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Body Image - Loving your Body no matter what size.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

This is something I've really struggled with. The idea of loving your body no matter your size. I have never tried to compare myself to the magazines or tv. But I do see the extra weight and the effect it has on my life. I think it stems from struggling with my weight at such a young age.

In a recent discussion with someone, I pointed out that I remembered going to a nutritionist with my Mom to help me learn how to eat and lose weight. My mom had the best intentions, but that small act planted the seed of realizing that something needed to be fixed. Between that and getting picked on by the school bullies, I learned that my body wasn't right, and that I didn't fit in because of it.

From that point on, I was always self-conscience about my size. Sadly, when I look at my picture from school, I really wasn't that overweight! I was pretty active too. I kept up with all the boys in the neighborhood - racing bikes and skateboards through the neighborhood, or picking up a game of kickball or softball.

Here I am...39 years old, and still harboring the same feelings about my body. I am trying to learn to love my body. It's a daily struggle...it's really a minute by minute struggle.

So, here are some things I really like about my body and me!

1.) I have amazingly long legs! Seriously, I'm 5'9", and all of my height is in my legs.
2.) My legs are strong! I can carry my 2 year old son, his bag, my work bag, my purse, and even my laptop up the stairs into the house. (And I'm not winded at the end either!)
3.) I have great eyes. They are big and blue.
4.) I have full lips that women pay thousands to have!
5.) My arms are strong - again - the 2 year old and the stuff. OH the stuff!
6.) I stand tall. Not just my height, but I was taught at a young age to stand up straight. I watch other women walk around the office slouched over and looking miserable. I always walk with my shoulders back and my head held high.
7.) I have a really strong immune system. It's rare that I get sick, and when I do, it tends to be short lived.
8.) I can walk and even run for short spurts. I can walk up from the pool to our house and not get winded until the last part. I can race with my kids.

Not too bad! I came up with 8 positive things about my body. My goal today is to think of one of these things when I begin to think negatively.

Wish me luck!

  
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REALTYLADYLISA 8/19/2014 11:53AM

    ALL good thoughts...I'm 55 and I'm still working on the same stuff you are...so you are ahead of me! Stay positive...about your body...about your weight...about your journey! emoticon

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MISSM66 8/19/2014 11:43AM

    Awesome blog with a positive attitude,keep up the good work, emoticon emoticon

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FORZACHANDMATT 8/19/2014 11:29AM

    Love this blog - thanks for sharing

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JENSTRESS 8/19/2014 10:47AM

    Not only do I wish you luck, but here is my experience!!

We can love our bodies, at any size, especially things like all the things you listed. That doesn't mean we have to love our size. That is where I am. I'm actually quite happy, not with my size, but with most of the things that my body can do, and I am exercising to be even happier there (i want to run a half marathon next summer)

I love the strength I have (I have a three year old, so insert the same situation here!) and the long legs I have (I'm 5'10"!) and so much more, but I'm not happy with my size, which I'm okay with, because I'm trying to lose it.

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NUTSNUTSGETEM 8/19/2014 10:35AM

    And a 9th thing - your mind is developing a positive attitude!

Keep it up!!!!!!

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Sunday Evening Time

Sunday, July 13, 2014

It's been a busy weekend and I'm feeling good!

I'm happy to report that we have a new range and range hood in our kitchen. It's been a year in the making. Our 30+ year old range was referred to as "The Beast", as it blew out flames when lit. After discovering obstacle after obstacle, we FINALLY have a new range. It preheats, it turns on quietly, and no sign of flames shooting out of it when turning it on. I already cook a lot, but now I can do it more comfortably!

We also had some nice family time. I took the kids down to the pool while the contractor worked on our kitchen. Today, we went on a hike together, and my daughter and I grabbed some frozen yogurt before doing our grocery shopping.

I was sure to stock up on lots of fruits and good snacks for the week. Ready for the week!

Baby steps, one day at a time.

  
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FIT_MOMMY_OF2 7/14/2014 12:40AM

    That is great!

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SIRENALEANNE 7/14/2014 12:01AM

    Wonderful! Glad you got the new stove and are stocked up and ready for a healthy week!

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JAMBABY0 7/13/2014 8:42PM

    good for you

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Was that a little glimmer?

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Well, I made it to day 2! That's something, right? I made better choices in my eating. I stopped myself when I wanted to munch before dinner was ready. I didn't scrounge around in the cabinet before bed looking for "something" to munch on. And I'm back today!

