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I Know You're a Real Koo Koo

Monday, May 18, 2009

Well, maybe you aren't. But I know I surely am.

It's inevitable, I suppose. It's that all of the things that make me up as quirky or odd have also manifested themselves in my weight loss journey. And that's not a bad thing.

When I first started, I absolutely hated, hated, hated the idea of drinking water. Water? Brr and blech, at the same time. Cold and bland was not going to cut it, and keep in mind that I started in January. In New England. Ice was not going to be in my vocabulary unless I was slipping on it in front of my neighbor's driveway.

So I changed it up, and realized that the water did not have to be barely warm enough to be liquid for it to provide me with a benefit. Now, it's not absolutely, positively 100% ultra stupendously perfect. It would be, I suppose, if it were cold as anything, and not have a decaf tea bag dunked in it, or sweetener thrown in it, or a flavor stick dissolved in it. Yes, if it were frigid and bland, I might -- just might, if I was really good and lucky and the stars and planets were all properly aligned -- lose .0000000000001% more weight than the way I have it, which is either boiling or close to it, with one or more of the aforesaid flavor options going on.

But I don't care. It doesn't matter. The flavor sticks, the steam, the sweetener, they make it possible for me to drink the water. Take them away and virtually no water is drunk. So which is worse? A flavor stick and a higher temperature, or no water? Gee, whaddaya think?

Same with the bottle or cup. For me it's about ritual. It's not exactly a Japanese tea service, but I like having my mugs. My bottles. My little sticks all lined up and ready to go. My tea bags. I sound like I've got OCD, but it helps me to remember -- drink four of these and the daily water requirements are done.

Walking isn't always easy to fit in. So I get off two stops earlier and, get this! I don't even count it. It's just serendipity. I pretend to myself that the bus broke down or it was going express and that was the closest I could get to my home. In the meantime, I still walk.

And then there's sweets. On my page it says that a part of my plan is lying to myself about why chocolate is evil. Well, of course chocolate isn't evil. Morality doesn't enter into it. There may be less than pure morals on the part of manufacturers of foods that are not so good for us. Yeah, I'll buy that. But food? Once it's ready for the table (unless you eat exceptionally fresh -- e. g. still swimming -- sushi), it has no consciousness, no mind. But I tell myself a little story anyway. And the story goes something like this. I don't eat red meat or pork. This has been true since age 13 for red meat and since age 0 for pork. So far, so good. Hence I tell myself, when something looks particularly tempting, that it's made from lard. Look, beef-flavored cookies! Wow, how'd they put a whole ham inside a cheesecake? Amazing how it says french fries, and they seem to be made with potatoes, but didja know they're really made up of pork? That pie is really a cleverly disguised burger, dontcha know.

I push foods away from me, if I have to sit at a table with them. Sure, I can reach a foot or so, but I don't. Eh, it's too much effort. Those tortilla chips are SO far away. They could be on Mars for all I know. I cannot bring myself to make the effort to grab one. Or a dozen.

Like my friend said to me when talking about the side effects I can get from taking alli: People Need to Get Over it. And he's right. Long as I do what I'm doing, the ick factor is minimized. And I'm not going to let it stand in the way of me taking the help I need, and getting this done. I'm not going to put squeamishness ahead of my health. I'll barrel through, and get over it, and set my mind onto it in whatever way I can spin it so that I make sure to do it. That's another thing I do because it needs to be done.

So, yeah, I'm a little nuts. But the gist of it all is that I do these little things, and I follow these little rituals, and they help me to get where I need to be. And, don't be so quick to laugh -- I bet you've got a few of these, too. A special mug. The right pair of shorts. The perfect go-to recipe for just when it looks like you won't have time to do much of anything other than dive headfirst into a gallon of Rocky Road.

Whatever you need.

Whatever it takes.

Whatever works.

Even if we all look a lil weird while doing so.

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EMMASMART 5/20/2009 3:47PM

    I like my water hot, cold and luke warm. I have kidney stones so that's just survival. Cheesecake is often maid with Gelatin which is beef so you are right. The popcorn that leaves a greasy film on the roof of you mouth.. LARD. Some cookies are also made with lard (esp those from chinese restaraunts - get the lechee nuts instead.) So when you are imagining you might not be far off.

