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You Just Might Want to See Me Come Back

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Well, I hope you want me back, 'cause I am back. Heh, I'm back either way. :)

The song, heh, the song is kinda silly and a little bit sweet and I'm posting it not because I had some massive relapse or anything but actually because I saw the Hood blimp this morning, floating up above our neighborhood.

Now, there is no Red Sox game today, it isn't a holiday (although it is a holiday weekend) and graduations are done. Plus of course there are no other major sporting events going on. No golf, no tennis and naturally no football, basketball or hockey. Hence unless the blimp is covering, er, lacrosse, maybe? -- unless it's covering something like that, then it's a runaway blimp.

Someone is joyriding in the Hood blimp. Someone has hijacked the blimp and is taking it to ... Medford.

PS We'll see how the numbers shake out tomorrow but it looks good. More tomorrow, plus stuff on the new job, which starts then.

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JESPAH 7/6/2008 11:42AM

    Ha, another Gordon Gano fan! I used to live off Gano Street in Providence, RI and always thought of him whenever I passed that exit.

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LOBRENNAN 7/6/2008 11:32AM

    I love that song :D

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Eek, I can't eat that!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Well, sure I can; I can eat lots of things. But it's easier to just go with a yes/no, black/white, all/nothing mode with the folks. Not that they don't understand but it's easier to just say no than to explain why, well, that quiche would be lovely but that means that I don't eat Mexican tonight because my fat and cholesterol would be off the charts so thanks, I'll just eat a salad alone.

Eh, I'm not a victim and I don't want to be seen like one or treated like one but I have to say that both parents' homes are food problems for me. At least my own parents' house has a second floor so I'm somewhat removed from the food. My inlaws live in an apartment so getting away from the kitchen is not easy. And then, of course, someone's always offering ice cream.

It's tomorrow I'm most concerned about, and I may not be on to blog so that's an issue in and of itself. My folks are having company over and that means food. EVERYWHERE. The entire first floor will be something of a minefield for me. I've been doing well so far. Probably not great with the nutrients but fat and calories are acceptable. Tomorrow, though, there will be little dishes in every room but the bathroom. My husband and I will go walking a lot, heat permitting. I've got to get away from the mines when I can.


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JESPAH 7/5/2008 10:11PM

    Looks like the week went okay. The scale will mainly tell the tale but, heh, I kept within fat and cal ranges every day. Woof.

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TELERIE 7/3/2008 10:47AM

    I know what you mean about yes/no - rather than a lot of explaining. I find it's easier to just say no thanks rather than have a small slice of whatever is on offer, because if I have a small slice I might have another and so on and so forth. I'm sure you'll do well navigating the minefield. Plan ahead and bring some healthy options, fill up on water and veggies and have a good time talking and walking! Perhaps there are others who'd enjoy a walk with you! emoticon

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TUESDAYS 7/3/2008 10:31AM

    Here's a technique I sometimes use: Think about how YOU are winning and THEY are losing because you're staying away from the food and they are pigging out.

Your baaaad girl of a brain can think, "Awwww... poor fool.... look what she's putting in her mouth RIGHT NOW!" In your head, you can even cheer them on. "Eat more, eat more!" LOL! That way, you are WINNING THE GAME and those who are EATING THEMSELVES INTO CALORIE HELL are losing.

It's not the nicest thing in the world (and you don't really MEAN them harm! haha!), but it's just a game to get you through a particularly bad minefield. Regardless, you can do it: Savor the victory even now...

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What Can You Do

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

This song is totally unrelated to what's going on but it's so incredibly cheesy I just had to post the video.

We're leaving in maybe 2 hours to go to NYC, then to LI for the remainder of the week and so my posting is going to be hit or miss and blog entries may end up nonexistent.

Ah well.

In the meantime, we've got a boatload of food, which is crazy when you think about it as we should be able to buy whatever in Manhattan. I just don't want to be spending the time doing so. I'd rather spend time with family. One thing I did for today, though, is I saved up salt in a big way so I can eat Greek food if I want to! Yay! That will go a long way to making tonight pleasant and easy.

As for the rest of the week, it's more of a mystery but there will be a lot of eating out so I'll just be careful and then eat the leftovers for lunch the following day. About the only day that's now concerning me is Friday the 4th as my Mom wants to have people over so that means snack-y foods will be everywhere and it will be a lot more like grazing than a sit-down meal.

It's not impossible but it is harder. But, heh, I'm such a control freak with all of this that it's probably good for me to do something off the grid and different because that's the way life is. It's not all controlled and easy. Sometimes it's weird and tough and doesn't fit into neat and happy little slots. I need to practice dealing with things like that, too, so here I come.

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JESPAH 7/3/2008 10:02AM

    Thank you both. So far I'm pleasantly shocked at how well I'm staying on track. :)

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TELERIE 7/2/2008 7:28PM

    I love your attitude and thoughts! Good luck and I know you can do it! Life throws us these tests so we can grow and learn! Have most of the healthy choices and don't beat yourself up if you "stumble"! Have a great time!

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WOODLANDMYST 7/1/2008 9:05PM

  Great attitude - keep moving forward!

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So If You're Coming Get Ready To Go

Monday, June 30, 2008

Today's musical selection is kinda related to water (because it's mega-humid here) and the ocean (I want to talk about my friend the fish guy) and surfing but of course these days surfing is done on the 'Net.

