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Now playing in left field ...

Sunday, September 05, 2010


This video log is the sequel to "Now playing in right field": www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=2357785


Yeah, so I've slipped up. But you know what? I'm fixing it, and that's all that matters. Go Red Sox!

  
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CAROLISCIOUS 9/7/2010 10:01PM

    Cool vlog hunny! And yes, we will slip, but we will catch ourselves and not fall! NEVER go back!

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MS.ELENI 9/7/2010 2:05PM

    Loved this and it sure hit home.Thanks for your wise words emoticon

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 9/6/2010 8:44PM

    Yep, Human.
Yep, Fallible.
Yep, Reinvigorated.
Nothin like a little reality. And wanting good health and well being really badly.

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TRACYZABELLE 9/6/2010 9:45AM

    Awesome-- being accountable is great .. It helps others when they see they are not the only one.. hope the game rocked!

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CHERN009 9/5/2010 10:46PM

    I wish you the best on your 5K tomorrow. Love the message that slip-ups are 100% guaranteed and to just be honest with yourself when you feel that it might be happening. You are so right on with that because it is when we are dishonest with ourselves that we might let them snowball out of control.

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DIASTER 9/5/2010 8:03PM

  Love your message!! so true.
You look too sweet to be one of those obnoxious red socks fans [lol]
Well I guess you could call it a friendly {?} rivalry YEA RAYS
We really do like the pressure when the red socks come to town, but you have to admit their fans are ferrous.

RAYS !!!!!

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LESS_IS_MO 9/5/2010 3:25PM

    Right on! "100% guaranteed - we are going to slip up." I agree! It's guaranteed. I tend to slide for a little too long, myself. And then I whine, and avoid, for too long, going back to eating very little so I can take off the slip. Hope you rock the 5k. And that the new scale is kind to you.

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DMPRIDER 9/5/2010 12:57PM

    Hi JES, I hope you have a great time at the game. And good luck with your 5K!

Thanks for this video. Right now I'm trying to battle back from the worst slip I've had since I've been on Spark. Thank you for this, I really needed this right now. Onward!

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AQUABUNNY 9/5/2010 12:34PM

    you are awesome and inspirational! thank you!!! Have a GREAT time at the game!

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FIT_TERI 9/5/2010 10:51AM

    Awesome. You're so right about how important it is to manage the slips....lest they become slides or something even worse. Have a great time at Fenway. It's a beautiful day to be outside!! Good luck, too, on tomorrow's 5K!
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SWIFTSEATURTLE 9/5/2010 10:33AM

    What an important message! It's nice to 'see' you.

If I keep looking for the perfect plan to follow, I'll never start losing weight. My motto now is "starting over every day."

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ONECOOKIETWO 9/5/2010 10:27AM

    Go Red Sox!
Go Jespah!!!
You are the most inspiring SPer I know!!

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LAB-LOVER 9/5/2010 8:37AM

    Yay for you... I don't even think of it as a "slip up" -- it's just part of being human.
Go Sox! Any game at Fenway is fun, even if...
-LL

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STRINGS58 9/5/2010 8:04AM

    What a good message for the Labor Day Weekend (Go Rays!). And Wow, you've made really good progress (Go Rays!). The attitude shift is great too. I would love to go to Fenway -- green monster and all, but yes, I'll still cheer for the Rays, or the Brewers, but I really hope you have a good time at the game! Food choices at the game are fun, huh !! My husband has some high cholesterol numbers, so he planned for his hot dog with bowls of oatmeal and vegetarian meals several days before!

Let's see, Boston is still in the wild card position, right?

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It's a Game of Give and Take/That Ain't the Way to Have Fun/After All Was Said and Done

Thursday, September 02, 2010

This is the third birthday I have spent here on Spark. So here are three songs that have something to do with three -- trios, three in the name of the group, etc. Enjoy.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=-XeBdBVBmb0&
feature=related


www.youtube.com/watch?v=SeFii0frqMY&
feature=related


www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciTywk5AdKY&
feature=fvst


Yeah, I know the third one is really weird. But have you ever tried to grab a song from the Internet about the number three that wasn't by Britney Spears?

Anyway, I'm turning 48 today. 48 is the new 33 1/3 or so.

