Friday, October 05, 2012
I think what this experience is teaching me is how to get back on track when I start veering off. My past failures on the diet / getting healthy / losing weight route all have a similar theme: I psyche myself up for a goal, stick with it for a maximum of two weeks (or in what has to be a record for fastest time of giving up: 1 hour), fall off track because real life interfered, and then didn't bother getting back on track because in my head, I knew that my efforts hadn't been "perfect," and really, what's the point if I knew I'd failed so soon.
This time around, I'm striving for imperfection. Last week was a killer for me. I didn't exercise as much as I should, and I made some less-than-stellar food choices. But the persistent emails from SparkPeople, combined with my love of earning those points, brought me back. I realized I didn't have to be perfect to still get results. I got back on track, and the few pounds that had crept back on went away. And now I feel stronger than ever because I refocused and resolved my will to do this. I guess all I had to do was just give up the ideal that successful weight loss can only be achieved if everything goes smoothly. It's the choices I make every day that matter. And it's the ability to right myself when I start veering down the wrong paths that mean more than living "perfectly."