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Monday, September 21, 2009

The title of this blog is actually not my favorite line from this song. My true favorite is "think of me and try not to laugh". But that's not true about me. Feel free to laugh. I know I do. Life's absurd at the best of times. Might as well go with it.


I've just returned (yesterday) from an all-too short vacation on Cape Cod where I watched my calories religiously but did not get enough cardio. One pound up, eh, I'm fine with it. It's not like there's no reason for the increase.

I also wanted to do a bit of a month in review as the last one I did was a vlog.


Bicep 12.5"
Bust 38"
Band 33.25" personal best
Waist 22.5" personal best
Belly 37.75"
Hip 42.5"
Keister 44.75"
Thigh 22"

All of the measurements are within 2" of the lowest they've ever been. Right now my hip is the most stubborn in terms of hitting a new low. It last turned over in June. Everything else turned over no earlier than the second week in August.

I would like for my hips to get with the program already.

But, well, one of the byproducts of massive, fast weight loss is, my body shape is, every day, resembling Saturn more and more. Not the car company. The planet. Where's the rings? You guessed it. I wear 'em on my hips and my big ole butt. Hence the desire to have surgery.

Energy Levels and Mood

Both have been eh. Work has not been too terribly fine and so I am under stress because of that. I have been doing my best to medicate myself with exercise rather than with food. So far, so good.


Talk about your self-medicating.

My minutes have been off the charts lately. I routinely have somewhere in the top 10 or even top 5 in fitness minutes for many of the teams I'm on. Plus I've passed over 50,000 fitness minutes. Yes, folks, it's true.

I've been on a treadmill for the equivalent of over 34 days and 15 hours and some miscellaneous minutes.

No wonder I'm sick of the magazines at the gym.


I'm in the high 180s. This is my fourth week in 180-ville. It took 13 weeks to go from 199 to under 190 so I imagine it will be at least another month before I leave 180-ville, despite my best intentions.

I am not using that as an excuse to stop eating right, or dog it when it comes to exercise. It's just a likelihood. The more you lose, the tougher it gets. This is all because of plucking the low-hanging fruit. Everything that is even remotely easy or obvious, I've already done. I seem to have a fairly large loss about once every three weeks, then a couple of setback or status quo weeks, then another surge. This was a setback/status quo week. Perhaps next week will bring a smaller surge. Who knows? It's a complicated system, I figure.


I will finish taking alli in about 50 days or so. I will have surgery in less than 120.

Then what?

I'm open to suggestions.

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MRSAKINS2005 9/23/2009 5:45AM

    You are doing so awesome. I just saw your fitness minutes for today and I am so inspired to go walking...but not in this heavy downpour. I'll live vicariously today...hehe. Keep up the great work.

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EMMASMART 9/22/2009 11:10PM

    Write the book... It could be a video book. You will lose quite a bit with the skin being gone. I am excited for you.

What do you want to study next. You seem like you will have passed this class.

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CAROLISCIOUS 9/22/2009 10:02PM

    Shopping for clothes for the new you!

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MARCHMAID 9/22/2009 7:18PM

    How about entering a contest doing something else you do well!?

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TELERIE 9/22/2009 2:57PM

    Then what? I'm with LL, run, baby! And just keep being wonderful YOU!
I also agree with the suggestion for audio books - it's how I spend a few hours every week running. A local library has a great selection of books and radio dramas that I LOVE to listen to. Time just flies!

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FURBALLDTH 9/22/2009 7:44AM

    they say the final few are the hardest to lose. Your body adjusts to the food intake and exercise. You will do it. Hang in there. emoticon

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LIV2RIDE 9/22/2009 7:16AM

    Maybe I missed it in another blog but what surgery?

It's funny how all the fitness magazines have the same articles over and over again. If you have an mp3 player you could get audio books and listen to those while you are on the treadmill. I haven't tried them but one of my friends swears by them.

You are doing an awesome job! I find that I'm trying to get to your fitness minutes every week. Keep it up! You are doing so good.