I'm still sick, so I don't feel as kick-bun awesome as I'd like. And, with Hurricane Earl arriving, er, tomorrow, we are going to just order in enough food to go for a couple of days. Probably Vietnamese, with some seriously hot soup, as Mr. J has the cold as well. But we are going to a Red Sox game in a few days so the real celebration will be in a few days.

But, hey, it's my birthday today! So it's time for a somewhat more low-key party than usual, but a party just the same.

Party on, Spark dudes and dudettes.

  
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STRINGS58 9/5/2010 8:14AM

    Hey Happy Birthday! I think your video blog indicates you are feeling better (I read stuff out of sequence sometimes). I have enjoyed catching up on spark mail listening to these songs -- uh Huh!

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TRACYZABELLE 9/3/2010 3:28AM

    Happy Sparkerversary!

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LBEEKMA 9/3/2010 1:29AM

    Happy, happy birthday! You have so much to celebrate! I'm right behind you at 47 so I know how it feels that you can't possibly be that old (at least in soul). Enjoy your vietnamese food (one of my favs too) and party it up at the Red Sox game...hope they win just for you! emoticon

p.s.I'm sharing the last song with my kids...they both have taken or are taking German! They'll get a kick out of this!

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MADERINERUE 9/2/2010 10:35PM

    Happy birthday to my haiku-lovin, MST3K-watchin, Bow-Wow-Wow-listenin' girlfriend. I am so happy to know you! I wish you a great 48th and many more wonderful birthdays ahead.

P.S. I will turn 29 for the 13th time this December. Awesome!

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(That looks kind of like Vietnamese, doesn't it?)

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MS.ELENI 9/2/2010 10:11PM

    Happy Happy!!! emoticon

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LAB-LOVER 9/2/2010 9:53PM

    Enjoy the game! And party like it's 1999!
Cause that was closer to 33 1/3!

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 9/2/2010 9:03PM

    Well Jes I think you just have to celebrate all month long. I usually do that but now you especially are entitled since you are sick.

Anyhow I am singing happy birthday to you. Can you hear me? I have a terrible voice.
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KSGROTHE 9/2/2010 5:19PM

    Happy Birthday, Jespah!

I remember that third song! Definitely weird! I'd never seen the lyrics before. I know a little German: "I don't love you, you don't love me." Definitely does not apply to how I feel about you! emoticon

Have a great, if low-key, birthday!

- Karen



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FIT_TERI 9/2/2010 3:10PM

    Happy Birthday !!

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AESOPSREED 9/2/2010 3:06PM

  Happy birthday! I hope that you have fun inspite for feeling bleh and weather shenanigans!

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DMPRIDER 9/2/2010 10:32AM

    Happy Birthday JES!! I hope you and Mr. J. are both feeling better soon so you can celebrate in style!

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GEE-KNEE 9/2/2010 10:22AM

    Happy Birthday!

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MADZIE 9/2/2010 9:23AM

  Happy Birthday Jes!!! Enjoy your day! emoticon

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ANONYGIRL 9/2/2010 8:05AM

    Happy Birthday! emoticon

(birthday salad, that exists, right?)

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TIGERSMUM 9/2/2010 8:04AM

    Happy Birthday!!!! I hope your and your DH both feel better soon!

Enjoy the Red Sox game and celebrate when your feeling better.

Happy Happy!!!

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SUGARBABY60 9/2/2010 7:58AM

    Happy Birthday! emoticon

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MARCHMAID 9/2/2010 7:56AM

    Happy Birthday! It's Jespah's birthday! Happy Birthday to our great gal! (I'm thinking of the tune heard at Disney world 25 years ago with words: Happy Birthday! It's Donald's Birthday! Happy Birthday to Donald Duck.")

Don't ask. Can't hum on line. But it's very cheerful!

HAVE A GREAT DAY IN SPITE OF IT ALL! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LARRYO4 9/2/2010 7:48AM

    emoticonHappy Birthday emoticon

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He Recognized Me, and Punched Me in the Nose. He Said, ...

Monday, August 30, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0YrXjeRSoE

Now, don't worry, lil Sparkies. No one's been abusing me.

