Monday, December 22, 2014
I love it when I make little bits of progress. I mean, the big steps are awesome too, but the little ones are just as rewarding.
My mom eats pretty healthy most of the time. We went shopping Saturday (I've been so busy I've only had time to track things from the app, not even from the computer!!!) It was SO much fun. It made me really miss my sister. (She is in the DR on a mission trip) We told her next year we are doing girls shopping! It will be fun. Anyway, mom and I left at 9am, and got home at 3. OH MY WORD. I got over 10k in steps just while shopping, plus I worked out that morning! I ended the day with about 15k in steps. I was POOPED! We obviously stopped to eat lunch. Did you know our Whole Foods has a lunch area? Salad bar, hot foods, everything. It was FANTASTIC! Plus, you know the food is from Whole Foods and is of a higher quality, so that was kind of nice too. I had some soup, some tilapia and some veggies. The soup was wonderful. I will definitely go back to Whole Foods for lunches some days. It was really nice, however, to spend the day with my mom and have her understand me eating healthy.
After lunch, we went to the mall. I hate the mall. I often avoid it, especially this time of year. But My munchkin wants an Anna, and the Disney Store is in the mall, (and the only place with Annas) so off we went. As we are walking through, I decided I wanted to weigh myself. We got to GNC, and I plugged my quarter in to check my weight. (I don't own a scale, I always weigh in there) Amazingly, it said I was down a pound, even with my lunch sitting in my tummy! (And fully dressed with really warm clothes on) I was THRILLED. I know that I'm getting closer to my goal weight, so losing a pound a week or so, that is what I'm happy with.
My other NON SCALE victory was I started cookie dough last night. (the dough had to be refrigerated all night). So I made that, and I did NOT realize how often I used to eat the dough off of my fingers. However, I did NOT do it last night! I just kept washing my hands off!!! I was very proud of myself for being conscious with what I was doing, and not being mindless with everything. Operation no sugar until Christmas Eve is still going strong!
The bulk of cookie making will be done today, and it should be a fun time with my kids. I hope the teen thinks so too.
All in all, it has been a successful holiday season. Saturday was a big non scale victory, it was our first Christmas celebration. I ate very well for the day, and with dinner, with no sweets, and I might have snacked a little extra with some cheese and crackers, but I was okay with that and was prepared with all the extra moving that day. SO, I was okay with that.
I have two more big days of dinners. My mom's on CHristmas eve, which shouldn't be too difficult, and my own home Christmas day. Both should be okay with me. I'm planning, I'm thinking and I'm practicing moderation.
I'm so glad that instead of waiting for another week that I started this journey in July. I can't believe how far I've come, and sure, I still have a bit to go, but I'm REALLY okay with that.
Here is to making this season joyous, and the New Year one full of promise.
Friday, December 19, 2014
I have so many thoughts going through my head. I'm so thrilled that vacation is here and that Christmas is SO CLOSE! It is my favorite time of year and even though I'm sad because my sister won't be here this year, (with her hubby and kids), I really can not wait to experience more of the season with my toddler. She is SO excited this year. I'm so excited as a mommy. (I'm also excited for my stuff!!) I'm also nervous. I haven't had a moderation time at Christmas before. I mean, by now I've given always given up before. So, I'm a little nervous, and hopeful. Here is what I've done to prep myself.
I know that I'm fully capable of losing this next week. HOWEVER, I took the pressure off.
I'm not going to be eating sugar until Christmas eve, as I had already promised myself. I will do moderation, and really limit myself, as I also do not want to get sick. I will be taking my rest day on CHristmas (unless I get so many workout videos that I have to try one!) and still enjoying the goodies that I will be making. I also plan on using moderation. However, I'm not going to count on a loss. If I maintain, fine. I will do my best to keep control of myself. I am certain I can do this. I can take bites of everything, but limit the size of the bite. This is my goal. Just to not gain. Because I don't need to put pressure on myself for NO REASON.
Here is something else I have done. My husband would ask constantly what I wanted from him as far as support for this goes. I never really needed much. My motivation comes from outside of me. However, I told him that if I didn't get downstairs to workout Friday, to get on me about it. I need to make sure that I've not looked at my treat days as something to feel guilty about and give up. I need to make sure that I know that having a treat (even if it is an overindulgent mistake) is all part of the journey and that I will be back on the hourse soon. Also, that we need to pitch most of the garbage if I say so.
I'm not making too much, a few kinds of cookies, some of which will be left at my mom's, some for our home, and just the rest is pretty healthy.
