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10 Good Things, 10 Bad Things... Are You Up to a Challenge?

Friday, May 13, 2011

So I went to the pool today, the first time since I had my toe thing last Friday, and I just decided that today I would swim a mile. I kept saying I wasn't going to join a Master's Swim Team until I could do a mile, and it was becoming a hurdle instead of a goal, so I jumped it. :) WOOT WOOT! Sometimes I think I've had part of my brain snatched by aliens and replaced by a very similar brain that has been altered to be attached to a thin body.

As for my "do something that makes you feel like a gladiator" task, I was starting to get pooped, so I did my last 10 lengths as full out wind sprints. Seriously, sometimes I'm shocked by the things I do.

Swimming gives you lots of time to think, and when your pool ipod goes dead, even more time. It's pretty solitary, which can mean one of two things depending on my mood: quiet introspection or outright boredom.

I was thinking about the "50 questions about you" meme that's been going around. Quite frankly, I don't care about that many things about me, let alone 50 things about other people, so I'm not interested. Besides, the questions are lame. I'd ask things like, "If you were a dog whose butt would you want to sniff?" or "If you could slap one stupid celebrity silly, who would it be?" and other odd things.

Anyway, I thought I could do 10 good things and 10 bad things about me, that might be fun. I didn't really plan to share it, more of a mental exercise to occupy my mind while going up and down the pool.

Here's where the insight into my own personality comes in: It took about 2 laps to come up with 10 bad things about me, and about 50 lengths to come up with 10 good things.

What the hell is wrong with me? In a world where everyone wants to tell you how great they are, how big their house is, how large their paycheck and how they are just so much more fantabulous than you are, why is saying 10 nice things about myself so damn hard?

When I realized that, it became something I needed to do, something I had to write down, because part of this journey is going to HAVE to be fixing my self esteem. It's time to start thinking of positive things about myself.

Bad Things:
1. When I was little I had braces on my legs, you know the ones, Run, Forrest, Run... those braces. I remember the first time I ever felt ashamed in my entire life, my dad wouldn't let me leave the house unless I got the braces under my jeans where people couldn't easily see them, which is really hard--especially when you are 6.
2. I'm sarcastic. A lot. I enjoy it, and most of my closest friends are the same way.
3. I tend to say what I think, even when this starts out "how freaking stupid can one person possibly be?"
4. I don't take criticism well.
5. I weigh 288 pounds. I cannot believe I ever let things get this bad.
6. I do not tolerate fools well, I can be very intolerant, especially at work. My work saves lives, so anyone who gets between me and the goal line is just in the way.
7. I'm far funnier in writing than in person. I am terrible with punctuation and need an editor to fix my mistakes.
8. I set impossible standards for myself.
9. I'm lazy. I'd rather sit and watch TV or read a book than just about anything.
10. I like to complain, and I like to do so colorfully, with descriptions that amuse people.

10 Good Things

1. I finally bought my first home 18 months ago. WOOT. I still wake up and think I'm on candid camera and they are you going to laugh and say "no, this isn't your house, you are on tv!"
2. IQ tests on the internet say I'm really smart, and you know if it is on the interwebz it has to be true!
3. There isn't a whole lot of guessing when it comes to my feelings about most topics, just ask if I haven't already told you--even if you didn't really care to begin with, I'll tell you.
4. My first book (non-fiction) was published last year. Thank you, Dr. Seuss, Santa Claus and all of the Desperate Housewives for professional editors and the editing software built into word processing software.
5. I weigh 288 pounds, which means I've lost 23 pounds in the last 4 weeks.
6. I have really good hair. It's Marcia, Marcia, Marcia straight, but it is also thick and soft, which I guess is a really rare combination. Every time I get my hair cut, they talk about how unusual my hair is, and not in a tip-me-really-well-sucking-up kind of way, which doesn't work on me because I assume the person is lying.
7.I'm ambitious and rarely have less than 2 jobs at a time.
8. I'm a good organic gardener and I start most of my plants from seed in my greenhouse.
9. Last night 9 people's lives were saved because of me and my coworkers.
10. I got into a pretty competitive grad school and start in the fall.

So, how long will it take you to come up with ten good things and ten bad things about you? Will it take twice as long to come up with good things? Is it almost painful to think of nice qualities that you possess? You can keep the bad things to yourself if you like, but will you meet the challenge to say 10 nice things about yourself?

