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"...tell yourself the problem is in the situation, not you."

Friday, January 31, 2014

"...tell yourself the problem is in the situation, not you"
I have felt little trapped since Christmas. I can't drive because of my MD so I rely mostly on my mom for day to day driving for errands or whatnot. For about a year I was seeing a therapist until she moved, not far away. My mom doesn't deal well with change so I had to have a little break from seeing my therapist till my mom got comfortable with the idea of driving somewhere else. Then my grandma fell and broke her hip so my mom, being the main caregiver, has to assume most of the responsibility, so seeing my therapist has been put on the back burner. Luckily, my therapist has agreed to phone calls for our sessions so at least I have something.
I have chronic depression which means it comes back if I don't keep it at bay if I don't work at it.
So that brings me to why I'm writing here, because I need an outlet beside the phone to air things out.
As I mentioned things haven't been the same since Christmas, that's when my gram broke her hip. Because my mom is the sole caregiver she assumes most of the responsibility. But she has a sister who lives with my gram. And my aunt, God bless her, is not the responsible type. but my mom thinks its okay to give her tasks my aunt can't do so easily. I think its because she is just her sister, that's why.
Night after night I get to hear what's wrong in gramma's world and how my aunt was suppose to do that but this needs to get done now. And for some reason I feel it's okay to put my two cents in to the conversation night after night. And, if you've had any type of depression you know that's a bad way to think, talk, etc. So I need to stop ASAP.
"...tell yourself the problem is in the situation, not you". I just read the article "3 ways negative thinking is sabotaging your efforts" or something like that; And point 2 or 3 is the most prominent one I picked up on because it says it's not going to feel natural. Instead of thinking, "well I already said this much, how much more will hurt?" Just do yourself a favor and stop talking. Yes it's going to feel uncomfortable to not put your two cents in but your going to feel so much better you didn't say this or that and ruin the evening.
I'm no where perfect. This chronic depression is no joke, it's always a work in progress toward that light at the end of the tunnel.

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PATSYB7 2/1/2014 7:20AM

    Sorry about your Gram. You have a lot to deal with right now. Thinking positive thoughts helps me when I get on a downward spiral. Listening to meditation programs helps, too. Hang in there and keep Sparking!
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It's Nice To Want

Saturday, January 05, 2013

Today's Visual on Sparkcoach is picturing five things I want to achieve my dreams. My five things would be:
1. To lose and maintain a healthy weight
2. Grow closer to God
3. Have a better relationship with my aunt
4. Be at peace with my financial situation
5. Stop being afraid of bugs haha!


Here it goes again...

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

In the past year or so I have notice I'm the first to be blamed for things that go wrong. Whether, it's the computer, tv, or the toilet. Yeah I said toilet. My house is old so we have old plumbing and the toilet moves from the hole in the floor thus whatever is flushed can get stuck and the toilet overflows often and of course it makes a mess. So I dunno why I'm always the one to be blamed, sometimes it is my fault sometimes it's not, but I'm sick of being automatically blamed!
Ugh...On a lighter note, I didn't exercise 20 minutes only 10 but I feel better already. and food alert! the Oikos greek yogurt with superfruits is the best greek yogurt I've had.

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JENORA234 12/10/2012 10:19AM


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NGREGOR 12/4/2012 7:52PM

  Thanks to The Media people now have to point fingers and blame someone else. When my DH blamed me because it rained on his day off, I said thank you to him that he put me right up there with God.
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YOBOELI 12/4/2012 7:11PM

    Don't let it stress you out. just pick up and move on. No body wants it to be their fault. Good Luck 10 minutes is better than 0

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Tuesday, December 04, 2012

Today I'm going to exercise 20 minutes on the recumbent bike for the first time in about 3 weeks. 20 minutes is easy for me, 30 would too much from nothing to exercising in 3 weeks.
I prepared in mind that Thanksgiving dinner would be a catatrosphe for my weight loss so I threw it all up in the air.
I didn't pig out at all and even dessert I kept in moderation so I don't know why I was worried, I guess all those helpful tips from Sparkpeople and magazines and the group " loosing weight over the holidays" sunk in and really came to my rescue.
But now that I've realized that Thanksgiving dinner wasn't a big deal for me, Christmas dinner won't be as bad either. So now I can re-focus on my exercise and start loosing weight again.


Don't judge!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Lately I've had no interest to lose weight. Even though I have a good reasons to, I just don't.
I think it's because my family namely my dad are sabotaging my efforts. My main reason to lose my extra Jenn is because of my health. My family just wants me to lose weight so they'll feel like something is getting done. I say that because my family member's health is in danger too. That's what so sad about this family.
I live by that saying in the Bible, don't judge someone till you take the log out of your eye and look at yourself. Or something like that.

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CINDYSDAY 11/14/2012 11:20AM

    I am in the situation if I lose weight or inches my sisters say that I am doing it to make them look bad. But I am turning a deaf ear and plugging on. Yes it hurts not to have their support. But I have decided I am worth the effort inspite of them!

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DRUIDPRINCESS 11/13/2012 4:47PM

    Getting healthy I think is very selfish... not in a bad way, but in a good way... you have to want to do it for yourself. And luckily, when you are a fitter healthier person you can do more for other people, so they are winners too. Isn't it great when everyone wins?

I remember being told you can't push someone through a doorway. They'll just cling on to the door frame and refuse to budge. So you have to walk through the doorway, describe how wonderful it is in there (or just show them how much fun/how much better it is in there) and they'll gladly walk through by themselves. The same happens with getting fit and awesome. You can't tell someone to do it, or they'll just cling more securely onto their old habits. But you can do it for yourself, show them how awesome it is, and they will be inspired to follow.

So you say you have goals. Are they goals that you feel ferociously determined to reach? Great! Then do it for yourself! You'll feel so much better and be able to enjoy life more. And your family and friends will see how awesome you have become and they'll want a piece of that too!

All the best for your SP journey - and beyond!


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WACFIT 11/13/2012 4:43PM

    Do it for your health. Anything else is bonus! You can do it in spite of the naysayers!

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