then? I've run, what, 11 5Ks. I've pushed myself into a new job and industry that I love. I've made friends. I've had surgery. I've blogged my head off.

Pretty numbers, ugly numbers. Heh, it's all good, dawg. Like I said in the most recent vlog, I'm catching myself before things become truly dire. I am righting the ship. I am going back to basics. I never stopped tracking, I never stopped drinking the water and I never stopped weight training, but I have been slacking off in the cardio department and I haven't been getting enough sleep. Both of those things are on my fix-it agenda. And I'm carrying all of you along with me, too (see, I toldja I do strength training).

Come along, my Super Mutant Ninja Rock and Roll friends. There are more and newer and better places to go, more than have been dreamed of in your philosophy, Horatio.

Hey, let's go all over the world.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KAYGEEBEE12 9/24/2010 8:50AM

    Wow -- now you got me thinking... I have hated our digital scale since the day my husband bought it a couple of years ago. You program it with your age and height, and it calculates your % of body fat or something-or-other, and saves your last 5 readings. I have never trusted it, especially since I am bottom heavy so it thinks I am 43% body fat. My daughter and I have never been convinced that it was accurate. I miss the old-fashioned needle type. And now, after reading this -- I think I am going to buy a new old-fashioned one. I wonder what I REALLY weigh.....

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 9/22/2010 6:54AM

    Whew...what a cold shower...! But hey, you're rolling with it...they are just numbers and hardly can quantify all of the AWESOME transformations you've brought yourself!

Sounds like you already KNOW that and are moving right ahead to nail yet MORE satisfying ground! :-)


Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 9/22/2010 4:27AM

    Damn that metal monster! Grrrrrrrrrrr

Report Inappropriate Comment
WOLFKITTY 9/21/2010 11:47PM

    Aha!! Awesome. You always have had a great attitude! I just realized that I wasn't getting announcements about your blogs, so I missed a BUNCH! Geez.

I'm here with ya. Let's rock on!

Report Inappropriate Comment
NOLAZYBUTT110 9/21/2010 2:46PM

    I would not worry, its more than likely fat turned to MUSCLE! And you will find that happens. You may think you lost because your inches show it, but the weight scale alway seems to lie. Mien does to! Digital scales have a way of making you seem fatter. But with all those K's you waked or ran, ist mroe than likely muscle and muscle alway weights mroe than FAT! So ignore the numbers and check your measurements. I will bet your leg muscles are bigger~~ wave it off. You alway put on muscle just before you start seeinga drop in pounds! Dont let it get to you! Just tell yourself its MUSCLE and smile it off! I am sure within a certain amount of days or weeks you will discover I am right! Being more muscular means you may increase yoru weight but sooner or later the numbers will go down. THINK MUSCLE not fat! Go for a walk and shrug it off! (I ahd a scale that did that to me too! Dont you just hate those new fangled digital scales? (If my husband gets on it before me, I weight less, if I get on it first I weight at least one to 2 pounds more! Gte a kid to stand on the scale before you, truts me it will eb off a few punds when you get on. You cant trust a digital scale, they lie to you. I am almost tempter to go back to my ancient scale!) lol emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LAB-LOVER 9/20/2010 10:36PM

    I love Carol's suggestion! And it is just one more number. Doesn't hold a candle to all that you've accomplished! So there.

Report Inappropriate Comment
EMMASMART 9/20/2010 7:30PM

    Apparently you occasionally step on the scale. Tricky, maybe I should try that.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 9/20/2010 6:30PM

    I appreciate your honesty! And, I must confess, I had to go check your SparkPage to see if you updated your weight tracker and was pleased to see that you did. So many times we want to lie to ourselves and to others about weight. I know some Sparkers who don't record their gains on SP, so their weight trackers stay at whatever their lowest weight was. Myself, I've been forgetting to update my official SparkPeople weight, but I've been tracking it on a challenge team each week. It's been going up and down, and I've not been making much progress. But I'm working on it.

Anyway, you're still doing great, even if you've gained a little. Now that you've got your shiny new scale, you know exactly where you are. I have no doubt you can get back on track!