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NATKITA 5/24/2011 11:17AM

    Funny thing - While reading your "10 bad things" list, I thought some of them sounded more good than maybe your self-esteem isn't as low as you think, and it's all a matter of perspective and re-framing? Just a thought. :)

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BEACHGIRL76 5/24/2011 11:11AM

    Cool you do organic gardening! I want to learn about that! I went to an organic garden meeting but not sure if I'll be living in my house much longer so just having a garden period is about all I can do. I know it takes a long time to get your soil right, but I do throw out scraps, and I don't use any chemicals. That's about it for now. lol I love your lists, I'll make mine too! :) Congrats on the house and grad school! What's your book called? Sorry I'm commenting on all your blogs in one day. lol I'm behind!

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MELLYBEANS0919 5/19/2011 11:36PM

    Good challenge, I will try to do this myself.

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MSPRING1987 5/15/2011 11:59PM

    Love the blog!

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GABBY308 5/14/2011 1:01PM

    Witty, wonderful reading - no wonder you had a book published! What was the subject?

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MIPALADY23 5/14/2011 10:34AM

    Hmmm have to do 10-10.... Soon.

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TFORD6 5/14/2011 9:42AM

    I have to agree with everybody I love reading your blogs they crack me up and make my day.

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NOVELIC 5/14/2011 8:55AM

    I love reading your posts.

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/14/2011 7:39AM

    Found your blog through the 100+ Pounds in a Year feed and I am really glad I clicked. I love your writing style and you have given me something to think about. I know the 10 bad will come much faster than the 10 good - I hope to have it posted by the end of this weekend.

What do you do at work??

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TWORINGCIRCUS 5/14/2011 7:21AM

    Hmmm....I am sure the 10 bad things will come up easier for me than the 10 good things as well...I will contemplate this and get back to you!

Good luck on the 5K this morning! emoticon

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PANBOOKS 5/14/2011 4:11AM

    I love your humor and your honesty. And... I agree with you about your hair. When I look at your non-hat picture, I say to myself, "She is really pretty." On one of my sparkteams, one member asked what will I look like when I lose weight? I replied a Hot Chick. That goes double for you. Keep up the good work.
P.S. I still laugh about dented can

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GOLOPTIOUS 5/14/2011 2:16AM

    Yay for swimming again!

I'm gonna work on a list of 10 things each and maybe post it tomorrow. You're right, it is easier to come up with the bad things. I think it's because I dwell more on the things I don't like than the things I do like.

As for sarcasm, I love it!

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SARA72121 5/14/2011 12:21AM

    This is a wonderful blog. I think I could come up with 100 bad things about myself in an instant, but 10 good things might make my brain explode!

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CANNIE50 5/13/2011 11:57PM

    Okay, I just read your comments on someone's Sparkpage, and now I have read this blog, and my opinion is confirmed - you are ferocious, a beast (and I mean that in the most complimentary fashion), a force to be reckoned with. Your fatness will not know what hit it - you are going to force it into submission. PS Thank you and your co-workers for doing such important work. It must be very gratifying.

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MRS_RANDI 5/13/2011 11:48PM

    Jen, you are a very interesting person. I am glad that you continued thinking up good things until you got to 10. It would have been just as easy to "give up" and go back to the "who's butt would you sniff questions". Thinking of our good qualities is so difficult, which is a real shame. Keep up the great work!

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    I loved this blog, love learning about people. But I don't think being sarcastic is bad, I am super sarcastic too, it's just my sense of humor. emoticon

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Good Thing I Worked Out Yesterday...

Thursday, May 12, 2011

It's looking like I will be doing a 24+ hour shift today, and that means a total fail on the exercise, because I can't exactly do the treadmill or kickboxing thing at 3am in a hospital. Good news: I packed a big lunch so I won't have to eat hospital food!

I'm sore from yesterday and the day before, but it is a good sore, you know, the "my giant bazooms and butt are shrinking because I worked out so hard" kind of sore.

I'm doing the Komen Race For the Cure on Saturday morning. Watch out Columbus, Ohio! I'm doing my second 5k (in my entire life) so get out of my way! I will finish in less than an hour, less than 50 minutes if I have my way!

I'll listen to Lady GaGa and the BeeGees the entire time, if I have to, in order to get my feet moving fast enough! Next year, I plan to be jogging some, if not running the whole thing!

