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Birds Are Singing

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Well, they may not be singing much. It is HOT.

But it's nice, everything isn't wilted yet which tends to happen after a few days of 90s. I'll see if I've changed my mind tomorrow but right now everything looks and feels lovely. My husband is putting air conditioners in the windows and my shorts are loose.

And, I'm coming up on 60 off. Will I make it this week? I get the feeling that the answer will be no, but we'll see. Even so, as long as I make it before the end of the month (22 days from now, so plenty of time to lose 4 or so lbs.), I will have made my ticker -- and in half a year. As in, I'd be on a pace to lose ....

Well, I don't want to say it. Might jinx it, you know. Put the voodoo on it, the kibosh, the evil eye and all of that. So I say (in Yiddish), kinehura (which means, keep away the evil eye) and we'll see where the chips fall.

In the meantime, enjoy this blatantly lip-synched performance by Daniel Boone, of a song they play at every Sunday Red Sox game.

And stay hydrated in the heat!

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JESPAH 6/9/2008 9:12AM

    Thank you but it looks like despite my wacky precautions I ended up with a pretty nominal loss this week. Hmmpf.

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    Congratulations !!! emoticon

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And You Can't Explain Why You Claimed Your Cat

Friday, June 06, 2008

I had yet another job interview today. This one was in the 'burbs, with a place that's not really a traditional corporation. The two people who saw me were very nice and it may or may not turn into something. But I'm not certain that I want it to.

It's not Buyer's Remorse, although I admit I get that at times when I'm in the process of looking for work. It's the old Groucho Marx line:

I would never want to join a club that would have me as a member.

And sometimes I think that I don't want to join a company that would be so eager to want me.

That is, of course, a vestige of the old low self-esteem life talking, and it really doesn't mean much. But there is one very good reason to not want this job or, rather, two. And they both have to do with the commute. Part of it is the cost of gas and the other part is losing some fitness time by having to drive rather than take public transportation. There is a train and it's not bad, but I'd need an express bus to get to where I can get the train, so it adds a level of complication that could easily turn into an hour each way if the timing is too close to 9 AM and 5 PM, or if the weather turns at all ugly. If the stars and planets are all aligned perfectly, it could conceivably go down for about 45 minutes each way but that's still a commute of some substance.

But I don't want to kick it to the curb, at least not yet, as the people were very pleasant, plus the money is still an unknown. The train, etc. would be a $151/month ticket ($1661/year because you can get a deal for 12 tickets for the price of 11). Driving would be about 1 fill up every week and fill ups currently cost about $80. Assuming 49 weeks worked in the year (2 weeks of vacation plus occasional miscellaneous holidays), that's an ugly $3920/year. And that's all after-tax money.

But commuting just to Boston or Cambridge would only be an $89/month ticket, or $979/year. Or, $682 less than the train ticket. Plus, of course, the mental and physical costs of longer commutes, time that you never, ever get back.

I just can't help thinking that there's a Boston or Cambridge job out there for me. I realize that the competition gets stiffer and stiffer every time another local company announces a layoff or gas goes up another nickel a gallon.

But I'm not quite ready to throw in the towel for that much compromising. At least, not yet. My break is out there. Somewhere.

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JESPAH 6/8/2008 10:14PM

    I hear that. I keep updating my resume on Monster and Dice and that does stimulate more phone calls. Also, the job fair did help and I'm going to another one on Tuesday -- but it'll be beastly hot so I'm thinking I might not be, eh, quite so fresh for that one.

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EMMASMART 6/8/2008 7:39PM

    I'm a little jealous as I am not even getting inappropriate offers except the one as a data entry clerk. I hope we are both complaining about work by July 4th.


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JESPAH 6/8/2008 11:13AM

    Thank you.

Hey, move next door. I'm sure you'd be a much better neighbor than the inebriated college students who are currently next door... :)

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    We live 30 miles from anywhere so our only option is to drive. (or move) I envy you for even having a choice. I love the train and relaxing and not thinking about the traffic.
Good luck on your job search.

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JESPAH 6/7/2008 11:10AM

    Thank you both. And, yep, 128 has certainly not improved any. This place was in Westwood if you know that town. I've commuted to it before, but that was back when gas was something like $2.75/gallon. Right now the lowest I've been seeing is $3.99.

And the interviewing practice is definitely good. I think it's helping me -- I am definitely more at ease with interviewing than I think I've ever been. Something's out there. But what?