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 9/20/2010 4:59PM

    Oh, OK. I'll accept that the scale is correct, but I'm never going near it! I want my own little corner of happy denial still, I guess. Your attitude is so perfectly you! Way to go! Yes, you have made progress and so have I. Yours has been visible and mine has been more psychological I guess.

TMI? Not a chance. I'm letting it pretty much all hang out with you and my select buddies (can't handle too big a group) so I guess it's onward, no turning back, keep a stiff upper lip, "don't give up Tommy Atkins be a Stout Fella, chin up, cheerio, carry on!" (DO you know that old tune from WWII? ) Saw/heard it in an old movie when I was a kid. ; )

Report Inappropriate Comment

    So in the first place how can this be tmi when this type of information is exactly what we are all supposed to be focusing on?
In the second place If anybody doesn't like what we have to say they can go to another page. The end. For them.

What matters to me is that you and I are focused, focused and focused again. It is too easy to get distracted by life stuff. But in the end what is basic is our health, fitness and energy fed by our well being.

You are a trail blazer to me that is for sure. I'm pleased to be trotting along behind.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPARKLES_MCGHEE 9/20/2010 11:30AM

    Great blog!! I'm a frequent TMIer too, but sometimes it's good to just get it out there, ya know?

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 9/20/2010 9:20AM

    Another great blog. You always get me to thinking emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLISCIOUS 9/20/2010 8:38AM

    I like Fogerty much better than yodeling...

Well, rock 'n roll continually amaze me. You are right, the scale is just a measurement. Doncha wish there was a tool we could just step on that started blurting out all of the OTHER progress we've made???

Maybe you and your robotics buddies could come up with that?

Report Inappropriate Comment

Metal Hitting Metal is All I Feel

Monday, September 13, 2010

The reason for the song is because I was recently in a car accident.

Oh, don't worry, It was nothing, a minor fender bender. Extraordinarily, I've now been rear-ended, I kid you not, ten times. In three different states. Heh, I must have a sign in the back of my car or something.

And, my ticker is all messed up. I *SO* did not lose seven pounds this week. The numbers are all over the place because the scale needs to be replaced. It's been faithful to me (despite my kicking it on more than one occasion) for over 2 1/2 years, so it's about to go to that great measurement paradise in the sky. The new scale will arrive in a few days, and I strongly suspect that my numbers are a good 20 pounds heavier than the ticker says -- this is because of how slow I've been running 5Ks and how my measurements are looking and my clothes are fitting.

My work life is semi-messed up in that I am beginning to really need more structure. Working for a startup is all well and good, and I enjoy the freedom but, at the same time, I also would love to get some plans nailed down, If you don't count this work, then I am rapidly approaching a year since I worked at the publishing company. This is a long time. I don't love long-term unemployment and, sad to say, I have already experienced it twice in my life. This is, essentially, time #3. With a startup, there is always the promise that somehow, someday, it will be funded and wonderful and off we'll go and our lives will change and all.

But ... that doesn't always happen and, in a continuingly poor economy, the likelihood is not as good. If nothing else, I need a day job, I am still waiting to hear about the most recent interviews so I am not totally out of the running but it is just so much more limbo and lemme tell ya, I really and truly despise limbo.

So. My car is disordered. My weight is disordered. My job is disordered. We are going on vacation in a few days and, while I love that idea, I know that the eating is going to be disordered. And that won't happen until we've gone through the Mass Innovation company appearance this Wednesday, which I am excited about, and want to go well, but I am tired of the ramp-up and kinda just want it done already.

Life is disordered.

But then again, it has always been so.

Have you ever had a perfect week, where everything went wonderfully? The dog didn't knock your sandwich off the table? The kids did their homework on time? Your spouse came home early, with flowers or a nutritious dinner so you wouldn't have to cook? Your boss gave you a raise (or, hell, while we're at it, a promotion)? Your car ran like a top? Your lawn was gorgeous? Your in-laws gave you the perfect gift? Your parents had a beautiful sharing day with you as you all gloried about the past? The world was living in peace and harmony? The lottery numbers came up for you? Yadda yadda yadda?

