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Feeling Like a Failure... Warning: I am Feeling Sorry For Myself

Monday, July 18, 2011

My sister and mom were in town this weekend, which is always awesome. I love having them here, I love spending time with them and I just plain love them. I miss them tremendously even though we talk all the time. So that was super awesome. It doesn't hurt that my mom started eating on the Eat to Live plan that I use a few months before me, so she is usually a pretty good influence on me for eating well.

BUT, when they are in town they like to eat at all of their favorite restaurants. So yes, we ate and ate and ate. We ate things that are so far from my plan that they would require The Hubble Telescope to be seen from my fridge stocked with organic freggies. We had pizza at California Pizza Kitchen. Then we went to Harry Potter and had milk duds and popcorn with the fake butter.

My weekend imploded food and exercise-wise. End result? I didn't even track my food because it would have been nearly impossible and too dang depressing. My ass was weeping tears of horror and my giant gut was cursing my name. I could hear it! "Da*& you to hell, Jennifer, you cellulite monger, you are the food Hoover and yes, you super suck!"

I had fun. I ate deep fried macaroni and cheese. (Seriously, who came up with that abomination against nutrition, Cheesecake Factory?) I missed my workouts Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I went to a wedding Saturday in another state (9 hours in the car, thanks work for not EVER letting me have an entire weekend off unless I'm on vacation) that was catered by Amish ladies.

That piece of information may be the worst harbinger of diet doom in the history of harbingers of diet doom, seriously, if you've ever had Amish food you know what I mean. I will put my "wedding catered by Amish" against anything, even "BBQ featuring Doritos" or "birthday party at Chipotle."

The end result is that I feel so depressed and tearful, and, I think, fortunately or unfortunately, a lot of it is food-induced. Processed fatty yucky devoid of nutrition but unusually tasty food makes me feel depressed and it makes my joints ache like you wouldn't believe. It also took my fasting blood glucose from 105 to 118 in 3 days.

My body hurts and that food is like taking a depression pill. Eat clean = No Zoloft. Eat like crap = plan on being on an anti-depressant until you wise up. Wish someone had told me that like oh, 15 friggin' years ago. I digress. I even hate how I smell after getting away from Clean food. UGH.

Mostly, I feel like a failure. I told my husband last night that I'm failing at everything I do, and he laughed at me. He said I don't know how to fail, that I couldn't even be taught how to fail, because it isn't in my genetic makeup. Clearly he doesn't understand that I missed W3D3 and there is no instruction manual for when you screw up Couch to 5K. (The first person to tell me I'm too hard on myself will be unfriended and mocked with colorful phrases that make everyone laugh)

I'm having trouble finding my immunization records for the last 38 years, I got an email from the community garden where I have a plot regarding the height of my weeds and inquiring if I needed assistance with my weed pulling. (I deserve a medal for not telling them to suck it, since they are so busy not having jobs and measuring my weeds. This was not a genuine offer to help, this was a byotchy offer to help, I assure you.) I'm behind on my writing. I haven't registered for my classes. I'm failing my sparkpeeps and hurting their feelings. I haven't filled out my FAFSA or FASFA or whatever the heck it is called for grad school. I'm scared that I won't be able to handle grad school plus two jobs.

Now I'm adding a weekend of horrid eating, feeling really depressed and body aches to the freaking pile, smart, really smart.

I have to restart the Hep B vaccine series ASAP, which makes me sicker than a dog. I need to write three articles on F'ing HEMORRHOIDS of all things. I have at least 5 baskets of laundry to fold and put away. One of my great danes decided this was the week where he would see if he could whine non-stop from dusk until dawn for reasons ranging from not being covered with his blankie to wanting a treat he isn't allowed to have. I didn't work out Friday, Sat or Sun. My greenhouse is a mess and my plants hate me. I'm throwing a bridal shower for friends that I have to plan and I know I'll go totally overboard making it all Martha Stewartesque. I won't even get near the scale. My tub won't drain so I had to call the plummer and had to bail out the tub to take a shower. I forgot my dang lunch.

So what did I do? I cried. I also told the Self-Appointed Garden Guardian that we were on vacation and we would hope to get to our non-garden society approved weeds by Wednesday. Yup. I lied. I LIED. L.I.E.D. Cheffrey said if we needed to we would pay people to weed and fold laundry. We won't, because he knows I would be even more upset after paying people to fold laundry but having them not do it "correctly and to my standards" would be even more stress-inducing, but I appreciate the thought.

So today I'm back at it. Forgot (oh wait, you'd have to actually pack one to "forget it") my clean lunch so I got a Gardenburger from a local place. I will be doing W3D3 tonight at the gym and trying to figure out what the heck to do (repeat the week? Start week 4 on Wednesday?). I will try to be a less craptacular spark friend to the people who support me so very much. I will attempt to not screw up grad school prior to starting next month. I will attempt to refrain from crying like a sissy girl at work.

Most of all, for the love of kohlrabi, The Grinch, houndstooth and lemon hand sanitizer, I will eat clean until this horrible dark cloud feeling goes away and I feel like my happy (if stressed and totally overextended) usual self. I know it is partially hormones (I remember the great hormone melt down blog a few months ago) but that doesn't make me feel any better.

I'm thinking eating clean and exercising whilst feeling miserable may be one of my greatest victories, even if I am failing at everything else. I will force myself to go to the gym tonight if it kills me.

  
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DEBBIECASTLE1 7/30/2011 11:09AM

  i understand this blog and know what you are going threw i have this on a daily bases i have been on a diet for 3 years i lost right at 100 pounds i was feeling good all my friends would say you did great now lets eat this and go here and eat that and true I'm my own person but its really hard to sit and watch everyone else and you order the celery (haha) you know what i mean so of diet for 1 year and gained 30 pounds back i feel disappointed in myself and no motivation this go around I'm trying the scale isnt moving and I'm feeling defeated emoticon

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JENN26POINT2 7/26/2011 5:01PM

    OMG, it's like reading a page out of my own freaking book! Only it's oh-so-much-more eloquently written than anything I would write. Woman, I swear we're the same person!!! Every single thing you just vented about is stuff I vent about very frequently. In fact, I got so tired of venting about it that I just stopped blogging all togehter! Grad school stuff to do, laundry to fold, garden to weed, dog that drives you crazy... all that stuff is MY STUFF! I'm so glad I'm not the only one!

You're doing great. This is just a rough patch. Just keep on plugging away and you'll come out of this just fine.

And I'm going to give that clean-eating-to-ditch-Zoloft thing a try! I just switched from Zoloft back to Lexapro b/c the Zoloft just wasn't cutting it anymore... Thanks for the reminder that food plays a huge part in how we feel.

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EGR2BEME 7/26/2011 1:09AM

    Well your last little paragraph says it all...and it was just what I needed to read; as I sit here feeling sorry for myself!

Thank you!!

Ellen

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KNITTR1 7/25/2011 9:41AM

    Go, Jenn, go!

You can do anything you set your mind to!

Encouraging words sponsored by the cranky 45 year old who has lived through an entire week of extreme heat warnings coupled with an exhausted 10 year old who did musical camp this week resulting in a fully memorized and performed twice 30 minute musical. And the tired and cranky 14 year old DAUGHTER who was a camp counselor to said camp, and doesn't want to see a child between the ages of 5 and 12 again any time soon.

Pick yourself, get back on track.

BTW. I vote for redoing week 3 of C25K -- then you aren't behind, you actually have a couple extra days of training, counting the ones you did get in last week.

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BETHJRN 7/25/2011 6:28AM

    There is just no one like you to pick up my spirits and my draggy butt!

You had a bad weekend. OK. Give yourself a break here. It's just one weekend. You'll get 51 more this year. And 263 more regular days as well.

(Keep in mind as you read this Oh, Cheer Up, Let a smile be your umbrella crap that these words are offered by a whiny, cranky old cow who's been on her own shame spiral for packing on the pounds and eating fast food caa-caa for a week herself. But it's so much more satisfying to fix someone else's problems!)

You are an amazingly strong, intelligent, resourceful and caring person. We love you...even more than Amish food. Well, maybe more. At least as much!

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KATRINAKRAUT 7/23/2011 12:54PM

    This too shall come to pass so move forward. We all have our days (and yes, days was meant to be plural). lesson learned . eat healthy =feel healthy, eat crappy =feel crappy. Sometimes I feel possessed by the "sugar hound fairy" ( or the "salty dog fairy" or the " margarita fairy" etc ) , but after I let them real havoc with my food consumption and my sanity (in that order), they go away. I hand you the magic wand and sent the ruby slippers your way. emoticon

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LADYGLAMOUR 7/23/2011 9:32AM

  You're human like the rest of us hun. Time to dust yourself off and pick up where you left off. emoticon

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LIFEGENESIS 7/22/2011 4:16PM

    Goodness! You are about a beer away from a country song! lol

HUGS!!!

