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My Situation Goes 'Round and 'Round

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

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This video is proof of the healing power of cheese. Cheesiness, that is.

It's not my favorite Steve Miller song and it's certainly not my favorite video. But it does -- like lots of other silly things in the world -- take my mind off more serious matters.

And those matters are serious, to be sure, but I can't help things by being upset and defeated by them. Of course I have emotions; I don't deny that. But I need to get on with the business of my life and give this situation -- I wouldn't quite call it a crisis, at least not now -- its due but also give my life its due. It's not selfishness, at least I like to think it's not. Rather, it's the old saw about "put on your oxygen mask before putting one on your child or assisting others". Sometimes people have to be reminded that their own survival and well-being are worthwhile, too. That they are worth saving even if others need it even more.

The video, well, the song, actually, came to mind because I got back from meeting with a recruiter (a guy who I suspect was not alive when I was in High School) and decided to try on an outfit that I have as my fallback position for the Bar Mitzvah.

The Bar Mitzvah is in late September (hence the ticker) and it is South of here so I am expecting to be able to wear something fairly light but probably with some sort of wrap. I'm covered for the actual service as I have scads of suits and five that currently fit me. Plus there are others that are smaller. Something's bound to fit me by then.

The issue is the reception. Now, I've been told that it'll be during the day and fairly informal. And, this is a Bar Mitzvah and not a wedding so already it's less formal. The idea is for knee-length or cocktail-length attire, or even a mini (not for me, not even then; I'll still be, I suspect, over 250 lbs.) or nice slacks. A sundress could work rather nicely.

What I have is actually far too formal. But, like I said, it's my fallback position. It's the -- here's something I could wear and not be embarrassed by (albeit possibly wayyyy too overdressed) if all else fails and I absolutely, positively cannot find anything else -- ensemble.

It's a cream-colored satin top with princess seams and a square neckline. It has short sleeves and a little slitting at either side. It's fancy because it's satin (hence the song; I recalled the song mentions satin) but really plain. It zips up the back and has always caught my hair like nobody's business. Hence if I wear it, I've got to put my hair up. Okay, I can do that. It's a size 26W.

The bottom is an ankle-length column skirt in black satin. It's a size 24W. Of course I can mix and match these with other appropriate pieces if necessary, but I really don't have another top that would go with it. As for another skirt, I do have a slinky black skirt which is very elastic and fits just fine and is mid-calf length. This skirt, though, is LONG. As in, I'd have to wear heels, and I don't own anything higher than maybe 2". I dislike shoe shopping (sounds like blasphemy) because my feet are a size 12. Even when I was super-skinny I was a size 11 after about age 15. My feet are huge, and large families can easily live in my shoes. Hence I'd rather avoid shoe-shopping if I could. The skirt, if I wear it, would have to be shortened.

Anyway, to make a long story only slightly longer, the top fits fine (it's a little big, actually) and the bottom is okay but a bit tight about the hips. It can be worn without fear of me tearing it with simple walking and sitting and even dancing, but bending over is totally out of the question.

The last time it fit like that (which is admittedly imperfectly), I was going to my Russian cousin's wedding. He and his lovely bride have been married about 5 1/2 years.

Yes, with 45.6 lbs. off, I'm back to what I was in August of 2002.

I doubt I'll wear the outfit. It's nice and all but, like I said, it's really too nice for this occasion.

And -- and I never thought I'd be saying this -- I bet it'll be too big for me.

  
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JESPAH 4/30/2008 1:56PM

    Ha that made me laugh. My sister-in-law already says: wear whatever.

Uh, that's really helpful.

:O

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SISNAMIL 4/30/2008 11:21AM

    I would say, call the hostess, find out just how casual is will be and the week end before go buy something fabulous. I know, you sound like me, I have all this stuff in the closet! You are bound to be working long before then and you deserve a reward for the tremendous progress you are making. Besides if your luck is like mine, by September the only thing that will fit is the purple organza bridesmaid gown shoved in the back of the closet!

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Somehow I Just Don't Believe it

Monday, April 28, 2008

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My relative has heard the medical news, and the medical news was not good. Treatable but not good news.

I'm going out for a long, hard, fast walk. I would run if my knees and shins would let me. Right now pavement pounding makes sense while other things do not.

This song has always saddened but comforted me. I don't know why. I heard it this morning, and it was a cue to me that this was coming.

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Thank you for listening.

  
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JESPAH 5/1/2008 8:02PM

    Hey, Cocoa Pebbles happen.

I hope your mother's health improves soon. Hang on, I'll send you a Spark Mail.

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CHANARO 5/1/2008 2:19PM

    I wish your relative a complete recovery, of course, but the thing that really struck me about your post was the positive choice YOU made when faced with this stress -- instead of downing a gallon of ice cream (or a fifth of whiskey!) you chose to exercise and HELP your body! I am really impressed and motivated...I really want to reach that point. Right now I'm in Oklahoma at my sick mother's bedside, and exercise is the last thing on my mind -- I just want to go home and get into my bed and hide. But, to my credit, I've been eating healthy foods while I've been hee :-) Well, except for the cocoa pebbles cereal. But still! Overall I've been making healthy food choices. But exercise? Not a chance. So you motivate me! I'm so impressed by the progress you've made on your ticker, and the obvious progress you've made inside yourself, too!