Me neither.

So, what do we do, when the dishes overflow the sink, the cat misses her box, the kids don't pick up their clothes despite you telling them for the umpteenth time, the news is depressing, the weather stinks, your favorites sports team loses, the toilet backs up and someone mentions termites and they're talking about your house?


We eat.



Eating caused none of those things and it does no good for getting rid of them anyway. It doesn't prevent the wreckage and it doesn't clean it up. It hides it. It pushes the cracked bumper, the brown lawn, the child with the F on her report card and the yelling boss into the background, but only temporarily. And when they return, those things are worse. They're dirtier, louder, smellier, more insistent.

Denial is oh, so easy. So many of us have lived in that mansion for so long. But it's not a mansion. It's a car wreck. It's broken glass and shattered plastic and dented metal. Sitting there and eating is not going to get you out. You need to unlock the door and lift the handle.

Get out of denial. Stop pacifying your problems with food. You are far, far stronger than you think. Go out and meet your problems head on. And I bet you'll find that, much of the time, they're not as big as you though they were.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LBEEKMA 9/18/2010 12:07PM

    Well spoken! There are so many reasons (excuses) for medicating ourselves with food and who feels better after that...definitely not us! It's so crazy that we punish ourselves like that for what others do to us? Boy, do I need to follow this advice...I'm working on it, though! Thanks for the blog!

Glad to hear you're ok!

Comment edited on: 9/18/2010 12:13:06 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
LAB-LOVER 9/17/2010 10:10PM

    Denial? Who? Me?
OK... yup, I gotta DO something!
Thanks for the swift kick.

Report Inappropriate Comment
BAMAGIRL58 9/15/2010 6:03PM

    I love the way you express yourself and I swear I hear it all in my thoughts. The thing I love the most is how you wrap it all up. Thanks for putting words to my thoughts. Strange how very much more effective it is to see it in print.

I hope the disorder is calmed by a little vacation.

Report Inappropriate Comment
DMPRIDER 9/14/2010 11:30PM

    This is a great blog. Thank you. Sorry about all the disorder. Hang in there.

Report Inappropriate Comment
NOLAZYBUTT110 9/14/2010 8:55AM

    If I feel that bad I may go shopping for a new outfit.... feel a lot better for a while and it helps motivate me to eat right, and when you feel right, you start thinking right and life appears to look better! But without Jesus to focus on, I am just like everyone else...poor in spirit. So to get rich in spirit... so I can think right thoughts I alway make it a practice to devote some time when I get up, first thing in the morning to putting G*D in my life; first and foremost. It helps make it much easier to digest things that happen thru out my day when things do go wrong.It sure make a difference. If I did not have that in my life, I would be totally depressed, because nothing has ever gone the way I wanted! I have alway settled for what people dish out, and all those bad things until he came into my life. Now I try and reshape how others think who come into my path.

He has made the difference when I was in a car accident and my car got smashed up and I was nearly killed. That was the least of my porblems. I had a hard time and still do, sleeping and breathing at night. The ER people intubated me wrong and destroyed my breathing passageway. Nearly killed me in the process. Prayer got me thru it. It also helped when I got a viral infection in my lungs, helped when I broke my ankle as I was otu taking a walk in the park. He jsut makes like more adventurous and he keeps me focus on what really matters... loving life to the fullest despite all the bad in the world. If I allowed all those things to get to me, I probably would not get out of bed but cover my head and take a sleeping pill to escape it all. Because Life here and now is not so perfect for anyone. I just Hope others find the peace I have found to get me thru it all. Hope you have him oo.

Report Inappropriate Comment
GEE-KNEE 9/14/2010 6:39AM

    Schedules and consistency are important. I hope your start up business does take off into something lucrative. Robots with hobbits, how fun. That would be so cool. I am glad you are okay from your fender bender. As for the potential gain, I just gained 20 from dealing with my husbands 7 months of unemployment. There is stress and then there is stress. I was in survival mode because I barely made enough to pay our mortgage, so I tried... but the comfort of the food won temporarily-on occasion. Now that things are bit more "normal", i plan to get it back down. You will get back down too.