It is nice knowing that I won't be last, there are too many people strolling with strollers for that to happen.

More good news: I can get back in the pool Friday, yippeeeeee!

I'm hoping my prediction of a 24 hour shift is wrong, but if it is, I'm prepared. Besides, there is an argument to be made for being awake and working for 24-26 hours counting as exercise (if only as training in endurance).

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DCAPDEVI 5/15/2011 1:49PM

    Few ideas from fellow nurses:

Hide behind a curtain (or closed,vacant room) and do a few hoe-downs :-) ( has instructions for them.) As an easier alternate, check the "Hip Flexors" exercise on here.

If you're stuck sitting, do a few knee lifts, leg extensions, grab Taber's or a PDR and do a few bicep curls, shoulder shrugs, tricep kick-backs.

If you're doing some major walking up and down the hall, work it. Don't just walk. Good posture, tighten that tummy, tuck your butt, keep your shoulders back and down to engage your lats.


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COMPUCATHY 5/13/2011 8:03AM

    I think working a 24-hour shift would be MAJOR exercise! My DD does a lot of walking in our office in her position and she counts it toward her exercise. It's nice when life hands you exercise in your routine of things and you don't have to carve it out of your remaining free time. I hope all went well! Enjoy your swim! TGIF! And wishing you the best on the 5k! Spark on! emoticon

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JMMATTHEWS1 5/13/2011 1:19AM

    Go girl go. Listening to the Bee Gees, great choice. You could listen to the following :- Staying Alive, You Should Be Dancing, How Deep Is Your Love, Night Fever and Jive Talking. Most of the tracks, I've got here at home. You see I'm a HUGE Bee Gees fan. Thanks, Jason.

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MOPPET_REDUX 5/12/2011 4:26PM

    Wow, 24 hours! Good luck on your race!

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MRS_RANDI 5/12/2011 3:41PM

    24 hours? I don't know how you do it! I can hardly make through a normal day. LOL. You'll have to let us all know how you do at the 5k. I am excited for you!

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NERYLX 5/12/2011 2:26PM

    Have fun with your 5K! I'm sure you'll love the camaraderie there!

What's the recovery period like after a 24-hour shift? Can people on those shifts even function well? I do not envy you!

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MDEVILE 5/12/2011 1:59PM

    Ack! What on earth are you doing that they make you work 24 hour shifts?

But, a 5K marathon sounds exciting! I hope you kill it! (Toss in some Gogol too, because THEY ARE SO MUCH FUN! And I've been really digging walking to Le Tigre lately, same reason :D )

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GOLOPTIOUS 5/12/2011 1:41PM

    A 24 hour shift? Ouch.

I'm feeling sore too! Don't you just love that feeling?

Sounds like your toe is getting better! I've actually been thinking about using my gym's pool thanks to your excitement about swimming. We'll see, though. The pool is right next to the weight machines and instead of a wall, there's a window. Not sure how I feel about a bunch of body-building guys being able to see me in a bathing suit...

Good luck on your 5k.


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SIMPLY-MJ 5/12/2011 12:17PM

    Good luck on your 5K! I know you can do it!!!
Hopefully the adrenaline will kick in and you will easily be able to finish under 50 minutes!!!!
Oh and be careful what you say about the stroller pushers.. LOL! I pushed a stroller for my first 5K and finished in 46 minutes!

Anyways, Best of luck, and hope you make it through your long shift at work!

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ROSALITA323 5/12/2011 12:10PM

    Wow, 24 hours on the job--very impressive! Best of luck. I definitely think that counts as endurance training of some sort!

I'm also impressed you're participating in a race. I can't quite imagine doing something like that yet... I'm sure you'll do a great job, especially with such a good attitude. (And yes, a little Gaga will take you a long way, hehe...have you heard her latest song, "Edge of Glory"? It seems like an appropriate one to listen to!)

Good luck with the next few days, and most of all, ENJOY getting fitter by the minute! emoticon

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I Played Hooky Today and Got Sweaty With My Husband

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Sounds dirty huh? It was. Very dirty. I may have ruined my favorite treadmill shoes. I even have dirt under my fingernails. WOOT WOOT!

We went hiking. When I say hiking, I don't mean we strolled down a path in the woods, I mean we scrabbled over rocks and I had to hold on to tree roots and such. It was work! We "hiked" (climbed over large things) in such a way that my abs are a little upset with me, especially after kickboxing last night!