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MS.ELENI 9/21/2009 10:37PM

    Just keep on keeping on. Always enjoy your blogs

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    Slow and steady wins the race. You may think this is slow but it sounds great to me.

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LAB-LOVER 9/21/2009 8:08PM

    Then what?

Run baby Run! It'll keep the poundage coming off!

You rock!


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Haven't Seen Your Face for a While

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I got together with another friend yesterday. This was to mainly hang out, plus there was a new little cafe near her apartment that is kind of a wheatgrass-y kind of spot, so we figured we'd try it. She works as a personal trainer/in-home fitness instructor so she is well-versed in what I'm doing and is very supportive. The title of today's song refers to her company.

We walked over to the cafe and it turned out to be closed. Peeking in the windows revealed a good-looking spot, what Hemingway called "a clean, well-lighted place". Maybe next time.

So instead we walked, and we went out to Newtonville, which is a haul. And we talked. I mentioned that I don't have any sort of a work-style Winter coat. I've got a trench coat but it has no liner. Plus I've got a Winter jacket. But I don't have anything I can possibly wear with a skirt once the temperature really, really dips. Her suggestion was to try something vintage. Plus we were going in the right direction, so we walked to Second Time Around in Newton.

This is Newton, there is money. Hence any second-hand clothing store was bound to have good stuff. Plus it's just fun. After having seen her place, I realized she's into old-fashioned stuff. A bonus: it was a beautiful day for a walk.

We walked.

And walked.

And I knew we were getting a lot of walking in but it wasn't until just now, when I checked the mileage. It is close to (keep in mind this is by automobile directions and not on foot) 3 miles.

Each way.

I'll get to how I feel in a moment. But first! Vintage stuff!

Yes, there was a yellow fringed jacket from the 70s, perhaps earlier. There were Asian-inspired gowns. Interesting purses. Hats! We went in the back and looked at coats. There were two that caught her eye. The first probably would have fit me; she was swimming in it. But I decided I wasn't too interested in the colors. It would have been a good coat for her, except for the size. The other coat, though? Oh, man. Calvin Klein, never worn, originally 400 smackers. But it was just stunning on her. But, eh, even vintage it was serious ka-ching. And she wasn't even the one who needed a coat!

I didn't see a coat I liked that would have fit me. But ...

I backed up into a rack. I felt something fluffy. It was soft. I turned. It was teal. Oh, lovely.

A teal cardigan. Fits a tad small but will be perfect soon.

Cashmere, thank you very much.


No, wait.

This is vintage. There was a price for after a certain date: $22.50.

But the date was October. Hmm.

No, wait.

October of 2008.

I went to the cashier. $55, she said, pointing to the tag and showing me that the lower price date had not yet come to pass.

Er, no, see? It's 2008, not 2009.

Well, I'll be.

She gave it to me for $20.

I feel like I got away with Grand Larceny.

We walked back to my friend's place via a different route. This was up the world's biggest hill.

And I kept up! I was huffing a bit, and speech was a tad labored (isn't that the so-called fat-burning zone anyway? It's all good), but holy cannolli she's a personal freakin' trainer!

You gotta understand, two years ago I was working for a company, lovely people (where my friend from my last shopping trip/makeover was my boss, actually) and one day we decided to go walking around a track at a neighboring school. And that day, I could not walk far enough to get TO the track, let alone walk around it.

And now I'm keeping up with my friend the trainer.

That got me thinking.

Why do we make friends? How do we do it? And how do we sustain those relationships? And why?

Of course we make friends in order to form companionships. We do it all sorts of ways, including being thrown together for work or school, or actively getting into situations (e. g. volunteer work), or becoming accustomed to people by seeing them a lot (say, at the gym). We might even actively go out and shake hands with anyone we see, trying to make friends. Sustaining is effort, it's getting together, it's calling and it's writing and it's paying attention.

But, ultimately, why do we KEEP friends?

