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Underneath a Thousand Blankets

Monday, January 11, 2010

I confess this is a post I sent to a friend who was thinking of quitting. I hope you don't mind the recycling; just thought this one might need a bigger audience. And, by the way, I gained this week. Eh, it happens. On to better things.

Quitting is, well, I suppose we all consider it at one time or another. The trick is to squash that demon. The most powerful force in the universe is inertia. It makes you want to hang out in bed rather than get up and face the world. It keeps you in ruts (it LOVES ruts). It tamps down your enthusiasm. It tells you that you can't.

But yanno something (and you don't know me from Eve but I know from whence you speak/feel)?

Inertia is just a force. It doesn't even have any substance.

But it can be overcome. It means nothing. It is nothing.

YOU are something. You are flesh and blood and bone and will and smarts and heart and kindness and humor and mischief and love and sweetness and about a trillion things that inertia is NOT.

You are YOU. You are better than that. You are smarter, kinder, stronger and more willful.

You are better.

You are going to make it.

Inertia's just some force, dreamed up by Sir Isaac Newton when he wasn't getting smacked in the head with apples.

Well, ole Ike shoulda been EATING those apples. Then perhaps instead of Differential Calculus we'd all be sweating over Nutrition classes and studying the Great Apple Nebula in the Sky.

Okay, so I'm rambling and I'm a little (who am I kidding? A LOT) quirky.

But I do hope you will throw over the inertia, just like you threw over the bedcovers this morning and got up, even though the bed was oh so attractive. The strength to face another day exists in you, and the strength to face another day of trying exists there as well. It just needs a little coaxing, a little love, or maybe a slap on its bum, to come out. That strength DOES have substance.

Let it out there, into the universe, and you'll find that you've got a leash on its collar and it'll pull you along until suddenly you're at your destination.

Don't make it sit. Don't make it stay. Don't make it heel.

Follow it. :)

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THECITYMOUSE 1/13/2010 6:27PM

    You are .... such a babe.
I frickin' love your nuggets of wisdom!!!

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CAROLISCIOUS 1/12/2010 9:34PM

    Grreat blog on not quitting...I'm doing good right now, but I know I will need this later on when the momentum slacks...Imma print it and put it on my fridge for when that time comes...cuz it WILL come!

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LESS_IS_MO 1/11/2010 11:45AM

    Great job. I have to move forward too.

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    Ohhh this is so lovely. And so are you. Just what I needed today.

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MARCHMAID 1/11/2010 9:57AM

    Just when I was thinking maybe I'd had enough. . . timing is everything.


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DMPRIDER 1/11/2010 9:42AM

    Great blog and full of good advice as usual!

BTW, congratulations on your recent articles on Examiner. Very cool that. And very well-written!

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MS.ELENI 1/11/2010 9:41AM

    My favorite quote is "You haven't failed until you quit trying" I remind myself of that every time I want to give up.

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JLITT62 1/11/2010 7:49AM

    If that's quirky, then I love quirky! Great, great, great blog. Thank you.

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STRINGS58 1/11/2010 6:33AM

    oh, dang, Now I have to get off computer and deal with my counter inertia workout. I'm in that danger zone where if I don't get to it soon, it will be passed up for getting ready for work. After reading that, sheesh! now I gotta go make something happen! I'll take my resigned eyeore attitude and get out some handweights . . .

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TELERIE 1/11/2010 6:17AM

    I LOVE IT! What a great writer you are!!

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Ain't Gonna Spend the Rest of my Life Quietly Fading Away

Monday, January 04, 2010

Every day, in some way or another, I am looking for work. I have had long-term unemployment before, twice. How long term? Is three years long enough? And I've had that twice. Yeah. It stinks. You start to really, really question your value, and not just in the work arena. It messes with your vision of yourself as a contributor to society, as a person of value.

I don't blame all of my weight gain on this but it did not help, by any means. I know I packed on a good 80 or so the first time I had a three-year furlough, and probably another 60 for the second three-year furlough. As for the other 60, eh, who knows? It all happened over the course of two or so decades so it was slices of pizza and bags of papadum chips and real ice cream and of course not working out. Everyone who's reading this knows the drill.

And so I am trying my darnedest to not let that happen a third time. It is not just because of my health although that is a piece of it. It is also because of, let's face it, our finances. We are doing fine but another shock to the retirement fund is not advisable.

