Friday, April 29, 2011
I am feeling so good today, energetic, positive, upbeat, motivated, etc. Seems like a good time to make a positive, upbeat list!
1. I've long cursed the fact that my husband is a chef for many reasons, such as the size of my giant butt and his inability to heat frozen veggies without half a stick of butter. Today I am thankful for his culinary expertise because in addition to making a fantastic bacon wrapped filets covered with hollandaise that I cannot have at this time, he can also make a really tasty fat free vegan veggie soup and a marinated zucchini that is awesome.
2. I'm so grateful that my body is a resilient machine and the years of abuse I have inflicted upon it didn't break it. It is responding very well to being treated well.
3. I'm so incredibly happy about the endorphin rush I get after working out that makes it easier to get back on the treadmill or in the pool.
4. I'm thankful that there is hardly ever anyone in the pool at the gym, I get a lane to myself, I don't feel like I have to hide in a big towel or anything.
5. I'm thrilled that my bazooms are shrinking along with the rest of me. I'm already too small for one of my bras.
6. I'm ecstatic that I won't be working a 24 hour shift today and should be able to slip some pool time into my day. When I make statements like these I am so shocked at myself that I feel I need a psych evaluation STAT.
7. I'm happy my dogs love to go on walks, they can enjoy my newfound desire to exercise too.
8. I'm glad my husband started getting serious about losing weight before I did. It makes it so much easier when we are both moving toward the same goals.
9. I'm pleased that my coworkers think enough of me to choose places for lunch that have things I can eat or things that can be modified so I can eat them.
10. I am so incredibly grateful that I've started off with such fantastic results. It is so much easier to get motivated and stay motivated when you see huge rewards right away. Even when it slows down, and I know it will, losing 17 pounds in 3 weeks is a HUGE motivator.
11. I'm thankful that I can afford a gym membership and quality running shoes.
12. I'm giddy over the replacement ipod my husband gave me for Easter, now I get to listen to tunes in the pool again! YIPPEE
13. I'm thankful for all of the friends and family who love me and don't judge me based upon the size of my ginormous butt and obscenely large belly. Thank you for being OK with me the way I am.
14. I'm indebted to Dr. Joel Fuhrman (Eat To Live) who taught me that a pound of veggies is less than 100 calories and I should eat as many of them as I can stand if I want to lose weight.
15. I'm thankful for my new friends on SparkPeople, who always have something positive to say and who are refreshing in their honesty.
16. I'm thankful that the pants I just freaking bought a month ago are getting to the ridiculously large point. Unwearable new clothes are a small price to pay for losing weight.
17. I'm doubly thankful that we have a Whole Foods here in Columbus, Ohio and I can get lots of organic stuff, weird rare food items, gourmet stuff and much more without a great deal of effort. I just wish pomegranates were back in season.
18. Thank you to my friends, family, SparkPeople and everyone else for being kind to me. This is especially important when my internal monologue sounds like this most of the time, "you are fat, you are ugly, you are disgusting, you are revolting, how could you do this to your body, even if you lose weight you will need plastic surgery to fix your skin because you are so disgusting, you are so fat, you are so ugly, you are disgusting, how could anyone ever love you, how on earth did you find someone who wanted to marry someone as disgusting as you." Thank you for being the positive voice in my ear since I'm not always capable of being kind to me.
19. I am grateful that I didn't wait another year or five to start this journey. I was headed for being 45 and 400 lbs. Luckily, I only got to 38 and 311 pounds instead.
20. I am thankful that I am no longer turning a deaf ear to the screams, pleas, comments and warning signs that my body has been sending me for a decade. I hear you, and I know you really like this, I promise to keep it up!
21. I'm pleased to report that my taste buds are changing. 4 weeks ago I took my tea with 4 tsp of sugar and some Silk soy vanilla creamer. Today, just the creamer, and it tasted plenty sweet to me! Yippee! Sugar addiction, be gone!
22. This nummy salad I had for lunch today:
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I just paid my entry fee for the Columbus, Ohio Race For the Cure on Saturday, May 14th. This will be the last year where I ask for a XXXL tshirt! If you are planning to do the walk and you haven't registered yet, you can use discount code spreader11 for $5 off. :)
I'm also signed up for the Dash For Donation on July 9th, which supports organ donation.
Next year, my goal is to run these events instead of walking, I think that is a reasonable goal!
