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The Queen of the Hop

Friday, April 11, 2008

I am exhausted. It was my last day at my current gig and I couldn't even enjoy that or linger over my goodbyes (in retrospect, that's not necessarily so bad). Why?

Well, it's because I'm the Queen of the Hop, or at least of database reporting.

If looking for a job is like a girl from 60 years ago hoping for a Prom date, then today I was the aforementioned bit o' royalty.

Everybody's calling. Everybody's interested. Everybody wants to take me to the dance.

And while I love the attention, it's getting a tad wearing, plus it's mondo confusing. And, I am tired.

So very, very tired.

But the day's not over yet. We still have to go food shopping tonight. I still have to finish typing up my job search notes. I still need to send someone a resume. Do I? Someone must want a resume.

I did manage to get my workout in, plus lunch fell in there somewhere, and it's all recorded (which is why I'm on here in the first place).

Back to the six pages of notes that need to be typed.

I need a vacation. In the meantime, enjoy Bobby Darin.

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JESPAH 4/12/2008 12:20PM

    My pleasure, Gram! I love finding this stuff online. And, man! Seeing the turntable and hearing that bit of 45 record hissing, it reminds me of my misspent youth. :)

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GRUMPYGRAMS 4/12/2008 12:13AM

    No wonder you're exhausted!!! You've been a very busy girl. Get some rest!!!!!!!!! Thanks for the time travel back to when music came on vinyl. I enjoyed hearing Bobby Darin again--I'd forgotten about him! Have a restful weekend.

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Keep Your Head Together

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Today was my farewell lunch at my old place and, as promised, they had salad for me. There was also pizza and cake and they didn't interest me. There were also sandwiches and I grabbed grilled chicken and ate just the chicken. I left the bread and even left the cheese.

My coworkers, possibly because I'm leaving, finally realized I've been losing weight. So I spilled that it's been 34 lbs. When I first started doing this, I unofficially thought that people who didn't know would notice after about 40 lbs. Weighing myself this morning, I'm actually more like 36+ lbs. off (the 34 is official). So I wasn't too far off the mark.

I selected today's song because, even with a job that I didn't love, it's still an emotional experience to leave. And I feel I have friends there. Tomorrow is the real last day and the only thing keeping me from being a wreck is that I have a phone screening and may end up having two.

The Job Search Express is going full tilt.

Enjoy Carole King.


Part of the Plan

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

So the plan is for me to find a new gig, whether through my agency or on my own. And it's looking like the agency is not going to do as well for me as I'll be able to do for myself.

But in the meantime I need to keep everything straight, and that's quite a chore. My notes keep getting longer and longer, and more convoluted. Fortunately, I'm the Notetaking Queen most of the time. Right now it's just a matter of keeping it all together, plus I have to continually keep up with my schedule.

All of this busyness is great, of course. There's a lot of interest in my skill set, plus already the interviews are being scheduled. I am hoping to be set before the end of May. We'll see how realistic that is. In the meantime, I'm also exercising way more than usual because otherwise my brain is racing with everything that's happening.

Hence I'm exhausted, too.

Last night I dreamt I was watching someone ride a horse on a crazy tilt, and then when I got closer I saw that the horse was balancing on one foot, too. It feels a bit like that: a lot is happening and there's a boatload of finesse that's got to go on in order to keep me from falling on my face. In the meantime, I tilt at a crazy angle and hope for the best. I know it will all work out in time but I'm notoriously impatient with this process.

This change, though, I think is good for me. I was stagnating where I was, and was miserably bored. I will get to a good destination.

But I have to get there first. Maybe I should straighten up my horse.

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JESPAH 4/11/2008 5:51PM

    That's fascinating. I love dream interpretations.

So essentially it's about energy -- which makes sense to me -- but to my mind it's also that it's a little off-kilter. Perhaps that's due to the emotions of the job ending.

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TREPPILS 4/11/2008 10:41AM

    I found this on YahooAnswers. The poster says its from the Dream Book, which I have at home, but of course I am at work so I can't verify.

A dream of a horse or horses represents the energy @ the dreamers disposal. A white horse represents the spiritual awareness of the dreamer. Different colors mean different things. a horse harnessed to a cart means you may be concentrating too much on thoroughly utilitarian objectives.

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JESPAH 4/10/2008 5:33AM

    Thank you. :)

I love music, particularly lyrics, and something always finds a way of speaking to me.

It's a pleasure, too; in the morning I find the song through the Spark websearch feature and then listen to it before I go to work.

Sometimes I know what I'm going for but today I have no idea so it's a mystery. ...

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TCEDEROTH 4/9/2008 11:20PM

    Dreams are our way of working through what's going on in our lives and you've analysed your dream quite well.

I know something great is in store for you.

BTW, I love how you link to a song on YouTube and include lyrics in your blog title. Every time I see a new blog entry from you I try to guess which song, and by whom before I go and watch it. The song is always relevant to your blog too.

Way Cool.

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Climbing up the top sails

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Every day I leave the house, I put on a green and white Winter jacket or the navy blue jacket. This is nothing remarkable, except that I didn't fit into either of them until February or so.

