Tuesday, May 25, 2010
So i have slimmed down 2 pants sizes but it partially due to a health issue. While I am increasing my physical activity and changing my food choices, I was faced with a severe bout of depression because my husband came home one day and said he wasn't in love with me any longer. I then in 1 and 1/2 weeks lost 15 pounds. This was a very hard time for me and still is. He at first didn't know if he wanted to work on it and then came home 2 days later and said he did want to work on it. We have since then made very slow progress. And I mean very slow progress. I have since started counsiling and am taking zoloft just to mentally make it through my days as I wake up every day not knowing what version of my husband I will be dealing with. One a weekly basis my weight changed in about a 5 pound range. He has stopped wearing his wedding ring and I refuse to stop wearing mine and the last time I asked him were he viewed our relationship he said more like boyfriend and girlfriend which at the time seemed so dumb but then I thought that I could use this to my advantage and I have. If he sees us as boyfriend and girlfriend, we need to be courting each other in that manner. Needless to say 2 days ago he drove 45 minutes just to buy me cheesecake from cheesecake factory. While this isnt something to help me which my weightloss journey, it is a very awesome gesture from him because he doesnt have a romantic thoughtful bone in his body. Or so I thought.
As I said it is very slowly getting better, but I hate what it is doing to my body. Anything that anyone can so to me to enlighten me, or some advice, or encouragement would be greatly appriciated as every day is a struggle.