I know you must be frustrated and feeling overwhelmed but you have done SUCH a great job so far! And you wouldn't be human if you didn't have these ups and downs. You will pull through soon and be better than ever. You are a huge inspiration to me and I love reading your well written blogs.

Hang in there sweets! We are all rooting for ya!

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CHRISTINECE 7/22/2011 11:28AM

    Just checking in - I follow your blog. This week has been a week of 'find blogs that will keep me going'. I do my own ' you can do this... really! ', but sometimes it is the inspiration of others - like yourself - that get me, at least, over a hump. A big thank you again.

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JANLEH 7/22/2011 10:22AM

    Oh poop - you sound down and out. emoticon

Hey, speaking of kohlrabi and I can't believe someone else even knows what kohlrabi is ... I have a fabulous kohlrabi green apple salad recipe that is divine. Let me know if you'd like a copy.

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LISADAVIDSON68 7/22/2011 10:20AM

    I'm sure its not nice that your blog made me smile? But what I read was normal "I goofed" feelings. Normal. I CRAVE big, fat, juicy cheeseburgers and fries. And after I eat them, I feel like Jabba the Hut. I think its all part of maintenance. I think its normal. Sometimes, in some instances, we aren't able to eat right. Maybe its just not available at that time. Or heck, we just don't WANT to. Its not the end of the world and part of the learning process. I figure, you feel guilty? Good. Means you aren't planning on giving up. Now I would suggest going back to where it broke down, and pretending it never happened.

And by the way, you're being too hard on yourself. That's right. I said it. I'm a rebel. But I get that you're stubborn. I like stubborn...and you.

Hope you don't unfriend me.
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BACKONTRAK 7/22/2011 9:36AM

    They say laughter is the best medicine. Grab the bride your planning the shower for and go see "Bridesmaids". You will laugh and it will put the wedding shower you are planning in perspective! The few hours spent laughing with a friend will relax you so you can come back ready to tackle your life. Oh...bring a bag of healthy veggies to snack on and you will save money and calorie!

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FIFIFRIZZLE 7/22/2011 2:06AM

    Deep fried macaroni??!!! How can such a thing BE? emoticon

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LTULLIS 7/21/2011 11:19PM

    Tomorrow is a new day

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GENELDABELDA 7/21/2011 10:59PM

    So...you had a bad weekend....and now every little thing is overwhelming. Okay... so Breathe....(It is always best to breathe when the world begins to crash in upon you).

It matters so much less what you did than what you are going to do today...and tomorrow. So get going. We are not truly defeated by bad days or bad choices but by not kicking our butt back in gear and persevering.

I loved that you enjoyed your family. And it's hard for food not to be a part of that because it always has been in the past. You do realize enjoying your own family is a truly precious gift. And JENN, it was just one weekend. One weekend of backsliding does not define you. You have shown yourself to be committed to exercising and a healthy diet. So get out there and follow one regretable weekend (with regards to food)with a kick butt week.

You will return to the things that feel good and make you strong, proud and (over time) a smaller you. And BTW, you have a garden and a green house and two jobs...do you ever sleep?

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MEZZZMO 7/21/2011 9:47PM

    I can so relate to the feelings of frustration and disappointment in this blog. Stick with your good routines and set yourself some small goals for accomplishing all the tasks you have before you. You'll pull yourself out of this slump before you know it!

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DAILYJAVA 7/21/2011 9:29PM

  I know how you feel, but one weekend will not do anything to you! I see positive in it: You recognized that those food are really horrible and felt disgust while eating it.

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TINABERG1 7/21/2011 3:18PM

    Falling off the wagon is the worst...getting the motivation to get back on is what is the hardest for me...I thought I would join in some blogging to cheer me up and to help motivate someone else to 'you can do it!' I am a grama (59) and want to stay healthy for my grandchildren and keep 'playing' with them and not just watch -- I stress eat whatever that is...I'll jump back on the wagon -- will you join me??? emoticon

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MENACE79 7/21/2011 1:04PM

    I can relate to this, because I was driving to work this past Monday asking myself HOW I let a week of food go by, untracked, knowing that I went over my calories every day of the week. Horrible, horrible, stupid, horrible, I'm gonna fail, never going to be able to lose more than 20 lbs, etc, etc.

But when I took a mental step back and looked at my behaviors as a whole -- over the course of months, not a week, I realized that this is a blip. I've done nothing wrong. When I reach my goal weight, this week of not tracking is going to seem much more forgivable, and really a non-issue. Same for you - when you look at your behavior over the past year a year from now, when you've kept going and lost more weight, this is simply going to be "that time when my mom and sister came and we totally pigged out all weekend, lol". This doesn't mean you failed - this means you have a life.

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RUFIT- 7/21/2011 12:30PM

    Fitness and diet efforts make huge impacts, but they have to be looked at over a longer time frame than most are willing to wait for. Can you imagine tracking a long road trip, say 600 miles, mile marker by mile marker? Well that's how we all track our fitness and diet progress. No wonder most of us get frustrated at times. It's easier to see at the end of our journey all the hills and valleys of the trip and how our perseverance and hard efforts heroically fought through the numerous temptations and plateaus. It's is quite heroic you know, or maybe you dont feel this way now. But think about it. You are in a mind and body battle throughout this entire journey. You are going to win some battles and lose some battles. As you go through your challenges you will hone your skills. You will inevitably beat down the challenges and These skills will stay with you your entire life. It's not a quick and easy journey by any measure. In fact I think the harder and longer the journey the more skilled the player becomes. Make sense? I'm rootin for you, stay strong!

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SPARKLISE 7/21/2011 12:06PM

    I had a crappy week also,but it's time to stop the pitty party and start fresh. emoticon emoticon

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KKINNEA 7/21/2011 12:03PM

    Whew that was a whirlwind - you can get back on track!! Rooting for you!

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JSCOTT86 7/21/2011 8:11AM

  I'm glad I read this blog. I was starting to feel exactly how you are feeling. It is extremely hard to balance everything you have going on in your life, trust me, I am right there with you. I took a little longer to get back on the horse though. My friends were in town this past weekend, so I too had the eat everywhere we haven't been in a while experience with them. Then I blamed not working out Mon-Wed. on my grad school papers that were due on Wednesday. This morning, I'm pretty sure I could have hit the snooze, but I told myself it was time to stop being lazy. Congrats on getting back on after just a few short days! I have noticed that exercise and healthy eating makes me feel 1000x better than when I eat like crap and don't get in a good workout.

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TAKINGOFF86 7/21/2011 12:44AM

  i felt like i was wearing a big F for failure on my forehead all day and was ready to give up. but then i read your always witty, ever inspiring blog. so emoticon for letting me know that it IS possible to not only fall off the horse but under it as well and STILL get right back up in the saddle. you rock (way more than you give yourself credit for)!!

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SHAD4G 7/20/2011 11:00PM

  Seriously..you mentioned Amish Crap Food, Hemorrhoids, Harry Potter, and Cellulite Monger, all in one blog post...YOU ARE MY NEW BEST FRIEND!..Brilliantly witty and quite profound and entertaining. I loved it.

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DAWNFIRE72 7/20/2011 9:48PM

    I am siding with your Cheffrey in the fact that you are NOT a failure you had a weekend of poor choices that have left you feeling emotionally vulnerable.

I hope that the coming days are better for you and that you are back to being your sarcastic amazing self very soon again.

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WENDY412 7/20/2011 9:36PM

    Your blog is what I love about SP--staying present no matter what kind of day you're having. We all have those days/weeks/months where we beat ourselves up for being human, and sometimes we just need to be reminded to treat ourselves gently and with kindness. Give yourself a ginormous hug and crawl under the covers for a couple hours. It truly works wonders.

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LIVELONGANDWELL 7/20/2011 9:18PM

    Perfectionism is a killer... its been my downfall my entire life. I'm going to tell you what I always fail to see for myself... one weekend in the scheme of your life does not a failure make. What counts is that you're back doing what has worked for you in the past... back to eating well, excercising, and hanging out with your SP friends. You are so much more than the last few days .. you are amazing and also very human. Hang in there!

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JITZUROE 7/20/2011 8:52PM

    I am reading this after you most likely have de-toxed and are back on both feet and charging ahead. How are you doing???
It happens. It's happened to me. It sucks. But we gotta pull those spandex pants back on and hit the elliptical and stay on the weight loss road, and I right? OK, maybe skip the spandex, just be sure to wear the leg warmers for a giggle.....
Bren

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SHEILA-45 7/20/2011 8:15PM

    You need to exhale Jenn...get organized and get back on track. Throw out the left overs, re-stock the fridge, and file your FAFSA; grad school awaits. emoticon
Everything else will fall into place.

If you look at the BIG picture... 3 days out of 365 = some minuscule percentage.