I'm so proud of what you accomplished. And glad to wear your cast offs. It's the most amazing thing. Alli works for you, and you can do this and that is a very good thing.


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GREENLILY 5/19/2009 9:39AM

    LOL! I know EXACTLY where you are coming from! Although, personally, I've been a "nothing but water" drinker since I was a kid. Sweet drinks (unless it is lemon iced-tea) never really appealed to me... though I'm not a fan of hot drinks either. So I guess I am a bit koo koo... :)

I think we all have our "little" quirks as to what gets us through the day. For me, water must be in a GLASS glass, and cold enough to have come off an arctic glacier... If I'm trying desperately not to eat something I shouldn't have, I think about eating something that completely turns my stomach (i.e. - cheap, greasy grocery store popcorn - you know, the one that leaves a greasy coating on the roof of your mouth - ECCCKKKK) and that sometimes helps to turn me right off...

And... sometimes weird is good...


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CAPECODDIN 5/19/2009 8:08AM

    Okay... I gotta admit I had to read this 3 times to actually get it... well, I think I got it... ha ha...

Obviously you have a very powerful mind.. and can manipulate yourself in a GOOD way... keep up the good work!!


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WOLFKITTY 5/19/2009 3:13AM

    I agree, good for you! Find what works and get to it, forget the excuses! :D
Way to go!

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TELERIE 5/19/2009 2:16AM

    Whops - trigger happy fingers double posted.

Comment edited on: 5/19/2009 2:16:48 AM

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TELERIE 5/19/2009 2:16AM

    Oh, I've got plenty of quirky rituals. My morning ritual on the wii fit starts me off - I need that number to record on my excel sheet (LOL - the day isn't complete without it!) Then I fill my water bottle, snap on my pedometer, pack my HRM in my gym bag, pick up the wrapped lunch my darling makes every day for me (I'm so lucky!) and make my oatmeal.
I have my green tea when I get to work and all those things help keep me on track at the start of my day. It's even better if I manage to hit the gym before getting to the office.

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    I usually use a britta pitcher but if I have to drink bottled water , ice mountain. No offense but I hate Aquafina. It has more of a plastic bottle tate to me. If you drink tea you are supposed to drink 2 glasses of water for everyone of tea. It dehydrates you. At least that is what my Doctor says. But you need to do it your way. Whatever works for you. I have some friends who love Aquafina too. I guess it is just my taster LOL. Have a great day. Pam

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LAB-LOVER 5/18/2009 8:32PM

    Too funny... I have a ritual water bottle. Its an aquafina bottle with a wide mouth. Anything else doesn't cut it. No fancy camping store bottles for me. The plastic ones can get lost and I don't care. I buy another. Not the most "green" but it works. Spare me the Polar bottles, the Dasani, they won't do! I love my aquafina!

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The New Thing, the New Swing

Monday, May 11, 2009

I selected this song because it's silly in any language (the words are here if you're interested:
. The non-English language is Brazilian Portuguese.

But I also selected it because it's different and it shakes things up and that is one of the big ways that I keep myself motivated.

I am, by nature, a rut person. I get something comfortable and I stick with it, long after I've dug a trench in the carpet.

This is not necessarily such an awful thing because, after all, if it keeps me doing right by myself then that's excellent.

But it can get ... dull.

And that's when the trouble starts.

It's the little things first.

* Oh, it's raining out. Can't go for my walk.
* Oh, they put the dressing on the salad instead of the side. I won't bother the server. I'll just eat it this way anyway.
* Oh, I forgot to track my food today. I'll just keep it my head (and then it flies out as a million other things take its place).
* Oh, my sneakers are old. I won't replace them.
* Oh, this old thing used to be big on me. Now it fits again. I'll keep it just in case.
* Oh, this old thing used to fit me. Now it's too small for me.

And on and on and on.

It's very easy to slide down that slope.

But if you shake things up, you get and keep your motivation. How about these internal monologues instead?

