Somehow I Just Don't Believe it

Monday, April 28, 2008

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My relative has heard the medical news, and the medical news was not good. Treatable but not good news.

I'm going out for a long, hard, fast walk. I would run if my knees and shins would let me. Right now pavement pounding makes sense while other things do not.

This song has always saddened but comforted me. I don't know why. I heard it this morning, and it was a cue to me that this was coming.

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Thank you for listening.

  

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JESPAH 5/1/2008 8:02PM

Hey, Cocoa Pebbles happen. I hope your mother's health improves soon. Hang on, I'll send you a Spark Mail. Report Inappropriate Comment

CHANARO 5/1/2008 2:19PM

I wish your relative a complete recovery, of course, but the thing that really struck me about your post was the positive choice YOU made when faced with this stress -- instead of downing a gallon of ice cream (or a fifth of whiskey!) you chose to exercise and HELP your body! I am really impressed and motivated...I really want to reach that point. Right now I'm in Oklahoma at my sick mother's bedside, and exercise is the last thing on my mind -- I just want to go home and get into my bed and hide. But, to my credit, I've been eating healthy foods while I've been hee :-) Well, except for the cocoa pebbles cereal. But still! Overall I've been making healthy food choices. But exercise? Not a chance. So you motivate me! I'm so impressed by the progress you've made on your ticker, and the obvious progress you've made inside yourself, too! Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/29/2008 3:24PM

Thank you so much for understanding. Hugs. Report Inappropriate Comment

SISNAMIL 4/29/2008 10:50AM

Oh, hon, I am sorry. I know there isn't anything I can say that will fix it. It does bring back a lot of the emotions I went through when my parents we ill. Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/28/2008 12:58PM

Thank you. Just gotta pick myself up and deal with it. I appreciate your kindness. Report Inappropriate Comment

MISS_VIV 4/28/2008 10:48AM

I hope that long, hard walk helped take the edge off. Running "inside" and walking on the outside sometimes it is enough. Have a sunny day. Report Inappropriate Comment

In my profession I'll work hard

Sunday, April 27, 2008

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More cleaning today, so I'll be off again. We did a LOT yesterday. 2 hours for me and 4 (!) for my husband. And, I used to only be able to do maybe 30 minutes. :)

  

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TCEDEROTH 5/5/2008 2:34PM

Well I can certainly understand why you used to not do more than 30 minutes. I'd be willing to let someone work twice as long and thus, twice as hard as me when it comes to housecleaning anytime. Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/28/2008 10:20AM

I think it's the whole concept of gadgets. The vacuum cleaner is a little yellow thing and I think the electricity and attachments and whatnot all appeal to his engineering sensibilities. Dusting, I have to do that. Plus I did the kitchen which was an ugly monster of a job. But he got to play with the little yellow toy (that sounds obscene) and there you have it. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

EMMASMART 4/28/2008 10:17AM

What exactly did you do to get your DH and I do mean DH to clean for 4 hours. I'm lucky to get 15 minutes out of him. Emma Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/28/2008 7:37AM

We're both breathing better, too. Still a little more to do downstairs, plus things like launder the couch cover. But otherwise .... Report Inappropriate Comment

AHHHME 4/28/2008 3:26AM

Good job!! I love the time when a room is clean and I can just look at it and enjoy. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/27/2008 6:26PM

Thank you! Only 45 mins today but that means we'll do some walking. And man, are my allergies thanking me for getting rid of the dust! Report Inappropriate Comment

DRAKE83 4/27/2008 5:03PM

Sounds like you are making great progress...it's amazaing when we can do more! Have a great Sunday Report Inappropriate Comment

We Take the Pressure and We Throw Away

Saturday, April 26, 2008

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Today is cleaning day, so I won't be on much. It's coinciding with what seems to be the start of wicked cramps so the more moving I do, the happier I'll be. Plus the house is a godawful mess and we may or may not be getting company in a few weeks.

In the meantime, enjoy Frankie Valli and I'll go grab the vacuum.