I think the trick is to be friends with people who can benefit you in some way. I don't mean in a mercenary sense, e. g., what have you done for me lately? I also don't mean that you should drop people who the going is tough. What I am saying is, cultivate relationships that are beneficial. Give yourself those kinds of goodies -- they are as sustaining, if not more, than food goodies. Make your memories with them.

It's called a memory BANK for a reason. It's not just an array of choice experiences; it's also, literally, a bank. As in, you make deposits and you make withdrawals. Deposit good experiences. Withdraw them when you're feeling lonely or down.

Yesterday, I didn't just score a great sweater.

I also scored a great memory.

A great deposit was made yesterday.

Thanks, D___.

PS Next time - I really need to buy a coat somewhere! But I gotta add, after 6 miles plus of walking yesterday, my calves and knees are barking a bit. But I'll live. :)

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KUNGFOOD 9/26/2009 7:52AM

    Teal is so pretty... and heavenly cashmere. Won't that be a great way to greet Fall weather?!

Love your thoughts on friendship. I've learned that give-give is the most rewarding, sustaining, and caring way to have a positive and loving relationship.

Nice blog!

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4AMAZINGME 9/19/2009 3:10AM

    What a great friendship insight. Not only a good reflection but also a great day.

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MRS_TOAD 9/17/2009 8:05AM

    What a great day both in your find and in memories!

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FURBALLDTH 9/17/2009 7:45AM

    Interesting day. When I delivered mail in Brookline there was a second hand shop on Havard St I used to pass. Transferred out in 02 but it should be there. Might find your coat there.

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LIV2RIDE 9/16/2009 9:52PM

    Sounds like an awesome day. We could all use a little more of the relationship aspect of life. I so need to work on that.

Your walk sounds amazing. I walk a lot but nothing near what you do. No wonder you top the fitness minutes every week. Good for you!

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CAROLISCIOUS 9/16/2009 9:27PM

    Good for you for nurturing a friendship. And congrats on the 6 mile walk!

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Loved it. I think you made a smart choice not to buy the coat that did not appeal to you because of the colors. I was not so smart as you once and the coat went to Good Will.

True confession time. I don't even know a personal trainer and would be afraid to! I am amazed and inspired by what you tell us about what your limitations used to be. Jespah, you are truly someone I think about when I feel like giving up or when I lose hope. Thanks for sharing this.

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JURI62 9/16/2009 4:41PM

    This is awesome. What a great day. I've got to start thinking vintage!

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    Wow, I very very much enjoyed your blog. It was interesting and you have a great writing style / technique. Isn't it really neat to see how far you've come - as in noting one walk you took to this one where you walked 6 miles RT and kept up with the trainer. That's the yardstick that really means a lot on top of how you look and feel. Way to go!

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CHERYLRG 9/16/2009 3:08PM

    Great experience all around!

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MARCHMAID 9/16/2009 1:57PM

    Here's to grand larceny! As to friends, I have lots to say on the subject. Maybe a blog subject for another day. Right now I have the pre-presentation flutters and must do something to calm down.


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TIME4ME2BFIT 9/16/2009 1:11PM

    Sounds like you had a great time! And got gobs of excersise in too, what a bonus. Keep up the good work!

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CANNOTFATHOM 9/16/2009 12:46PM

    Sounds like an interesting day!


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MS.ELENI 9/16/2009 11:37AM

    What you call deposits I simply call it making memories. It sounds like a great day.And the walking was amazing.You are such an inspiration. emoticon

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PATSDIARY 9/16/2009 11:12AM

    What a great day you had - and it is one for the memory banks. We all make friends with many people for different reasons, and we fulfill needs in each other, hopefully! One of my best friends can make me laugh no matter how tough things get, but she is there for me through anything life throws at me. I have other friends like that, but I also have some friends that I really do love and enjoy, but we just have not gotten to that deeper level. Sometimes you do eventually, sometimes not, but the true key is to give and receive from the relationship.

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BIZEEMOMTO3 9/16/2009 10:03AM

    I love consignment shopping and finding that oh so perfect steal! Good for you on your bargain. Even better for your physical achievement. And humongous Kudos for your friendship and realizing what is really important - relationships! emoticon

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Is That All That You've Got?

