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First day of Turbo Jam

Monday, August 23, 2010

So, I worked out today and felt really good afterwards. I have been eating a lot healthier and if I eat red meat then it is only like once a week. I have stayed more active, and don't eat junk. I have done better lately then I thought. I can tell that although I am not die hard into dieting just yet that my mind frame has started changing. I don't think about food and my day the same as I used to.
So I guess I am getting somewhere, just not as fast as I would like. I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

Other than that, things at home getting better and get worse. This is not what I thought it would be like back in March when my hell at home started. We can do this...... I can fix what was once broken. I love my husband and I love me so this journey is sorta for the both of us. Maybe that is why my mind has started to mold into a different way of thinking. We will see.

  


My Resent Journey

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

So i have slimmed down 2 pants sizes but it partially due to a health issue. While I am increasing my physical activity and changing my food choices, I was faced with a severe bout of depression because my husband came home one day and said he wasn't in love with me any longer. I then in 1 and 1/2 weeks lost 15 pounds. This was a very hard time for me and still is. He at first didn't know if he wanted to work on it and then came home 2 days later and said he did want to work on it. We have since then made very slow progress. And I mean very slow progress. I have since started counsiling and am taking zoloft just to mentally make it through my days as I wake up every day not knowing what version of my husband I will be dealing with. One a weekly basis my weight changed in about a 5 pound range. He has stopped wearing his wedding ring and I refuse to stop wearing mine and the last time I asked him were he viewed our relationship he said more like boyfriend and girlfriend which at the time seemed so dumb but then I thought that I could use this to my advantage and I have. If he sees us as boyfriend and girlfriend, we need to be courting each other in that manner. Needless to say 2 days ago he drove 45 minutes just to buy me cheesecake from cheesecake factory. While this isnt something to help me which my weightloss journey, it is a very awesome gesture from him because he doesnt have a romantic thoughtful bone in his body. Or so I thought.

As I said it is very slowly getting better, but I hate what it is doing to my body. Anything that anyone can so to me to enlighten me, or some advice, or encouragement would be greatly appriciated as every day is a struggle.

Thanks,
Hopeless Wife,
Jenny emoticon

  


WHAT A BAD START TO 2010

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I GAINED A LARGE DEAL ON MY WEIGHT BACK. ALTHOUGH I HAD ONLY LOST 4 POUNDS IT WAS A 4 POUNDS THAT MADE ME FEEL GOOD. I HAVE NOW GAINED 3 BACK. I LIVE SUCH AN ACTIVE LIFE STYLE U WOULD THINK THAT IT WOULDNT BE SO HARD. BUT, BECAUSE I AM SO EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED WHEN I GET HOME FROM WORK ALL I CAN DO IS SIT ON THE COUCH. I DONT REALLY EVEN THINK I WOULD HAVE AS BIG OF A PROBLEM WITH MY WEIGHT IF MY EXTRA SKIN FROM LOW RIDING BABY NUMBER TWO WASNT THERE.

I SLACKED OF RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS THINKING THAT I WOULD LET THE HOLIDAY PASS AND BE BACK TRACKING EVER DAY BUT I LIED TO MYSELF.

THEN MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION WAS TO EAT HEALTHY AND FIX MY MARRIAGE. THERE WAS MY FIRST MISTAKE. NEVER MAKE YOUR RESOLUTION SOMETHING YOU REALLY WANT TO DO BECAUSE IT WONT GET DONE.

I AM HERE TODAY FOR SUPPORT. I SO BADLY NEED SOMEONE TO MAKE ME ACCOUNTABLE. SO MANY PEOPLE TELL ME TO US MY HUSBAND FOR THAT BUT IF WE CANT MAKE EACH OTHER ACCOUNTABLE IN OUR OWN MARRIAGE HOW WILL HE HELP ME IN THIS.

I REALLY THINK THAT MY HOME PROBLEMS HAVE A LOT TO DO WITH THE STUGGLES WITH MY WEIGHT. MY HUSBAND KEEPS TELLING ME I AM BEAUTIFUL BUT IT ISNT ABOUT WHAT HE THINKS OF ME, IT IS ABOUT WHAT I THINK OF ME.

A FRIEND OF MINE SAID I SHOULD LOOK INTO MEDS FOR DEPRESSION BUT DOESN'T THAT MAKE U GAIN WEIGHT!

EEEK! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO. I WANT TO START OF SO BADLY. I DONT LIKE TO JUST WALK OUTSIDE AND I DONT HAVE THE MONEY FOR A GYM MEMBERSHIP, AND THE GYM AT WORK IS OPEN SEVEN DAYS A WEEK BUT I WORK FROM HOME HALF THE TIME OR THE KIDS ARE WITH A FAMILY MEMBER AND I CANT MAKE TIME TO STAY AND WORK OUT.

GESH! MAYBE ILL GET MY ACT TOGETHER. WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT ANYONE?