* If I hadn't walked today, I wouldn't've seen that hawk.
* I got my cardio planting vegetables today. Can't wait for fresh peas!
* I figured out how to make my own low fat, low salt tomato sauce. Cooking for myself is kinda cool.
* The fishmonger and the butcher and the produce guy all want to help me choose something healthy. They're such nice people.
* The server doesn't mind fixing my salad when I ask nicely. A little extra tip for her doesn't hurt, either.
* I got new sneakers! I'm gonna go break 'em in!
* I bought this top and it seemed like it was made for a child when I first got it. Now it fits!
* My bigger clothes are going to my friends who are also trying to lose weight. I like helping people out.

Here's another way to get and keep motivation: measure yourself as often as you weigh yourself. Don't just rely on the scale for your good news. I personally love numbers and charts and graphs (I'm such a geek) so for me there is really something magical about seeing a graphed slope go down (in a good way, of course). Even for weeks when I haven't lost weight (which includes this one, for those of you keeping score at home), so what? I've lost something like 20" off my belly.

Yeah, you read that right. 2 feet off is coming hard on the heels of that.

That's more fun than any sitting around, and it's tastier than any extra dressing that 'accidentally' got on my salad. That, my friends, is motivation on the rocks, with a twist.

Speaking of a twist, I'm motivated to do a little cardio, which will definitely get my coworkers talking.

Maybe a samba.

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ZELDAMARIE 5/17/2009 9:39AM

    I totally agree and May mornings in Michigan where I am are beautiful . My walks give me peace with the smell of lilacs and the flowers and trees blooming. I never regret going for a walk once I do it. emoticon

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ANJOLENA43 5/16/2009 7:49AM

    Thank you so much for the motivation. You are so right. If we look at things differently, we can keep a positive attitude and our motivation for this journey.

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    I am so in a rut. I am the rut Queen LOL. Nice blog, good ideas and motivation. My problem right now is I am so tired and am not even exercising. got to get up and do it! You are doing a great job. Keep it going. Pam

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LLNLBLOG 5/13/2009 12:21PM

    This is a great post for me to read. I did not see the prompt but I really need to learn how to stay motivated. I am addicted to comfort and don't wont to do anything new, but I get bored that way. I guess the answer is don't fix it until it stops working. I'm okay doing the same routine for the most part but when I stop losing weight than I know its time for a change.

I really appreciate the examples of a new way to think.

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WIFEALF 5/12/2009 4:01PM

    Thanks for the motivation this is good!I get in a rut too at times.Thanks for this.It keeps me thinking positive!!!!!

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ENERGYONE 5/12/2009 2:53PM

    Thank you so very much. I am in need of motivation and your blog sure did inspire me. I get into ruts also and when I get bored that's when I slide. I'm walking 1.5 miles everyday rain or shine in 30 minutes. That is more than what I was doing 2 months ago. So again, thanks.

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SEONAG 5/12/2009 1:29PM

    Wow, you have so many good ideas. I am a rut person too. It sounds like you are really not letting yourself get trapped there. emoticon

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IMCONFESSIN 5/12/2009 1:22PM

    Nice track! Maybe you'd like "Sprout and the Bean" by Joanna Newsom

I chart my stuff, too. Yours is interesting. A 'distance' chart. I just chart a weight every week, for myself, and my co-workers. It's a colorful roller-coaster chart of hills, valleys, and crossed swords. Ha!

Well done!

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GREENLILY 5/12/2009 12:44PM

    Thanks for the MOTIVATION!!! :) I think I need to climb back out of my rut! :)

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GRANIJANI 5/12/2009 12:10PM

    I love the song and I love your message. You are doing great!! I just started so I have the beginners motivation helping me along. I'll keep your helpful words in mind when I fall Into that rut!! emoticon

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CYCLINGSANDY 5/12/2009 7:18AM

    To keep from getting in a rut I make new challenges for myself. I ride longer or choose a different route for my bike ride. I enter in Bike Runs on Saturdays. Also, I change my Ipod music every couple of weeks.It's working because I am more fit and my endurance is more amazing than it was seven months ago.