Hang in there and get back on track ... emoticon

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LILLI56 7/20/2011 8:13PM

    wow, I had a week-end just like that. . .but it was my chi chi dogs that cried all day because we ignored him. . and I ate Krystals and Taco bell. .Amish cooking would be way way better. emoticon

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JENVAMPVEGAS 7/20/2011 6:54PM

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MDEVILE 7/20/2011 6:47PM

   
Be not afraid of potatoes: some are baked well, some achieve au gratin, and some are mashed and served with garlic butter.

But all are wonderful.

Much like you.

And surprisingly resilient little bastards, at the end of the day.

Also like you. (I wouldn't leave you in the cupboard under my sink for a month, though. Promise!!)

Can I call you my sweet potato, or is that too forward?

Never forget that you are amazing. I have photographic evidence if you need reminding. :D

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FARAWAY01 7/20/2011 6:42PM

    You never fail to entertain me, even at your lowest. Love your blogs! Bad food does the same thing to me - I feel horrible after over-indulging and it takes days to get the body back to 'normal'. You can do it! Sometimes crying is the best answer to let off stress. Nothing wrong with that. Hope you're feeling better soon!
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MOHAW54 7/20/2011 6:40PM

    We all do it -- today is another day

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SNOOKUMS19 7/20/2011 6:18PM

    Take a breathe my friend. I'm ready to have one of those days myself. Be prepared :). I know when I've been very bad to myself I make sure I get my vitamins in and start guzziling water by the gallons. Small things that seem to help. Watch a mushy chick flick or even some old episodes of Glee...My total indulgence and get on with it tomorrow. We are here for you on the good days and bad my peep.

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TOFUCUTIEPIE 7/20/2011 5:37PM

    We all need these pity parties. I think it is what helps us succeed. Sure we could put on a front and pretend that nothing is bothering us but what good is lying to yourself because you know you feel like crap! I hope you feel so much better after writing that all out. I have been fuming at work all day over something that happened and contemplating whether I should address my boss about it. Well, 2 hours of "bitching" later and I feel much better, even if nothing is resolved!

It was one week, that's. You didn't undo all of your hard work, not by a long shot. You made you bed, laid in it, and now you are back up and making it again. That's the best thing anyone can do and it shows that you truly will succeed. If you can pick yourself up and keep moving ahead, you will be set!

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NATURALSTYLE 7/20/2011 5:30PM

    Okay now that you have it out of your system and on paper, get back to what you were doing before your family visit and bad eating weekend began. I can totally relate to all that you have said...I had a meltdown the other weekend (I have an early stages Alzheimer's mother and my youngest son has ADHD), I hit the wall and cried like a girl in public. After that weekend I vowed to put myself first and know that there will be times that I go off plan, but the thing is to get back up and pick up where you left off.
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SPRINGHAZE 7/20/2011 4:44PM

    I hope by the time you get this things are going better. Today is a new day! I love your wit and honesty.

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VK2Z10 7/20/2011 4:37PM

    this was ONE weekend. you are not a complete screw-up, unless you let yourself go completely. learn from this weekend and move on. take this new lifestyle one change at a time.

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PIPPAGREY 7/20/2011 4:16PM

    Oh Dear. emoticon

I had to check and see if you were local (you aren't) after reading about the weeds. I got "yellow flagged" the other week and the letter sounds similar though mine didn't offer, however insincerely, any help. I'm glad that everyone else with plots has 40 hours a week to remove crabgrass when it's tiny, but just like you, I've got a life! I initially freaked, but then counted the hours weeding as exercise, because that was hard work.



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JOABEHR 7/20/2011 3:56PM

    Ok. I got a good laugh from your dramatic explanation of your eating disaster! Enjoy times with family and friends, keep the love and now move on. Back Sparking and you will recover from this temporary insanity.

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KATJA-THE-GREAT 7/20/2011 12:30PM

    so true, either you can let these set backs completely derail the train or you can go through the motions until you get back on track. You are a total rockstar so I know you will get back on track! emoticon

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PATTILYNN224 7/20/2011 12:18PM

    You have got Way Too Much on your plate.

Take a breath and cut yourself some slack.

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AJB121299 7/20/2011 12:04PM

    know this--it is over and every day is a new day. Good luck the rest of this week

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PAWSINAZ 7/20/2011 11:25AM

    We all have these days, but with the amount of people you touch, move and inspire you are NOT a failure! emoticon

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NITABEAN82 7/20/2011 11:04AM

    Give yourself a break. Everyone falls off the wagon from time to time. Try to forget about the past week, and move forward, even if it means restarting the program. You are on the right path.

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DARUMA 7/20/2011 11:00AM

    You know what they say about sitting on the pity pot. All you'll end up with is a ring around your butt.

You're picking yourself up and brushing yourself off and getting back on the path. It isn't the last time you'll stray.

What is your plan for the next time your sister and mom come? Can you find healthier foods at the places you go to? Can you limit the number of meals you eat at unhealthy restaurants? I'm not going to touch the Amish food - it is unredeemable. Can you think of ways to exercise with your family - a walk in the park, etc? It might not be your exercise of choice but if it gets you moving that's better than sitting around.


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CONFIDO999 7/20/2011 9:52AM

    You are awesome, brave, honest, and beautiful! I hope in the last two days since this blog post you have cleaned out your system and are starting to feel good about the world again. The world certainly feels good about you--thanks for sharing all these great blogs with us.

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I Took Some Really Gross Pics For a Great Cause... Wanna See?

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I took some pics today. I hate them, but they aren't for me, well, they aren't for me right now. They are for future me.

You see, future me, the one who does triathlons, who has completed the Vegas Rock n Roll Half (December 4, be there or be square) and runs 5Ks without stopping, is going to LOVE these pics. She will be all look at me, busting these pics out as street cred when she tries to educate patients to get off their hineys and get moving.

She will say, hey, I know what it is like to wonder if you'll have to be removed from your house with a forklift and appear on Jerry Springer-esque shows about fat people who desperately need help. If I can do it, you can do it! I USED to look like this, and now I can stand in ONE leg of my old jeans. I used to look like this (today's pics) but today I'm a hard body and you can bounce chainsaws off of my incredibly tight bum!

I can take these, and cringe, and give myself a few moments of self-loathing, and then make the decision to share them with all of you because I have a bedrock, unshakeable, foundational belief that these are "before" pics. Well, technically they are -37 pound pics, but they are certainly not "after" photos.

So the next time you don't want to have your picture taken with your family because you look fat, or you don't want to have your picture taken in a bathing suit, or you don't want your driver's license photo taken, just remember that they will one day be your before pics and they will be so incredibly worth it.

Fittingin130 and SouthPondCamp, I blame you both for this.

Got before pics?

Modeling 3D Glasses after Transformers 3 last night:


I can see a difference when I compare the 3D glasses pic with this pic, which was very near my starting weight:


#277, Today, getting ready for the gym. Yes, I have a rubber ducky problem.


The less traumatizing view:


The shirt that makes me look more boobalicious, less belly, if I look at it just the right way. hahaha.


  
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FATDADDY1974 3/7/2012 11:41AM

  Wow I applaud you. I think the pics are great. I have been tryin to get up the nerve to post a as you put it "gross" pic. Like maybe a shirtless pic. But so far I have not been brave enough. I may just have to do it to have a pic to look at when I get to my ideal weight.

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DHALYIA 8/6/2011 1:55AM

    You can see the big difference!!! Im right there with ya, but I am too coward to post the before pics. Brave woman!!! I know you are gonna succeed!

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IONA72 7/26/2011 5:33PM

    Good for you having the foresight to impress your future self. emoticon

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JENN26POINT2 7/26/2011 5:02PM

    Love the ducks! My kids' bathroom is decorated in ducks... we must be of the same genetic make-up... lol See my comment on your "feeling sorry for myself" blog.

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BESEVEN 7/24/2011 2:26AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You rock, Jenn. And your writing talents are wasted on surgical articles.

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KRISHASDOGS 7/22/2011 3:55PM

    I love the expressions in your pictures - they will make them twice as wonderful for athletic you to show off!
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DIMIDIUM 7/22/2011 11:26AM

  I love the fact that you have physical goals for yourself beyond the weight loss!

And I have a duck issue in my bathroom too!

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ALOFA0509 7/22/2011 2:38AM

   
Your awsum!!!

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ROCKINMOM77 7/21/2011 10:27AM

    Jenn, you are doing so awesome!! I love that you took the new pics, I have the same kind of pics of me on my photo's, to me it says that you are in this for real and will NOt quit!! You are very determined and inspired and on FIRE!! If your like me, those pics say to me: I WILL NOT FAIL!!! Keep up the awesome work!! emoticon It is showing!!

