Friday, September 28, 2012
Granted, it has only been around 5 weeks since I began changing my habits, but I seemed to be on a pretty consistent and positive path towards my goal. And then... I started pulling out the scale. The one thing I vowed to myself I wouldn't do. Every time in the past I have tried a "diet", I did really well... Until I stepped on the scale. I become obsessed. Weighing myself several times a day and worrying about the "what if I get on the scale next time and god forbid the number went up instead of down?" Then if the number goes up, I feel defeated and thus it has always ultimately led to me going back to my old ways. *sigh* And today, that happened.
I last weighed in about 4 days ago and today I am 4 pounds heavier. HOW!? I started to get sick (am still sick) and due to that, haven't been able to get any effective exercise done like I had been, but I haven't been eating poorly. In fact, I am adamant about my 8 glasses of water per day and have been staying under my caloric intake range, no mindless snacking, the majority of my diet being fruits and veggies, really nothing at all changed except the lack of exercise. I'm curious if there are factors that I am not aware of that are posing a problem for me. I have never been a huge fan of working out, so when I started "the change", I was only changing my diet and seeing the pounds come off. Then I added in exercise and intend to continue to do so. So why, or should I say, how, did this happen?
I think the scale is my worst enemy. I am more focused on what I see when I look in the mirror and how I feel rather than that evil digital number. So maybe I need to put the scale away and try to only weigh once a month. My question is, is it possible for someone's weight to fluctuate by a few pounds in a matter of a day or two? Can/will it go back down on it's own if I didn't go on some horrific binging spree and cause this?!
More than anything, I hate feeling defeat and when I know I'm trying hard and doing the right things, I expect to see results. Call me crazy.