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 9/14/2010 5:21AM

    Sounds like order is in need-- do it one step at a time or you will fall..You can do it I know you can

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDOORN 9/14/2010 4:21AM

    What? You mean wolfing that sweet thing didn't magically transform my house into something from Home Beautiful...? :-)

Yep, been there, done that...magical thinking really becomes obvious if one can step back, take a deep breath and look at things rationally...!

Great thoughts...thx for sharing!


Report Inappropriate Comment
STRINGS58 9/13/2010 10:43PM

    I want to refer you to a James Taylor song, it has the line "the secret to life is enjoying the passage of time, anyone can do it, there's really nothing to it" --Maybe things are differently ordered instead of ordered the way you would like them . . . and I like the fire that burns up the denial and leaves truth.
I hope you find progress in the midst of the disorders emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLISCIOUS 9/13/2010 9:55PM

    I'm gonna post the link to this blog on my local team page. Boy it says a lot. I'm sorry about all the disorder. I think a vacation is definitely in order. Yeh, you might eat a little more, but you'll have more time to be active and burn some extra calories. Right???

(I hope I can remember this advice the next time I go on vacation!)

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 9/13/2010 8:22PM

    I almost was the first to comment this morning, but I had to run off to a meeting and my ride was waiting. Nothing brilliant except you've channelled my current feeling--I have been in denial about lots of things for years. Weight was only one of them. I love the clear statement that eating didn't cause any of the things that are wrong and won't cure them either. I've been living like that for two weeks and feel more in control than I have in years--and not just with food.

I do hope the vacation is a success. I have a hunch you'll make it so.

Report Inappropriate Comment

    What a wonderful three cheers blog. I really like your pretty picture day that you painted. I have the feeling it is possible to focus on the good stuff just as you did here. Maybe not the kind of stuff that we might want to have happen...your ideas are absolutely splendid. But good stuff that we might not notice because we are being occupied with being annoyed. Ever have that happen? Love this. Thanks

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 9/13/2010 5:09PM

    Easier said than done. But it can be done.Another good blog.
I do hope you get a paid job you enjoy.

Report Inappropriate Comment
AESOPSREED 9/13/2010 4:49PM

  *offers hugs for all the disorder* !

I empathize with what you're going through, and I really appreciate the reminder that food is not the answer. I'm not at the point where I totally have it under control, but I'm getting a LOT better at stopping myself. And things like what you said here help. Thank you.


Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 9/13/2010 2:36PM

    emoticon for such a humorous and thought-provoking blog!

I hope you find some order soon, even if some parts of your life remain disordered. I find that I can laugh at some of life's disorder, but others (e.g. job issues) are harder to laugh off.

Keep up the good work! You'll get back on track eventually! emoticon

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERN009 9/13/2010 12:24PM

    Denial is such a tempting path that leads to only more struggles later on. You are so right to stay with the need to fight it off. It has to become a constant reminder that we only need to eat to live and not live to eat. Enjoying the day, improving relationships, and achieving our goals need to be on the top of our lists not what food we can pacify ourselves with for only a brief moment till like you said you end up with a bigger problem than before. I wish you a great week my sparkfriend! Keep on keeping on!
Happy Travels,

Report Inappropriate Comment
PMFISH 9/13/2010 11:12AM

    Our strongest muscle is our brain!!! I have never seen a happy person bitter or a bitter person happy. It is like the blind man having some one telling him about his new room. Before she could finish, he stated "I love it". She said you can't see it and I haven't finished telling you about it. He told her "When I woke up this morning I decided I would love it, so I do."

Many times that is just what we have to do and it is a better day for it. Times are unsettled for everyone right now.

You can do this girl! Hang it there! Your older body will thank you for everything you do to improve your health!!


Report Inappropriate Comment
SCHMEVELYN 9/13/2010 10:19AM


Report Inappropriate Comment

Now playing in left field ...