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INTOTHEJAM2 7/21/2011 9:49AM

    Great idea and great reminder! Last time I lost a lot of weight, I was so aggravated because I had no good before pics to compare... I think I'll take some this time!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 7/20/2011 10:11PM

    Ahhhhh how I wish my 212 self did not delete the starting pics!!! I was afraid the hubby would see them! Now my 178-9ish would love to see them and compare! I always take pictures! I cannot wait until my final goal wait of 160 to see all the work!!! You will LOVE having these to look back on! Oh Ducky my girls would freak about your bathroom!! Sparkle peep! emoticon

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SUECHRIS50 7/20/2011 8:29PM

    You are a stinker!no matter how much you weigh you are beautiful!! emoticonSUSAN

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SANDERSON83 7/20/2011 8:27PM

    You are inspirational! You are strong and courageous and you can do anything!

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-LINDA_S 7/20/2011 8:22PM

    You are very funny and very real. I need to check out some more of your posts!

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1DRWOMAN 7/20/2011 7:40PM

    Sh!t you are funny! I have a weird love for you now! :) Thank you for not only being honest, but being funny and true to yourself and your future self :) \Much love and respect,
Patty

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SNOOKUMS19 7/20/2011 6:04PM

    I can see such a difference in the first two pix! Good for you! You are awesome!!!! Rock on with your bad self!

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BIKINIMAMA11 7/20/2011 4:11PM

    Great idea to take the pics...wish I had. I LOVE how you talk about the future "you" doing all these great things....sounds like you've set some awesome goals. Great job! Oh, and yes, you certainly can see a big difference in the 1st 2 photos! emoticon

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MARGINALLY 7/20/2011 11:14AM

  Great idea! And great rubber ducks. emoticon

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JANEL881 7/20/2011 9:18AM

    Great attitude! I definitely should take some before pictures...try to ;)

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IMEMINE1 7/20/2011 6:38AM

    Looking good. emoticon

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ANGEL0101 7/20/2011 5:28AM

    I love your blog !!!

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DESTINYSCHOICE 7/19/2011 8:53PM

    Great job! Totally see the difference in the pics. And love your attitude, keep up the great work!



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SHERRY28269 7/19/2011 2:44PM

    Very motivating. I can see a big difference. I will probably follow your lead and take some pictures myself. emoticon

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LOGANDRYLSMOM 7/19/2011 12:41PM

    I see a big difference! Wow girl, you are doing this! Great job!

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KELLYLEIP 7/18/2011 9:46PM

    I like your attitude. I'm so tired right now and just want to go to bed, but you've motivated me to go for 30 minutes on my elliptical. We haven't been good friends lately and we need to rekindle that relationship! We can do it! Thanks for the motivation. Keep up your great work.

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WANDERINGGIRL 7/18/2011 8:48PM

    YOU ARE AWESOME, AMAZING, BRAVE AND BEAUTIFUL! Keep up the great work. emoticon emoticon

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SIMPLY_KATIE 7/18/2011 8:34PM

    I like the word boobalicious. :P

There's definitely a difference in the first pic! Well done! And I like the faces you're pulling in the pics in your bathroom mirror hehe.

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MISTYBLUE716 7/18/2011 8:06PM

    Good job! "Before" pics are a great idea and are motivating...especially when you begin to see more and more results! emoticon

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SHAZPATT 7/18/2011 7:21PM

    I just love you! You go girl!

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CRYSTALMEE 7/18/2011 4:09PM

    You aren't gross! You good great, but You will look GREATER! Love yourself now, and love yourself then. Losing weight is Sooo hard, but you can do it and you can be amazing the whole time.

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HERSHHEI 7/18/2011 4:03PM

    Great attitude, keep going!! I, too don't have very great pics.... but we WILL!

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CMWARDRN 7/18/2011 3:49PM

  Thank you for sharing. I need to do the same thing but not as brave as you are. I need to get up and go swim some laps. I am very limited by a back problem but I need to focus on what I can do and not on what I can't do! Good luck!


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JPRICE217 7/18/2011 3:44PM

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*~BRANDY~* 7/18/2011 3:06PM

    Way to go!!! You look great! Kudos on posting the pix!

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MHAFLEY 7/18/2011 2:54PM

    GREAT ATTITUDE AND GREAT MOTIVATION FOR ME TODAY, AND I NEEDED IT. THANKS.

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MHAFLEY 7/18/2011 2:53PM

    GREAT ATTITUDE AND GREAT MOTIVATION FOR ME TODAY, AND I NEEDED IT. THANKS.

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LUCKIEST24 7/18/2011 2:04PM

    You are fantastic! Your attitude and humor will treat you well on your journey to a healthier you!!! Well done!!!

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BOJO1517 7/18/2011 12:59PM

    You can do it. Keep it UP!

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MAAYOTTE 7/18/2011 12:26PM

    Just love the attitude. You rock!

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DENIECY 7/18/2011 12:21PM

  Keep up the good work emoticon

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DEBLYNN323 7/18/2011 11:38AM

    emoticon...appreciate your success thus far!

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SAMMYSWEETPEA 7/18/2011 11:35AM

    I've got these same pictures of myself, but I'm not brave enough to post them. Good for you!

And I *love* your ducks. Every bathroom in my house has one; plus there is a "groom" duck on my husband's night stand and a "bride" duck on mine!

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FLUTTEROFSTARS 7/18/2011 11:33AM

    Your blog is so inspiring, and so honest, and so enjoyable to read! I took some "before" pics yesterday (although, they're really -17 pics) - it took me almost 2 months into this journey before I got up the courage to take them. And it will probably taken even longer before I ever have the courage to post them! You're fearless, and if I ever do get brave enough to post my own pics, it'll be because of weight loss warriors like you inspiring me to get out of my comfort zone!!

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THATGIRL7 7/18/2011 11:17AM

    Hey, you should have written that it was a NSFW blog!

Nah, just kidding.

I hear you about the "before" pics. I also did some pictures but I didn't post the ones with only my bra. Congrats about that!

And I just love the grin on your third picture. So funny!

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NELLINATOR 7/18/2011 10:58AM

  Thanks for posting this. I think I'll get out my camera and take some before photos too!

Keep up the great work! I can see the difference between the 1st 2 photos! emoticon

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RMSTOKES1 7/18/2011 10:52AM

  Thanks for sharing... Your in the right mind set, keep up the good work! emoticon

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GINGERRA1980 7/18/2011 10:45AM

    love the pix ...your rocked it!

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DIGITALGURL 7/18/2011 10:42AM

    :)

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RORYJOJO 7/18/2011 10:38AM

    I LOVE the faces you were making in those photos! Too awesome! thank you for sharing!

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TSISQUAUSDI 7/18/2011 9:14AM

    You go, girl!!!

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Avoiding Perks? Avoiding Fun?

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

So my workplace has a lovely traditional of employee appreciation: the catered breakfast. On this day, once a year, a caterer comes in and provides orange juice and home fries and muffins and croissants and fruit salad, and of course, an omelet station.

It's yummy and fun and people gorge themselves on food.

I've been behaving myself, not a speck of dairy, meat or egg since the 4th of July when I had a brat. I've been cooking for myself instead of doing the restaurant thing (which seems to speed my weighloss notably). Well, that angelic food streak is over.

I had a cup of greasy home fries, a cup of fruit salad, a lemon poppyseed muffin (the kiss of death), 5 pieces of bacon and two cups of OJ. Yes, I thought I was being all good by not having an omelet. I was wrong. I should have had the stupid omelet, and spared myself the turmoil of the nearly 500 calorie muffin. All told, 1,245 calories. My calorie range is 1,200 to 1,500. Eeeeeeek. It wasn't even that naughty! It wasn't like crepes stuffed with marscapone and cherries and unholy nummyness or a filet mignon with shrimp on top (which would have been half the calories, if you are wondering). It was orange juice for the love of Inky, Pinky, Blinky and Clyde.

Why do I always find out the calorie count AFTER I shove the yummy goodness into my muffin hole? It must be the ignorance is bliss syndrome-method, because had I bothered to look, I would have avoided that calorie count like the food plague.

It's not like I'm going to run to the vomitorium and try to erase the reality of my food housing ways, but I am experiencing some food regret. (Note: No food guilt, food guilt bad, regret OK) If I was going to voilate my rules and consume 1,245 calories, it should have tasted better.

It should have been a jar of Krema's spicy peanut butter, or double fisted handfuls of cashews and pistachios (picture cookie monster, with nuts) or vegan chocolate chip cookies from Whole Foods. It should not have been lukewarm fried potatoes and pulpless OJ. The bacon, well, that was worth every calorie, but dangit, what a waste of some perfectly tasty calories! I could have spent my calories wisely, or even on naughty food, but the whole idea that I used that huge bolus of calories on stuff that didn't even make my heart go pitty pat is kind of regret-inducing.

It should have been guacamole and chips and salsa, or a loaded bean burrito, or a peachy coconutty super awesome smoothie or some stir fried green beans with tofu and cashews and extra cashews. It shouldn't have been food that I don't dream of when I'm hungry!