I may be seeing a little glimmer of my spark...still dim...but it's there!

I've discovered Quaker Popped Rice Snacks - Ranch flavor. All the crunch and saltiness I crave, but a healthier option. It's a start!

Today, I was sure to pack some cherries and a nectarine for snacking on later in the day. I almost left the cherries with my daughter at the sitter's house because she wanted some, but I said - "NO, I need a healthy snack for myself". I gave her a few and kept the bag. I know that sounds terrible, but my sitter has plenty of healthy snacks for the kids.

So, here I am! Day 2...1 small step at time. Small changes, leading to bigger ones.

  
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--CHERYL-- 7/12/2014 3:26PM

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I'm feeling the glimmer here---keep it up, gorgeous!

I've been craving salt too; might try those air chips emoticon



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KOFFEENUT 7/10/2014 12:48PM

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MIAMEOWS 7/10/2014 11:52AM

    Great Job! It's all baby steps. I take it one meal at a time, one day at a time. And every time I choose to go in the right direction, the glimmer gets brighter. I had a major setback and gained back 20 pounds in 4 months. I am just now about 3 weeks in to eating healthy again. It feels amazing!!

You're doing great, keep going!!

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My own worst enemy

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

I spend a lot of time thinking...and not acting. During my commute, I spend my time in my car thinking about all the great things I'm going to do, and then I don't. Every night before bed, I set out my workout clothes and plan to get up...and I don't. I look in the mirror in the morning and think about how puffy my face is and how unflattering my haircut is now...and do nothing. I see myself in a picture and get depressed...and still do nothing.

I just don't seem to know how to get past the negative and focus on the positive. I don't know how to make those thoughts change into positive actions. I don't know how to love myself for what I am now...and in doing so, take care of myself.

I'm writing this now just in hopes of getting the thoughts out and in the open. I worry about myself. I worry about diabetes. I've been diagnosed as prediabetic and still do nothing. I'm certain I'm diabetic now...but am afraid to find out. And I do nothing.

So, here I am...returning to Spark. Trying to find my Spark. The one that is inside of me...dim...but there. I want to get past this. I want to be healthy. I want to be a success story! I just don't know how to get there.

Today, I'm going to take 1 small step. I'll restart the Spark program. I have to do this...for me...for my sanity...for my health...for my kids...for my family...for my husband.

I'm here. I'm present. I'm looking for my spark.

  
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--CHERYL-- 7/12/2014 3:39PM

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Baby steps

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Diabetes check: one phone call to your doc. Your family needs you around for a very long time

emoticon the negative self-talk during your commute; Listen to positive affirmations. Focus. The power to change your thoughts lies within you. Sometimes it's easy to forget

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My own worst enemy

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

I spend a lot of time thinking...and not acting. During my commute, I spend my time in my car thinking about all the great things I'm going to do, and then I don't. Every night before bed, I set out my workout clothes and plan to get up...and I don't. I look in the mirror in the morning and think about how puffy my face is and how unflattering my haircut is now...and do nothing. I see myself in a picture and get depressed...and still do nothing.

I just don't seem to know how to get past the negative and focus on the positive. I don't know how to make those thoughts change into positive actions. I don't know how to love myself for what I am now...and in doing so, take care of myself.

I'm writing this now just in hopes of getting the thoughts out and in the open. I worry about myself. I worry about diabetes. I've been diagnosed as prediabetic and still do nothing. I'm certain I'm diabetic now...but am afraid to find out. And I do nothing.

So, here I am...returning to Spark. Trying to find my Spark. The one that is inside of me...dim...but there. I want to get past this. I want to be healthy. I want to be a success story! I just don't know how to get there.

Today, I'm going to take 1 small step. I'll restart the Spark program. I have to do this...for me...for my sanity...for my health...for my kids...for my family...for my husband.

I'm here. I'm present. I'm looking for my spark.

  
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KOFFEENUT 7/9/2014 9:16PM

    Good for you for TAKING a step on your healthy lifestyle journey! I remind myself often that EVERY small step I take in the right direction brings me closer to my goals. I had to focus on very small things (Yes, I CAN eat 2 servings of vegetables today! Yes, I CAN exercise 5 minutes more than I did last week!) in order to have success. In the end those small steps add up and result in pounds lost. From your photos it looks like you have some EXCELLENT reasons to want to be around a long time to enjoy your life. Tomorrow take another small step. It doesn't matter how fast you're going. What matters is that you're going in the right direction.

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