Hence I am beating the bushes. I have been to one networking party and today I had a networking call, actually there were two as I managed to finagle a second one with someone I really wanted to talk to. Tomorrow is a networking meeting. Then Wednesday is another networking party (same folks from the first one I went to), then another meeting on Friday. Next week is a job fair, a night at Mass. Innovation and four or five more networking meetings.

Plus there are another five people to call but that will be after surgery. I am tapped. I can't even think about any more meetings or phone calls. Between that and everything I'm trying to watch on Twitter, etc., I'm feeling a sense of losing control. I know I'm doing a lot but it is awfully tiring. Of course some of this is the almost three hours I spent shoveling snow for the past two days. But I'm also just getting a bit wiped by having to be on, and perky. I can do perky and I can explain what I want to do, yet again, to yet another person. That's all fine. And I can also tell I'm online too much, and that's fatiguing me as well.

Hence -- and now that I have made it to the top Spark trophy anyway, a new regimen is in place (some of this is shamelessly stolen from Lab Lover):
* Unsubscribe from any spark mails I don't really read. I don't need the points any more, so who cares?
* Answer blogs whenever I want to, not just two and then be done because that's all I get points for in a day. Answer one. Or none. Or seven.
* No more adding to topics if I have nothing to really say, again, just to get points. Man, I was greedy in the points department, eh? :) Answer topics, or not, as desired and for no other reason.
* No more reading articles that don't interest me, same reason as above.
* Leave teams where I'm not active.
* Continue using the food and exercise trackers. Continue tracking other goals. Continue checking in. Continue contributing to teams as desired.

I do plenty of other things online -- SparkPeople isn't my only source of long-time online syndrome. But it is a piece of it, and a piece I can take care of, probably more readily than other areas (e. g. I can't exactly cut back on moderating my site).

Again, I am rambling, I know. There are really two points to this blog entry. One, I am going to reprioritize as much as I can in order to maximize my chances of finding a job. And, two, some of that means less sparking. For me, though, it will be separating the wheat from the chaff, to only do what I need to, and want to, and no longer be a slave to the points. It feels kind of liberating to write that.

In the meantime, enjoy The Alan Parsons Project.

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TRACYZABELLE 1/10/2010 1:49PM

    I procrastinate way too much---I have too many blogs piled up and am answering today-- my fingers are tired, lol!

I am sure somethjing good will come your way! I am pulling for you!

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KUNGFOOD 1/9/2010 7:51AM

    Something will pop. And I don't mean the button on your jeans.

I found my weight loss routine improved after I gave up being a slave to SP points, logging food, etc. Maybe there are some people who need a hand up and can walk the walk once the routine has taken hold.

It can be done. Be kind to yourself, keep your balance.

Two points to your blog... you meant to say that, didn't you?!

You are a great source of inspiration to so many of us in so many ways. Thank you!

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EMMASMART 1/6/2010 11:52AM

    I've had 2 interviews in the last 7 days. So they are looking for us. It's just a matter of time. Mercury is in retrograde through the 12th and then things will start moving along. I just know it. I agree that Spark can suck up your life and make regular life activities like exercise unlikely. But in a way you need spark more than ever before in your new post Alli reality. I am depending on you to stay fit and trim, because I look up to you. So.. There. I hope that isn't too much pressure.

I do believe that jobs are a coming and soon. It won't be long now.


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NYAYNE 1/6/2010 8:59AM

    Wishing you well on your job search. Now that the holidays are over and days are getting longer something good will come. I read you on the wasting time on line, I've cut back. I do check to she if you have blogged.

Who is the funny flat face on your wallpaper? I will have to visit that site as it looks like my Scooter. Seal brindle with the exact same blaze.

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MARCHMAID 1/5/2010 9:26AM

    Hurray for you! You are a fascinating and obviously competent woman--much more than a formerly fat person! You have been successful where so many others have failed. You'll find that job and though I'd sure miss hearing what you're up to, don't allow other folks' feelings or anything else to guilt trip you!

I may be talking to myself here--you and LL are channelling the same spirit who's been whispering in my ear.

emoticon See my latest blog.

Got get 'em Sweetheart! If what you want is out there go after it with the same spirit you lost all those pounds! emoticon

Happy New Year. Now I'm going out for a walk!