I just find the title lyric amusing. The video, in case you can't get to it, is Alice Cooper's "No More Mr. Nice Guy". And that's what I want to talk about -- not about being down another few pounds or whatever.

Let's talk about being nice. Or, rather, TOO nice.

You know what it's like. You meet someone who agrees with everything you say. EVERYTHING. You get tired of it, it's too much bland affability. And so, if you're anything like me, you pick at that, to see if you can create some disagreement. Black is white you say. Of course, says the other person.

But -- what happens when that all-too agreeable person ISN'T someone else? What if it's you, or if it's been you?

You're up for anything. You "go along to get along". You take whatever's put on your plate and don't complain, even if it's not what you wanted. Your friend says, not today, no walking for me today, and you allow that to color your behavior as well, so you stay at home. There's only one healthy snack left, but you let someone else have it.

Oh, you are the martyr. And you suffer. Oh, how you suffer! But you are secretly hoping that someone will notice your suffering and -- well, what exactly? Reward you with the Medal of Honor and the love of your fellow countrymen? Alleviate it by somehow magically figuring out that something is wrong (even though you never told them there was any problem)? Make the impossible come true, and immediately pop the weight off you because, well, not so much that you worked to get it off, but because you SUFFERED?

I see it every day here. People (and, let's face it, these are mostly women), who reveal that their husbands don't want them losing their curves and losing too much weight. And these are not 110-pound proto-anorexics but rather women who weigh a good 410 pounds. Or their kids bring in candy. Or their mothers-in-law are constantly serving cakes at family occasions.

Well, I am not advocating being rude. Please don't misunderstand me. Rather, I am saying, break out of the passive-aggressive rut. Don't do it to yourself, and don't let others pull it on you. Your husband says he's afraid you'll lose your curves? Just tell him they'll be better sculpted, not gone. It takes a really serious dip in body fat percentage for a woman's curves to truly go away. Your kids are bringing in candy? Tell them it goes in their room and nowhere else. Or, better yet, tell them it's not allowed in the house AT ALL. Your mother-in-law insists on plying you with cake? Tell her that the meal she just served you was so delicious and wonderful that you couldn't possibly eat another bite. That cake looks wonderful but, sorry, no room.

What I am saying is: PUT YOUR FOOT DOWN.

Your health is IMPORTANT.

So quit letting things happen to you.

Quit letting people dictate your life to you.

Quit opening your mouth and accepting whatever they toss your way.

SparkPeople talks about asserting your Food Rights. And that is what this is all about. And you don't just have Food Rights in restaurants (e. g. to be able to ask for dressing on the side without being made out so as to be a pariah) but in the home as well.

You are a person, an autonomous adult.

YOU DO NOT HAVE TO JUST TAKE IT

Get what you need -- without hurting other people, of course -- but make sure that you are taking care of your own health because, at the end of the day, and at the end of your life, you are the one who has to live in your body, not them.

No more Ms. Nice Gal.

  
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TRACYZABELLE 9/2/2010 5:43AM

    We have to remember what is in our best interest

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MADZIE 9/1/2010 12:58PM

  Thanks Jes, this is right on the money!! I like what you said at the end about how we are the ones who live in our body!

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DDOORN 8/30/2010 10:10PM

    And this goes beyond food into all areas of our lives...it can become so "easy" to just go along with everyone and lose yourself in the process! Taking a stand on things important to oneself, food and beyond!, can be such an important part of our recovery...and yes, us guys can fall into this trap also...don't I just *know it*!

Don

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CAROLISCIOUS 8/30/2010 9:39PM

    Great blog Jes. It's a hard lesson I've had to learn. I CAN say "no thank you, I don't want any." It was especially hard with my mom, but I think she understood. I CAN say to my husband, no I don't want to go out for pizza, or to a co-worker...I wouldn't care for the cake. (Had to say both just last week.)

I try not to depend on anyone when it comes to working out. Hubby and I have this running thing going on, and he knows he can't bail on me. But if he does, I go it alone, or find some other means to burn the calories I need to burn. There are plenty of options. No excuses.

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FURBALLDTH 8/30/2010 9:25PM

    good post.