THis is something I found that will help me stick with it, I'm hoping!
And this is what I ALWAYS need to keep in mind. You see, I read something a while ago that even when you just START exercising and eating right, that you might not see the exterior change, but the interior is really changing. Your body is growing healthier.
All I want to do during this next week of fun, relaxtion and holiday time with family, is enjoy it. I'm not going to stress about it. When I do that I end up not enjoying myself, and stressed. That isn't how I want to spend the holiday. I want to enjoy it. If I go over, okay. I'll deal with it. If I don't, I will celebrate. This time only comes once a year. I'm okay with it being a treat couple of days, especially with what I've been doing.
I just know that I don't want to ever quit. I'm in this. I might make mistakes, and even maybe the decisions I've made regarding this are one, but that will teach me the right way to get through everythnig from now on.
I CAN do this. And if I fall off the horse a little, that just means I have to jump back on.
I got this.
Thursday, December 18, 2014
I saw this image the other day. It really hit home.
I keep thinking I'm on chapter 20 because I've made so many strides... I'm more realistically on Chapter 10. Right smack in the middle. This knocked me on my behind this morning.
SO, I'm tired. I'm not as tired as an insomniac or such, but the last few nights I haven't gotten quality sleep. Last night, the hubs and I got home from the Christmas party around 9:45. I was hoping to hit the hay right away, but life had other plans for us, so I wasn't in bed until about 11. I was frustrated but just knew that it was one night and I would get to sleep in most of next week and really relax, that helped.
However, I got downstairs and it was Shock HIIT Plyo on Les Mills. I can NOT tell you how much I did NOT want to do this workout. It is HARD. My legs felt like rubber. I don't know if my attitude flipped because of the workout, or the lack of sleep, or the pictures...
I checked out our pictures... I don't know why, but I felt like I looked SO fat. Seriously, I've LOST 50 POUNDS! I'm not unhappy about my size! But when I looked at the pictures I saw the same size me as my fat jeans wearing me, and I don't know why. If I put those jeans on, they'd fall off! I prayed a bit, that I would be able to see myself clearly. Because I don't know why the pictures look like that to me. In the mirror, I'm happy. Yes, I have more weight to lose, I know that, but something about the photos just set me off.
So back to this morning, when I was in some weird funk thinking I wasn't making progress and not wanting to do this particular workout, it actually went through my head. A thought that I had assumed was LONG GONE from my body. "I'm still fat, why don't I just quit?" That knocked me on my behind. I stopped and I prayed. I looked long and hard at myself. You see, you aren't supposed to compare your chapter 1 with someone else's 20, but you also need to not expect to get from 1-20 without hitting all the chapters in between!!! This is something that I have done in the past, and I really thought that I had been able to deal with it enough, but apparently, I needed to do it again. I looked in the mirror. I told myself that I have lost 50 pounds. That is HUGE. I told myself that I'm at a size that 6 months ago I would have REJOICED for being this size. I have a healthy outlook on exercise, fitness and eating that I haven't had, maybe ever. I also gave myself a hard truth. I'm not going to get to chapter 20 if I don't get through Chapter 10. If I quit at 10, I'll have to start all over and it will take even longer to get to the end! I told myself something I have before. I'm doing EVERYTHING right. I'm eating right. I'm exercising. I'm losing weight relatively slowly. (Insanity gave me a jump, but aside from that, I've been on a good slip of the weight you are supposed to lose weekly). So what on earth would make me want to quit?
The answer? NOTHING. I'm not quitting. I put that hard as nails DVD in and I kicked its behind. Or kicked my own behind doing it, and kicked that "quit" thought out of my head.
I talked to my husband this morning and told him that I had no idea WHY I was feeling this way, but that I knew I had been successful. He was so great. He's always supportive but he doesn't understand my silly I've been fat before mind. He said everything right though, the same things I told myself. You've done amazing, you are doing great, you will keep doing this and have great success, and it all helped.
You see, I realized something. Yes, I want to be healthy to be a good example to my kids. And to keep a youthful feel as I age to be able to play with kids and grandkids and not be a grandma that just sits instead of playing. But there is more than that now. Yes, I want that, but I also just want to be fit. I want to be able to join friends in a fitness class if that is what we are doing, or I want to be able to go for a run if I feel like it or to sign up for a 5k and do it and all kinds of stuff like that. I want my life to be a life. To be so healthy that when I get older, I don't need medication and to take it easy. I never want to use my age as an excuse. I don't want to be too tired to do something because I'm fat or lazy or out of shape. There is so much more to living! I want to be able to take active vacations and have a blast doing them! I want to be active, and if I didn't have kids, I want this anyway. There is more to weight loss than being thinner. I still want to lose weight. I still have 20 extra pounds I'm carrying around (at least) and that is something to get rid of.