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LIV2RIDE 1/5/2010 6:56AM

    Don't ya love the new trophy system!! I now look forward to the end of the month. It's more for the exercise ones then anything but it's another fun part of SP.

Good luck on the job search. When it happened to me I had to set limits. I easily become obsessed. So from 8am - Noon was my phone time...recruiters, networking. I also checked the job sites for any new postings. At 12:01pm I was out the door doing something for me. i just felt like sometimes it was very overwhelming and defeating. So I always took time for me. Too bad I wasn't into working out then.

I have also had to cut back on my SP time. I only get about an hour a day and was spending too much time reading stuff I just didn't enjoy. So I too have cut back on the teams I don't participate in, blogs I read and articles I read. Good luck with your plan and search. I know it gets tough out there but you are one tough cookie! Hang in there.

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JLITT62 1/5/2010 5:07AM

    I totally understand about having to be on being tiring. I feel that way, too. I guess any time we're not completely true to ourselves, it's just fatiguing, but sometimes it's gotta be done.

Because I have to use my husband's computer (mine is still not fixed), I have limited my online time, too. It IS a good thing. I'm still probably spending a couple of hours online a day, and that seems like an awful lot at that! And yes, sparking isn't the only thing I do online, either, altho it is a big part of it.

So yeah, go after what's important to you. Go for it!

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KNITTINGFROG 1/5/2010 4:13AM

    Just popping to say hi, and wish you all the best of luck in your job search. I only know too well how that feels.

I was lucky to register with a recruitment agency where the guys really cared about finding their customers new jobs, and although it took a whole 18 months for me to find it, I am now (although temporarily) somewhere I truly like. I hope you can be as lucky very soon.

If you are networking, are you on LinkedIn? I found that a lot of the recuiters are there too so that may help.

I was writing to a friend yesterday and realised the irony of having had free time whilst unemployed to look after my self, exercise etc, yet combined with such feelings of wanting to give up that I ended up putting quite a bit of weight on (before eventually finding SP and making better more positive choices).

Bottom line? Keep active and busy, and think lateraly when it comes to income. Can your hobby, your website, your skills make money? Can you learn something new?

In any case, and despite the past 3 years...stay upbeat, and come vent whenever you need to...that's what we are here for too!

Good luck my Spark friend!

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CAROLISCIOUS 1/5/2010 12:51AM

    I totally understand. I have rules that I must track food and fitness before I can play on SP. Some days I just don't have time to play...or I just don't want to hang out on SP.

You are an inspiration, whether you respond to every comment I send you or not. I absolutely do not require it.

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JOHAL52 1/4/2010 10:39PM

    I hear what you say about doing things just for points. But I also agree with Lab-Lover that it helps me keep doing some good things like exercise and nutrition. And I think that's what you were saying too--that you would continue to do the things that are meaningful and jettison those that aren't. Bravo!

As far as job hunting goes, I have been there too. Right now I substitute teach. At 57 going on 58 I find it SO tiring and the pay is way lower than what I was getting as a university administrator but it's the best kind of part-time job to get my Medicare points in.


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LAB-LOVER 1/4/2010 8:28PM

    Ah... here's the voice of experience again...

First it IS liberating NOT to be a slave to points. It feels decadent, but I now delete those 1 point articles if they aren't interesting to me and don't bother to take the time to open them and score the point. Nope... just hit delete. I still haven't hit the final trophy, but I'll get maybe one a year now, so it's not a big motivatation.

BUT... at the same time... when I completely forgot about points, my healthy habits faded away. So, I'd recommend that you figure out the minumum number of points/day that works for healthy activities -- food tracker points, exercise points, checking off goal points and make one of your goals to get THAT many a day.

But the other stuff... yep, let it go and focus on what's important to YOU! Mayoral duties in Metropolis perhaps. And oh yeah... the job search! (wonder if Metropolis needs an assistant mayor?)


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SWEETZMIX 1/4/2010 7:12PM

    Hey you got to do what you got to I was looking for a job too. I figure why now? I have been ready to leave, I want to leave, & you never know.

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MS.ELENI 1/4/2010 7:08PM

    I hope you find a job that will be good for you soon.