I'd like to say that I shut up, in honor of yesterday's blog, but I think I pretty much yammered the entire time. My husband is a very patient and forgiving man.

Spark is giving me lots of credit for my exercise, I'm guessing too much, but I'm still doing great these last two days with my energy expenditures.

Spark is saying I burned 2,115 calories hiking 5.5 miles in 2.5 hours AND that I burned 1,145 kickboxing for 55 minutes. Now I'm a really big girl, and I worked my ass off, and my heart was seriously cranking, but I don't think I burned 3,260 calories. Whatever I did burn, I'm totally down with that, I don't need an exact number.

This is where I usually say, the scale better reflect my efforts, but I am not going to let the scale dictate what getting into serious exercise mode means to me and my body. The scale can piss off because I was an exercising demon the last 24 hours and I'm damn happy about my efforts.

For those who are doing The Proving Grounds... I did something right (exercising for 2.5 hours) for all the wrong reasons (to look better half nekked) WOOT WOOT!

Here I is, looking ratty after a great workout! I'm still in the 291 ish range as far as I know.

I keep telling myself that I will be really glad I took all of these revolting pics when I'm 100 pounds lighter and have something to compare with. emoticon

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LOXASHA 5/31/2011 10:44AM

    You know that "glow" people get when they know they've just done something amazing? You have it in this photo! emoticon

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FLGIRL1234 5/13/2011 10:24PM

    Fantastic day of rocking it my friend! Whoo hoo!

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SWEETLIPS 5/12/2011 10:21PM

    You mean, I am not the only one who thinks that about my pictures. You had a major successful day!! Congratulations!!!

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 5/12/2011 10:00AM

    Looking better half naked or fully naked is ALL THE MOTIVATION I NEED!!! WOOT WOOT!!! Keep kicking @$$!!

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TJ_RED 5/12/2011 8:38AM

    Yaaaaa! I am so proud of you. I love hiking and it's a fab workout. Unfortunately there are not hills where I live, just flat, flat, flat. We camp a lot and go to the hills to hike and take in the beautiful scenery.

Your pics are fabulous and you are well on your way to achieve your goals. Keep up with that great smile and attitude and you will get there!


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ALIESMOM 5/12/2011 7:33AM

    Holy mackerel, that's a lot of exercise!!.....You Go Girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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RACH818XX 5/12/2011 1:33AM

    U will be soo happy you took pics here in like 6 months. There will be a tremendous weight loss! Right now you're in the high 2's and in 6 months you'll be in the low/mid 2's depending on your body! You'll feel great and look amazing. So proud of you for doing all that exercising!! You're gaining muscle ans strength! While losing inches! WOO HOO!!!!

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GOLOPTIOUS 5/11/2011 11:18PM

    You are my hero! I thought I had done well with my hour of treadmill and half our of hard core abs class last night, but I think you put me to shame!


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BERGBA7 5/11/2011 10:03PM

    What?!! Let me summarize this. you did 55 minutes of kickboxing yesterday and 2.5 hours of climbing today... 3,000 calories??!!!
Now I really look lazy with my 20 minutes of swimming yesterday and my 2 miles walking today... total: 290 calories

you are... emoticon

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CANNIE50 5/11/2011 9:33PM

    Sorry, could not see the revolting - could only see a healthy, happy hiker. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    You look great! Good for you, sounds like a super fun work out!

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    Your pictures are beautiful! You look like a healthy confident person in them...from working yourself out!! Great blog, and sounds like a ton of fun :)

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MRS_RANDI 5/11/2011 8:22PM

    You are awesome, Jen! That's all I have to say. I am so proud of you.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/11/2011 7:43PM

    I have a HRM and SP is pretty accurate! I wish I had more pics of myself at 300+ pounds. I think it would make me feel a lot better about the the images I see now. Keep those old pics and look at them often to see how far you've come.

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55WALKER 5/11/2011 7:35PM

    Actually they are NOT revolting pics. You are owning your health decisions and standing tall and strong. They are admirable pics.

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SHRINKINGLULU 5/11/2011 7:22PM

    I'm in the 240's and according to my heart rate monitor I burn about 850-1000 calories in my hour long turbo jam class, so it sounds to me like that calorie estimate for kickboxing is probably pretty close if you're working hard!!