To add calorie insult to calorie injury, tonight is date night, and while I jest (sort of) that I am going to have a carrot for lunch and a piece of celery for dinner, I'm still having the pizza that we have planned on having for a week, and I won't feel guilty about it. I'm going to start with my usual giant salad with dressing that I dip my fork into followed by the best vegan pizza (yes, there is such a thing) on the planet.

I won't feel guilty, I will be over my calories, and that is Ok, because this is a lifestyle. I will count the calories. I will not make my food log private. It isn't a diet, I'm no longer on the hamster wheel of food guilt where overeating drives me to eat, which causes guilt, which causes me to eat. I'm going to eat pizza, ride my newly tuned bike with Cheffrey, enjoy the wind in my hair and the sun on my face, and I am going to enjoy myself tremendously.

So, what would you be eating if you were going to have a 1,245 calorie meal that was so good it would make your toes curl?

P.S. Vegan pizza is from Mellow Mushroom, a chain that is in many states including Georgia, Tennessee and Ohio. mellowmushroom.com

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

RITAROSE 7/20/2011 9:52PM

  As long as you pick yourself up and start anew, you're going to do just fine! We all blow it now and then, but the difference is what happens afterwards! You can do it!!

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KLASSIE 7/20/2011 12:35PM

    I chuckled when I read your blog. I had dental surgery on Monday and cannot chew so I went to the supermarket yesterday and picked up a tub of ice cream. I never crave ice cream, cakes yes, but not ice cream. Halfway to the register I checked myself. Why waste calories on something I could care less about. So I put it back. And to answer your question, if I could have my craving satisfied right now, and if chewing was not prohibited, I'd go for a shrimp roti.

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LORETTA24 7/20/2011 10:32AM

    emoticon The list of foods that call out to me can sometimes be deafening. emoticon LOL Hmmmmmm ... bavarian cream long johns with chocolate frosting ... any form of ice cream without coffee or nuts, pastries, pulled bar-b-que sandwiches, loaded baked potatoes, sweet and sour stir fry rice, my families Swedish cookies, banana cake with peanut butter frosting, loaded down hamburgers with fat sized home fries, macaroni salad, potato salad, pancakes, pasta, pasta, pasta, homemade breads with lots of butter, mmmmmmmmmmm .... and the list goes on. It is good to know I am not challenged alone. lol Stay safe and keep smiling sunshine. emoticon

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EVWINGS 7/20/2011 7:16AM

    It's ok, Jenn. You let down and let your eye take over from your brain for a few minutes. This happens to me every couple of months. But let me tell you when I am able to eat anything again - especially something that doesn't taste like metal - I am planning on having half a personal pizza made the way I want!! That is my dream. It is so strange now though I can't eat much at all, I've been able to have all the milkshakes that I want. I had some banana ones, and since I hadn't had any in like 4 yrs, these will most likely last me for 4 or maybe more years. Thanks for the thought. Perhaps that's a guilty pleasure I can have to celebrate being a 5 yr survivor!!!

Thank you once more for your wonderful posts.

Ev

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CHRISTINECE 7/18/2011 5:50PM

    1200 calories. Hmm... pizza, italian food in general, ice cream... my downfall, choc chip cookies.

You are so right, this is a lifestyle and it is OKAY to sway to the right, just count the darn calories and move forward. I had that oh tasty smore on July 4. One. And THAT was worth it. I had saved in other areas, knowing I would go over anyway. Last weekend, we were out and about and walked a mile (seems so short, but it wasn't cuz of the kind of day) and I had the Herfy's cheeseburger. Yup. Tasted good. No shake. Just the burger. It's about choices and CONSCIOUSLY making the choices.

Thank you for your blog - your posts are SO timely!

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BANDMOM2012 7/18/2011 2:46PM

    I love having a meal that I enjoy no matter what the calories. It just cant be that everymeal is a meal that I love no matter the calories.

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WEDDLEACE 7/18/2011 1:13PM

    Great blog! And such a good reminder that the "world doesn't end" if we have a high calorie, not on the plan meal. It happens. The fact that you can roll with it, make the necessary adjustments, and move on speaks VOLUMES of your progress, not only physically, but the ever-important MENTALLY! Way to go :-)

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MEAGANNAOMI 7/17/2011 6:30PM

    I'd spend it on pizza... I'm a total pizza-a-holic. I never get tired of it - and - its NEVER enough. I like pepperoni and sausage - the more cheese and sauce the better it is. *rolls in it like a dog in dirt* ohhh yeah!

Heh.

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LILACBREEZIN 7/17/2011 1:37PM

    Love this blog, and your attitude! I would have Pizza Hut veggie pan pizza and cheesy breadsticks!! Oh yal, hot fudge sundae for dessert, lol.

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FARAWAY01 7/17/2011 11:50AM

    I'd probably go for a sinfully creamy italian pasta dish of some sort (non-tomato sauce), which I'm only avoiding 'for now' because I'm on a streak and don't want to sabotage myself. Like you I think this is a lifestyle, so those things aren't out of my life altogether. I just lose weight a lot faster without white foods/sugar. Everyone eats over their calories somtimes so I don't beat myself up, I just get back on plan. I did really badly one day last week and got right on track and hit my workouts hard and I lost more weight than I thought I would. Woohoo! I think my body has to have excess calories to let go of the weight as this has happened to me many times.

Next year you'll know to have the omlette with veggies and fruit. Eggs are good protein as long as you don't load them up with high fat meats/cheeses. In a rush one of my go to meals is a plain 2 egg omlette topped with chopped tomatoes and feta. No need to villify the egg!

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KANSASROSE67 7/16/2011 1:43PM

    I would go to Applebees and order the Chocolate Chip Cookie Sundae dessert they have (it's like 1500 calories) and EAT THE WHOLE THING ALL BY MYSELF!

Nice blog.

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CHRIAMARIA1983 7/15/2011 12:21AM

    That was so me tonight! Almost 500 calories over...on fish and tartar sauce! Ice Cream would have been worth it!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 7/14/2011 11:19PM

    Too funny! Mmmmmm bacon!

The one thing I've really wanted lately is some seriously full-fat-cholesterol chocolate/mocha/nut/fudge ice cream. But I'm afraid it could be a trigger so I put it out of my mind. The lighter versions wont do. And I bet it would make me feel BAD, so, I'll leave it as a good memory for now.

I love how I can still have a small piece of lean steak, small baked potato with yogurt instead of sour cream, along with lots of veggies and stay within in calories and nutrition goals! (on occasion)

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JULIA1154 7/14/2011 11:13PM

  I feel your pain! That combination of chagrin and regret when you learn just how many calories that less than stellar meal contained is one of the strongest arguments in my mind for an iPhone with the Spark app! Not that I want another device to learn my way around. I just don't like that sense of 'oh, jeez, it had HOW MANY calories???'

I'm so glad you labeled it "regret" rather than guilt, etc. I cringe every time I see references to a "diet" rather than "lifestyle" orientation.

As to that meal - it would probably involve a fresh crab or some steamed clams - and the bread to soak up the broth. Or any meal eaten in Italy or Greece....

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JULES-AT-HEART 7/14/2011 9:30PM

    I think it's great that you enjoy your life and not get sidelined by guilt. Guilt really is a useless emotion tho it rules most of us and has us making decisions because of it.

If I were to choose any foods it would probably something with a creamy sauce or sour cream such as fettucine alfredo (one of my all-time faves) or a huge plate of 4-5 baked potatoes smothered with mozzarella and sour cream (which I admit I have eaten many times in the past).

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VEGGIEGIRLCOURT 7/14/2011 6:02PM

    I don't know what I'd eat...but I'd probably regret it after too...it's never as good as it should be when it's that high in calories! The good food is usually so rich that you CAN'T eat that many calories of it...lol!! And the healthy good food usually adds up to that in an entire day!

Live and learn :).

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TRUKELEO 7/14/2011 4:54PM

    Mellow Mushroom!! Yay....I saw one the other day....now I know what to order when I go:) Thanks.

Just loved your allusion to Pac Man..you crack me up!!

Okay...not an answer to your question but....

My hubby decided he wanted to go out for just dessert tonight instead of dinner. After my initial panic, I thought "Why Not?!" but first I looked up the calories online. We are going to Outback where he always gets the carrot cake and I get the CHOCOLATE THUNDER FROM DOWN UNDER:) Ahhhhh!!!!

Bottom Line;( Carrot Cake=448 calories and my treat=1910 calories!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you believe that? SOOOOOO.....carrot cake for me...which is AMAZINGLY so few calories.

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TERESA159 7/14/2011 2:46PM

    I'd have a Founder's Favorite from Cold Stone served in a chocolate dipped waffle bowl. In fact, I DID have that last night and it's probably even more than 1250 calories. No guilt and very little regret. Sometimes, we just do it.

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SAVEMESANDRA 7/14/2011 2:29PM

  Good for you -- not a diet, but a lifestyle! Enjoy the pizza, the bike ride, the sunshine and your special time with hubby!