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TELERIE 1/4/2010 6:21PM

    Wow you're doing a lot of networking - I'm sure it'll bring fruit! Whittle and cut back on unwanted online stuff and stay healthy and strong! And congrats on the big trophy! I don't remember how many points I have now or which trophy. Streaks on the other hand - ohlala!
When's your surgery?

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LESS_IS_MO 1/4/2010 6:04PM

    Congrats on the big trophy (I don't know how you and LL get all those points!)

I wish you every success in the job hunt. I know it takes a lot of tenacity, so go get em! full force!

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Here in My Quotation Marks

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Guess what?

Yep, that's me. And they're gonna pay me.

Holy cow, I'm a professional author.

Thank you ALL for your amazing support. More articles to follow!

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KENNYWHEELS 1/6/2010 10:03PM

    Hey jespah. that is incredible. You have always had awesome blogs. congrats on the New job. way to go

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LESS_IS_MO 1/3/2010 9:27AM

    Congratulations! And you look fabulous in the pic. Hottie!

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MARCHMAID 1/3/2010 8:50AM

    This journey really has been a life changer for you hasn't it? Out of work, but not I see. : )


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PALOMINOGIRL3 1/3/2010 2:34AM

    Way to go! That is awesome! emoticon

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JLITT62 1/2/2010 4:20PM

    OMG, this is so totally awesome! I am so proud of you.

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LAB-LOVER 1/2/2010 3:45PM

    This is so awesome! I'm like a proud parent! How soon before you mention Sparkpeople? Can you?
A great big New Year's hug!

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BAMAGIRL58 1/2/2010 2:35PM

    I used your words - Treat Myself Better - in my blog but I did credit you. I had been saying "take care of myself" but your motto hits the nail right on the head.

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EMMASMART 1/2/2010 2:13PM

    I favorited that I hope it helps.

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FIT_TERI 1/2/2010 1:20PM

    Wow, this is awesome!! Congratulations!! What a way to start out the new year. I am very happy for you!

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SWEETZMIX 1/2/2010 12:57PM

    Well I always knew you were famous!

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GEE-KNEE 1/2/2010 12:07PM

    That's so cool. Your blogs are always very well written and entertaining, so now more people get to enjoy your thoughts. Good for you. Congratulations. How exciting.

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CAROLISCIOUS 1/2/2010 11:22AM

    Oh, this is wonderful! I am so excited for you!

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TELERIE 1/2/2010 11:15AM

    Wow! Great news!! This is just awesome, Janet! You're getting paid for writing! I'm so happy for you! I already subscribed and I can proudly say I knew you when...! emoticon
Hugs, Marit

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    Congratulations!! Great article!

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MS.ELENI 1/2/2010 10:50AM

    How did you end up in a Tampa Bay Area thing. I live in the Tampa Bay area.Actually real near but Tarpon Springsis often included.
Will you be writing articles on a regular basis?

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2009 Year in Review/2010 Goals

Monday, December 28, 2009

Okay, so I ramble a bit. But where else are ya gonna see so many tee shirts and bibs?

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CAROLISCIOUS 1/2/2010 11:19AM

    I so glad I finally got to hear the whole thing. I had started it a few days ago, but had to interrupt it and plan to come back later. I feel like I know you so much better now. Congrats on all you have accomplished. You are a ROCK STAR!! On TV! WooHoo!!

I loved what you said at the end. "If you make pie, I'm not going to eat it, and you can't make me!"

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PONYFARMER 1/1/2010 8:48PM

    I am so inspired by your races and now I want to do one. I will have to train and see if I even can do it, because of my horrible knees.

I also wanted to say thanks for the vlog on Alli, I did start using it but lost nothing, ya know why? Well cuz I was not moving by body. So now I am and I am seeing some results. Have to tell you I was so worried about the side affects that I considered getting those adult diapers to wear to school. But NOTHING happened ever, not even on a day that I binged. I did get a bit softer in that dept but that is all. Not sure why but I am oh, so grateful.

Thanks for your honest and open vlogs, they help me and I am sure they help a lot of other people.

Please vlog after you recover. I am so thinking I will have to do the same thing and again, I am a bit scared.

I will be praying for you for a speedy recovery.

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TRACYZABELLE 1/1/2010 4:20PM

    Happy, healthy, slimmer New year to you! Looking forward to supporting you in 2010!

