I really thought I wanted it, I really did. If I really want it then why do I keep falling? I have been having trouble limiting my sugar intake...I have been able to avoid in more in the last week or so then the prior 4! Today I fell off the wagon...again! What the heck is it with chocolate? it used to be just once a month I had to have something chocolate and once I had it I was good. About two months ago I noticed I had to have sugar of any kind I thought it was because I was tired and maybe it still is, today I am kinda dragging. I am going to try and get to sleep a little earlier than usual today because I know sleep is a key part of weight loss as well. I just wonder if there is something else that could be wrong, and of course I don't have to go back to the doctor until June and just had blood work done last June and he didn't see anything wrong with my results. UGH! Halloween isn't too far away and with Thanksgiving and Christmas there is going to be candy abound at work especially, I can keep it out of my house but I can't keep it out of work. I am worried I will not be able to get through this until after the holidays and then I will have probably gained 10 more pounds!
Saturday, I tried two new workouts mainly because friend was supposed to be leading the session but she ended up being sick. I went in thinking I was going to do a 30 minute HIIT IT class, HIIT IT is an interval cardio session that basically works your whole body. Then the instructor convinced me to do the next workout TRX for 30 minutes...that is resistance training using your own body weight and arm strength by holding a strap suspended from the rafters in the ceiling. My upper arms especially my triceps and the area around my shoulder blades is soooooooooooo sore but yet they just feel stiff like if I could just stretch them out they would feel so much better but it hurts to stretch them out lol My lower abs are also sore so it make it hard to cough and of course I wake up this morning with a pesky cough. I was going to go to the gym and ride the bike but friends decided we should walk the reservoir here in town so we did that...both sides that took 2+ hours! When we were done I was very thankful that we took it easy because my arms seemed to get worse by the minute. Now they feel all stiff and I am going to bed...hopefully I will be able to brush out my hair lol.
The view from the side I have never walked until today :)
17 years ago today I married one of my best friends and the second most important man in my life (second to my dad) He took me for better or for worse, sickness and health, richer or poorer...and believe me we have been through all of those Thankfully the sickness part hasn't been anything more than the seasonal colds and stuff with a few hospital visits in there. We are going through our poorer part now and hopefully don't go back there. I love my husband with all my heart and could not imagine my life without him. Not bad for someone who was never going to get married, I didn't need a man lol...I still don't really need a man but he does come in handy working on the cars and fixing things but then again he never has do dishes again so I think the feeling there is mutual lol We are in this together and I hope and pray it is for a very long time!
He is a HUGE part of my weight loss journey and I am slowly getting him to be more conscientious about what he is doing and eating and such. I don't know what I would do without him.
I am kinda nervous for tomorrow. Yes it is weigh in day but I don't even care about that too much. I do want to lose the 5lbs I gained a couple weeks ago but I doubt that is going to happen the reason why I am nervous is because our leader last week asked for volunteers to talk about their success story. She also said that anyone else could talk about theirs and she has had me talk about my success a couple times over so I figured this time I would be prepared...I actually printed the picture of me at my heaviest. I haven't shared it with many people I know first hand but now I am prepared (sorta) to show it to everyone in our meeting tomorrow. Yikes!!!!
Well I gotta go do my evening stretching watch the news and go to bed!
Ya know I didn't like that I gained 5.2 lbs a couple weeks back and last week I only lost .4 of it but this is NOT how I wanted to lose it! I hate it when my stomach is upset...especially when you think your feeling better then you don't know if its still upset or just empty! I wasn't feeling very good Saturday but I did what I had to do and yesterday I was home all day, bored out of my skull, listening to my neighbor grind something in his garage ALL DAY...when my husband and I should have gone to a car show, totally stunk!!!! Today I called out of work just to be on the safe side because this morning I did feel better but now my stomach is weird again but I really don't know if it is because it is practically empty! UGH!!!! If I didn't have to see a bathroom for a week it would be nice lol
I certainly hope I do lose this week, and if it could be the entire 5lbs that would be awesome.