Wednesday, May 28, 2008
The following is a repeat of a post I wrote in a topic called "How Can I Accept a Lifestyle Change?" I don't have a link to the direct post but the page is here:
One day, five years from now, or ten, or more, or less, there will be a doctor visit. And a person won't just be told that they have to lose weight. That person will be told that they have to have surgery because they've got a clogged artery. Or that they are now diabetic and have to take insulin. Or that they have high blood pressure and must watch salt or else.
Or that person will be going to the mailbox, or up the stairs, or from the car to work or home, and it'll be too much for them. They'll be out of breath. Their heart will be pounding. They'll be feeling maybe even a little tightness in their chest. And they'll realize that they can't do that any more.
Or that person will get in the car and the seatbelt will be too small. Or they'll go to a sporting event and the seat will be too narrow. Or, yes, the toilet seat will crack under their weight.
And that person, I am sure, would give anything, any amount of money, anything, to be able to rewind their life back and stop the weight gain and the disordered eating and take a different path. Because that person also wants to be fit and healthy, but it may have gone too far for them. Or maybe it's not too far, but it's harder because there's more to do.
Now imagine yourself as that person. You are that person, and that life path has been rewound. One path leads to health for as long as possible (for we cannot prevent all disease), or at least the best health possible (because disability sometimes cannot be prevented). The other leads to that cracked toilet seat.
And let me tell you, I've been in the car when the seatbelt almost didn't fit. And I've gone to a sporting event and the seat was too narrow. And yeah, I've felt fatigue just going up one flight of stairs. And while losing weight is hard, being that way and having those things happening is so much harder. When I think of not doing it -- and I do, I'm only human -- I remember my fear when I realized that if I gained maybe a half inch more in the belly that I would not be able to drive my car. I remember huffing up the stairs. And I remember too-tight seats. And I don't want to experience any of those things ever again and all that comes with them. That is why, and how, I can do this.
I hope this helps.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I was looking for a clip of the Wayne's World theme, done by either Aerosmith or Mike Myers and Dana Carvey, and it's just nowhere to be found, at least I was unable to find it. So instead, it's the start of the Wayne's World film. In German! Wacky.
Anyway, perhaps it's a lame idea for a blog post but I did want to point out that I've changed my page a bit. The goals -- and there are a lot of them, which happens when you've got 200 lbs. to lose in total -- were getting overwhelming and the text threatened to take over the page. Plus, I enjoy playing with Excel (hence the free association to the word excellent, which free associated me straight to Wayne's World) so instead I made a graph. While there is a perfectly good graph (and ticker) on SP, it doesn't show the actual minigoals as I've set 'em up and knocked 'em down.
Hence I made my own graph, which I'll update as I continue to set up and knock down goals. The goals after 277 are speculative. alli requires that you not set a goal of more than 5% of your current body weight. This makes for achievable goals and also makes them smaller as you go along -- and, not coincidentally -- as weight loss becomes harder and harder to achieve. I see it as invariably ending up as somewhere close to 20 total goals (the 0 goal is my starting weight).
One thing that immediately leaped out at me is that my first goal took 53 days but the second and third took 43 and 42 days, respectively. I imagine that 6 weeks is about right for losing 5% of current body weight although of course it's a very small trend and might not hold. If it does, though, then my next goal (the official fourth one, not the 60 lbs. off intermediate) should happen right around July 4th, with the fifth occurring around August 15th or so. While I'm moving through the process, I'll continue to add little intermediate goals, like 75 off or under 200, plus I'll tweak the numbers because if I blow away any goals by significant pounds then the following goal will end up being affected as well.
We'll see how it goes. In the meantime, enjoy a truly Bohemian Wayne and Garth.
Monday, May 26, 2008
I've lost 55 lbs. Hence the song. This is 27 1/2% of the way to my ultimate goal. It's over 15% of my original weight off. It is ... my third goal.
Actually, it's a pound past my third goal. Fourth goal is another 14 lbs. off (alli makes you set 5% goals, which is a good thing as it keeps you from getting carried away). Another 14 off will be 277 and I will be close to having lost 20% of my original weight.
But for now I'm content with this number. I'm also 5 lbs. away from extending my ticker. When I started this journey, I thought I'd be at this level in August.
It's not even June yet.
Watch out, world.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
16 years ago today.
Still feel the same way.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
For my cousin, K___, who went to Vietnam.
For my father, and my father-in-law, who guarded the home front during the Korean conflict.
For my uncle, A___, who guarded the Panama Canal during WWII.
For all of the others I did not and do not know, thank you for your service and sacrifice.
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