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WOODLANDMYST 6/7/2008 10:13AM

  You have many factors to weigh. My sister takes the train into Boston for her job; in the long run there's no hassling with traffic, she has time to read. I'm sure 128 hasn't improved any since I was last there emoticon If it feels right, you'll know it. Good luck in your job hunt!

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REIGNWATER 6/6/2008 6:32PM

  Good luck either way. Just practicing interviewing is a worthwhile thing so that when the right one comes along you are ready.

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Everybody Pulled Their Socks Up

Thursday, June 05, 2008

A few days ago, I went through my closet, the satellite closet and the upstairs storage area (I have clothes from several different sizes, plus the house has small closets because it's over 100 years old. Even a fairly normal-sized wardrobe doesn't fit into one closet) and one of the things I came up with was three knee-length skirts. They fit! One is kind of a royal blue, another is a sea green and the third is kind of a linen-colored tan. But that begged the following question, as did the increasing temperatures (seems silly to say that as it's freezing yet again today) --

how the heck was I going to wear them?

After all, despite the fit and the look (I have a black blazer I can wear with them, plus I just got a smaller-sized black blazer so I can wear them for a while), I need to have a good shoe look.

I have black boots that come up to my knees. They're all well and good for a day like today, and they're okay for my green tweed suit, as that skirt is mid-calf length. But shorter skirts call for shorter shoes.

Now, I have the shoes, and they look fine, not scuffed, and are comfortable enough for walking around the city if I have to trot from interview to interview. But here's the problem -- I needed hose.

And then I remembered -- ha! -- I have a huge reserve of pantyhose. Way back, um, three (four?) jobs ago, I had to wear a suit almost every day, so I bought pantyhose pretty much by the case. But they were a Queen Plus. Would they fit?

Not to worry, gentle reader. My sample pair fit just fine. And I was thinking, hey wait a second -- my legs aren't bad.

Must be all of those calf raises I've been doing. Or the squats. Oof. But something's working. Sure they've still got some chunk to them. After all, I'm still over 280 lbs. and some of that weight is going to be living in my thighs for a while. But for a skirt that hits just below the knee, you can't see that.

Hey, whoa. It's really happening. Once the thighs firm up, I bet the ZZ Top song, "Legs" will be my blog choice. But that'll be a while from now.

Stay tuned.

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JESPAH 6/6/2008 4:55PM

    It so rocks! :)

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CJSTRIP 6/6/2008 3:50PM

    Yahoo for great legs!!!

isn't it fun wearing something you couldn't wear for so long???

Enjoy -


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JESPAH 6/6/2008 12:35PM

    Hey, take the gorgeousness where you can get it, I figure. :)

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SISNAMIL 6/6/2008 10:28AM

    That is the only upside (that I have found) to being large. Once I started to lose weight I discovered that my legs had amazing tone. Mostly from carrying the extra weight all these years.

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JESPAH 6/6/2008 6:40AM

    Thank you!! :)

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EMMASMART 6/5/2008 11:18PM

    Awesome inspirational post!


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JESPAH 6/5/2008 3:09PM

    Thanks! And I'm sure yours will be, too! Congratulations on your weight loss!

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GAYLLYNNE 6/5/2008 2:27PM

    Isn't it great when we find old clothes that we stashed away and they fit!! Good for you! Better be careful because before you know it those legs are going to get whistled at!!! WTG!

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Fate is Still Unlearn'd

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

I went to visit a recruiter today. And while they were very enthusiastic, you just never know about these things. It all sounds good until it comes time to actually get anything accomplished. Hence I am cautiously optimistic but also being realistic about it.

One thing I did notice was that I could get the skirt for the suit on without unzipping it. Hence once I lose another 1/2 - 1" or so around the hips, it will be impossible to wear that suit as it would just fall right off me. It does not have belt loops. A pity, as it's a nice suit. But someone else will get some good use out of it, I am sure. I don't want to alter any of the fat clothes. I just want them gone. Forever.

The song is because, unfortunately, amidst the rain and the running from one recruiter to another (I met three guys today), I lost my Charlie Card! That's the MBTA fare card and I had some pretty serious $$ on it. But what can you do? I retraced my steps and have checked every possible place. Annoying of course because of the money situation, but I can't rewind time this way. I've ordered another one.

The song is what the term "Charlie Card" is based on. Enjoy The Kingston Trio.

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JESPAH 6/5/2008 11:36AM

    Oh, excellent, Emma! I'm sending a box to my mother, too.

Yes, Tuesday, I'm on LinkedIn. If you are, send me a SparkMail with your email and I'll be happy to add you -- or ask for mine. I don't bite, despite the appearance of the incredibly fierce (yet oh so sleepy) predator in my avatar.