Now I just need to find June, August and September 5ks and I will be all set. Although I think swimming Alcatraz in September could be an acceptable substitute, if I get into good enough shape to do it.
I think I signed up partially because of guilt. I had onion rings at lunch today and just hate myself for choosing so poorly. I am still on track for the day calorie wise, so I will try not to fret, but I am a veteran worrier so that may be a challenge.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I kicked some butt on the treadmill yesterday, doing a record (for me) 3.7 miles in 65 minutes. That's 60 minutes plus 5 minute cool down. When I first started three weeks ago, averaging 3 miles an hour was a real challenge, so I'm really pleased with my progress.
I don't know what the deal was with me today, but I just wasn't feeling it. I felt sluggish, tired and just didn't have 4mph in me like I did yesterday. I ended up doing 3.3 miles in 65 minutes. I wonder if it is because I totally kicked booty yesterday and my body just needed a break, a day of rest so to speak. My last day off was Sunday.
Do you take days off of working out, just for the purpose of recharging your body? Also, when did you add weight training to your regime? I think cardio is the most important thing I can do right now, but I do believe weight training has its place.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
1. My internal voice is much kinder when I'm heading in the right direction with my diet and exercise.
2. Beets should come with a warning label. Something along the lines of "you are not dying, you are not hemorrhaging to death from your rectum, do NOT call 911, you had beets last night for dinner."
3. Roasted beets are tasty.
4. You can make a meal out of beets, an eggplant, some orange cauliflower, a turnip and an artichoke.
5. The scale is not my enemy, it is merely a tool in the fight against having a ginormous ass.
6. Coming up with a list of 176 reasons to lose weight is harder than it sounds... I'm up to 125... I'm still plugging away.
7. Detoxing from sugar, caffeine, processed foods, high fructose corn syrup, soda, meat and dairy was the smartest thing I've ever done, with the exception of marrying my husband and going to nursing school. Thank you Dr. Fuhrman for Eat to Live.
8. I've learned that I'm not a disgusting food pig with no self control. I am, however, easily influenced by sugar, flour, empty calories, soda, processed foods, high fructose corn syrup and the chemicals in those craptacular foods.
9. I'm afraid to really cheat on my diet because I could lose momentum, fall of the wagon or make my journey more difficult in the long run.
10. I feel guilty for not going to the gym at night even though I do 65 minutes on the treadmill every morning. I feel like I should be swimming at night.
11. I really like SparkPeople.
12. If I'm going to do the Alcatraz swim in September, I need to join a swim team ASAP or I won't be doing enough mileage to complete the crossing.
13. I can't believe that the SparkPeople calculator says I could be at my goal weight by May of next year. Is it broken?
14. Eating clean fills me with a sense of being nourished that I've never experienced before. It is like an inner food glow or something. Hard to describe it, but a really great feeling.
15. If you live in Columbus, Ohio or plan to visit, Northstar Cafe gives me food glow.... I highly recommend it.
16. If I eat any more produce than I already am I am going to demand the discount they give the Columbus Zoo.
17. I think SparkPeople gives me less calorie credit for my exercise than I deserve. It doesn't ask me for my speed, incline, etc.
18. I'm working very hard at this weight loss good health thing, how on earth do those biggest loser people work like ten times harder?
19. I'm going on a cruise in June and I am terrified about what I will eat and how I will get my exercise in. I refuse to return from vacation heavier than I left.
20. Green bean delivery service (organic veggies delivered) is awesome!
21. I struggle to get my cup of beans per day into my diet.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
My nemesis appeared today, delivered in the hands of a friend. She doesn't know I'm all about eating clean, ETL, nearly vegan, racing to my 20 year reunion in 164 days, (but who's counting) refraining from all of the crap I used to eat, and eating so much produce my poop is green.
She only knows that 12 packs of mini Cadbury Eggs were on sale, I like Cadbury Eggs (a LOT) and she thinks enough of me to give me a present. Rather sweet, don't you think?
Temptation, thine name is Cadbury.
Watching this happening is my pod-mate, who finds it absolutely hysterical, and also sends me a link to a video of ways to make Cadbury Eggs explode. Unfortunately, none of them can be done in the workplace and result in the egg being gone AND me still having a job. gizmodo.com/#!5794810/let-us-count-t
I'm going to have to do something with these damn eggs. Just to clarify, by "something" I mean, something other than eating all of them in one sitting. I'm not going to even have one. But I will sit here and stare longingly at them a while longer.
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