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 8/30/2010 8:26PM

    Now that is interesting. I'm not so sure I have ever let people push me around or push food on me either. But maybe, just maybe I 'm one of those who is the pusher...yanno the type. If I can force-feed you then I can eat all I want too. Or let me show you how much I love you by "nurturing" you. Not much good and plenty of potential harm. Hmmm. I have never noticed this before. You made me think and I am not so sure I like what I am seeing. I grew up in a household where this kind of pushing went on all the time. I really hated it. Now I think maybe I've turned myself into my family. Shesh change is hard sometimes.

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PICKIE98 8/30/2010 7:31PM

    I agree, no, not just to agree,LOL! I want it both ways, I want the food, but I want to lose weight,, if somebody ELSE plies me with it, it is okay, the excuse..

need to chew on this(No calories) and take a personal inventory again...

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VEGEFARMER 8/30/2010 3:18PM

    Fabulous blog, thank you for sharing, No more Mrs nice guy for me. Hugs

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MS.ELENI 8/30/2010 2:23PM

    I love this.Great blog.You are right as can be.

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CHERN009 8/30/2010 2:16PM

    emoticon blog! It has taken me a lot of time to get to the point that it is ok to say "thank you, but no thank you" and after the first couple of times it gave me so much power to be in control and stay in control and realize it has been me all along that has caused me to "suffer" as you put it, instead of the people around me that had all the 'not the best choice' treats.

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MADERINERUE 8/30/2010 12:49PM

    This is a great blog. I know exactly what you mean, and I hear/see/read the same thing all the time. I think that many women think they're SUPPOSED to suffer so that no one else has to--that suffering is a part of the role as a partner or a mother or an employee. But in the Land of Plenty, many don't HAVE to suffer. There is enough food/shelter/clothing for us and our loved ones. In fact, as rising obesity rates in the US indicate, there is often too much.

I know this is trite, but ultimately, I find I can give more when I give myself more.

And as for the boorish husbands who don't want their wives to "lose their curves"--screw that. It's just another way to encourage women in their pseudo-selfless suffering, and it's also a way to keep women under the emotional thumbs of their husbands ("I can't lose weight or he won't love me anymore"). Lastly, it's a way for these same husbands to avoid changing their diets and/or their lives for the better, too. I just can't believe this kind of sabotage.

Grr. Now my dander is up. I better stay off the boards today or I'm going to post something I'll regret.

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PWINCESSEMILY 8/30/2010 11:55AM

    Totally agree.

Personally I don't worry about having food forced on me.

Its so easy for me to just say that I'm too full, or that I'm trying to avoid excess calories. Its not a big secret that I'm trying to get healthy, so I'm quite happy to tell people that.

The only people so far that have been funny or off with me about it are people who I know are unhappy with their own weight and would like to lose some. So I talk about sparkpeople - not to them, because I don't want them to think I'm telling them they are fat - but in general, or about how I'm using it.

It can be hard for people to set personal boundaries in all areas of their lives, and usually food is just one of them. They aren't used to being assertive. I hope such people can find the confidence to say "actually no, this is my body and I choose what goes in it!"

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YICHE12 8/30/2010 11:39AM

    Wow! Thank you for sharing. What you are saying is so true. Personally speaking, I used to fall into that trap before but no more. I know what it takes to lose weight and it is so easy to put it back on. Therefore, although tempted at times, I always ask myself two questions: "Is this really worth eating?" and "How much time would it take for me to burn this off?" By the time I answer myself, the temptation has passed and I simply say "No thank you! I have eaten very well." emoticon emoticon

If I do eat something it is because I want to and not because someone is forcing my hand...

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DMPRIDER 8/30/2010 11:30AM

    This is interesting. I do think a lot of people fall into that trap. You want to participate and be social, you don't want anyone to feel you are rejecting them by rejecting their cake as it were. I know this happens to me sometimes. But the bigger downfall for me, in social situations, is just that I find it hard to resist temptations, especially dessert. I guess the most important step is to think through whether you really, really want something - weigh the food, the social implications etc. - against your goals and then decide. It's all about those mindful choices isn't it?

BTW, JES, I hope you are feeling better!

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MRE1956 8/30/2010 11:25AM

    emoticon blog!

(BTW, I also love Boston terriers!)

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There's A Sign In The Window

Monday, August 23, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDl9ZMfj6aE

Even if you don't like this group, I urge you to watch the video. With the sound off, if you prefer. Check out the details.