And I don't think your pic is revolting at all! I just thought you looked cheerful and like you had a general sense of accomplishment about you. We're always our worst critics.

You're doing awesome!

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REBEL_DOG 5/11/2011 7:22PM

    LOVE the title of your blog!! Love the blog too but what a cute title!

And yes, you will be glad to have these pictures in just a few short months.

Keep up the good work!

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SHUT UP! You Might Like It

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

You can talk about it--"I want to get thin! I want to get healthy! I want to lose weight! I want to look like a Supermodel so Ryan Reynolds wants to show me his abs and get in my pants!

You can read about it--"Dr. Fuhrman says I should eat more veggies and I will lose weight easily but Dr. Atkins states that I should refrain from too many carbs because they are harmful, and Dr. McDougall says I need a starch based plan, and don't forget the book about the zones which totally, oh crap what the hell, they all contradict each other"

You can blog about it--uh, no example needed. Duh.

You can think about it-- Hmmm, if I workout 60 minutes 6 days a week and I eat no more than 1,302.5 calories per day, I could/should be at my goal weight this time next year, if my body is a robot and does exactly what I think it should and what my calculations indicate.

You can worry about it--Crap, will I ever lose weight? Have I truly jacked up my metabolism? If I walk a marathon and only eat a carrot, surely that will help my weight loss? What do I do? Can I eat a carrot without gaining a pound? Maybe if I eat only carrots I will turn orange, but be thin in time for my class reunion? (For more examples, please see yesterday's blog)

You can wish for it--You have no idea how badly I want to weigh 135 pounds, I wish I may I wish I might, have this weight loss wish tonight!

You can talk about it some more-- "Well, you see, I've lost 19 pounds, and I'm committed to losing an additional 157 pounds, and yes, it will take me a while, but I am committed after all."

You can research it-- "my research indicates that the concern people feel about "starvation mode" is unfounded and entirely blown out of proportion, therefore, I'm comfortable with eating 1,200 calories per day"

You can dream about it--"When I weigh my goal weight, I shall wear a bikini, get my hair done in those Bo Derek cornrows with fun beads at the ends, and I shall strut and occasionally run in a seductive way up and down a caribbean beach until I'm golden brown and some British guy who looks like Dudley Moore falls in love with me"

But here is the truth as I know it:

You can do all of those things or none of those things, and not a single flipping one of them will be as effective as moving. Get off the couch. Go walk. Go run. Go roller skating. Go breakdancing. Go do back handsprings down the hall way at work. Go doggy paddle. Go play Twister. Go dance around the house while speed cleaning. Go have sex and get sweaty.

Get moving.

Today I kickboxed. It's the hardest workout I've done since this journey, and it was GOOD. I was dripping sweat. I had to stop and do nothing in order to catch my breath for the first time since I started this whole thing. Yes, I moved my body so much that I had to stop to catch my breath, WOOT!

I did something to brag about (see The Proving Grounds team) but I also learned something really important.

Get out there and work so hard that you have no choice but to SHUT UP and gulp down air. You can work so hard that the nasty voices in your head shut the hell up. You can push yourself so hard that the memories of the hurtful things anyone has ever said to you about your body just shut up and go away. You can work your body so hard that the only thing you think about is how you feel and what move you are supposed to be doing next.

SHUT UP in the best possible way you can imagine, by getting your machine revving and your ass moving.

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ROMANS_8 5/25/2011 3:56PM

    Love this blog. Totally sums up everything I want to say, but didn't know how to say. Thanks :)

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GENELDABELDA 5/13/2011 9:41PM

    Jenn, I love your blogs!

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DCAPDEVI 5/11/2011 2:49PM

    You go girl! 'Nuff said! emoticon

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RACH818XX 5/11/2011 2:10PM

    Did you say sex? Yesss!!!!! Lol. You said it girl. Get yo ass in gear and make NO EXCUSES bcz at the end of the day you, yourself is the one to blame. Why try to lose weight effortlessly? If you get off your ass and get moving then you'll feel like you actually accomplished something. Your body looks toned and the weight comes off quicker AND stays off!!

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AUNTC321 5/11/2011 1:02PM

    Thanks I needed that.