Monday, September 14, 2009

Last Saturday, a friend of mine (she's actually a former boss - best boss I ever had!) and I went to get kind of mini-makeovers. We just wanted a girly day, e. g. No Boys Allowed! With my birthday just passed and hers in a few days, the time was right to treat ourselves. But, we didn't have a huge budget, so we went for impact.

The first thing we did was go to her salon. I had not been to a salon since, I kid you not, the day before my wedding.

I've been married for nearly 17 1/2 years.

Ever since then, I have cut the bangs and my husband has cut the back. I knew it did not look that good, but it was money thing, plus I didn't care much and, well, you know what it's like. For so many of us, for so long, spending money on ourselves for anything that did not appear to be 100% necessary has felt frivolous and selfish.

Well, it's not. It's just a haircut, fer crissakes.

The guy parted it on the side and clipped off maybe two or three inches. He thinned out the bangs and swept some to the side (I'll be growing those out). Then he dried it straighter than I think it's ever been.

I looked really good, if I may say so myself. :)

I love the cut, it's pretty easy to maintain and I feel like things are getting healthier in that area, too. I figure I will see him again in maybe 10 weeks (budget -- the dude is NOT cheap). And, yes, I'll still need to clip my own bangs until then. But I'll follow his lead and keep them wispier, and keep the side part.

My friend got her hair colored. It's nearly black, so any grey shows. She, too, looked great.

We then went out for sushi, and then hit the mall. The first stop: Nordstrom.

Now, Nordstrom isn't exactly budget. The idea, though, was to get me a bra fitting. Because, lemme tell ya, things are not what they used to be.

I must've tried on a good 17 bras before settling on two everyday ones and a sports bra. I'll need more, but won't bother again until after surgery, as things are going to definitely change again. My new size? The same as the title to today's blog song.

The bras were costly but I'll wear them a lot. I even left the store wearing one. Er, under my clothes.

Then it was time to hit the freebies. We went to Aveda and Sephora, as my pal had some coupons, mostly birthday stuff. I bought a lipstick at Sephora and they signed me up for their birthday club. Even though my birthday was over a week before, they still gave me the gift, a set of three free lip glosses. At Aveda, we both picked up skincare samples, plus I got a hair straightener sample.

Then it was time for Talbot's. I've had some stuff from there, and loved it, but I know Talbot's is also incredibly costly if you don't watch things closely. I ended up getting a lovely off-white sweater, which will probably fit me even after surgery. It was very comfortable and professional-looking, but I can also dress it up with a necklace and wear it to go out.

Next we got some coffee and gabbed and took pics (there are two photos of my new haircut in my gallery). Then it was time for one last trip, to Lord & Taylor. After that, we figured, it would be enough.

I ended up getting a heavy pair of dark green slacks for work. Hence now I have a completely new outfit and can use all of that at least until surgery. The pants probably won't fit after surgery, but that's all right. They'll serve a purpose.

All told, when you count the haircut, the clothes, lunch and coffee, I spent just under $350. I figure, yeah, it was costly, but I don't normally spend a lot on myself.

Plus it plays into something I have been wanting to do but have been unable -- until now -- to put into practice. This is the desire to own fewer articles of clothing, but make them better ones. So far, so good.

In the meantime, I also want to say, I suddenly had a measurements turnover. I hit new personal bests in a lot of areas, including my band. Funny, when you look here:
, they say my size should be one cup size smaller. I suspect, for real, I'm somewhere in between. But the band size is right, which I think can be the greater part of the battle.

I'm also, suddenly, smaller in my waist, belly, hips and keister. But that's not due to shopping, that's due to the informal 5K Mr. J and I ran yesterday. Hey, ya gotta keep in shape for the competitions.

Hence it was a really full weekend. If my hairdo is a tad flattened, it's because I've been sleeping on the bus.

This week will be a short one; we will go to Cape Cod on Thursday, and will stay until Sunday. Waves and sun, here I come.