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LAB-LOVER 5/11/2009 10:17PM

    20" -- wow!
I just bought a pair of 29" waist jeans and my old ones are 40" -- numbers like that don't lie! And yours is EVEN MORE impressive (not comparing, mind you).
I tend to get in ruts too... so I will take your advice to heart!

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CAREWREN 5/11/2009 5:29PM

    A "rut person". I like that way of saying it. The familiar, even when not so hot, is easier than changing. I think ruts are so comforting! However, it would be nice to get into a healthy rut for a change!

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TELERIE 5/11/2009 4:35PM

    Many great ideas to keep motivation sparking! You're doing awesome J!
And I love the song! I've not heard her version before, but heard it performed by Joćo Gilberto - check out the Youtube version with two grown men quacking like a duck - It's hilarious - and they do pull it off!

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CAREWREN 5/11/2009 2:29PM

    20 inches??? Wow! I am so impressed. You are doing great and you also have a good sense of who you are and what the most likely traps are for you.

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KSGROTHE 5/11/2009 1:36PM

    You're doing a great job! I love this blog! I need to work on my motivation all the time.

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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And All the Roads We Have to Walk Are Winding

Monday, May 04, 2009

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

199.2 this morning, first time since 1991.

I had all of these profound ideas of what to say, and I had the song planned since I hit 299, but dammit I'm just sitting here weeping.

There is no maybe about it.

You ARE the ones who saved me.

Thank you from the bottom, top and all of the sides of my heart.

I love you all.

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EMMASMART 5/9/2009 8:56AM

    I'm weeping with you. This is so wonderful. Oh my!


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    Super news! Happy Happy News!

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BFITAT50 5/6/2009 11:04PM

    Fantastic! Awesome! Amazing! You did it!!!!

Giving you a standing "O" right now! Hoo-ah! emoticon emoticon

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JENIFIREHARP 5/6/2009 10:42PM

    emoticon on Onederland and emoticon on being Motivator of the day!

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FIT_TERI 5/6/2009 9:44PM

    What an amazing accomplishment. Eb is right, amazing is not even the word. Congratulations.

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DEANAC20 5/6/2009 8:23AM

    An amazing inspiration! Way to go!! emoticon

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DEANAC20 5/6/2009 8:23AM

    An amazing inspiration! Way to go!! emoticon

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ELLIE381 5/6/2009 7:44AM

    Congratulations, what a wonderful motivator. You have done such a great job.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. emoticon emoticon

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TRACYZABELLE 5/6/2009 3:00AM

    Congrats on finding onederland! HOw awesome!

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SWEETZMIX 5/5/2009 12:35PM

    emoticon amazing is not even the word!! emoticon

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KUZINKEITH 5/5/2009 10:35AM

    emoticon emoticon

I am so thrilled to join in the celebration of your victory --- there is hope for all of us when we keep on walking that winding road.


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CAREWREN 5/5/2009 10:28AM

    Way to go, my friend! No matter what help you got from SP and all of us, you did it! I'm sitting here grinning from ear to ear!

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VALERIEMAHA 5/5/2009 10:13AM

    Happy Destiny being my buddy, I was curious about a blog he posted on called "And All the Roads We Have to Walk Are Winding." And now I know why...YOU ARE AWESOME!!! Approaching ONE HUNDRED FIFTY POUNDS gone, lost, assigned to the black hole of the furtherest universe!!!!!!!!!

It must feel sooooooooo good to be so light, both emotionally and physically!

Keep on keepin' on! You're a emoticon

Blessed be -- from one quirky soul to another!
BTW, loved the music!

I assume you are *tuned in* to the Stand By Me phenomenon --
Producer Mark Johnson was interveiwed on NPR yesterday --
and I learned that a DVD/CD became available April 29...and of course I ordered it immediately --

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HAPPY-DESTINY 5/5/2009 9:19AM

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DETERMINED_ME 5/4/2009 2:37PM

    Oh Jes! Congrats! There are no words to describ how happy I am for you!

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EM_CLARK1 5/4/2009 2:22PM

    Yeah, Jes! Congrats on making it to Onederland!!!