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ALIESMOM 5/11/2011 11:09AM

    Very Good!!........I tried as hard as I could not to read it but couldn't stop.
I guess it's time to SHUT UP and JUST DO IT!!!! emoticon

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NOVELIC 5/11/2011 9:56AM

    We all need to hear this. So to speak. Thanks for the reminder.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/11/2011 9:05AM

    You said it sister! Great blog!

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    Very entertaining with an awesome message! This is why I love running, it just shuts my over productive brain up!


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ATA1119 5/11/2011 5:34AM

    This link should work. It's for a speach by Art Williams called Just Do It. It applies to business but I apply it to everything in life and your blog sounds similar to what Art says. Check it out, it's awesome.

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GOLOPTIOUS 5/11/2011 2:12AM

    You never fail to be awesome!

I love this blog just as much as I love the other ones you've written. I've always wanted to take a kickboxing class, but I've never been able to find one around here.

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JUICINGJOJO 5/10/2011 11:41PM

    Love it. Favorite bl
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YBRIGGS625 5/10/2011 11:23PM

    You are soooooo right. I love your blogs. emoticon

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CANNIE50 5/10/2011 10:12PM

    amen, honey - moving is a huge part of this journey. For me, exercise has not made me smaller (only eating like a healthy grown-up has done that) but it has made me stronger - mentally, physically, emotionally stronger. Everything seems easier when we are strong. Good for you! emoticon

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    You are so funny, I almost choked on my straw. You see that's my diet plan, instead of snacking I chew on a straw until the urge passes. Think it'll catch on? All jokes aside, you are correct. I'm not an expert, but at one point I was 100 pounds down from my top weight. If you want to eat- you've got to move. It's the very cold, very hard line. And if you're moving more, you are quite obviously on the scale less. Good luck.

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BERGBA7 5/10/2011 9:29PM


Yes, you can even eat 1,203.5 calories and not loose wait if you don't move... shake it - shake it!


I found this hypnosis video. It is not going to bring down the wait over night but maybe boost your confidence a bit and shut up the inner voice that worries too much. You will have lots of fun in grad school! At least I did!

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Worry, Worry, Fret Fret, Worry, Dream Up New Things To Worry About

Monday, May 09, 2011

I have jokingly said that I can sit around and make lists of things to worry about, just so I don't have to worry about running out of things to worry about. I find myself worrying every single day about getting the pounds off.

I've lost 19 pounds in the last 4 weeks. I must be doing something right, right? Aside from that first big water weight loss, that's still pretty respectable weight loss in my humble opinion.

That doesn't stop me, Worry Wart the Magnificent, I'm filled with worry because I've only lost one pound in the last week and it is what we fondly refer to as the dreaded TOM. My logical brain knows I'm sort of okish. My emotional brain is confused by all of the bad and downright incorrect information out there on diets, my past failures, the fact that any plan in the past (jenny craig) ended with my gaining weight right back to my starting weight.

Am I alone in this near-constant cycle of worry?

These questions constantly cycle in my noggin...

Am I damaging my metabolism?
Did I eat too much?
Did I eat too little?
Am I eating the right things?
Am I on the right diet?
Do I need more protein?
Do I need more fruit and veggies?
Will I ever lose another pound?
Am I working out too much?
Should I do more strength training, or more cardio?
Do I need to buy a bodybugg to tell me if I'm burning calories?
Who can I talk to about a bodybugg?
I don't care if Atkins will hurt my kidneys, will it help?
and on and on and on...

I'm constantly fretting about these questions, and I know I have had good success this month. I know Spark is good for me. I know exercise is good for me. I know that I feel better when I do Eat to Live than any other style of eating good or bad. I know that so far, so good.

It's just that every time I don't lose a pound, or I get a bounce of a pound, I think, ok, here it comes, this is where we gain everything back plus a few more.

Please tell me I'm not alone with this! How did you pick a plan and TRUST it to work?

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MDEVILE 5/10/2011 6:57PM

    Huh, you don't show up on my friend feed either. Bizarre.

I'm with you on the anxiety, not so much about the food and diet thing. I like how sparkpeople gives me a range of the important stuff and I already feel so much better, so I trust it. But... I do it with practically everything else.

Did I handle that conversation right?
Did I forget to do something?
Did I do it right?
Should I be doing more of this?

On and on and on and on.

My brain is the worst for shutting up. As in it never freaking does.