Huh? you say.

Well, it's because this is a cover. The song was written, and originally recorded by, Michael Jackson. Alien Ant Farm (the group in the clip) are about as far from MJ as you can get, but they are clearly huge fans. Everything from the chimp to the Elizabeth Taylor tattoo to the surgical mask, it's all about MJ. I love it when something as detailed and as loving as that pops up thoroughly unexpectedly.

But that's not what this post is about.

Rather, this one is about last weekend's 5K.

And, it's about 5Ks in general.

This was the 10th time I'd run a 5K. The time was not spectacular -- it was fifth-worst, almost the same as I was in July and September of last year. Clearly, I have been slacking off.

But -- I shaved 4 minutes off my time from July of this year. And, being fifth-worst is right in the middle for me. 42 - 43 minutes and change is pretty standard -- it takes some effort for me to hit 40 minutes and below (I've only finished at below the 40-minute mark one time so far). And -- just as importantly -- I enjoyed myself.

Oh and I beat thirteen other people: www.coolrunning.com/results/10/ma/Au
g21_3rdAnn_1_set1.shtml


That in itself is a rarity. Now, most of those people were walking, but still! I am often last, or second to last, and this was not a very big field. I had every belief that I would be dead last.

But I wasn't, and I wasn't even the last one in the field of eight us women in our -- ahem -- forties.

But enough of yay me. How about some yay YOU?

Are you afraid to run? Are you concerned that you'll be slow, you'll be tired, you'll just look bad? Everyone will pass you, and will think, there goes that fat girl (or guy). No hope for 'em. Might as well give up and go eat Twinkies. What the heck are they thinking?? Kidding themselves, so sad to be so delusional.

Well.

That is just NOT what happens.

Now, I cannot vouch for what is in anybody's head, of course. But I can tell you that, unless you're racing against a bunch of eleven-year-olds, no one is going to say anything like that. No one will shunt you to the side and think you're hopeless. No one will laugh.

Instead, here's what happened to me. I ran at the end. Not a jog, but a flat out run. I try very hard to do that at the end of 5Ks, because it makes me feel better, not because I'm going to break any sort of a record or anything. It's the last 20 - 30 seconds or so, and I can see the finish line, so I run.

And, because I am often last, most of the people who are in the race are there. They are drinking their water or Gatorade, or enjoying a banana or some pretzels or whatever the Race Director has provided for the cost of the entry fee.

And -- get this -- they clap.

They freakin' cheer.

Now, I realize that, when I come in, it's time to award the medals or gift certificates or whatever, but they don't seem to be just mindlessly cheering (Hey, we get to leave soon!). No -- they call out encouragement: Go! Go! Go! and Strong Finish! and You Can Do It!

And I tell you, if I could switch places with them, and be there when they came in, I, too, would put down my water for a second and do the same.

This last time, because some people came in after me, I got the chance to do just that. And it feels awesome. Cheering works, and it's wonderful, whether you are doing it or hearing it. It totally rocks.

And, while I beat some people this time around, I may very well be dead last again at my next one (September 6th). If I am, so what? All that means is that I made everyone else a winner. And it means that everyone -- even Olympians -- not in the race came in behind me. So I have plenty to cheer about even if I am a good twenty minutes after the previous person.

YOU can feel this way, too.

YOU can do it.

Go! Go! Go! Strong Finish! You Can Do It!

You really can. Get out there and set aside your excuses and do it. It really is an incredible blast.

Go get 'em, Tiger.

  
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LAB-LOVER 8/27/2010 10:09PM

    You DO rock you know!

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TRACYZABELLE 8/26/2010 5:36AM

    Keep on pushing forward-- better days are ahead!!

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MADZIE 8/24/2010 1:17PM

  Great job Jes!! emoticon

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DDOORN 8/23/2010 11:54PM

    Sometimes I get a glimmer of that runner's high...but not enough to really catch the bug...at least not yet...but hey, ya never know...?!? :-)

Don

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CAROLISCIOUS 8/23/2010 10:17PM

    Very inspirational Jes!