HHHmmm....for 1200 calories, I would have guacamole and mango margaritas -- mas tequila! emoticon

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BADASSBLONDIE 7/14/2011 1:00PM

    I had a similar issue recently. There are these breakfast croissants that are at this cafe near Boy's campus. And they're croissant with egg and cheese and bacon. And they're amazing. So, I decided on my fourth day (in a row) of my studying marathon, that I had earned a tasty breakfast to go will my really tasty coffee. The croissant wasn't as good as usual. Not that that stopped me from eating all of it. I went to my favorite coffee place (wchich serves the BEST coffee but uses real cream...) and had coffee as well. You know, to help study. The coffee wasn't as sweet as I like it (and I'm too awkward to ask for changes). I drank most of it anyway.

That little breakfast extravaganza took up almost all my daily calories. And it wasn't even that tasty. f*ck I can relate.

Speaking of bacon, I met a chick who's like 23 and had Never. Eaten. Bacon. So we (all her fellow grad studnets and I) threw her a bacon party. 6lbs of bacon was bought for that party. PLUS all the extra bacon-ified dishes people brought. I like to think that her life has forever changed.

Now, for that kind of a meal, I would have some delicious indian food, chicken korma or butter chicken with garlic naan and rice, papadam and samosas and chicken pekora. Or I'd have some chicago style pizza, with roasted garlic and sausage and a bit of pesto, just to mix it up. Or I'd go to my favorite chinese place and get kung pao chicken and sweet and sour prawns and bbq chicken fried rice and egg rolls and potstickers (which I dip in sweet and sour sauce b/c the sauce that comes with pot stickers is lame). NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM

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LOSUNS 7/14/2011 11:03AM

    I would say anything deep fried...fries, tater tots, mozzerella sticks, spring rolls,etc etc. I just can't trust myself around them nom nom nom.

Either that or a massive plate of carb-laden Thai food with spring rolls to start...or a loaded burrito with chips and salsa...

You get the idea! BTW Bacon is totally worth a calorie splurge :)

Keep calm and carry on as my tea mug says-You are a rock star and your blogs are wicked awesome!




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LISADAVIDSON68 7/14/2011 10:17AM

    Its so true that muffins are the kiss of death. But I sooo love baked goods. And I agree. Oh well. Its done, and you won't do again anytime soon because we know better now. I splurged recently on a burger and fries. And I felt so sluggish afterward. It tasted good, but my body was NOT happy. Food as fuel, food as fuel....

And I would have eaten the bacon too!! LOL

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AMYE1083 7/14/2011 9:49AM

    I love your blog, btw. And I also experience the same kind of calorie guilt! Not that I ate so many calories, but that it was on food that just wasn't worth it. When I gorge myself, it's on chicken wings (saucy, dipped in blue cheese...i.e. the food sent from the heavens) or on a huge piece of brownie and a big thing of milk. Sometimes there's just no matching that chocolate/milk combo! And hard cider. At 200 calories a bottle, sometimes it's just worth it.

I hate it when I waste my calories on catered so-so food, like cookies or donuts. Or soggy fried chicken. Catered muffins are really not that good, as you have found out.

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MSPEACHYJONES 7/14/2011 8:50AM

    I love your attitude of moving on and not feeling guilty! That is awesome, because the best way of learning is to make mistakes and move on from them. The pizza sounds fabulous! I'm very jealous emoticon
One meal can't blow all you've achieved, tomorrow is another day. Keep on rockin it emoticon

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WANDATIME 7/14/2011 8:19AM

    For 1,200+ calories, I'd eat the biggest slab of lasagna I could find, followed up with a ginormous piece of chocolate cake with chocolate icing.

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MILLIE5522 7/14/2011 7:57AM

    Nuts! (No , not you!) Peanuts!! I love them. I was mortified when I found out their calorie content and how I must have been eating over a thousand calories for an average size bag. emoticon

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MOSTMOM1 7/14/2011 7:38AM

    I like the way you're thinking these days! Good for you! Hmm, not sure what my indulgence would be. Lately, it seems when I do indulge, it wasn't as great as I thought it would be. Imagine high-fat foods letting us down! Who'dve thunk it? I think I'll go with you and take a cashew/almond/pistachio binge.


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RONOSOF 7/14/2011 7:27AM

    CHEESECAKE!!!! emoticonCOCKTAILS!!!! emoticon emoticon

I better go eat breakfast;)

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EMMANYC 7/14/2011 7:18AM

    If I were to have the 1250 toe-curling meal, I would take myself back to France (where we used to live) and have the following:

1) whatever nifty amouse-bouche (literally, "amuse mouth") the chef was offering that night;
2) champagne and oysters;
3) duck breast with cherry sauce and more wine;
4) perfect frites;
5) Epoisses (a stinky runny cheese that is so "live" it could probably shake your hand) with really good French bread; and
6) tarte Normande (a slightly custardy apple tart without a lot of pastry).

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TBANMAN 7/14/2011 1:23AM

    I remember the first time I plugged Chinese food into the Nutrition Tracker.

Gack!

For me, indulging is a nice big scoop - or two - of the macaroni and cheese on the Whole Foods lunch buffet.

Num num NUM!

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KARMA70 7/13/2011 11:44PM

    I can totally relate! I've gone way over on a few occasions then thought why did I eat that, I didn't even enjoy it. The things that used to have a hold over me really aren't all that alluring now - like McDonald's cheeseburgers. I hear you about the bacon though. I loooove bacon! I only occasionally eat it now if I go out for breakfast and I allow myself to enjoy every greasy bite!

You are right on target about this being a lifestyle! Having extra calories every once in awhile (or even a few days in a row) is not the end of the world. What counts is being that new person who goes for bike rides for fun and craves brussel sprouts for a snack!

Way to go!


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LYSS-AH 7/13/2011 11:37PM

    I think that I agree that the odd indulgence shouldn't be the end of the world.

Like yesterday, I totally went over my calorie count.
Like you, I tend to neglect to look at some packaging prior to inhaling it. Yesterday was the monthly Birthday Cake day at the office. Last month, when I'd just started, I avoided it like the plague - even though is was for my birthday. Monday, at my in-laws, I again managed to avoid the cake and cupcakes. But yesterday, I decided that I'd been great, and could afford the calories and fat. So I took a piece of the oh-so-delicious oreo cookie and cream ice cream cake, and split it with a co-worker.
After savoring every itty bitty morcel, I went online so that I could log it, only to discover that this 2oz piece of cake contained 340 calories! I almost died.
What actually pushed me over was a oh-so very delicious soy smoothie. And I'd do it again! Well, maybe in a few weeks anyway.

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MONETRUBY 7/13/2011 11:09PM

    Fried chicken, hush puppies, mebbe a nice steak...and dessert! Of course, a lot of this depends on my mood. It might be Chinese one night, Italian another, or my new fave food, sushi! Wonder how much sushi one would have to consume to get up to 1200 calories? Would it make me turn into a fish? Would I then become sushi myself?

Big yay for vegan pizza at the Mushroom! I must try it someday soon.

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CHAR1970 7/13/2011 10:59PM

    I'd have gone for the omelet lol. But I love whole eggs (good or bad). And bacon, mmmmmmmmmmmm.

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SILENTE8 7/13/2011 10:56PM

  I would blow my diet for cheesecake. Huckleberry or raspberry are my faves. I think you're doing great, though. We all go over our calories once in a while. It is so great that you got right back on track again with date night. Way to go! ~Erin

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PRUSSION 7/13/2011 10:37PM

    I am too rigid in regards to food. I have to be. When I go over my daily quota I need to remind myself to get baCK ON THE HORSE AGAIN. I DON'T NEED TO STAY DOWN ON THE GROUND BECAUSE OF AN EXTRA COOKIE OR TWO. I used to. Food is too good and I need to indulge once in awhile because it reminds me I am human.

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DOLPHINDREAM 7/13/2011 10:31PM

    I went to a family gathering last weekend and knew the menu up front. So I did my research and planned out my meal....that did no good at all...they changed the menu from backed chicken and sides to Italian Sausage with roles and meatballs, with a pasta salad and veggies....so sometimes planning doesnt work...take it all in stride.


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MAMADWARF 7/13/2011 9:57PM

    I would have steak, baked potatoes with sour cream and bacon bits and green onions, a couple of onion rings and some really good baked bread with REAL Butter...

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FITMRSKAYTE 7/13/2011 9:34PM

    If I could blow it out? Pad Thai for starters, or the Basciola Farfalle at Portofinos. Or even just some good NC BBQ and some hushpuppies. At my previous office they bought cupcakes for your birthday from the local grocery store. Do you know what that "frosting" is made out of? Colored, sugared, Lard! Eww! And I would eat one anyways as gratitude for remembering my birthday. Yuck! No way, give me a pain au chocolat from Cafe Montes. I've taught myself to only eat it if it is worth it! Junk food and fast food are crappy things to blow your calories on.

All that said I'm glad you didn't change your plans later. Good for you for moving on!