THANKS,
JENNY

P.S. I KNOW I AM TYPING IN CAPS(SCREAMING) BUT I AM AT WORK AND MY JOB REQUIRES ALL WORK BE DONE IN CAPS SO I HAVENT TAKEN IT OFF. SORRY! emoticon

  
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MARTHA116 1/21/2010 5:59PM

    I want to point out a freudian slip in your blog.

BUT, BECAUSE I AM SO EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED WHEN I GET HOME FROM WORK ALL I CAN DO IS SICK ON THE COUCH.

You wrote the word "sick" instead of "sit".

You have this sadness in your eyes. You also sound like you are trying to "fix" too many things including yourself that you can't get to anything. Pick one thing at this moment. What can you begin and end right now? Is it dinner? Is it changing a diaper?

By the way, a lot of us have the extra hanging skin from having babies. It may or may not go away but it isn't anything you can "fix" right now. Don't be so hard on yourself. Now go put on some music and dance for your 3 month old with your 3 year old as a back up dancer. emoticon

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MT_QUEEN 1/21/2010 5:46PM

    I have the same trouble trying to find time to exercise. I am lucky enough that my employer helps pay for a gym membership, but trying to find time in a busy day and the limited hours my local Curves is open is difficult. I found that if I use my lunch hour to work out then eat my lunch at my desk after it works for me on the days that I can't go in after work. As far as working out at home can you make time when your kids go down for a nap?

There are days that I really have to force myself to workout. I just keep reminding myself of all the benefits of exercising, like I sleep better at night, I have more energy after I'm done to work around my house, it's a great stress reliever. If you need a buddy, I'm more than happy to be there to encourage you! Just drop me an email or comment.

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JENNYTEXAS 1/21/2010 5:27PM

    I WOULD WORK OUT AT HOME IF I DIDNT HAVE A 3 YEAR OLD AND A 3 MONTH OLD. I REALLY WANT TO AND I AM COMMITED I JUST HAVENT FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO IT YET.

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JUNEBUGSC 1/21/2010 5:20PM

    So far as exercising, you CAN do that at home. There are some great videos for cardio and strength training in the fitness section. Check them out! Good Luck!

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My first really good work out!

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

I got to work out yesterday. I didnt combined almost 4 miles on a treadmill and stationary bike. It felt great. I haven't been doing great every day on my diet but it gets better everyday. I am learning the art of moderation.
I planned on working out again today but that is the bed news. My car over heated on the way to work. I was late, I have to spend a little money to fix it. So my morning was the pits.
I went to church and that helped alot. I feel like I am worth something when I am there because I am playing a part in what happens.
As the youth leader I have done really good keeping kids out our trouble and if I can't do anything but that I am still a success.
With Christmas getting closer, I am sad because I can't do for everyone like I usually do but all that matters there is that my babies get a Christmas and I remember the real reason for the season...
I am through ranting. Hope everyone had a good hump day.


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Fell off the wagon for a minute.

Monday, December 07, 2009

So I havent been on in a few days. Tear..... emoticon......... I havent done great on my diet as far was healthy or not healthy but I have been eating in moderation and I really have to get that down first. I need to realize that it isnt about filling your plate as much as you can.

I still have yet to work out. I went back to work in office today for 6 weeks so I can use the company gym. I plan on walking on the tread mill today.

I really want to take a picture to post of my body so everyone understands what I want to fix. You know that fat guy belly that hangs over your pants? I have that. It is all skin. How do I fix that? How do you make skin shrink?

I still think I can do this. I don't want to miss out of this experience. I felt so guilty over the weekend for not logging in. That makes me feel reassured about how serious I feel about this. I still feel like I need a partner.

  
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JAZZYSHINE 12/8/2009 11:53AM

    Don't feel guilty! You came back! You can do it! emoticon

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PATTILYNN224 12/7/2009 9:49PM

    Please don't feel guilty. That won't help anything. Welcome back. I remember very recently not logging on for a week as I was on quite a binge and didn't want to face the wrath. I came back humiliated and embarrassed and guilty. The support is wonderful at SP. I wasn't tossed to the curb like I felt I should have been.

Try to track your food as much as you can. Start slow - its a real eye opener when you look back and see what you have or have not consumed. Remember its a learning process. Try not to beat yourself up. You are already on the right track cutting back on your portions. Once you have been tracking for a while, you may find that you might want to substitute healthier foods for what you are eating now that will help lower your overall calorie intake. Tracking really helps make you think about what you are putting into your body. I have learned
that when I don't track, I eat more than I should and my weight actually goes up. :(

I don't know the answer for the loose skin. I think that you are still young and that if you lost weight quickly that it might take a bit for things to tighten up. Don't be discouraged. It will all be good!!

Let me know how you make out. If you're looking for a partner to check in with, I may or may not be your girl. check out my spark page and decide for yourself. I would be happy to help anyway that I can.

Patti



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