Monday, January 23, 2012
I really do not know how to begin. I have a million emotions inside and I am not quite sure how to tell you just how thankful I am for you all. I sat down and read through hundreds of comments, emails and such from both Spark and my blog....and FB too! I was overwhelmed with emotion. Crying at times and laughing at others! Some of the comments sounded as if they were taken from a page of my life story.
I want to personally thank EACH and EVERY one of you for sending your best wishes, congratulations, and your support. Your emails have not gone unnoticed. I am working through pages of them trying to get a list of all the questions to make a FAQ page for my blog. I am really going to try and do all I can to answer you soon. Please know from my heart how much it meant to me. Your comments were so very sweet, so kind and yet you do not even know me!!
I was very nervous about posting the photos and I can see now from the responses that it was more than worth it! Some people were inspired to eat well as a result, some were motivated to hit the gym or go for a run and others were motivated to take photos of their own! To me, this was priceless!!! Seeing others take a step in the right direction. And it is that FIRST step that is often times the hardest. I know, I have been there and I understand where you are more than you know! Every emotion, every fear......I have felt to my core. BUT -- Victory is just around the corner, we just cannot see sometimes the greatness that is before us but HOLD ON....it's coming!!!!
Thank you my Spark Family for your encouragement and support!!! May each of you be truly blessed!
Stay the course.........it will be worth it all :)
Sunday, January 22, 2012
My goals for this week are as follows.....
1. Track all food, drinks etc...
2. Complete a total of 1,000 reps of each.....military pushups, dips, squats, T-planks and crunches
3. Continue to take VM green daily
4. Aim for 3 days running ( depending on the snow etc...) if weather is bad, alternate will be Cathe DVD for cardio
Short and Sweet today! SHINE ON!! Have a super blessed week!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
I am sitting here as nervous as can be knowing that these photos will soon become public. I have kept private for so many years now these images, just a few that remain of my days when I let myself go and became a person I do not recognize. Most of the photos I deleted. I begged my husband to get rid of them as I hated seeing them. We have years and years of our marriage that was not documented because I did not want photos of me. I regret this more than you know. But now is not the time for regret, but rather rejoicing!!
Today, January 19th is my husband's 36th birthday. I wanted to get him something special to commemorate his first birthday here in Norway but I could not think of anything. I shopped and looked around, yes, I found jackets, sweaters and such over here but he already has so many of these things and it was not want I wanted. So for today, I celebrate you. I celebrate the man you are, the man God has blessed me with. Since we met back in 1998, you have changed my life. I know you feel at times shocked at how you did not see just how far gone I was with my weight. Last night as we viewed my photos, I noticed the look on your face. It was as if you were looking at a stranger, in many ways, you were. It was your love for me that blinded you....blinded us both. I want to thank you for your devotion to me all these years. Your love, your support. Remember all the funny things I used to do trying to lose the weight? Remember the seas weed soap? I must have rubbed my thighs raw thinking that this soap would magically cure of me of my weight problem. Forget the fact that I was stuffing my face with food, the soap would work!!! I tried everything under the sun and it was not until we moved to Russia that for once in my weight loss journey everything CLICKED! You were there beside me through tears of joy seeing the scale going down, you were there helping me measure my body fat with the calipers, counting my pushups in P90X, making charts to help me track my progress, listening to me pour my heart out to you as I felt so lost, so worried I would not be able to lose the weight. You were there when I first posted my before photo on Sparkpeople and the journey began. You were there........you were there........you were there.......every step along the way. I could not have done this without you. Thank you for your support, your commitment to me. Thank you for every green drink you toasted with me, every crazy phase of my weight loss, for every plateau we had to break through.........everything.
So after years and years of hiding, I am posting these before and after photos for you! The journey is not over! I guess you could say, we have only just begun :)
Happy Birthday My Love.
Then and Now.....The journey that has made me who I am today....
This photo was taken December 2005, compared to December 2011.
This before and after is 2006 vs 2011
Trading in frumpy plus size clothes for new running clothes!!!
I remember in 2006 when we were living in Russia, after seeing my before photos in Paris...and a bad highlight job, I changed my hair color. I think I was trying to mask over the pain and be someone else. It was a struggle to see myself in the mirror each and ever day. 2006 vs 2011
These two jacket before and afters are a comparison of Jan 2006 vs 2011. In the before photo I was wearing a mens jacket. I tried to get a good winter coat for Russia but nothing fit me. We were heading to Canada for a ski trip prior to leaving for Russia and I had nothing to wear. I went to Target as I was able to get a mens coat there which fit. It was embarrassing, especially once we moved to Russia and all the slim Russian girls where wearing fashionable coats. Years later, as we were preparing to leave for the US, I gave this coat away along with several other things. I will NEVER forget seeing this old man put the coat on and smile sitting on the bench in Russia. He gave me a thumbs up and said Thank you! I broke down and it still touches my heart to this day. Now, I am wearing XS and Small coats and it still feels like a dream but the sting of the memory from buying the mens coat is still with me and truth be told, I pray it never leaves.
