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Monday, May 05, 2008

They say that weighing in the 300s is like living in the "Tri-Cities Area". And weighing in the 100s is "Onederland". And the 200s? Why, that's "Two-Ter Ville".

I have left the Tri-Cities Area for good. It's official. I am now a resident -- and I will be a temporary resident, although that temporary period can take a good year or so -- of Twoterville.

I have done it with alli.
I have done it with dieting.
I have done it with portion control.
I have done it with aerobic exercise.
I have done it with weight lifting.
I have done it with drinking water.
I have done it with changing my relationship with food, from one of obsession to one of appreciation.

The road isn't ending, not yet. There are plenty of stops along the way, and there may be some detours. But the road back to the Tri-Cities Area is shut. Dynamited away. Can't get back there. Radiation, you know. Bad things. Nothing I want is there.

My little car is driving in Twoterville now, on the way to Onederland.

And that's definitely something to beep about.

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JESPAH 5/6/2008 10:06PM

    A higher compliment I could not have asked for. :)

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    You rock, Jes!! Congratulations!!!

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MUPP1970 5/6/2008 2:23PM

    Hi there!

I was doing my visiting friends of friends of friends pages and came across yours... first.. LOVE the cartoon on your main page...

Second... I love your DONENESS! I am on the Done Being the Fat girl team.. it is an amazingly fabulous group of ladies who are DONE and have DONE it.. just the way you said.

Come check us out! You are already DONE... might as well come drink the koolaid with us!

:) Beep Beep!

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JESPAH 5/6/2008 2:12PM

    Thank you, Your Quirkiness. :)

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JCROWG 5/6/2008 1:59PM

    Hey,way to go!!! We're so very proud of ya'!!! There's no stopping you now!!! Jeannette emoticon

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JESPAH 5/6/2008 12:22PM

    Ah, then my work here is done. How go things on Tatooine?

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LADYJEDI 5/6/2008 10:44AM

    Congratulations!! That's so exciting!

By the way, I got a chuckle out of the city names. Thanks for making me laugh today!

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JESPAH 5/5/2008 3:31PM

    Thank you -- you're all a big part of this.

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TCEDEROTH 5/5/2008 1:36PM

    Congrats Jes. You've worked hard and stayed strong, kept the tractor rolling and got the seed all planted.

Here's to a bountiful harvest.

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EMMASMART 5/5/2008 1:26PM

    Hey I know what you can do with your big clothes. SEND THEM to ME!


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JESPAH 5/5/2008 11:51AM

    Is that Arnold Ziffle and friend swimming in your avatar? :)

Thing is, the Tri-Cities Area at least sounded a little less, well, rube-esque. Although more Rubenesque, I suppose. :)

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SISNAMIL 5/5/2008 10:59AM

    Welcome to Two-terville! Be sure to say hello to Eb and Mr Drucker. But avoid Mr Hainey at all cost.

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Off for the Weekend

Friday, May 02, 2008

My folks are here. I'll be back on Monday. In the meantime, enjoy the Cranberries and think of your own family. :)


And One Day the Axe Just Fell

Thursday, May 01, 2008

In a fit of nasty karma, I lost the post I just made. Never mind.

The main thing is that yes, dear reader, I have been laid off.

Now, I figure I'll be fine. Even though I'm personally concerned about my situation (like anyone else would be or should be), the Mass. economy is chugging along just fine. See:

But it still stinks.

In any event, I'll be looking more, and trying to leverage the 10 or so opportunities I've currently got open. These include the dream job which I'm still waiting to hear about. I'll call them on Monday if I haven't heard from them by then.

Time to get more active again -- the 10 prospects (seven of which I've been submitted to) are nearly all due to recruiters finding me and not the other way around. Next week, after my folks leave, I will crank it up to 11.

Meanwhile, enjoy Bob Dylan.

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JESPAH 5/2/2008 6:38PM

    Aw, thanks hon. :)

Got my folks here this weekend -- so won't be on much -- then it's back to lookin'.

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EMMASMART 5/2/2008 2:22PM

    Laid off means you get unemployment and in Massechusettes that no small thing. So that gives you space and time to find the dream job... Please have some fun on your work break. (If you go to Disney world one weekend sparkmail me and maybe we can meet!) You are the most prepared for this of anyone I have ever known.


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JESPAH 5/2/2008 10:54AM

    Thank you very much. Everyone -- except for the gal who laid me off yesterday -- apparently thought I'd be retained a few more weeks. So perhaps the company is hurting financially (I don't know this for sure). This certainly seems to be a symptom of that, as is the fact that they had very little to offer me, and nearly all of it was out of state. Which is crazy because Massachusetts is boom boom booming.

Shrug. Onto better things. Thank you all for your support. It means a lot to me.

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CANNOTFATHOM 5/2/2008 10:42AM

    So sorry! Keeping good thoughts for you! Hang in there!


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SISNAMIL 5/2/2008 10:00AM

    That's just stinky! You will bounce back though. Go get'em tigress!

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CJSTRIP 5/2/2008 8:24AM

    Well...that does stink!