Fit isn't quite the right word. I got into them. I could zip them up. They did not make me look like a sausage stuffed into an acid green and white or navy casing.

But it wasn't a good fit. They did not reach over the hips unless pulled. And I had to pull on them more or less all day long.

Today the navy (the smaller of the two) fit just fine. I barely noticed except I saw my image reflected in a bus window and then realized, "Hey, I haven't been pulling down the jacket to cover my rapidly disappearing keister!"

This might seem like not so much but for the fact that this jacket has never fit me properly. Ever.

Until today. The Red Sox had been losing. But today was the home opener, and so they've returned to their winning ways. I'm confident that that will continue. For them it was just a minor setback. Everyone gets them but those setbacks, they pass.

And then, one day, a miracle happens, and your keister is covered by your jacket automatically, just like it's supposed to be. Or suddenly your pitching and hitting come together. :)

But that's not a miracle, because miracles imply divine intervention and, even if you pray and pray, the act being done is outside of anything you do. This was no miracle. I did it. Yep. L'il ole me. Today was gonna go in the win column no matter what the Sox did. But they pulled it out, too. They did it.

Sometimes it all comes together. And before you know it, your keister starts to REALLY disappear.

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SISNAMIL 4/9/2008 11:16AM

    Woohoo! I love those 'Eureka!' moments.

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JESPAH 4/9/2008 5:30AM

    Thank you both.

Oh I'm definitely ready for the nicer weather! This Winter has taken forever! :)

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3DOGCREW 4/8/2008 7:54PM

    Glad to hear your having a great day. Noticed that my jacket I were is getting big. Hope summer comes soon. ( ha.ha.) Really just tired of this cold weather. Keep up the good work.

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LIQUEURLADY 4/8/2008 7:43PM

    Like the coach, one would call it practice -- the team has practiced its plays, and you have practiced with your changes in food and exercise. NO accident -- so go for your personal pennant!

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JESPAH 4/8/2008 7:04PM

    Ah, you're a sweetheart. Thank you. :)

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TCEDEROTH 4/8/2008 7:00PM

    I'm so glad that you're noticing the small differences. Too many people get hung up on the number on the scale.

You are correct. Your jacket fitting properly was no miracle. You worked hard to achieve it. It may not have been a specific goal you set out for, since when losing weight, we do tend to strive first and foremost for the numbers, but it was there all the same.

You are the miracle. And your focus, determination and hard work is what acheives the goals.

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These Are The Things I Can Do Without

Monday, April 07, 2008

I'm having one of those days where nothing is satisfying and I'm antsy.

This is all directly tied to lunar events, so don't mind me. I'm just going to rant about nothing that important (so what else is new?). I woke up this morning and was down .4 lbs. from last week. This is fine except it's up 2.2 since Sunday morning. Again, lunar stuff. You'd think I'd be happy with a loss, and intellectually I know I should be. But it all looms large because if I lose another .6 lbs. then I make my second goal. I was hoping to do it this week, but such was not to be. Durn lunarosity.

In the meantime, I continue to look for work. There are stretches when you look, when there's not a heckuva lot you can do other than wait for someone to get back to you. You've applied wherever you can apply, you've networked to everyone and his brother, and you've done all the usual updating things, like update the resume and improve it on Monster and Dice and anywhere else it may be hanging.

I am at that point, and it's driving me nuts. Oh, I look at all of the websites in the morning. And I make all of my phone calls. And then .... I watch paint dry.

The weather stunk today (yet again!) so it was not a good day for a midday walk but later this week it will be. And that's what I'll do. It'll make me less antsy, it'll pass the time, and it's a little bit of playing hard to get with the recruiters. Looking for work in 2008 resembles a girl looking for a prom date in 1948. You make yourself available to the local talent, you're courteous and cheerful to all, and then you sit at home by the telephone. And if you make yourself a little bit unavailable, e. g. you're not immediately reachable by phone (or email or whatever), you cultivate an aura of mystery and desirability. But that can backfire if you're too unavailable. And, in the meantime, you dream about your prom gown -- but you don't tempt fate so much that you actually buy one until the transaction is complete and the date is made.

I want to go to the Prom already. This waiting is for the birds. It's one of the things I can do without.

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JESPAH 4/8/2008 6:56PM

    That's fantastic! :)

I've erased about 6 years of weight gain, something like that.

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SISNAMIL 4/8/2008 11:17AM

    Well, I figure I am lighter than I have been since I turned 15. Which is pretty big (any puns intended:-)) since that was 28 years ago. I figure even if it takes me another year to reach my goal I am still way ahead of the 'fat clock'.

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JESPAH 4/8/2008 5:35AM

    Oh definitely; I'm just a little sick of people not calling me back.

Today will be better.

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TCEDEROTH 4/7/2008 8:43PM

    I know it's easy for someone else to say "Patience, it will come".

When it's time for the right thing to come along, it will. We are all exactly where we are supposed to be right now. We only find out why when the reason chooses to present itself.

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