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LBEEKMA 8/23/2010 9:09PM

    Your determination and success is inspiring. I'm up to 6 min. jogging on the treadmill (but not at one time). I'd love to run a 5k this year! Thanks for motivating me. emoticon

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KSGROTHE 8/23/2010 6:42PM

    First of all, I *love* that song! I have become a bit of a hard-rock fan recently, and I love this version the song. Alien Ant Farm rocks "Smooth Criminal"! That said, I'd never seen the video before, so I wasn't even aware of the homage they paid to MJ. Thanks for sharing that!

Now for some more cheering. emoticon

emoticon on your race! I love how positive you are in this blog about the whole experience! It seems so easy for a lot of Sparkers/runners to feel like a race wasn't that great if they didn't break their personal record. I agree that it's a great accomplishment that you did it, and it's emoticon that you didn't come in last and had a chance to cheer for those behind you!

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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NAMSMOMMY 8/23/2010 3:36PM

    I can't wait till my 5k! I am pumped. Thanks for sharing your experience. :-)

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MARCHMAID 8/23/2010 12:19PM

    Ah, you made me smile again. That's getting to be a habit. . .

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MS.ELENI 8/23/2010 11:26AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Since I do good to walk across the house I think you did awesome.

PS Video strange.Liked most of it but couldn't understand all the words.Some of dancers were cute/funny

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FATROCKSTAR 8/23/2010 11:03AM

    Hey, you rock, and I am glad that you are taking this feeling and passing it on to others! Normandy

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LEE_2010 8/23/2010 10:24AM

    I just wanted to say great post and words of encouragement. While I like to think of myself as having great self esteem and a positive image even though I am on the bigger side, I do find that I am self conscious when it comes to working out. In fact that is primarily why I haven't joined a gym, because I worry that everyone will be gawking at the fat chick on the treadmill.

I did week 1 day 1 yesterday, I live on an island and everything is uphill, except my little stretch of road that isn't even a block long, and I found myself worried about what the neighbors would think while I was going back and forth for 20 minutes when they came outside. After my neighbor was outside on her porch for 5 minutes, I realized she was on her phone not paying any attention to me. I also told myself who cares, I am doing this for me and that is what matters.

So, kudos to you. You are absolutely right. Very well said and an excellent blog. I found it very motivating and will remember it the next time I am feeling self conscious. emoticon

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 8/23/2010 10:12AM

    This is a wonderful blog. I am chicken. I am slow (20 min mile is me). But you are giving me courage. Some of these days I will be there for you to clap in.

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Sets the Summer Sun on Fire

Monday, August 16, 2010

www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMICD3aMZpw

Ha, I don't really want candy. I actually had to buy some for work, though. We're doing a booth show, and you have to attract people. So it's all about the chocolate. Small sigh. I do wish people would go ga-ga over fruit. Or that fruit would be cheaper and easier to keep (we're still trying to figure out if the booth will be outside. If it is -- in the Providence heat -- we will have chocolate soup after a while). Or that we didn't have to do this at all, that we'd just be loved for our robots.

But, alas, we are new and so you need to be a tad gimmicky. Plus, heh, I may be the only middle-aged Booth Babe out there. ;)

But -- this entry is not intended to really be about work, and it's not intended to be me railing against people preferring Snickers bars to blackberries.

Nuh-uh, gentle reader.

It is -- ha!

Welcome to another milestone, baby.

I am 169 pounds. This means I get to choose a new mini-goal. I've been selecting them in 10-lb. increments and this one will not be an exception. Hence my next mini-goal (on the way to the 146 Holy Grail) is to be 160.

Now, it took me 259 days to get here, but still!

It doesn't matter. I still got this far.

Now, about my measurements. I am recording them but I have not been broadcasting them, as they are fluctuating around pretty much the same numbers, and have been for months, so it doesn't exactly make for a too terribly thrilling news flash. This is fine, it is essentially normal and is also a part of me working out less. This makes the firming up part of the process happen considerably slower, and even reverse itself a bit. I am not too concerned about such things. I am a pretty solid size 12. I would like to be smaller, yes, but I am in far less of a hot hurry about such things these days.