I'm glad to read that, though concerned, you seem to have a great outlook!

Crossing my fingers for you!!!


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What's that noise?

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

We're going out tonight.

No, there won't be any pie-throwing, at least, I'm not planning on any. We're just going out to dinner with friends, people I used to work with. It'll be Indian, which is great and easy. I'll have Tandoori Chicken and a salad, and it'll all come with rice. I won't have any of the bread or any appetizers if they're ordered.

And, it'll be fun. I haven't seen these folks in a while and none of them have seen me since I started dropping poundage.

And, I need it.

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EMMASMART 5/1/2008 2:50PM

    That's fun! If they join spark and use your name you get 10 points! Then you can turn around and Sparkgoodie them!


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JESPAH 5/1/2008 11:06AM

    They wanted to know my secret. :)

It was great fun, these are the kind of folks who are, well, your real, true friends. So already it was going to be a great evening. And of course then the talk of weight loss ... ahhh ... most excellent. :)

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SISNAMIL 5/1/2008 10:29AM

    So how fabulous was it to see people who didn't know how much you had lost?!?!?!?!

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My Situation Goes 'Round and 'Round

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

This video is proof of the healing power of cheese. Cheesiness, that is.

It's not my favorite Steve Miller song and it's certainly not my favorite video. But it does -- like lots of other silly things in the world -- take my mind off more serious matters.

And those matters are serious, to be sure, but I can't help things by being upset and defeated by them. Of course I have emotions; I don't deny that. But I need to get on with the business of my life and give this situation -- I wouldn't quite call it a crisis, at least not now -- its due but also give my life its due. It's not selfishness, at least I like to think it's not. Rather, it's the old saw about "put on your oxygen mask before putting one on your child or assisting others". Sometimes people have to be reminded that their own survival and well-being are worthwhile, too. That they are worth saving even if others need it even more.

The video, well, the song, actually, came to mind because I got back from meeting with a recruiter (a guy who I suspect was not alive when I was in High School) and decided to try on an outfit that I have as my fallback position for the Bar Mitzvah.

The Bar Mitzvah is in late September (hence the ticker) and it is South of here so I am expecting to be able to wear something fairly light but probably with some sort of wrap. I'm covered for the actual service as I have scads of suits and five that currently fit me. Plus there are others that are smaller. Something's bound to fit me by then.

The issue is the reception. Now, I've been told that it'll be during the day and fairly informal. And, this is a Bar Mitzvah and not a wedding so already it's less formal. The idea is for knee-length or cocktail-length attire, or even a mini (not for me, not even then; I'll still be, I suspect, over 250 lbs.) or nice slacks. A sundress could work rather nicely.

What I have is actually far too formal. But, like I said, it's my fallback position. It's the -- here's something I could wear and not be embarrassed by (albeit possibly wayyyy too overdressed) if all else fails and I absolutely, positively cannot find anything else -- ensemble.

It's a cream-colored satin top with princess seams and a square neckline. It has short sleeves and a little slitting at either side. It's fancy because it's satin (hence the song; I recalled the song mentions satin) but really plain. It zips up the back and has always caught my hair like nobody's business. Hence if I wear it, I've got to put my hair up. Okay, I can do that. It's a size 26W.

The bottom is an ankle-length column skirt in black satin. It's a size 24W. Of course I can mix and match these with other appropriate pieces if necessary, but I really don't have another top that would go with it. As for another skirt, I do have a slinky black skirt which is very elastic and fits just fine and is mid-calf length. This skirt, though, is LONG. As in, I'd have to wear heels, and I don't own anything higher than maybe 2". I dislike shoe shopping (sounds like blasphemy) because my feet are a size 12. Even when I was super-skinny I was a size 11 after about age 15. My feet are huge, and large families can easily live in my shoes. Hence I'd rather avoid shoe-shopping if I could. The skirt, if I wear it, would have to be shortened.

Anyway, to make a long story only slightly longer, the top fits fine (it's a little big, actually) and the bottom is okay but a bit tight about the hips. It can be worn without fear of me tearing it with simple walking and sitting and even dancing, but bending over is totally out of the question.

The last time it fit like that (which is admittedly imperfectly), I was going to my Russian cousin's wedding. He and his lovely bride have been married about 5 1/2 years.

Yes, with 45.6 lbs. off, I'm back to what I was in August of 2002.

I doubt I'll wear the outfit. It's nice and all but, like I said, it's really too nice for this occasion.

And -- and I never thought I'd be saying this -- I bet it'll be too big for me.

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JESPAH 4/30/2008 1:56PM

    Ha that made me laugh. My sister-in-law already says: wear whatever.

Uh, that's really helpful.


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SISNAMIL 4/30/2008 11:21AM

    I would say, call the hostess, find out just how casual is will be and the week end before go buy something fabulous. I know, you sound like me, I have all this stuff in the closet! You are bound to be working long before then and you deserve a reward for the tremendous progress you are making. Besides if your luck is like mine, by September the only thing that will fit is the purple organza bridesmaid gown shoved in the back of the closet!

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