Sunday, September 05, 2010

This video log is the sequel to "Now playing in right field":

Yeah, so I've slipped up. But you know what? I'm fixing it, and that's all that matters. Go Red Sox!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CAROLISCIOUS 9/7/2010 10:01PM

    Cool vlog hunny! And yes, we will slip, but we will catch ourselves and not fall! NEVER go back!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 9/7/2010 2:05PM

    Loved this and it sure hit home.Thanks for your wise words emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Yep, Human.
Yep, Fallible.
Yep, Reinvigorated.
Nothin like a little reality. And wanting good health and well being really badly.

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 9/6/2010 9:45AM

    Awesome-- being accountable is great .. It helps others when they see they are not the only one.. hope the game rocked!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERN009 9/5/2010 10:46PM

    I wish you the best on your 5K tomorrow. Love the message that slip-ups are 100% guaranteed and to just be honest with yourself when you feel that it might be happening. You are so right on with that because it is when we are dishonest with ourselves that we might let them snowball out of control.

Report Inappropriate Comment
DIASTER 9/5/2010 8:03PM

  Love your message!! so true.
You look too sweet to be one of those obnoxious red socks fans [lol]
Well I guess you could call it a friendly {?} rivalry YEA RAYS
We really do like the pressure when the red socks come to town, but you have to admit their fans are ferrous.

RAYS !!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LESS_IS_MO 9/5/2010 3:25PM

    Right on! "100% guaranteed - we are going to slip up." I agree! It's guaranteed. I tend to slide for a little too long, myself. And then I whine, and avoid, for too long, going back to eating very little so I can take off the slip. Hope you rock the 5k. And that the new scale is kind to you.

Report Inappropriate Comment
DMPRIDER 9/5/2010 12:57PM

    Hi JES, I hope you have a great time at the game. And good luck with your 5K!

Thanks for this video. Right now I'm trying to battle back from the worst slip I've had since I've been on Spark. Thank you for this, I really needed this right now. Onward!

Report Inappropriate Comment
AQUABUNNY 9/5/2010 12:34PM

    you are awesome and inspirational! thank you!!! Have a GREAT time at the game!

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT_TERI 9/5/2010 10:51AM

    Awesome. You're so right about how important it is to manage the slips....lest they become slides or something even worse. Have a great time at Fenway. It's a beautiful day to be outside!! Good luck, too, on tomorrow's 5K!

Report Inappropriate Comment

    What an important message! It's nice to 'see' you.

If I keep looking for the perfect plan to follow, I'll never start losing weight. My motto now is "starting over every day."

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONECOOKIETWO 9/5/2010 10:27AM

    Go Red Sox!
Go Jespah!!!
You are the most inspiring SPer I know!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LAB-LOVER 9/5/2010 8:37AM

    Yay for you... I don't even think of it as a "slip up" -- it's just part of being human.
Go Sox! Any game at Fenway is fun, even if...

Report Inappropriate Comment
STRINGS58 9/5/2010 8:04AM

    What a good message for the Labor Day Weekend (Go Rays!). And Wow, you've made really good progress (Go Rays!). The attitude shift is great too. I would love to go to Fenway -- green monster and all, but yes, I'll still cheer for the Rays, or the Brewers, but I really hope you have a good time at the game! Food choices at the game are fun, huh !! My husband has some high cholesterol numbers, so he planned for his hot dog with bowls of oatmeal and vegetarian meals several days before!

Let's see, Boston is still in the wild card position, right?

Report Inappropriate Comment

It's a Game of Give and Take/That Ain't the Way to Have Fun/After All Was Said and Done

Thursday, September 02, 2010

This is the third birthday I have spent here on Spark. So here are three songs that have something to do with three -- trios, three in the name of the group, etc. Enjoy.

Yeah, I know the third one is really weird. But have you ever tried to grab a song from the Internet about the number three that wasn't by Britney Spears?

Anyway, I'm turning 48 today. 48 is the new 33 1/3 or so.