But first, a mirror check. ;)

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CAROLISCIOUS 9/14/2009 9:36PM

    I love the hair and I love even more that you did something just for you!

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MS.ELENI 9/14/2009 9:17PM

    Love your new haircut.Glad you had a great day. What is the surgery you were talking about.

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    Hello M'Dear
I commented about your blog on your page...when I tried to comment here earlier I could not save the comment. Anyhow...You look lovely. I hope you are enjoying yourself. As I said on your page you are almost as gorgeous as you are smart and witty. Wonderful combination.

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LAB-LOVER 9/14/2009 7:44PM

    Way to take care of yourself! And a little splurge on the side? Whereto on Cape Cod?

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CHERYLRG 9/14/2009 4:40PM

    Sounds great! I'm glad you took the time (and $) to treat yourself!

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WOLFKITTY 9/14/2009 2:16PM

    LOL! Enjoy the view!! :D

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SMILEY_MOM_GINA 9/14/2009 11:24AM

    Wow what a great day you had!

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ZEE1960 9/14/2009 10:22AM

    sounds better than a lot of days I have had!

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CANNOTFATHOM 9/14/2009 9:37AM

    It sounds like a terrific day lady! I'll have to go check out your new pics!


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You Got Me Searchin'

Monday, September 07, 2009

I've had quite the week. I am rather tired so please bear with me if this rambles.

I started the week angry about my job, tired and frustrated. I've said before that I don't want to get into it, and I don't, but suffice it to say it was not a string of happy moments, and hadn't been. My husband and I had been talking about my job nearly nonstop, and that's not good. Not that I'm not a, er, thrilling conversationalist, but the bottom line was that it was dominating my thoughts and days and waking moments. The nadir was Monday night.

But then suddenly on Tuesday it just lifted, and while things are not 100% sunny (they never really are -- I'm not referred to as The Voice of Doom for nothing, dontcha know), they are considerably better. Essentially I took something I've learned here and been practicing from here, which is asserting myself better. If I'm gonna fight for my food rights then I will fight for other things as well.

Immediately I became less tired and irritated, and suddenly Mr. J and I had other topics to discuss. The Tuesday reprieve happened at the perfect time as Wednesday was my birthday (I turned 47). I went to work, I mean, it's what we responsible adult types do. I even got to attend a meeting. Oh joy. But hey, I got through it. My birthday treat was a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich. They are marvelous.

Thursday passed normally, and Friday I took the laptop home, in an effort to get something done over the weekend. Due to the three-day weekend, some automated stuff will not work properly. Hence the idea was to get a jump on that. I don't adore bringing work home but this was not intended to take too long.

By Sunday things were zipping along when I received a notification that I was SP's Motivator of the Day. That is one odd honor. At least it was for me. I got online and immediately saw I had a ton of notifications to wade through. Since I'd finally finished wading through the birthday notifications (not just here, but also on Facebook), not that I mind but I was a lil tired, I was puzzled. How could so many people be doing the belated birthday thing? Then I saw, there was an email that said I was Motivator o' the Day. Ah, suddenly the notification upsurge made sense. I love them -- don't get me wrong -- but I like to answer people individually if I can, which can make for a lot of posting on my part.

Then today, a day off (by the way, I only got a jump on a few work things -- something ugly awaits tomorrow). And what do I do on my day off these days? I run a 5K.

It was good, I felt stronger and a tad faster, and those were correct beliefs. I shaved off 4 seconds from my previous time, for a new personal best of 43 minutes and 32 seconds. My husband shaved off a good 90 seconds from his previous time. The results aren't up as of this writing, but they'll be here:
Just go to Bad Habit Productions and click on Results. I suspect I'm last or near last (my husband's finish is something like 78th or so, out of over 300 participants), again, which is just fine by me. I do what I want to do, and I run or walk or jog or stride as I am able to. And if I am last then I am still faster than anyone who didn't race (take THAT, Usain Bolt!) and as for my fellow racers, it is my privilege and my honor to make them all winners.