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JESPAH 4/29/2008 3:24PM

    Thank you so much for understanding. Hugs.

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SISNAMIL 4/29/2008 10:50AM

    Oh, hon, I am sorry. I know there isn't anything I can say that will fix it. It does bring back a lot of the emotions I went through when my parents we ill. emoticon

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JESPAH 4/28/2008 12:58PM

    Thank you. Just gotta pick myself up and deal with it. I appreciate your kindness.

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MISS_VIV 4/28/2008 10:48AM

    I hope that long, hard walk helped take the edge off. Running "inside" and walking on the outside sometimes it is enough.
Have a sunny day.

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In my profession I'll work hard

Sunday, April 27, 2008

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More cleaning today, so I'll be off again. We did a LOT yesterday. 2 hours for me and 4 (!) for my husband. And, I used to only be able to do maybe 30 minutes. :)

  
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TCEDEROTH 5/5/2008 2:34PM

    Well I can certainly understand why you used to not do more than 30 minutes.

I'd be willing to let someone work twice as long and thus, twice as hard as me when it comes to housecleaning anytime.

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JESPAH 4/28/2008 10:20AM

    I think it's the whole concept of gadgets. The vacuum cleaner is a little yellow thing and I think the electricity and attachments and whatnot all appeal to his engineering sensibilities. Dusting, I have to do that. Plus I did the kitchen which was an ugly monster of a job. But he got to play with the little yellow toy (that sounds obscene) and there you have it. :)

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EMMASMART 4/28/2008 10:17AM

    What exactly did you do to get your DH and I do mean DH to clean for 4 hours. I'm lucky to get 15 minutes out of him.

Emma

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JESPAH 4/28/2008 7:37AM

    We're both breathing better, too. Still a little more to do downstairs, plus things like launder the couch cover. But otherwise ....

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AHHHME 4/28/2008 3:26AM

    Good job!! I love the time when a room is clean and I can just look at it and enjoy. :)

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JESPAH 4/27/2008 6:26PM

    Thank you! Only 45 mins today but that means we'll do some walking. And man, are my allergies thanking me for getting rid of the dust!

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DRAKE83 4/27/2008 5:03PM

    Sounds like you are making great progress...it's amazaing when we can do more!

Have a great Sunday

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We Take the Pressure and We Throw Away

Saturday, April 26, 2008

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Today is cleaning day, so I won't be on much. It's coinciding with what seems to be the start of wicked cramps so the more moving I do, the happier I'll be. Plus the house is a godawful mess and we may or may not be getting company in a few weeks.

In the meantime, enjoy Frankie Valli and I'll go grab the vacuum.

  
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EMMASMART 4/28/2008 10:24AM

    Heavy cleaning is listed under Cardio so you can get points for that.

Emma

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JESPAH 4/26/2008 11:49AM

    Plus then I get to go chase my husband around. ;)

Eek, I'm procrastinating! I better get my rapidly disappearing butt in gear. Thanks for stopping by.

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JARDIZZLE* 4/26/2008 11:26AM

    They say cleaning is great for cardio... cleaning and exercising at the same time emoticon

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We've got the Dreamers' Disease

Friday, April 25, 2008

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I'm feeling good but tired. Last night turned out to be wholly snackless, which was terrific. And it was fun -- I had forgotten how much I enjoy the company of a buncha educated women. The gal I sat next to had gone to Princeton.

I'm tired from it, though, so I may actually nap although I don't nap too much these days. But I do need to make sure my little aches from walking around in heels don't turn into anything else. I've already done weight training and resistance bands today so there's no harm in catching a few Zzzzs.

Oh, and the 200s? They're close. May or may not make it there this week. I will do my best to not be disappointed if I don't (I've noticed that, even if I have a fantastic weekend in terms of eating I can still have an increase between Friday and Monday mornings, plus I'm coming up on PMS week). Not to worry; if I don't get there this week, then next week for sure.

Can't hardly believe it.

  
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JESPAH 4/26/2008 10:48AM

    I need to get Mr. jes to start snapping pics as I think the digicam is kerflooey (to use the technical term). I was verra preppy, and the thing of it is I was such a blue jeans/flannel shirts-type gal in college (grunge before it had been invented) that if I'd seen myself 25 years ago I'd've laughed and wondered what the heck I was wearing.

Legs are fine now, I had walked (strode, actually, as I was concerned that I was running late) something like a mile. This is what comes from blondish moments of getting off at the wrong stop. I did enjoy a little nappage yesterday although I'm finding I can't just sleep and sleep like I used to be able to. I don't miss it; I'm sure it's another side effect of throwing off what I'm sure was years of low grade depression.

PS Weight currently holding steady. Still in the 300s, but just barely. Monday will tell the tale....

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SISNAMIL 4/26/2008 10:41AM

    Don't know what you did, but sounds like time for leg stretches and some emoticon

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AHHHME 4/26/2008 1:03AM

    I'm glad you had a good time!! Did you take any pictures? I want to see your preppy outfit. :)

You're attitude is great as always. Just be patient and keep coming back. It will go away eventually. :)

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JESPAH 4/25/2008 3:26PM

    Every time I think I'm close to some goal or milestone, it seems to take an extra week, so I figure this time I'll just go with it and see what happens.

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EMMASMART 4/25/2008 1:37PM

    Great attitude about the 200s you are so nice and balanced about it.

Emma

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