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ZEBEBEE 1/1/2010 11:25AM

    Congratulations! It has be great to watch you through your journey. A true inspiration. Have a wonderful 2010. I'm looking forward to more blogs!

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BAMAGIRL58 12/28/2009 9:08PM

    I really loved this. It was amazing to hear all your progress - over 150# lost so far is outstanding. I will be thinking about you on January 15th and BTW - it is so NOT cheating. You worked for it - you are there, it is just extra skin. I imagine that it will boost your confidence and that is a valuable thing. It goes along with your original goal - "Treat Yourself Better". If we could all remember that motto - Treat Yourself Better - it could make this effort easier. We are so worth it!

Thanks for sharing and inspiring!
Hugs, Nancy
P.S. Good luck on that job search.

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TRENTDREAMER 12/28/2009 9:08PM

    Congrats on your progress weight, measurements, and races/times! You've done really well. Best of fortune on the surgery, races and job search.

Happy New Year!!

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MS.ELENI 12/28/2009 2:07PM

    You have had a fantastic year and are such an inspiration to all of us.

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SWEETZMIX 12/28/2009 11:02AM

    I totally want to vlog (need some type of recording device) so I can ramble hehe

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MARCHMAID 12/28/2009 10:49AM

    Yes, you do ramble a bit, but what the heck, you've accomplished miracles! Next blog should just be you crowing and singing zippidy do dah!

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THECITYMOUSE 12/28/2009 10:28AM

    Love the video blog....damn, this was BEAST. I felt like you were sitting in front of me telling me about your accomplishments and all about your journey. I loved this!!!! You are a superstar!!!!

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LAB-LOVER 12/28/2009 8:30AM

    Look forward to seeing ya at some of those 2010 5Ks! Here's to new PRs in 2010!

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Eyes that Shine Burning Red

Monday, December 21, 2009

It's the Solstice, the darkest, longest night of the year. After this, the days will get longer. But it will be harder to see as it will be stormy. We've had the first major snowstorm of the Winter and two days ago it wasn't even Winter. But it's still a foot of snow on the ground.

Why the song? It seems a tad incongruous, except when you realize that Winston Churchill referred to depression as The Black Dog.

And so I am trying to shut my door to the beast.

It is not some cuddly Poodle or Lab. It's a beast. And I don't want it this year.

My main effort has been in trying to get outside. While I have a small all-spectrum light, I'd rather be outside. This has meant walking/jogging when the streets have been all right, and yesterday it was an hour and a half (this was accomplished in two shifts) of snow shoveling. I'll go to the gym today and then tomorrow there will be more shoveling. Even though it's cold, even though it's a chore, I'd just rather be outside and exerting myself.

There's a topic here on Spark, and it's one of those major ones, and it asks how people can get up and out there in the bad weather. Well, the answer is, you just do it. If you had to go to a doctor's appointment, or catch a train, you'd get up and you'd go. You'd put on a sweater or grab an umbrella or boots or whatever. It would be less than perfectly pleasant but you would still perform the task. So why is it so difficult for so many to just get up and do it if the skies are less than perfectly sunny? And, in particular, for people who are going to a gym anyway, what is it about the weather that leads to such a -- let's face it -- LAME excuse for not moving the squishy parts and making them less, well, squishy?

It is depression, and I suspect that depression and obesity are bastard step-twins. You eat because you feel unworthy and unlovable. You lay in bed with the covers over your head and mourn the fact that you can't exercise, all while, miraculously, surprise surprise, NOT exercising. You look at yourself in the mirror, or on a scale, and think you're a failure. So you're unlovable and unworthy and so you grab the ice cream and get into bed and think about how no one understands you and how awful it is and oh poor you and look the weather stinks and those grey skies are an omen, they are telling you that you'll never get there, you'll never get it right, and it's all for naught and we're all going to that great vale of tears anyway so why not have another piece of pie?

Or you can smack the black dog with a newspaper on its nasty snout. Get up anyway. Put away the ice cream (and not by cramming it into your mouth). Go out and walk, or shovel, or get in your car and go to a gym or a mall and get yourself moving that way. And drink water instead of an ice cream soda and look at yourself in the mirror or on the scale and say, hey, I may not be perfect but that doesn't mean I'm not worthy. It doesn't mean that no one can or will ever love me. People have before, and they will again, and they might even -- they probably even -- do right now. And I'm not going to let them down. I'm going to get out and do it, and make better choices and treat myself the way I want to be treated by others.