  

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EMMASMART 4/28/2008 10:24AM

Heavy cleaning is listed under Cardio so you can get points for that. Emma Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/26/2008 11:49AM

Plus then I get to go chase my husband around. ;) Eek, I'm procrastinating! I better get my rapidly disappearing butt in gear. Thanks for stopping by. Report Inappropriate Comment

JARDIZZLE* 4/26/2008 11:26AM

They say cleaning is great for cardio... cleaning and exercising at the same time Report Inappropriate Comment

We've got the Dreamers' Disease

Friday, April 25, 2008

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I'm feeling good but tired. Last night turned out to be wholly snackless, which was terrific. And it was fun -- I had forgotten how much I enjoy the company of a buncha educated women. The gal I sat next to had gone to Princeton.

I'm tired from it, though, so I may actually nap although I don't nap too much these days. But I do need to make sure my little aches from walking around in heels don't turn into anything else. I've already done weight training and resistance bands today so there's no harm in catching a few Zzzzs.

Oh, and the 200s? They're close. May or may not make it there this week. I will do my best to not be disappointed if I don't (I've noticed that, even if I have a fantastic weekend in terms of eating I can still have an increase between Friday and Monday mornings, plus I'm coming up on PMS week). Not to worry; if I don't get there this week, then next week for sure.

Can't hardly believe it.

  

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JESPAH 4/26/2008 10:48AM

I need to get Mr. jes to start snapping pics as I think the digicam is kerflooey (to use the technical term). I was verra preppy, and the thing of it is I was such a blue jeans/flannel shirts-type gal in college (grunge before it had been invented) that if I'd seen myself 25 years ago I'd've laughed and wondered what the heck I was wearing. Legs are fine now, I had walked (strode, actually, as I was concerned that I was running late) something like a mile. This is what comes from blondish moments of getting off at the wrong stop. I did enjoy a little nappage yesterday although I'm finding I can't just sleep and sleep like I used to be able to. I don't miss it; I'm sure it's another side effect of throwing off what I'm sure was years of low grade depression. PS Weight currently holding steady. Still in the 300s, but just barely. Monday will tell the tale.... Report Inappropriate Comment

SISNAMIL 4/26/2008 10:41AM

Don't know what you did, but sounds like time for leg stretches and some Report Inappropriate Comment

AHHHME 4/26/2008 1:03AM

I'm glad you had a good time!! Did you take any pictures? I want to see your preppy outfit. :) You're attitude is great as always. Just be patient and keep coming back. It will go away eventually. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

JESPAH 4/25/2008 3:26PM

Every time I think I'm close to some goal or milestone, it seems to take an extra week, so I figure this time I'll just go with it and see what happens. Report Inappropriate Comment

EMMASMART 4/25/2008 1:37PM

Great attitude about the 200s you are so nice and balanced about it. Emma Report Inappropriate Comment

She could annihilate a guy

Thursday, April 24, 2008

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The above is a song by DJ $crilla about my sorority. For anyone in the know, he mentions a lot of inside information. Definitely made me smile.

Yes, I am a Pi Phi.

And the reason I'm posting this is because I'm going to MIT tonight to do a Pi Phi thing. I haven't done anything sorority-wise in a few years, except read the quarterly magazine. Dunno if I'll get really active again as I have a life and a husband and hopefully a job soon, but I remember this as always being fun and man, it's been a while.

And -- I'm wearing a grey skirt (with a lavender sweater set -- total sorority chic). While that's unremarkable in itself, this is the skirt that was too tight in the hips a few weeks. No longer, baby!

I'll eat dinner right before I go, and will save a few calories for a yogurt when I get home. There are always hors d'ouevres at these things, and possibly also cookies, so I'll just drink water, think happy thoughts and mingle like I'm supposed to. Gonna wear my pin and everything.

It's good to be doing something different, something that's not about getting a job (although I may have some news in that area, more tomorrow) or my family member's health (test results won't come in until Monday, we think) or even about dieting and exercise. Just different.

In the meantime -- for any fellow Pi Phis who may stumble upon this post -- I even remember the words to a lot of the old songs, so ocean to ocean, ring ching, and room-de-ah-dah to you. And a special secret handshake, too .... ;)

  

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JESPAH 4/25/2008 9:08AM

My favorite otter! Hugging you back from MA! It was fun. There were actually no snacks or even water -- just watched a big honkin' presentation, then mingled. Had a few women asking me if I'm a collegian. Heh, I guess Clairol Nice 'N Easy #204 really does cover the grey. Report Inappropriate Comment

AHHHME 4/25/2008 1:38AM

Congrats on your lose skirt!!! Outfit sounds cute to me! Hugging you from VA :) Report Inappropriate Comment