So, first, it's so humid, the air is chewable. Fortunately, the house is still fairly cool so I can go with fans for the nonce. I may switch to A/C but right now I'm okay and in fact I just had oatmeal. When we go walking tonight, it'll be at dusk, just so we can do something instead of take three steps and pant.

And -- the fish guy. I get the feeling he finished a semester and went home for the Summer. Since this is such a college city that happens a lot, and not even necessarily with super-young people. Boston is the ultimate town and gown place, and the complexion of the area is radically different now versus the Winter. It's not just that us older folk are around, it's also things like more parking, less traffic, less foot traffic, the ability to get a table at a restaurant without waiting, etc. The replacement fish guys have not been up to par, not to mention not cute.

The first one was kind of a himbo with a serious shiner. His eye looked bad for weeks, like he'd been hit with a chain in some street fight or something. Then the second replacement (last Friday) was a dude who did not speak very good English and could not truly comprehend that I want a half a pound which means .69 lbs is too much.

And, I miss the original fish guy because he was nice, and pleasant, and we'd chat a little. I keep kidding my husband that the first fish guy was in love with me, which of course isn't really true, but he did pay attention and I just liked being paid attention to. I mean, not just to say hi but he also would remember what I ordered, sometimes after a few weeks had gone by. He used to call me his favorite customer and who doesn't want to be that?

Anyway, here's to the Summer and perhaps the fish dude is off saving the whales from tuna nets or something or maybe just sitting in the basement of his parents' house playing endless games of Grand Theft Auto, and I hope either way that he's having a good time.

Now -- surfing. My folks live on Long Island which is as beach-defined as it is defined by its proximity to New York City. My husband and I will push to go to the beach at least once, plus we'll probably (weather permitting) walk around the local pond with my Dad every day in order to get in some cardio. I've never been a real surfer although I've thought about wind-surfing. I'm still too heavy and klutzy for it but maybe I'll actually do it someday. I know how to sail and I know it's similar although instead of moving the mainsail around you essentially move your body around in order to shift the sail to catch a breeze.

Indoor surfing is more for the search for a gift for my nephew for his Bar Mitzvah. Now, he's already getting a 529 plan from us, and he knows that (he already thanked us for it) but he's a kid and college is a good eight years away for him. Hence we want to give him something tangible. I have an idea for a book and now for something else. The kid is baseball crazy so that helps to define what I'll get. I have some ideas and will go shopping online and hopefully be able to grab something today. The Bar Mitzvah isn't for almost another three months but I want to take shipping, etc. into account. I want it to be a total surprise, just hand him something fun. Bar Mitzvahs are a cause for people to (well, relatives, anyway) either give money or something religious in nature. Money is covered and frankly Mr. J. and I are not that religious so if it's something baseball-oriented it'll be different and, hopefully, memorable.

Gonna go surfin' now, everybody's learnin' how ... :)


Whenever I'm Asked Who Makes My Dreams Real

Sunday, June 29, 2008

I'm all packed and ready to go to NY.

The only problem is, we're not leaving for another 2 days. :)

I'm a lil impatient. But a lot of that stems from being flat-out for months and now suddenly I have very little to do. I am writing, though, which is fun and I have what I think are good ideas and so committing them to paper and then to pixels is a good use of time. Plus I know I just won't be that free pretty soon. So I'd better get it all going now.

As for the trip, it should be good although food concerns me. I know that my in-laws and my parents will do whatever they can to accommodate me. But at the same time it's not about me and I don't want to be a diva about it. So we're bringing food. As in: oatmeal, flavor sticks for water, dried fruit snacks, fish oil capsule and even little (portion-controlled) cans of tuna in water.

And I've done what I can to prime everyone. I've asked for fresh fruit and vegetables, or at least frozen, to be available. And I've asked for skim milk. After that, I suppose I'm more or less on my own. I'm sure there will be salads or at least lettuce and cukes, and probably plain chicken or egg whites will be available. I can make do. I have for years (I'm a semi-vegetarian and am used to "eating around" other people).

But there's going to be a LOT of eating out, so I am concerned, less about fat and calories and more about sodium. I strongly suspect it will be Greek food at my in-laws, which is lovely if you enjoy salt baths. I love Greek food but I'll mainly have a salad with either the tiniest bit of feta or maybe one olive and that's it. No grape leaves, which I love.

Chinese is not a much better alternative as I have trouble with control. And then there's breakfast. I'm bringing oatmeal but will be plied with espresso if I don't put my foot down.


I love my folks and my in-laws and they will not consciously try to push me but it's going to be a very different ball game.

Gotta be ready for all of it.

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JESPAH 6/30/2008 9:31AM

    Thank you. I had a decent loss this week but not a fantastic one (essentially I just recouped the setback I had last week due to TOM) so I am concerned that I'll end up with another less than stellar week right before starting a new job. Not that my coworkers would know or notice a difference of a pound or two, and it really shouldn't irk me in any way. i just want it to be going better right now because the week is going to be tough enough as it is.

Being prepared is good, being obsessed is not. Sometimes the line is a tad blurry.

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IOWAGAL1957 6/29/2008 11:23PM

    sounds like good plans in place. have fun.

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TUESDAYS 6/29/2008 4:07PM

    Yep. You can do it. Working this program makes one crafty and creative. And when you know you're still accountable to that 'ol food log, you find the discipline. Concentrate on the people, not the food --- and have fun!

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