But congrats on 19 pounds, and at the risk of making you roll your eyes, remember that it's not a diet, but a lifestyle! You're developing new habits that you will use for the rest of your life, not just crash dieting, so the weight won't have a chance to come back! :D

*hug* Good luck, bb! Keep it up and try to find that quiet place in your mind (and maybe send me a map when you find it ;) )

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ALIESMOM 5/10/2011 5:24PM

    That's not the normal way to think? (he,he) I'm just as bad so I don't know what to tell you. I just try to keep breathing!! You're definitely not alone.


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OVERHAULING-ME 5/10/2011 11:30AM

    Some of those same questions run through my mind. All I can do is do what I know works. I have to learn to not allow this healthy journey to consume all of my thoughts. I want to get healthy so I can actually LIVE not so I can be a slave to the worry of all those questions.

You have had AMAZING results! Better than average I'd say! emoticon

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NEVER2LATE2233 5/10/2011 9:24AM

    You are not alone! I am a worrier too and those thoughts/questions run through my mind constantly. Sometimes I literally need to force myself to stop and take some deep breaths (which seems to help!).

You are doing a GREAT job though, so you're right, you must be doing something right! Keep focusing on doing what makes you feel good, and the rest will fall into place eventually.

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ZURDTA- 5/10/2011 9:24AM

    Cripes... just like my boyfriend, he makes stuff up to worry about too! I often say to him that perhaps he should be given something real to worry about - but that might make him totally explode.

Its not about doing one thing or another, or a set of things in any order...

its simple

Eat a variety of nutritious food and get sweaty every day.

I woldn't go near any Atkins ideas - because I love bread and it makes people miserable (I hear it makes the breath stink too, but no idea if that is true).

Chill out... you ARE doing it right...

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DIENEBIENE 5/10/2011 4:38AM

    Hello Jen,
I had the same problem so many times but actually just last week. I sticked to the nutrition plan, I exercised but nothing changed. My weight stayed the same. Yet, I kept believing that, besides all the past diets that failed, SP is there to help me loose the weight for good.
I focused on clothes that fit very tight before and that started to fit a little looser. Also try and listen to your friends, some of mine had realized that I had started to look thinner. This week my weight dropped quite a lot.
I sometimes tell myself that my body is so used to being overweight that it doesn't want to give up that easily. It just loves my tummy fat too much. But I will stick to exercising and I am sure if you do your weight will start to drop eventually, even up to 2 lbs a week.

Stick to the lifestyle change it works!

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RACH818XX 5/10/2011 1:01AM

    I am in the same boat as you! I question myself these things asd well. It sucks not knowing exactly what 'works'. Hang in there. You'll find it sooner or later. Same goes for me. As long as you're still losing that's what matters!

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CANNIE50 5/9/2011 11:00PM

    My 2 cents on this? Don't borrow trouble ahead, honey. There will always be plenty of troubles to go around - don't gather them up ahead of time. Be right here, right now, in this moment. My own mantra to myself is "breathe and pray, honey, breathe and pray". Speaking of breathing, the best thing, when you feel your brain ramping up with all that fretting, just do big "belly breaths", slow, deep breaths that fill your belly and that you then let out slowly. emoticon

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55WALKER 5/9/2011 8:20PM

    "This is a very important practice. Live your daily life in a way that you never lose yourself. When you are carried away with your worries, fears, cravings, anger, and desire, you run away from yourself and you lose yourself. The practice is always to go back to oneself."
- Thich Nhat Hanh

"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight."
- Benjamin Franklin

"Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy."
- Leo Buscaglia

"You can't wring your hands and roll up your sleeves at the same time."
- Pat Schroeder

"That the birds of worry and care fly over you head, this you cannot change, but that they build nests in your hair, this you can prevent."
- Chinese Proverb

"If you see ten troubles coming down the road, you can be sure that nine will run into the ditch before they reach you." - Calvin Coolidge

Clearly I have no thoughts of my own on this. lol
I struggle daily with the tendency to worry about possibilities rather than living the best I can in the moment but I get better all the time through being mindful of that.


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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/9/2011 7:52PM

    From one worrier to another - STOP! Lol! I've had most of these same thoughts. I've been on my journey almost a year, and I still have these thoughts, but they are so much more quiet. You need to decide what works best for you. I don't feel that there is any ONE plan that works for everyone. There are a million ways to lose weight, but you need to simplify things... eat healthy foods and move your body. Whether it takes 6 months or 3 years, it will happen because you want it to!

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