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QUILTYENGINEER 7/13/2011 8:35PM

    I do that too sometimes -- eat too many calories on something that wasn't all that tasty. It seems like such a waste. If one is going to overeat, then it might as well be with something delicious. I also like your attitude about regret, but not guilt! I'll have to adopt that attitude.

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YOUNGANGELAM 7/13/2011 8:23PM

  Oh heavens... I am with you on the guacamole and chips. BEST use of calories ever. Yeah-- suprising calories on things like muffins and oj. They'll kill ya! haha. but they are delightful.

I might spend all 1200 on bacon alone though. I love me some bacon.

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CANNIE50 7/13/2011 8:20PM

    I thought sure you would say you had the omelette. I swear by eggs because they are so packed with protein and when I eat them for breakfast I am set for hours. What is done is done, what is eaten is eaten, and we are here to become healthier and fitter, not perfect. Thank God you are not perfect - that would ruin your blogs (how's that for me thinking about ME?) emoticon PS I love your description of date night.

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23KAIYA 7/13/2011 8:11PM

    everything! little bits of everything...cheesecake, egg dishes, fried potatoes, steak, seafood, chowders, cheeses, pasta's, chinese food and sushi...you name it!

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ZAZZABEN 7/13/2011 8:01PM

    At this point, I would spend the "extra" on Pub Grub. Beer, potato skins, chicken wings, and fried cheese, bleu cheese, and the cursory celery sticks.

Though, I used to LOVE a frozen mudslide, and I think one would probably equal 1200 calories (and don't tell me otherwise).



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SUNSHINE192DAY 7/13/2011 8:01PM

    You should start looking up possible stuff that will be there the night before you know a situation like that is coming so you know what you can eat. I would've never thought to do that though. If I had the calories I'd do crab ragoon, Mongolian beef, and Mt Dew!!!

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X-GIRRRL 7/13/2011 7:44PM

    Love Mellow Mushroom!

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SWIMMERM0M3 7/13/2011 6:24PM

    That is a difficult question since my tastes buds are like alien beings since encountering SparkPeople. My one calorie "regret" if you will, in the past six weeks was the "Italian hamburger" that my husband cooked for me after we completed an eight mile hike. He'd been making them for my daughter: a quarter pound of ground beef, mozzarella cheese, sundried tomatoes, portabella mushrooms. He measured everything out so I could count all 833 calories (over half my day's quota). OMG! If I had known that calorie count beforehand... It was delicious and I had worked hard, but man, I could have skipped that 250 calorie nothing special bun and had ice cream. You know what I mean?

Jenn, I think you did fine as long as you were aware of what you were eating. It is even better that you aren't beating yourself up about it and the whole train didn't derail.

Sometimes I am not so sure the "right" choice is the "best" choice. I was out the other afternoon after my swim and went past the best chocolate store in town and I am not a huge chocolate fan, but they make these incredible salted caramel chocolates. I briefly flirted with the idea of buying one, but then practically ran to Trader Joe's and bought the usual blah protein bar.

It was the right choice, but I am not so sure that sitting in the funky courtyard in the sun ans savoring that one mouthful of lushessness wouldn't have been the "best" choice. It may have even been less calories and it certainly would have been living to the fullest in the moment.

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LUCKYPRESENCE 7/13/2011 6:17PM

    I would go to OLIVE GARDEN and have my favorite dish which is the portabello stuffed tortellinis. And I would consume more than my share of those insanely good breadsticks. And to wash it all down? A strawberry daiquri of course. Dessert you ask? You betcha!! Anything on the dessert menu would work. emoticon

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THELILEA 7/13/2011 5:32PM

    I'm all about eating something you REALLY want and will enjoy if you are going to be going that direction at all. Get the bang of for your calorie buck! Don't feel guilty, just learn and enjoy life!! :)

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GORIANA 7/13/2011 4:42PM

    I know how this feels. At the end of the day I sit down and have just a hot chocolate then just a small muffin and maybe a little of this and that and before it's over, I'm at least 300 calories over my goal, and at the end of the week, no weight loss. One day we'll figure it out.

For me a splurge at a a yummy restaurant around here, I'll take a juicy burger and maybe some chili cheese fries and if I still have calories left, I'll drink a margarita.

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The First Time This Has Happened... Ever.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

I was really busy at work earlier this week, and I was at a HUGE facility where it felt like it would be a hike of miles to the cafeteria, and just a giant pain in the patooty to get some food. Not to mention the fact that cafeteria food is suspect at best and I kept getting distracted by the demands of work and it just seemed easier to skip it.

Yes, that is correct. I have violated the unwritten fat girl code. I thought it was easier to go without food. Freakish, isn't it? Warning to the people of Ohio: I will also be violating the code again in the near future by riding my bike in public, even though the seat is so tiny and my ass so large that it looks like I inserted the seat into my rectum rather than mounting it.

I had a red green smoothie for breakfast, which isn't really a stick-to-your-ribs kind of meal, even if it is tremendously healthful. But you can only imagine my shock when a coworker said to me around 1530 (and this is a freaking quote--squeeeeee!), "you need to go eat something, you're grumpy." Who knew being referred to as grumpy could be so joy-inducing?

Yes, it is true. I went without food, and ignored the fact that it was lunch time, and past lunch time, because I was busy and not quite hungry enough to gnaw my arm off, and well, I was busy.

Go eat something, you're grumpy.

Wow.

I'm not sure I've gone without eating long enough to have this happen in my adult life. If it did happen, I can't summon the memory. I read somewhere that most American adults haven't been truly hungry in a decade. I think I resemble that remark.

I am the girl who was always eating for every reason under the sun BUT hunger. I was bored, I was stressed, I was tempted by something in the cupboard, it was time to eat, the sun was shining, the day of the week ended in -day, a rerun of Law and Order was on TV, I fed the dogs so surely I should feed myself as well, and the list goes on.

So this, like ordering the healthiest thing on the menu last week OUT OF HABIT and not realizing it until hours later, may be a sign that this whole lifestyle thing may actually be becoming a lifestyle instead of a whole lot of talk about lifestyle.

The red in color, but green in type, smoothie:

  
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JGILBERTMDY 8/10/2011 7:41PM

    Awesome post! Glad that the lifestyle is sticking to you ribs! emoticon

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LALA0123 7/18/2011 11:40PM

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FLUTTEROFSTARS 7/18/2011 12:57PM

    LOL! I loved this! Especially the bit about all the reasons we fatgirls eat - "I was bored, I was stressed, I was tempted by something in the cupboard, it was time to eat, the sun was shining, the day of the week ended in -day" - you had me giggling, and yet it's so true for me, too!!!

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MEAGANNAOMI 7/17/2011 5:22PM

    *cheers* woohooo

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KID-AT-HEART 7/17/2011 2:06AM

    You are hilarious! And...you will be successful!

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ATGHR10 7/16/2011 8:41PM

  Awesome words today!!

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EMPTRS 7/15/2011 2:03PM

    YAHOO!! It is so freeing when food doesn't rule our lives!!! Keep it up!

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BLACKJACK67 7/15/2011 8:47AM

    Way to go.

You made me laugh out loud with your comment about going bike riding!

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BLUEMOUNTAINS1 7/15/2011 1:27AM

  Congrats, sounds like you are trying to stay focused :) emoticon

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MOMTO2TOO 7/14/2011 8:07PM

    Your paragraph on when/why you eat goes under the heading, "Wish I'd Said That" in my book! You could sell it to a stand-up comic!

Thanks for sharing, and congratulations! You may, indeed, have "crossed over." emoticon

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AIMS130 7/14/2011 11:59AM

    We call it "hangry" - a combination of hungry and angry! emoticon

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WOLF648 7/14/2011 11:35AM

  Too funny!!! emoticon

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MICKEYMAX 7/14/2011 10:15AM

    You go girl!

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STACI_ECC 7/14/2011 9:40AM

    I have a tendency to get grumpy when I haven't eaten, too. And it seems like people really do have no problem with telling you! I hear it from my mom, my boyfriend, etc. But you know what? F*** them all, we'll eat when we're good and ready!!! Long live the grumpy non-eaters!!!

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KELSEYRF1 7/14/2011 9:01AM

    I have the same issue at my job! I have to walk by the unhealthy and delicious smells of the cafeteria to put water and ice in my cup... I'd rather be ravenous than give in to greasy food that will make me feel like crap and probably pass out at my desk! emoticon

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JENNYBAKER247 7/14/2011 7:52AM

    emoticon Magic. Thanks for the giggle.

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JSC143 7/14/2011 7:42AM

  Haha love it!! Gotta take what we can, right?! Thanks for the chuckle!
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SOCKMONKEYMOM 7/14/2011 7:09AM

    LOL, thank you for the chuckle! It was a great way to start my day and boy oh boy could I identify! emoticon

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WOLFKITTY 7/14/2011 12:45AM

    Congrats!!
Jocelyn

(Not to be contrary, but in my experience, part of my problem was going without food all day, and then having a big fast-food dinner. That cycle isn't good, but it's CLEAR that you aren't talking about that. It is an accomplishment to be eating because you're hungry rather than on auto-pilot!)

