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I'm Standing On My Own Two Feet

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Well, I won't be for much longer. I had oral surgery today and it's really catching up to me now. I have plenty of stuff to do -- I need to continue wrapping up the job search, stuff should get organized because later on I won't get the opportunity to do that, but that doesn't matter right now. Right now, my jaw is bothering me and I'm tired. So I'll grab a Tylenol with Codeine and draw the shades.

There are -- egad -- two more dental appointments to go. At least, my understanding (and my understanding has been woefully flawed throughout this exercise) is that there are only two more to go. One is scheduled for July 23rd and the other will be about two or three weeks after that because on the 23rd they'll make a mold of my upper jaw and need a couple of weeks for the crown to be made.

It's exhausting just thinking about it.

In job news, they called and it seems my new boss was less than pleased that IT was going to take forever to set up my workstation, so now my start date is back to July 7th (it had been the 14th). Either one is fine with me as I have enough time to get whatever done before the 7th. The 14th start date seemed like I'd do a lot of just sitting around. While I enjoy idleness as much as the next person, I'm raring to go. Plus the dollar differential between work and Unemployment is striking enough that there's no way I'd prefer Unemployment cash to wages.

Enough of that. Time to dream of, um, something. Tomorrow I'll go visit my buddies at my last job, and tell them of my good fortune. :)

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JESPAH 6/27/2008 4:25PM

    Definitely feeling better -- thank you for asking! Especially 'cause I saw some friends today. :)

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TUESDAYS 6/27/2008 10:39AM

    I hadn't checked up on "my arrow gal" in awhile, and the job thing is good news! Congrats!! Hope you're feeling better today... Things are going in YOUR direction...

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THEOTHERHALF 6/26/2008 8:23PM

    What an ongoing saga with your dental situation - let's hope it ends soon and you can get some relief - continued good luck with everything - Todd

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Early in the morning ...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

It's a mixed kind of a day. Excellent news this morning that I passed my background check and will start on the 14th of July rather than the 7th. The company was concerned that they'd be unable to get me set up, IT-wise. Hey, another week of doing nada -- I can get behind that.

The less than stellar news is that the dental visit turned out to be a bust. Heaven forbid it should ever get finished! I was afraid of that and it sure came true. I'll go back tomorrow -- the guy felt pretty bad about me being jerked around -- but that won't even end it. They have to cut my gum to get at the implant, put some sort of healing cap on it for a few weeks, then take a mold of the upper jaw (they took a mold of the lower jaw today), then get the actual crown back maybe two weeks after that and of course somewhere in there I get the final appointment, to get it all done -- the thing that I had mistakenly thought might get accomplished today.

Hence it's tomorrow, then the 23rd, then some amorphous date after that for the last of it or at least what should be the last of it although I'm sure there will be stitches, and they'll have to be removed, and healing will have to be monitored and yadda yadda yadda.

Now, I understand their caution and of course I don't want to get an infection. But the guy today acknowledged that things should have gone a lot more quickly. Essentially what happened was that the periodontist had such a full schedule that when I needed a two-weeks-hence appointment I would instead get one in five weeks' time, and things like that. Then the periodontist left the practice so there was that delay on top of everything else and so it's already been over a year. But at least they're going to shake a leg now.

I'm not letting it spoil my excellent mood. I'm just figuring out how to get it all fit into my suddenly very interesting schedule. Tomorrow, if they don't do the gum-cutting, well, it will not be pretty.

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JESPAH 6/26/2008 1:26PM

    Thanks! I had the oral surgery today. It went well but now I'm pretty wiped. A nap is in my future.

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WOODLANDMYST 6/26/2008 8:35AM

  Keeping good thoughts and sending blessings your way. You've got the right attitude - and keep that fire lit! Cyndy

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JESPAH 6/26/2008 7:38AM

    I think I showed good righteous indignation yesterday. And that helped to finally light the fire, plus he turned out to be the right person to express that to -- I am thinking that when it is finally all said and done, it'll be August. Annoying but at least attainable. I did make it clear to him that I want the whole thing done by the time of the Bar Mitzvah. I mean, carrying along, caring for and cleaning a flipper is the last thing I want to be thinking about when I'd rather be dancing the hora or smiling for pictures or talking to my relatives.

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THEOTHERHALF 6/25/2008 7:59PM

    Sorry the dental work didn't work out - it will get solved eventually - hopefully with excellent results - keep your chin up and go with the flow - you are heading in the right direction - Todd

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JESPAH 6/25/2008 6:47PM

    Thank you. Right now, I almost welcome the dental work just to get the stupid thing over with.

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    Wow. Good luck on all that. It sounds a little painful. Don't stress out though. Maybe meditation will help. Hope it will all be over soon. Then you can put it all behind you. Have the best evening that you can. Pam

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It's just a state of mind?