Once we got home, we immediately grabbed the frisbee and headed out. Our walking was a tad slower than usual, and we only played for 10 minutes, but I was still able to jump and run after the disc.

Now my glutes are barkin' but I otherwise feel good. Things turned around incredibly quickly, and I am grateful that this week played out in this order and not in reverse.

The next race will be in October, then another one in November and then nothing until at least February, due to expected bad weather, family obligations and upcoming surgery.

What will this week bring? I'm searching the skies but I think it'll be another surprise. In the meantime, I'm takin' a nap. This week has exhausted me. But in a good way.

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MRSAKINS2005 9/14/2009 5:19AM

    You are a wonderful friend and truly motivating.

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GEE-KNEE 9/12/2009 4:35AM

    Great job on the 5k, and asserting yourself at work. Congratulations on being the motivator of the day. It's nice that you try to respond to all your comments.


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JESPAH 9/8/2009 6:16PM

    5K results!

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WOLFKITTY 9/8/2009 5:41PM


Hope today wasn't too bad fixing whatever was broken over the weekend. :D I'm glad you had a good 5k!!


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TRACYZABELLE 9/8/2009 1:29AM

    emoticon sorry I missed so much happy belated birthday and congrats on spark motivator of the day you rock

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LIQUEURLADY 9/7/2009 11:17PM

    Congratulations are due on so many fronts! You stood up for yourself; you're a motivator !! emoticon and you ran the race! (and yes, you're faster than I am, who didn't run at all!) Happy belated birthday! and many happy returns!

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CAROLISCIOUS 9/7/2009 11:05PM

    You did have an eventful week! I think what you are doing at work is the most exciting. We can't let these jobs that we must go to nearly every day of our lives make us miserable.

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    Well Congrats to you on all fronts, Motivator, racer, and worker too. Sounds like you put a good bit of honest effort into all. I'm grateful to know you.

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FIT_TERI 9/7/2009 7:06PM

    Wow, it sounds like you had a great end to your weekend! Congrats on the improved time. I don't find it odd at all that SP acknowledges you as a motivator. Look at what you have accomplished - and continue to accomplish.

I need to do a better job at asserting myself at work. There are definitely some things that need to change and if I don't speak up for me, who will? thanks for the kick in the pants on that.


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MS.ELENI 9/7/2009 5:59PM

    A good nap will work wonders.Here's hoping the coming week will be better. emoticon

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LIV2RIDE 9/7/2009 5:33PM

    WOW ...that's pretty cool. I find you motivating myself. I'm glad you are being recognized for your efforts.


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TELERIE 9/7/2009 3:33PM

    I have learned a lot from here that can be used in my work life too! It is making a difference slowly but surely. Congratulations on new PR! I'm incredibly proud of you!!

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LAB-LOVER 9/7/2009 3:21PM

    Congrats on the new PR! Whatcha doing in October? If it's not Columbus Day weekend, I might have to join ya!

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PATSDIARY 9/7/2009 3:04PM

    Congrats on your race AND on being the motivator of the day! Being assertive does feel good, doesn't it? It doesn't solve all your problems, but not allowing people to walk all over you makes the problems seem smaller!
Have a great day!

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ANNROBERTS54 9/7/2009 2:56PM

    Good for you on improving your times. And your state of mind. Keep it going thruout this next work week

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TXSPLA 9/7/2009 2:39PM

    It's not where you finished, but you succeeded in finishing. emoticon on following your dreams. Your journey is fanastic and will continue to be.

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Any Minor World that Breaks Apart Falls Together Again

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

I've been having a rather rough time of it lately in terms of work stress. I don't want to get into it but things seem to be lifting a bit so I am hoping that will last. But I did want to put out this song as it's been kind of a meditation for me lately. Music helps me, lyrics always have. I guess they mean more to me than they should, but it's the title of this blog that has kept me going.

It's karma, you know, the cosmic cycle. The world breaks apart and then is renewed, over and over again. Even my own little world. And so, I hope, a renewal cycle is beginning.