But I'm doing everything right. I'm in it. I'm not quitting. I'm not stopping.
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Well, today is my first Christmas celebration. Hubby's work party is tonight. It isn't a crazy good time but it is a lot of fun and a lot of friends and a lot of talking, and let's not forget, a lot of food.
THe nice part about the dinner is that it is at a restaurant, we order what we like, and we don't pay for any of it! HAHAH!
How am I prepared for today's party time? This morning I did Les Mills Combat 60. 60 minutes of punching, kicking and a WHOLE lotta fun! This is a great workout, because when you start to get tired, you see, huh, only 40 minutes to go! Then you get busy again and then there are 20 minutes (or less) to go! I think that is why I love this one so much, sure, it is tough at the end to punch as hard as you can, and you shoulders are exhausted and your upper back can FEEL it and you are grunting, but it is SO amazing to finish and be done! (of course there is a pushup and sit up routine at the end, but after that!) So, that was phase one of party prep. Get the workout in! Phase two is eat healthy (normally) ALL day so that I can make sure to have enough calories in check for dinner (In progress). Phase three (already completed) is look at the menu and decide what I will want. I have done this. I have ALREADY logged it as well. I'm ready!!!
It is a lot more fun to enjoy and even be hungry there if you know what is going on before you go. Not everyone wants to make the healthy choices, and that is okay too. It is okay to have a treat meal every so often as well. THis is a treat meal for me. It just so happens that it will come in my calorie range. I try to do that regularly.
My next celebration is Saturday evening at my Husband's aunt's home. Now... I don't know exactly how to prep for this one. I think THIS will have to be a little like Thanksgiving. I'm going to bring a snack or eat one on the way JUST IN CASE dinner isn't ready. As for the treats, well, I'm lucky that the majority of the treats are cheese and crackers and things, because the cookies (usually prepped by my MIL) aren't that tasty. She just isn't much of a cook. It is totally okay, because then it helps me NOT eat that. So, I figure if I'm already armed with a snack, I can stay away from cheeseballs and crackers and concentrate on the healthier meal choices and fill up, and be done!!! That is my goal for that day. OF COURSE I will be getting a workout in that morning as well.
The next celebration won't be until December 24th at my moms. This one will be mostly easy. Mom is a great cook, but a pretty healthy eater as well, and she will just have everything out so we can graze. Sometimes that can hinder me, but lately, if I'm full, I don't feel the need to snack. So, I think that will be an easier one. The final one is at our home on CHristmas day. There will be a lot of treats out, and people come from breakfast on. I plan on having MANY healthy options out there, but will also allow the few treats I have wanted into my plan. IF I go over this day, I will deal with it. There likely WILL NOT be a workout that day, but I will be busy, and plan on just enjoying the day. However, the 26th will bring workouts and crazy enjoyable healthy choices that I start back up!
It is good to have a plan, and good to have a treat day. I'm glad that I have my plan, and my days all set.
Oh Merry Christmas my Spark friends. I'm so excited for the start of the season!
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
I have no idea what to blog about today...
I did my strength training and plyo workout with Les Mills today, which was AMAZING.
Tomorrow is the hubby's work Christmas party. I'm looking forward to it. I've already checked the menu, and I know what I am ordering. I'm excited for tasty food NOT on a budget!!! Lobster? I think so!
I get to pick up my family pictures tomorrow. I'm so excited! I will try to post some here!! I can't remember when the last time I was ACTUALLY excited to get some pictures. I had fun getting them taken, I hope they look as good as I want them to!
It is amazing to me what losing weight changes is your life. I'm doing great and can't wait to keep going. This is something I never exactly thought about before now. The way OTHER things would change. I knew I'd like myself and my body more, but I never thought about so many amazing changes. The happiness of being able to do things and share things like family pictures. Three years ago, I only got pictures of the girls. This year we did the whole family. We will be doing more in the summer I think, because of all of the changes in the little one, plus when my sister comes home from the DR and we have a HUGE family here, I want more pictures! My mom has been saying that for YEARS she wants that, so I will defintiely be planning on getting these.
See? I'm not scared or just disappointed in doing all of this. I am THRILLED that my LIFE is changing, not just my body. I'm so grateful for my fitness and health. I definitely never want to lose THIS!
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