I'm still sick, so I don't feel as kick-bun awesome as I'd like. And, with Hurricane Earl arriving, er, tomorrow, we are going to just order in enough food to go for a couple of days. Probably Vietnamese, with some seriously hot soup, as Mr. J has the cold as well. But we are going to a Red Sox game in a few days so the real celebration will be in a few days.

But, hey, it's my birthday today! So it's time for a somewhat more low-key party than usual, but a party just the same.

Party on, Spark dudes and dudettes.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

STRINGS58 9/5/2010 8:14AM

    Hey Happy Birthday! I think your video blog indicates you are feeling better (I read stuff out of sequence sometimes). I have enjoyed catching up on spark mail listening to these songs -- uh Huh!

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRACYZABELLE 9/3/2010 3:28AM

    Happy Sparkerversary!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LBEEKMA 9/3/2010 1:29AM

    Happy, happy birthday! You have so much to celebrate! I'm right behind you at 47 so I know how it feels that you can't possibly be that old (at least in soul). Enjoy your vietnamese food (one of my favs too) and party it up at the Red Sox game...hope they win just for you! emoticon

p.s.I'm sharing the last song with my kids...they both have taken or are taking German! They'll get a kick out of this!

Comment edited on: 9/3/2010 1:34:01 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
MADERINERUE 9/2/2010 10:35PM

    Happy birthday to my haiku-lovin, MST3K-watchin, Bow-Wow-Wow-listenin' girlfriend. I am so happy to know you! I wish you a great 48th and many more wonderful birthdays ahead.

P.S. I will turn 29 for the 13th time this December. Awesome!

(That looks kind of like Vietnamese, doesn't it?)

Report Inappropriate Comment
MS.ELENI 9/2/2010 10:11PM

    Happy Happy!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LAB-LOVER 9/2/2010 9:53PM

    Enjoy the game! And party like it's 1999!
Cause that was closer to 33 1/3!

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Well Jes I think you just have to celebrate all month long. I usually do that but now you especially are entitled since you are sick.

Anyhow I am singing happy birthday to you. Can you hear me? I have a terrible voice.
emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon


Report Inappropriate Comment
KSGROTHE 9/2/2010 5:19PM

    Happy Birthday, Jespah!

I remember that third song! Definitely weird! I'd never seen the lyrics before. I know a little German: "I don't love you, you don't love me." Definitely does not apply to how I feel about you! emoticon

Have a great, if low-key, birthday!

- Karen

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT_TERI 9/2/2010 3:10PM

    Happy Birthday !!

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
AESOPSREED 9/2/2010 3:06PM

  Happy birthday! I hope that you have fun inspite for feeling bleh and weather shenanigans!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DMPRIDER 9/2/2010 10:32AM

    Happy Birthday JES!! I hope you and Mr. J. are both feeling better soon so you can celebrate in style!

Report Inappropriate Comment
GEE-KNEE 9/2/2010 10:22AM

    Happy Birthday!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MADZIE 9/2/2010 9:23AM

  Happy Birthday Jes!!! Enjoy your day! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ANONYGIRL 9/2/2010 8:05AM

    Happy Birthday! emoticon

(birthday salad, that exists, right?)

Report Inappropriate Comment
TIGERSMUM 9/2/2010 8:04AM

    Happy Birthday!!!! I hope your and your DH both feel better soon!

Enjoy the Red Sox game and celebrate when your feeling better.

Happy Happy!!!

emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUGARBABY60 9/2/2010 7:58AM

    Happy Birthday! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARCHMAID 9/2/2010 7:56AM

    Happy Birthday! It's Jespah's birthday! Happy Birthday to our great gal! (I'm thinking of the tune heard at Disney world 25 years ago with words: Happy Birthday! It's Donald's Birthday! Happy Birthday to Donald Duck.")

Don't ask. Can't hum on line. But it's very cheerful!

HAVE A GREAT DAY IN SPITE OF IT ALL! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 9/2/2010 7:57:17 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
LARRYO4 9/2/2010 7:48AM

    emoticonHappy Birthday emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 Last Page