And maybe those red-shining eyes will be beacons in the darkness for someone else, and you can lead them out of that cave as well. And one day you'll look up, and that grey stuff will be gone. Because, you see, the paradox of Winter is that it starts off dark and dreary but even under the dark and drear it is getting better. There are tiny shoots under there, just waiting for a combination of sun and rain and temperature. There is light up there, too, above the clouds. And when the clouds part and the ground begins to thaw, you'll see it, too, and the beast will be tamed. And you, yes, YOU, will have done the taming.

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GEINAHG0757 1/3/2010 11:56AM

    I wandered here from another post and found your words at just the right time...

This is an excellent blog. As one who also fights "The Black Dog", I loved the idea of smacking it on the snout with a rolled up newspaper! Fortunately for me, my corner of the world is much further south and outside is doable most of the time.

Good wishes on your continued successful journey and for as much sunshine as possible!

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CAROLISCIOUS 12/27/2009 7:56PM

    Thanks for the motivation. I don't have to deal with even close to what you northerners have to go through with winter...yet I still whine. I'll shut up now and just DO it!

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JOHAL52 12/23/2009 9:49AM

    Loved your blog! One thing that helps me to get my exercise in is reminding myself that exercise is a natural anti-depressant. I have several of those bouncy Leslie Sansone DVDs and I plug one in and say "well, I'll do ten minutes and that will be something" and I, depending on my mood, alternately grouch to Leslie and her "chat" or laugh. Somehow ten minutes becomes twenty, thirty and then forty five. And afterward I feel a whole lot better. I still take anti-depressants and probably will for the rest of my life but Leslie has helped me for the past 7 years lose the weight and firm the flesh.

This is not an ad for Leslie Sansone--I know there are lots of good exercise DVDs out there. If you're interested, check out your local library. Borrowing is a lot cheaper if you don't know if you'll like it.

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SWEETZMIX 12/22/2009 9:49AM

    hmmm for me I don't like the cold. lol I rather be toasty instead of OK. I HATE being cold, that is why I avoid outside as much as I can.

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MALCONTENTION 12/21/2009 9:24PM

    I know your unemployment doesn't help with depression. I've been dealing with some nasty mood/depression issues myself in the past few months. And recently I've been feeling better. It's hard to isolate why, but I think it's possible it's because I've added a couple of supplements to my diet--iron (I'm anemic) and fish oil/Omega 3s (DHA specifically). I'm inclined to think they've made a difference for me, and thought you might look into whether there's any chance they could work for you. And no, I'm not trying to sell you anything as part of a pyramid scheme!!! emoticon emoticon

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 12/21/2009 2:01PM

    Was feeling kind of oogey and down last week, but today I'm 0.5 lbs away from a "healthy" BMI, so that poor beastie with the red eyes seems to have crept away to hide in a corner for a while.

And I'm not complaining! LOL

I don't think depression and obesity are step twins, but full-on monozygotic conjoined twins who have ESP, telepathy, and can fly. With bat wings.

Just sayin'


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MS.ELENI 12/21/2009 10:37AM

    Great blog emoticon

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MARCHMAID 12/21/2009 9:16AM

    OK OK OK already. Were you speaking to me????? I'm outta here to get my sunshine!

Thanks for the pep talk--just in the nick of time!

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CAPECODDIN 12/21/2009 8:57AM

    Great post! I had that fight yesterday with myself about getting out of bed.. but we had no power for a short time.. and I couldn't resist the warm down quilt.. they say november is the darkest most depressing month.. it sure felt like it...

I am so glad we made it over the Hump.. longer sunny days are ahead.. life is good...

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JLITT62 12/21/2009 8:31AM

    What a wonderful blog! Thank you.

I look forward to this day simply because I know that the days will now get longer. Even tho I know that it will take a while to feel those effects, just the simple knowledge that they're getting longer warms my heart.

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LIV2RIDE 12/21/2009 8:22AM

    Very well said! Enjoy the outdoors today. emoticon

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    I'm putting your "bastard step twins" line on my fridge and on my Spark collage on my desk top.
You nailed it.

While tonight is the longest night of the year, tomorrow the sun will start to wait around a little longer and it will be better every day. We made it.

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