:) Erin

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TCEDEROTH 5/4/2009 2:09PM

    Oh Jes. Congratulations. I haven't been on in months and your blog is the first place I came to when I logged in. I just had to see how you were doing, and now I'm weeping too.

You have done an amazing job and have been an inspiration to so many others as well. You're almost there girl!

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2BMYOWN 5/4/2009 1:02PM

    Well, I think you deserve a big old emoticon for such a wonderful accomplishment! Kudos!

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KSGROTHE 5/4/2009 1:01PM


You're doing great!


- Karen

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TELERIE 5/4/2009 8:44AM

    YOU did that! What an achievement! Big HUGS!

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LILMYSTERY 5/4/2009 8:30AM

    That is just so incredibly wonderful! ! ! I can't even express in words how happy I am for you - I got all teary-eyed reading your blog.

You did it. And there is nothing more wonderful than that. :)

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Good job! You did it...

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A Dreamer of Pictures I Run in the Night

Monday, April 27, 2009

Sure the nutrition tracker has helped me. I suspect it helps most people.

Way back, before Spark, before alli, before I buckled down and got into getting healthy, before, before, before, before, back when three quarters of a bag of potato chips would disappear and I wouldn't know where it went, before and back to when someone in college dared me to eat a whole large pizza and I did, and back to cleaning my plate and all of that, back, back, back, somewhere in there portions were lost.

And in their place came greed, and stuffing, and piling. Dinner wasn't dinner, it was excavating layer upon layer of fat-sugar-salt-carbs, over and over again. Sure, sometimes fat-sugar-salt-carbs was Mexican. Sometimes it was Greek. Or Italian. Or kosher style. Or Chinese. But it was always fat-sugar-salt-carbs.

Sanity had to return. The dinner plate had to stop looking like a strip mining operation in Morgantown, West Virginia. It had to turn back into pieces and care and choices and waiting.

Yes, waiting. I don't mean waitstaff, although that's a part of it. It's the feeling of not so instant gratification. Of anticipation. Of small delays, and how they improve the process.

And it was about experimenting with flavor, with things that didn't strictly fit into the old fat-sugar-salt-carbs mold. Things like fresh vegetables, and fruits, like dairy and proteins and spices. Yes, cinnamon!

Tracking all of that has a meaning that goes beyond calories or carbs or points. It is a diary of what you did, how you felt, how you took care of yourself. There is still excavating, yes. It is still an archaeological expedition. But it's not to the base of a seemingly bottomless mass of food. Rather, it is a trip through nutrition, all laid out for all time and all to see, a record of accomplishments and, yes, of slipups and poor choices sometimes. For they are a part of all of this.

It is a journey into the self.

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EMMASMART 5/9/2009 8:53AM

    Great writing as usual. I have recently found that tumeric, garlic and chili powder makes my morning eggs into something fabulous. But I change it up. With nothing, with garlic, chili powder only. All of them together. It helps push the hey, I have eaten button.


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LLNLBLOG 4/29/2009 11:34AM

    What great post! I love reading about my bad habits in a fun and forgiving way. Thank you for taking the shame out of self neglect and sharing about your new found self respect.

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LANILUNA1 4/29/2009 1:41AM

  I enjoyed how poetic you were in this blog! :) and i like your background about being 'DONE' with being fat. *sigh* ! thanks for sharing the motivation

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TELERIE 4/28/2009 5:30PM

    I just LOVE your blogs!! Thanks for being wonderful!

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CAREWREN 4/28/2009 9:32AM

    Thanks for putting that out there for us to see, relate to, and gain inspiration from. And, thanks for starting your blog entries with a song!

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MADERINE 4/27/2009 8:55PM

    Ah! You're my cinnamon girl!

This was such a great, well-written, thoughtful blog post. Thank you for sharing it with all of us.

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    Great Blog!!!

The nutrition tracker has helped me in so many ways. I now know what a true portion of meat looks like, I can eyeball a half a cup of veggies, and I'm calculating everybody's lunch at work while they are eating...hahahah! emoticon

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LAB-LOVER 4/27/2009 8:14PM

    Ah... this was one of those rare times when I had to check the song for lyrics. Dang! I couldn't name the tune, and I knew that one too!