But melancholy takes a while to lift, so this year (because it is my birthday today), the party will start off slower than it did last year.

At age 47 I can honestly tell you that I still feel a bit like 17 and a bit like 27 or 37 and even 7. It was exactly 30 years ago today that I got to my first college dorm. My parents helped move me in and gave me a chocolate cake and a can of chocolate frosting. Y'know how many friends you can make with the line, "Wanna help frost my birthday cake?"

Every year I take stock at this time of year. Partly it's because it's my own personal New Years' Day but also because it's the start of a school year so it's easy to get into that mode. I've accomplished a lot. Last year I got a lot more weight loss out of the way, but this year I am considerably more toned and in better shape. I am starting to live the life of a thin person, not just a dieting person. It's a good life.

And it's got room for cardio. Cheesy cardio.

Happiness doesn't always come. But with you, my friends, it comes more often, and more easily and it lasts longer. You lift me up and make things so much better. You're gonna make the next 47 rock even more.

Because I'm geeky, because I'm silly, because I relate way too well to Office Space and Napoleon Dynamite, because I know all the lyrics even as I've forgotten High School French, because I've got canned heat in my heels, and most of all because I love you all, this one's for you:

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MRSAKINS2005 9/14/2009 5:18AM

    Happy Belated B-day my friend!

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DAN_ODEA 9/2/2009 10:10PM

    Happy Birthday emoticon!

I see you like quoting songs (this one Steely Dan, "Any Major Dude (Will Tell You)"). I am also reminded, on my own birthday, of the Paul Simon songs "Everything Put Together Falls Apart" and "Run That Body Down".

I was a big Canned Heat fan for a while; they made it up to #11 on my Favorite Bands list in the 1980s. That music just gets better with age.

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CAROLISCIOUS 9/2/2009 10:04PM

    Happy Birthday and Happy New Year! Hope the stress gets better...I'm happy to be here to help you feel better!

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DMPRIDER 9/2/2009 4:35PM

    Happy Birthday!!

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WOLFKITTY 9/2/2009 2:58PM

    May the TRUE gift of this birthday be a lighter emotional load! You'll get through the stress. Have fun celebrating your birthday!


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MARCHMAID 9/2/2009 2:12PM

    Happy Birthday and thanks for the gifts of music! You're pulling your load and helping all of us with ours!

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MS.ELENI 9/2/2009 10:27AM

    Happy Birthday. I always enjoy your blogs.A great way to start my day emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ZEBEBEE 9/2/2009 9:34AM

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESPAH!!! Thank you for all the inspiration and wonderful blogs. May your day be wonderful!

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LOSINIT52 9/2/2009 9:33AM

    Just wanted to wish you a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
You have made amazing changes this past year and I hope the coming year is a great one for you too.
Thanks for sharing your insightful blogs with us.
Best wishes.

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ANONYGIRL 9/2/2009 8:47AM

    Happy Birthday!

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H-2-OH 9/2/2009 8:47AM

    Great blog!
I'm sorry things have been stressful and I hope your cosmic cycle is on the way up, too. Love memories like that. I think it's great to evaluate your life on your birthday. Have a great day!

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FIT_TERI 9/2/2009 8:31AM

    Happy Happy Birthday!

Wow - you're starting to live the life of a thin person. How wonderful. Being active & making healthy choices because that's just what you do. Shopping for clothes and buying only what looks good on you. Sitting wherever you want at Fenway. I hope the situation at work starts to improve and that you can fully focus on enjoying this new life.

Enjoy yourself on this beautiful day.
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    Happy Birthday Girlie!

You can take your stock and say you are it! What amazing accomplishments. What a wonderful life. And you make it look so great, sound so great.

Happy day to you and your hunny. I hope your day is just full of joyful music, the best sights and experiences Bahston has to offah. Just enough introspection for a healthy foundation for the year to come. Maybe a little exercise. Maybe a little of your favorite desert. And the admiring affection of all us Spark Buddies.

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