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

It's another quiet day, and I haven't gotten the final word on things so I'm just kind of lazing around. I had intended to call the guy from the other place at 9 AM but he called at ten to nine and of course I let him off the hook.

Then I sent out thank you notes to all five of the people at his office who had met me and essentially told them, "it's not you, it's me". From such things relationships are maintained and continued and I'd like to be able to bank this very good (and relatively easy, when you get right down to it) job search for future help as you never know what'll happen in the future.

I also learned that my buddy who was laid off at the same time as me got an offer. So he's also going to be working soon, and it turns out it'll be very close to where I'll be so I suppose we could have lunch on occasion. Good for him as I was a little concerned about him. He's not as far along with his career as I am and he has visa issues. Great that it worked out for him.

I have been hesitating in telling too many people as I don't want the rug pulled out from under me. Not that that will happen but I think caution is in order until the exact last thing is done. Which should be by tomorrow.

Tomorrow I have dental stuff anyway and will leave here at noon for my appointment, then I'll be out for probably the remainder of the day. If I haven't heard by the time I leave, I'll have that to think about while I listen to soft rock classics and the dentist telling me to open wider. I'm getting a crown put on and so it'll be a long appointment no matter what. My husband will come and get me once it's done and we'll have leftover pasta (from tonight's cooking, which reminds me I've gotta start the pot to boil) so I'll have something soft to eat.

It's the culmination of a dental journey that's taken over a year -- I had to have a tooth pulled and this is the last of getting an implant. It's taken seemingly forever but it's almost done. I suppose that's also a piece of the irrational anxiety -- the fear that the dental stuff won't be done for some stupid reason or another.

Intellectually, I know that both things are fine and are going to resolve by end of business tomorrow. But that doesn't stop a little emotional weirdness from creeping in. I'll be glad once they're both all said and done already.

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JESPAH 6/25/2008 5:39PM

    Thanks, Todd!

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THEOTHERHALF 6/24/2008 7:32PM

    You'll be breathing a sigh of relief when all the "i's" are dotted and the "t's" are crossed - good luck with the dentist tomorrow - cheers - Todd

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Full Stock of Thoughts and Dreams that Scatter

Monday, June 23, 2008

I got the job I really wanted.

I was so scared that I would have to compromise on the money and it turns out I didn't have to. The offer was $2k less than the other place but the superior benefits are worth about $10k so I'm way ahead of the game, not just in the tangible areas but in the intangibles as well, intangibles like going with a permanent job this time and what will hopefully be added security.

I report on July 7th, which is exactly when I wanted to start as we'll be visiting my folks during the previous week.

The only thing pending is the results of the background check, which the recruiter feels will come out by Wednesday morning at the latest. I have nothing to worry about but I do like all of the t's crossed and the i's dotted (hey, I am a former attorney; it's what we do).

I'm really psyched and yes I will fit a glass of wine into tonight's calories. Thank you all for your support for these months as I've run around like a nut and sometimes doubted myself.

I am overwhelmed with joy.

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EMMASMART 7/5/2008 12:46PM

    Nice. I'm coming up behind you. maybe I start Tuesday....


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JESPAH 6/24/2008 11:26AM

    Thank you all -- still biting my nails a little bit about the background check. Zero to worry about, just want it to be done already.

I cut the other guy loose this morning (he called at 8:50 AM!). So, for better or worse, I'm committed.

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ELFITZPA 6/24/2008 10:40AM

    Congratulations!! That's excellent news.

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WOODLANDMYST 6/24/2008 10:09AM

  emoticon Congratulations! Wishing you all the best ~ Cyndy

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RATSAMONGUS 6/24/2008 9:49AM

    Congratulations! YAY!! This is awesome news indeed!
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JESPAH 6/23/2008 9:30PM

    Thank you both so very much! :)

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THEOTHERHALF 6/23/2008 8:27PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Fantastic news - Todd

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LILLIAN364 6/23/2008 5:42PM

    Congratulation on getting the job you wanted.

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I Think It Would've Showed

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Since I missed doing this on the 19th, I'll plunk it here -- it's the month in review. I was, er, a little busy on the 19th. Today is a quietly hypnotic kind of a day, hence the song.

Anyway -- it's been 5 months since I started alli, or about 21 or so weeks or something like 150 days. Lots of changes.

Weight and Measurements
Right now I'm 282.8; I started off at 346. Tomorrow is the official weigh-in day and it might not hold as I'm getting TOM, but it'll be close to that. Certainly I've lost more than 60 lbs., which started off as a year-end goal and then it was the September goal and now it's not even July and I'm there and past it.