Your line about the strip mining operation just simply cracked me up!

I confess that I am *still* learning about good foods, and some days I don't do so well. It's easier to grab a powerbar for lunch than concoct something healthy. But it's working for me for now, so I go with it. Some days are better than others, but it's all a learning experience!

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KCHIESA 4/27/2009 7:57PM

  What an awesome blog! I totally feel you.

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Seeing is Believing

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

It's been a whirlwind. Yes, I was on television. In Britain!

On GMTV's home page it shows their TV highlights. I'm #2! Plus I was listed under their Today page as a top story, just under (of course!) the Queen's birthday celebration. Her Majesty was 83 the day of my broadcast.

Also, check out this link:

This woman, Sue Jameson, took me under her wing and was so kind and so lovely. She did a lot to assure that I was comfortable and happy. It was so good to have a friend there. We traded emails -- she'd like to know how I do. And, frankly, I'd like to know how she's doing. A very sweet lady.

So, here's how it all went down.

I went to work Monday morning and by that time had a train as I'd already spoken with the producer and had a go. Started dealing with basic work stuff, my mission was to make sure that it would be almost as if I wasn't going to be gone at all. I managed to do that, and I doubt the intern had much to do later on on Monday. I also went in and told my boss, I think she was not quite understanding what I was doing. Then I headed out at noon, only telling my colleagues I was going to NYC to visit my inlaws. Heh, well, that's not 100% true of course.

Mr. jespah met me at South Station and saw me off. The train was lightly populated and I didn't have a seatmate until Stamford. It was on time, which was helpful. Got to the inlaws' at, I think, around 4, 5 PM, something like that. Quickly settled in to get the clothes and props ready and order dinner. Plus I had plenty of voice mails to answer. Once we were done eating, I asked my father in law to wake me at 10 PM. Hence I got about 3 hours of rest although most of that was not spent sleeping. Sue had suggested that, she said people who did not do that tended to really fade by 2 AM.

I had a snack and was ready to go at midnight; the car service was expected at 12:30. Well, it didn't show! After five minutes of waiting, I called Sue. She determined that the car service's computer was allegedly down and they'd lost all their reservations. Hence she came and got me in a cab, and promised to take care of the return trip while I was on. She also told me, while we were in the cab, that she was expecting some major diva editor from Marie Claire magazine. The diva had already insisted on $1,000 for her own personal makeup lady. The New York office had balked, but the London office ended up having to pony up for that. The diva and her entourage were expected at 5 AM. I told Sue, well, maybe the makeup lady is expensive because she works fast.

We got to the studio and it's located at the Thompson Reuters Building at 3 Times Square. The building where the big ball is dropped on New Year's Eve is right across the street. The place was mainly deserted, which makes sense, given the hour. We were greeted by Larry the engineer. Then the phone rang, and it was David Mason in London, wondering where we were. He had just called Mr. jes at home (woke up the poor man), asking where I was as I'd be on in 10 minutes. Eek! Sue then grabbed the phone and told David, "I'll talk to you, she's got to do makeup!" I was doing my own makeup and hair. I work a lot cheaper than the Marie Claire gal.

The room where I was filmed as tiny and mainly black. There was a director's chair on a platform and a small box in front of it to put your feet so that they wouldn't dangle. Then they got me wired up. I got an earpiece in my left ear and the microphone had to go under my dress and be clipped to the side. Sue put it under my dress (so I guess I ended up knowing her pretty well, har har) and everything got plugged in. Then they left me alone in the room and closed the door, I assume to get technical stuff done in the control room. I learned later that a part of that was putting my before picture up.

I waited and then heard a voice in my ear, "Hello, this is Robbie in London, can you hear me? Can you tell me the pronunciation of your surname?" I told him, he said I sounded fine and told me the names of the people who'd be talking to me. Then there was music and suddenly I was talking to Penny Smith and her guest. They asked me some questions and the slant was definitely about the side effects. Which is fine, I have nothing to hide. That interview is the link above. The other interviews don't seem to be up yet. After I was done, Robbie's voice was back in my ear and he said, "Are you sure you've never done this before?"