For me, these two photos speak volumes! Here I am in Paris, May 2006 vs December 2011. What a difference nutrition has made in my life! You ARE what you eat! Treats are fine every now and then.... but day in and day out what you eat WILL have either a positive or negative effect on your health.
I think this photo says it all....the after photo I am holding my jar of Vitamineral Green I mix up and drink!
I hated this before photo so much. It was taken in Paris in 2006. Recently we went back in May of 2011 and I was able to take photos along the same bridge! I thought it would be my after.....little did I know I would lose even more weight from that point. Now, I have to go back and do another one! Do I hear another trip to Paris? I think so! :)
The location where my journey began! Outside of Buckingham Palace May 2006 vs September 2011. I have lost about 11 or so lbs since this after photo......time for another trip! I will always hold a very, very special place in my heart for this fountain for it was seeing the photos taken on that trip which made me take that first step and start what has been the most amazing journey!
I have a few more before and afters I will be posting soon. This has taken a great deal of strength for me to do this, it is hard but if seeing these can help motivate just one person, it is worth it. If you are stuck in a life that you do not recognize and you want more, start today! You CAN do anything you set your mind to. It will be hard, very hard, but with patience, consistency and hard work, anything is possible!! It took me years to reach my goal, but it was worth it. Do not wait for another year to pass by, do not wait for more memories to be lost because you are ashamed at what you have become.
I have this posted on my spark page. I wrote this back in 2007 when I started my weight loss page......
"I will leave you with this. Every person who has made a change in their life remembers a specific point in time where something just clicked and they knew this was the moment to change. This is that moment for each of us. Now - today - is the day for change. Forget what happened yesterday and focus on the daily changes you can make that will bring you closer to your goal. If you are thinking, "Well, it is too late, I am too old or too overweight" I want each of you to remember this - post it somewhere you can see it daily -
"It is NEVER too late to become what you might have been!" - George Eliot
You have been given today as a gift - MAKE IT COUNT!!!"
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Tuesday, January 17, 2012
I have been going through my blogs on this site, Spark and some messages on FB and I am without words.......imagine that!! :) I do not really know how to sit here from a far and thank so many of you for touching my life in the beautiful way that you have. How do I tell you my heart?
I am constantly amazed at how complete strangers can make such an impact in ones life, both good and bad. Fortunately for me, this blog, my spark page and FB have turned into a wonderful way for me to connect with others and the blessings have been huge. I am humbled by your words, your support and your encouragement that you have given me for so many years now. When people say, you inspire me, I do not know how to take it because I receive inspiration from you all. I could not have lost the weight and achieved what I have without friends and family lending their support. I view you as family, my extended online family!!!
The older I get the greater perspective I have on life and what I want to be remembered for. It is because each of you took the time out of your busy lives to write me that I truly feel in some way or another I have helped a few of you see that you CAN reach your goals, you CAN lose the weight, you CAN be the person you always wanted to be, you CAN strive for more in life, and you CAN do all things through Christ!! All I want, all I crave is to be a shinning example of God's love and hopefully do the best I can with this time he has given me. I hope in some way or another that through reading my blog throughout the years you decided to run, you decided to set goals, you decided to pray for strength from God.......whatever it may be. I pray, that my life, my journey brought forth a positive change in your life. Because you see, through your friendship, a positive change has taken place in my life and for that I am forever grateful.
If something should ever happen to me, I want to know in my heart that my time on this earth was not wasted. Did I make a difference? I long to help others see the power we all have within, the power to change our life a ANY moment. YOU can be more!!! If there is one message I hope rings clear, it is that WE....all of us can overcome anything this life can give us through the strength, the peace and the guidance of our God. I could not have done this without Him and I give thanks to God placing YOU ALL in my life to help me through this amazing transformation God has blessed me with.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for every comment, every email, and every prayer you have given me. I hope to always be there for each of you and do the same.
Blessings for this year!
Monday, January 16, 2012
I am blogging more and more on my fitness site and I have the blog automatically uploaded daily to FB. If you would like to keep in touch and follow my journey, please add me on FB....the name is Jen's Journey.
I want to keep in touch with my Spark family! Love you guys!!!
Stay strong, Stay focused!!!!
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