Bicep 15.5" down 3.5"
Band 42.75" down 4.75"
Bust 50" down 4.75"
Waist 45" down 4"
Belly 56.25" down 3.25"
Hips 49.5" down 1.5"
Rear 50.25" down 13.75" !!!
Thigh 28" down 4.25"

Down an average of 4.97". The difference in the rear is undoubtedly due to how I do measurements so I suspect the difference is closer to 4 - 5" but it's still impressive.

28s are long gone. 26s are mostly gone (although I sleep in them sometimes) but I do need a few in order to have some clothes to wear. I am definitely a 24 with some aspirations towards 22s but once they hit my hips I've gotta have a 24. It'll come soon but the hips are still very frustrating.

I still wear the same size underwear, but I suspect that that is a function of (a) wearing stuff too small for me for a long time and (b) stretching the heck out of what I own. I just bought some new bras, but in the same old size. I just needed 'em. But I am looking forward to being able to finally toss them. It's not ready to happen, not just yet.

Oh -- these days I mainly wear clothes I used to wear in 2000.

I went from doing almost nothing to walking about 5 or 6 nights per week. Once I start working, that'll happen automatically with the commute and then we'll see how much more we do. The #1 choice job would give me 30 minutes of walking every single day unless I took an alternate route. Then if 20 - 30 minutes is added on at night my fitness level should really soar.

I went from maybe 2 or 3 reps with 4-lb. weights to 3 sets of 15 reps with 10-lb. weights. I'll probably move onto 15-lb. weights before the Summer ends.

I see it mainly in my biceps and waist. My calves are pretty good, too, and my thighs are starting to show some. My triceps need the most work. My belly is, well, it is what it is. Every inch off is, I figure, an inch worth of pretty much pure fat.

Eating habits
I'm really in a groove, and working again is going to add to that. I know my breakfasts, lunches and dinners except for Friday night dinners and weekend lunches (usually leftovers we didn't get to during the week). Things are mixed up enough so as to not get boring or kick me into a plateau. I am using my slow cooker more than ever.

Restaurant meals are good and I am doing well with Mexican, diner, Thai, Vietnamese, Pizzeria Uno and Indian foods. I am going to try to add Chinese back; I know my husband misses it very much but I need to watch the portions.

I continue to feel good and did not let looking for work or my relative's illness get me too far down. It will help to start working again and hit that routine. My relative is doing rather well so that's a relief.

My main challenge is chainsawing some fat off my hips. They just don't move that fast and are keeping me from going down a size. Right now this isn't a huge problem as I have a good selection of clothes in size 24 and very few in 22 or below, and right now not a lot of bucks to overhaul the wardrobe. I will probably continue wearing 24s into size 22 or even 20, not that that'll look so good but buying too much transitional stuff is no good as I won't be wearing it for too long. Once I get to size 18, though, I will absolutely have to buy clothes, even though my final size destination is probably a size 10 or less.

Oh and I need a dress for my nephew's Bar Mitzvah in September. It'll probably be a 24 or a 22. After that, though, I am totally stumped.

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JESPAH 6/23/2008 3:29PM

    Many thanks!

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KITRAE1 6/23/2008 2:22PM

    emoticon You are doing so well!!!

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LILLIAN364 6/23/2008 12:58PM

    Congratulations on your progress. Keep the momentum going!

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JESPAH 6/23/2008 11:49AM

    Thank you very much! :)

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ELFITZPA 6/23/2008 11:29AM

    Congratulations on your progress - you're doing amazing!!


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JESPAH 6/23/2008 6:59AM

    Thank you all very much. As I was kinda fearing, I'm up a lil this week. Hey, it happens.

Hit a new personal best in one of my measurements, though, so it'll all wash out soon enough. :)

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THEOTHERHALF 6/22/2008 7:32PM

    emoticon that is some awesome progress and you should be mighty proud of yourself - Todd

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TXAGGIEARCHER 6/22/2008 2:26PM

    Congrats! It sounds like you're doing all of the right things and making the right lifestyle choices. Keep up the good work! Maybe throw in a reward for every 10 lbs and buy 1 new pair of smaller pants or one new shirt. That way it's not too hard on the budget but you still get to look as great as you feel.

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STEPH523 6/22/2008 2:12PM

    Congrats on your progress! All of your hard work is paying off. Keep it up!

Good Luck!


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WOODLANDMYST 6/22/2008 2:00PM

  Look at you go! Woo hoo! Congratulations on your losses thus far.

I've found that thrift stores are my absolute best friend as I go down sizes. I found jeans for $1 a pair this past week. If you'll be shrinking out of your clothes fairly quickly, why bother spending big $$ on them? It may take some searching but you can find some decent things.

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