Ze fat clothes, zey are getting to be history (fake German accent inspired by watching the 1960-something film, The Producers, yesterday)! W00p!

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TINATC26 6/5/2008 9:11AM

    Hey JESPAH...good going on the weight loss!! Isn't it a great feeling to put something on and have it fall off?? Anyway, good luck on the job search and keep up the good work.. I hope you hear some good news soon!


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EMMASMART 6/5/2008 8:54AM

    Speaking of fat clothes. I am not opening the box until Saturday! But it's here!


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TUESDAYS 6/4/2008 11:06PM

    Good luck on your journey with the recruiter. Are you on LINKED IN and all those other networking sites? I don't know enough about your situation to be truly helpful, but I wish you well. Oh yeah --- and get rid of those fat clothes, Honey. You're NOT going to need them again! =)

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JESPAH 6/4/2008 3:12PM

    Glad you liked it, Sunshine. I think the first time I ever heard it was summer camp.

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    hooboy! thanks for that blast from the past!
as a teen on Cape Cod, I got to hear that song on the Dusty Rhodes Oldies Show, on a local radio station EVERY saturday night.
It's one of my favorite songs!
congrats on your weight loss!

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Step on the Stones

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Yesterday I spent a couple of hours at a job fair at Fenway Park. It went okay. I made some contacts and tomorrow I'll meet with a recruiter I met from there. Plus I also learned of another upcoming job fair (this one will just be with my original #1 choice) and got some nifty swag, including a USB drive key chain.

And, I walked! Man, did I walk. I didn't sit down at all. But I'm only counting it as an hour of walking because, well, there were times when I was standing around, plus I was also not going too fast. This walking also includes getting to/from not only the bus and the trolley but also having to go all the way around Fenway as Kenmore Square (where the bus lets you off) is the diagonally opposite side to the entrance I had to go into. This was the entrance, if you've ever seen pics of Fenway, where there's a bronze statue of Ted Williams.

This morning my legs feel just fine but my left bicep is bothering me a little. It's no great secret as to why -- my briefcase got pretty heavy at the end there. Everyone seems to want to give out mints. I tossed the mints but kept the cases, some of which were pretty nice.

And -- the song -- it's actually not about the job fair at all. Rather, it's because last Friday I saw my buddy the fishmonger again. And, get this -- I had not been there for about three weeks, between Cape Cod and everything else that was happening -- so he told me it was very nice to see me again. This made me blush and I returned the greeting. The dude even remembered what I'd bought before and was about to start wrapping it up when I told him I wanted mahi-mahi instead (it was tasty but messy because it had been prefrozen).

Now, it's all very small and such encounters are normally something we might smile about if we think of them at all -- and the chances of even thinking about them are pretty tiny -- but I swear the guy is flirting with me. And it's kinda fun, particularly as I suspect the fish dude is a lot younger than I am. Of course this is no threat to my husband whatsoever, but it's kinda neat and silly and pleasant to be smiled at and remembered, even for buying trout, by a guy I don't really know, particularly a younger one.

Is the fish guy in love with me? Nah, it's doubtful, but it's fun to pretend. Just for the halibut. ;)

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JESPAH 6/4/2008 1:41PM

    Amusingly enough, the fish dude actually looks a bit like my husband did about 10 years ago, except the fish guy is more blond and my husband has auburn hair.

Dang, I tend to go for (or be appreciated by, I suppose) bearded guys with, erm, cute derrieres. emoticon

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EMMASMART 6/4/2008 11:36AM

    At my last position there was a consultant that made me think thoughts. Young guys who work out are so hot. That's why I married one.


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SISNAMIL 6/4/2008 10:10AM

    Ooh, I'm jealous. The only guys that ever flirt with me are ancient and hairless. Hm soundslike a soap - "The Ancient and the Hairless"

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JESPAH 6/3/2008 6:38PM

    Awesome, you understand what I'm talking about. I haven't had a work "boyfriend" in years although at my last job they did refer to me as the "Data Empress". Which is more silly than sensual, I suppose.

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    We all need a "boyfriend" now and then, it's such an ego boost! It's great that you have a fishmonger boyfriend, he helps remind you of what a beautiful woman you are! I used to have a grocery store boyfriend that I would take my friends to check out years ago. And of course, we can't forget the work boyfriends...someone a bit younger who makes you smile who isn't your husband is A-OK!! Sometimes it's good to remind the husband that you're wanted...!


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