Thursday, July 10, 2014
Well, I made it to day 2! That's something, right? I made better choices in my eating. I stopped myself when I wanted to munch before dinner was ready. I didn't scrounge around in the cabinet before bed looking for "something" to munch on. And I'm back today!
I may be seeing a little glimmer of my spark...still dim...but it's there!
I've discovered Quaker Popped Rice Snacks - Ranch flavor. All the crunch and saltiness I crave, but a healthier option. It's a start!
Today, I was sure to pack some cherries and a nectarine for snacking on later in the day. I almost left the cherries with my daughter at the sitter's house because she wanted some, but I said - "NO, I need a healthy snack for myself". I gave her a few and kept the bag. I know that sounds terrible, but my sitter has plenty of healthy snacks for the kids.
So, here I am! Day 2...1 small step at time. Small changes, leading to bigger ones.
Wednesday, July 09, 2014
I spend a lot of time thinking...and not acting. During my commute, I spend my time in my car thinking about all the great things I'm going to do, and then I don't. Every night before bed, I set out my workout clothes and plan to get up...and I don't. I look in the mirror in the morning and think about how puffy my face is and how unflattering my haircut is now...and do nothing. I see myself in a picture and get depressed...and still do nothing.
I just don't seem to know how to get past the negative and focus on the positive. I don't know how to make those thoughts change into positive actions. I don't know how to love myself for what I am now...and in doing so, take care of myself.
I'm writing this now just in hopes of getting the thoughts out and in the open. I worry about myself. I worry about diabetes. I've been diagnosed as prediabetic and still do nothing. I'm certain I'm diabetic now...but am afraid to find out. And I do nothing.
So, here I am...returning to Spark. Trying to find my Spark. The one that is inside of me...dim...but there. I want to get past this. I want to be healthy. I want to be a success story! I just don't know how to get there.
Today, I'm going to take 1 small step. I'll restart the Spark program. I have to do this...for me...for my sanity...for my health...for my kids...for my family...for my husband.
I'm here. I'm present. I'm looking for my spark.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
I heard a co-worker use this term - a work in progress - to describe an issue we are resolving at the office. Everyone is working on the solution, but it's not complete yet. That's me right now...and probably always! I'm a work in progress. This week, I'm definitely making some progress with my goals! I still have work to do, but those small steps make a difference!
One of my biggest challenges is lunch during the week. I often choose to eat out with my co-workers instead of eating what I bring. It's not only bad for my weight loss goals, but also bad for my wallet! Here is what I'm doing to help get back on track:
- Cash ONLY - I've taken out a set amount of "Lunch Money" for the week. When it's gone, my lunches out are done. So far so good!! Having cash makes me not only watch how much I spend, but also forces me to think about what I'm ordering. Would I rather have a small meal and go out 1 or 2 more times that week - or blow it all on one high calorie meal?
- Appetizing & Fresh Lunches - I stocked my office with items to make sandwiches this week. This way, I don't have to prepare my lunch every evening or in the mornings. Everything is here, and ready to go. Plus, my sandwiches are nice and fresh! Each week, I can choose another type of meal or sandwich.
Today, I'm taking a friend to lunch. She lost her 5 year Golden Lab to cancer yesterday. We've already picked the restaurant and they have a good selection of healthy items.
So, here's to me...a work in progress. Looking forward to becoming a masterpiece!
Thursday, January 09, 2014
When I started to write this blog, I started to describe ever incident that has occurred this week that kept me derailed from my program. I outlined in detail the weather forecast for ice and how I bought into it, thinking we'd be iced in. I talked about the 3 am wake-up call from my toddler the night before my regular day back to work. And I was about to go into detail about many other little hiccups to my week. Then I hit the backspace key....for a long time.
Because in truth, it doesn't matter! Yup, it's been a bad week. I've tried to get back into my routine, and life is making it hard. Truth is...life is hard! We're in a crazy time right now - a toddler, a 6 year old, a full time job that is evolving into something new. There are always going to be holidays, weather issues, and things that happen that are completely out of my control. So now what?
I need to learn from this. Just like my job, I need to look at the problem and figure out a way to keep it from happening again. Here are my initial thoughts:
- Keep some easy to grab lunches ready - frozen dinners, soups, etc. (make sure they are things I really like, or a lunch out will be too tempting)
- No matter what, set the alarm for my normal workout time, and get up!
- Keep my goal in front of me at all times...finish my vision collage so that when times are tough and I want to grab some chips, I'll remember my goal a pick up an apple instead.
So, now I'm off to eat my soup and some cheese and crackers for lunch.
I can do this!!!
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