The second segment wasn't too long after the first one, less than a half hour later or so it seemed to me. That time I talked to Kate Garroway, and was able to show my old Red Sox jersey so you can see how much I've lost. I think talking to her was a little more difficult than it was to talk to Penny but I think in general I did the best with that segment.

Once that one was done, there was over an hour to go to the third and final bit. I grabbed my snack (a Fiber One Chocolate Bar, very nice) and so did Sue, and then Larry gave me a tour and showed me all of the equipment. They are connected with Reuters so there's a news feed coming in. We looked at footage of the perp walk of the teenaged Somali pirate, and also some silly footage of a goat seen in some restaurant, I think somewhere in South America. To which I said, "Their meat is REALLY fresh." Larry is from Massachusetts so we also talked about the Red Sox. He mentions he's often bored during these things and goes online. I told him to go to my website and showed him the site. We also talked about Spark People!

By this time, Sue was tired (she had a cold), told me she'd normally hug me but didn't want me to get her cold. She went home so it was just Larry and me. He showed me some more feed footage and then it was time to go back on. He told me I'd have to put the microphone under my dress as he said he only does that for supermodels. I said, "Well, maybe next year." He replied, "Maybe!"

This time, I spoke with Lorraine Kelly and their resident health expert, Dr. Hilary Jones (who is a man). I think I did the worst in this segment as it was getting close to 4 AM and I was very tired. But Dr. H. did say that he thought I looked really good already. I think they had a hard time believing I still have 55 pounds to go. On that segment there was also a woman who had tried alli and it hadn't worked out for her. Unfortunately I didn't catch her name.

Then it was time to go. Larry got me to the car service and I was whisked off, by limo, to the inlaws' apartment. By the time I got in, it was after 4 AM. I immediately got into bed. My father in law got me up at 8. I hadn't slept all that much.

My train was at noon so I had breakfast and lounged around until about 10:15, then left for Penn Station. When I got there, the cabbie had to let me off across the street. There was some guy collecting charity, asked me and I said to him, "I don't have any free hands." I was carrying all of my stuff, of course. He said, "That's okay, baby girl, I'll catch you when you do." Ha, so I guess I'm Baby Girl now. Better than being Big Mama.

The train was on time and I ended up sitting near a guy named Edward Ellington. As in the Duke's nephew. See:
The guy looks just like the album cover, although now he's probably close to 60.

I got home yesterday, and have been answering emails and of course composing this blog entry. I also sent a thank you note to everyone at GMTV and asked if they'd pass along a message to the woman who had tried alli and it hadn't worked for her. I just wanted her to know that this is not easy to do, and offered my support.

And now here we are. Last night a triumphant dinner at the local Vietnamese place. Surprisingly, I stayed within my calorie range both days. Today I'll go back to the gym, too, so probably tonight I'll finally get a full night's sleep.

After all, a diva needs her beauty rest.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

GREENLILY 4/28/2009 4:37PM

    Yay J!!!! :) I watched the link you posted! Sounded GREAT! :) You'll have to post other links, if you get them! I have to say, you have come a LONG way! You are always such an inspiration. I love that you always "tell it like it is" with that slight humorous edge that helps us picture EXACTLY what you're going through!


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EMMASMART 4/24/2009 10:10PM

    I didn't realize there were SEVERAL interviews. I hope their are checks coming your way. Alli should be paying you for one. Even if not that was soooo coool.


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CAREWREN 4/23/2009 5:52PM

    This is so cool! I appreciate the video so we can really see you but I also appreciate your taking the time to give us such a wonderful rendition of how it went. emoticon emoticon

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MARCHMAID 4/23/2009 6:38AM

    I'm reading all my friends' blogs this morning for inspiration. Yours is way up there on that score!

Hurray for you! emoticon

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TELERIE 4/22/2009 2:23PM

    Wow, what a great experience! Congratulations - you look so good on TV!

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JENZZ22 4/22/2009 10:46AM

    Wow! Amazing story and what a crazy trip with thte timing. I can't wait to see the video, I am at work and can not watch it here.

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