I am still fiddling with what should feel like maintenance. What is it like to do this on a regular basis? What am I going to look like at 50? What will my days look like? That is where this portion of the experiment is going. I am learning and enuring myself to how the regular days are going to be, the days of pay the mortgage, commute to work, shovel the walk, call the plumber. Those kinds of days, but they will also be intersprinkled (that is a word NOW!) with weight training and food tracking and hey, let me grab these resistance bands, and let me see when I can get to the gym and oh, by the way, we need postage stamps and I will walk for the errand and not drive.

And, perhaps, those will be intersprinkled (there's that neologism again :)) with a few bites of candy, too. Because that is a part of maintenance. It is releasing the idea of verboten foods and exchanging them for ideas of controlled foods instead. A less binary mindset. It is not on/off, yes/no for food unless you are allergic or keep kosher or vegan or the like.

No.

It is ... do I want a small candy bar or a big piece of fruit? Do I want pizza or a big salad with grilled chicken? All of this fits in, so long as you balance it. And, like on a see-saw, when you grab something heavier, it takes more effort, more juggling, more working out and more restriction of other things in order to balance it out.

But it is not impossible.

The booth show is on the 28th. I am certain that I will not eat any of the candy, but I cannot promise that the dinner we will have afterwards will be perfectly wholesome. And so goes the way of the world. But ... that is not the end of the world, it is not the end of health and it is not about the end of me caring about what happens to me.

Candy and pizza just do not have that power over me any more.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LBEEKMA 8/20/2010 11:29PM

    Congrats on hitting the 160's...that's my goal too...I'm at 170 right now! I agree that balance is the key to really maintaining any kind of loss. Slower is better but sometimes it's hard to be patient! emoticon

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CJROMB 8/19/2010 4:19PM

    I just saw this one, too. I'm gonna put a little bookmark on my desktop and read it when I get a chance!

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QUEENOTHEFOREST 8/19/2010 6:45AM

    I love reading your blogs. (Don't know how I missed this one till now.) Congrats on all the milestones. I love the 169 ville. I love the energy and enthusiasm about work that I read in you these days. What a difference from last year. That is a big milestone too. Every one of these shows you do you sets another milestone too. The way you think about your body and your work sounds so healthy.

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CAROLISCIOUS 8/17/2010 4:53PM

    Congratulations! One-sixty-ville!

I liked your blog. We have to live our lives...and just keep our health a priority. I strive hard to reach my daily goals, but I'm not perfect. Thank goodness we don't have to be!

You are such an inspiration.

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BAGGYPANTS5 8/17/2010 3:44AM

    Well done!! A brilliant milestone.
It's a transition from diet to life.
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TRACYZABELLE 8/17/2010 3:16AM

    Wheeeeeeeeee another milestone met! Keep up the good work!

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DDOORN 8/17/2010 2:41AM

    Woo HOO! Congrats on the milestone!

I once ran a beverage booth for our local non-profit group at a local fair. Next to us was a booth selling watermelon. On a hot summer's day one would have thought they might have gotten *SOME* business?

Nope: all the ice cream, sausages and deep-fried everythings were everywhere as far as the eye could see, but only a handful of folks ever came up to get their big wedge of watermelon...sigh...

Don

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SWEETZMIX 8/16/2010 8:20PM

    emoticon for making it to another milestone and for keep going!!

ummm I enjoy a Twix bar now and then...I am just sayin' lol

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KSGROTHE 8/16/2010 3:23PM

    You're emoticon, you know that?

I'm still struggling with eating too much candy and pizza and other junk. I don't stay in my calorie range nearly often enough. I keep thinking I can balance my eating, but it seems like I don't. I need more discipline or I need to change my thinking or something.

emoticon on reaching another weight loss milestone! Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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MARCHMAID 8/16/2010 10:51AM

    Ya know, I'm trying. Hope when I grow up I can be like you.
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MS.ELENI 8/16/2010 10:16AM

    Sounds like you have it under control. I have no doubt you will make your goal. emoticon

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 8/16/2010 9:55AM

    I'm still trying to figure out how this maintenance thing works.

I became a lot less restrictive in the spring when I got close to goal and loosened the structure of both my eating and my working out - and gradually gained 20 lbs back!
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At the moment (168) I'm 17 up from my minimum (151) and pushing that down aggressively. Because I feel a lot better under 160, and ideally I would like to range between 145 and 150. But definitely under 155.

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