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DWILCZKO 7/14/2011 12:07AM

  :)

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ALLIB22 7/13/2011 10:18PM

  lol loved this blog :) i've found myself eating out of hunger or eating a healthy breakfast and actually NOT thinking about eating for the next 5 hours...unheard of for me previously...

keep up the great work - love the starbucks smoothie

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ROSALIEESTHER 7/13/2011 10:13PM

    Got me laughing out loud. Thank you!

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CANNIE50 7/13/2011 8:11PM

    emoticon not sure why this guy is smiling....

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JBGOAL120 7/13/2011 7:36PM

    Girl, I hear ya about those stupid bike seats...they remind me of that commercial where someone goes to sit on the bike seat but it is covered in barbed wire.

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GRRARRGH 7/13/2011 7:11PM

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TASTENSEE 7/13/2011 6:58PM

    So that's where my bike seat is. Thanks!

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WINELADY01 7/13/2011 6:50PM

    Oh, gosh, LMAO, the part about the bike seat!! The mental picture of me on my bike! Oh well, guess there's going to be a bunch more people that will need warnings 'cause that's one code I intend to violate. Just getting the bike tuned up, lubed and modified a little and then I get to shock the neighbors by being in bike shorts! Horror of all horrors - they'll just have to get used to it because I LIKE to ride.

At any rate, good for you for forgetting to eat. Don't do it all the time but congrats! And I want to know how to make a red/green smoothie?! I know how to make green ones but how do you get them red?? Just ask'n...

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KMORTO3 7/13/2011 6:29PM

    That was great. This has to be the best blog I have read int a long time. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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TAKINGOFF86 7/13/2011 6:01PM

  Kudos to you on the missed lunch goal. Not the healthiest thing to do of course, but a big success nonetheless emoticon I have to say I laughed out loud when I read about the bike! The mental picture of my big butt hanging over the sides of an invisible seat has stifled any attempt to do something I always loved to do. Your blog has lit a spark in me...and right now I'm thinking I'll go check out a new bike (perhaps one with a very large seat to start with) emoticon Thanks for sharing!

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METAMORPHUS 7/13/2011 5:22PM

    U too funny!

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JESUS.SAVED.ME 7/13/2011 4:48PM

    Way to go!!!!! Now, where does one find such a thing as a red/green smoothie?

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DRAGONFLY51990 7/13/2011 4:47PM

    Oh yeah! Way to go! I'm always so pleasantly surprised that although this whole eating better, exercising thing seemed so insurmountable before, it's so easy and second nature now. emoticon

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LAFEMMEDELALUNE 7/13/2011 4:25PM

    I will cheer you on if I see you around town! =)

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KARENE10 7/13/2011 4:24PM

    Great blog! Too funny!

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FARAWAY01 7/13/2011 2:56PM

    You crack me up, girl! I always enjoy your blogs.
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SERAPHENASCIENS 7/13/2011 2:52PM

    Way to go! i'm in the same boat with the whole eating for the sake of eating even tho i 'm not even remotely hungry. it's nice to hear from someone else who has the same issue and that you're beating it!

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POPEYETHETURTLE 7/13/2011 2:11PM

    Great attitude. I just subscribed to your blogs - maybe you should think of doing stand-up comedy - seriously!

Your blog was funny - and bittersweet at the same time.

Very easy to relate to because so many of us feel that way, yet we can't express it like you did.

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JOANIEBUG46 7/13/2011 1:59PM

    Terrific attitude! Really enjoyed this!

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SUNFLOWERISTA 7/13/2011 1:50PM

    you are funny :) laughed throughout

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DESTINEDTOBFIT 7/13/2011 11:28AM

  EMBRACE IT and kudos to you!!! I wish you MANY, MANY more of these experiences--in a healthy way--to the point that you're not grumpy when you haven't eaten but that your tummy feels small and makes you CHOOSE to choose healthier foods and portions.
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BUSMOM27 7/13/2011 10:56AM

    emoticon I have yet to get to that point. I still buy the cheapest thing on the menu.

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WIFEOFDAVID 7/13/2011 10:36AM

    EW! I was told that by a coworker too, and I hated it! I was smiling and trying to ask her something in a nice way and she said, "What?!" (she didn't listen to what I was trying to ask) and then brushed me off (in front of a patient (customer) and goes, "You just need to hurry and go eat something already!" and I was like EW! That was rude & hurt, b/c I was trying so hard to be kind. I told my supe and she was like, "What a rude comment! I'm sorry she said that to you. If it happens again you can tell her manager." But she is always up or down - she's happy or grumpy herself, and we have shared food or snacks before! She said yesterday "Oh you're slimming down! That is disgusting, since you eat like you do." I was like, "O geez thnx"!sigh

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NELLBELLA26 7/13/2011 10:07AM

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ERLYWA 7/13/2011 9:10AM

    Your blogs are always so encouraging AND make me smile/laugh! Your bike story...started my day off w/a laugh b/c that's how I feel whenever I get on my bike, too!

You are awesome, girl!

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ANDRAYAYA 7/13/2011 8:55AM

    emoticon!!!

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SOPHIE12344 7/13/2011 7:58AM

    Hilarious but inspiring. emoticon

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CHANGEDIN09 7/13/2011 7:41AM

    Way to go. Yes I believe it does become a habit, but I still occasionally fall off and have to get back on. The longer I stay off plan, the harder it is to get back on. GOOD LUCK

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LINDSEYBO 7/13/2011 2:05AM

    Way to go!!! I have the exact opposite problem though...i will skip then gorge later because I missed a meal and I cheated myself haha. So proud for you ordering healthy foods and all that...and slightly envious if I am being truthful! Way to rock it out!

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5K Down, The Rest of My Life To Go

Saturday, July 09, 2011

So the 5K, the first one I ever went to intending to do some running, is complete.

I learned a few things.

1) It is good to have Cheffrey walk with the person who really doesn't want to be doing the 5k and intends to do the race at a stroll, because he doesn't do these things for a time, he genuinely does it with a happy heart to help the cause. His wife, on the other hand, is all about faster, better, more and when necessary, get out of my way. I would have been on the verge of homicidal at intending to complete a 5k at the speed of darkness. This attitude is not just for 5k, it is just kind of how I am every day.

2) Finding a 5k where people don't get in your way is not as easy as it might sound. I felt like I was playing bumper cars, or maybe one of those military drills where you try to slip up, over and around barbed wire. Seriously? I mean, I'm a nice person and all, but I will shove you, your charming child and your double wide stroller into the curb if it means I can shave .002 seconds off my time, so watch out!

3) This is getting easier. I was faster and ran this time, while earlier this year when I did the Komen it was a stroll. I bet it was a 90 minute 5k, and without checking grannies into the the gutter, it would have been impossible to go any faster. Too many people. The two races felt the same in terms of effort. Funny what a few months will do for ya.

4) There were tons of coworkers there, and yes, it is true I did not leave the house without making sure that every possible hair was denuded from my legs, and that my other hair was cutely placed into a perky ponytail, and that I was clean and fresh smelling for any family that might try to hug me or coworker who had an obsession with sniffing me. But here is the thing: the ones who were volunteers were not running OR walking, so I certainly kicked their butts. The coworkers who I did see actually doing the event I saw because I was passing their happy asses, so I know I kicked their butts.

5) My time wasn't horrid, ok for a starting time I think, but the truth is that I could have gone harder and faster, I just spent a lot of time trying to figure out how to get around the slow movers. My time was 51:12, which will make it easy to improve upon later this year, but honestly I think I could have done 45 minutes without feeling like I was working harder. Besides, 51:12 means I'm really on my way to my BIG HUGE GOAL of walking 4mph for an hour!

6) Time to pick a new 5k for next month.

7) Any of you serious 5k peeps out there care to share any tips for having a great 5k and how to go out for a cause but not get boxed in behind people who are moving more slowly? I like to choose races that a) have a cause and (because I'm selfish) b) give away nice shirts, also known as not cotton. Do I really need to give up a) supporting a worth cause to b) move faster?

8) Breakfast at The Blob, AKA Bob Evans induces no guilt at all when you a) do a 5k first and b) choose things like dry toast and oatmeal :).

9) The 3X Tshirt I ordered when I signed up for this event was unbelievably oversized. I think a 1X would have gotten the job done. WOOT WOOT! I need to take a new progress photo wearing something that fits!


Photo montage, I'm hoping that even I can see a difference between these once I post this blog:
May 1, 2011:


Komen, May 14

May 20th

July 9th, 2011, Dash For Donation. Pink does not go with the donate green, but that's OK.

So, planning a 5k this year or some other race-like event? What are YOU training for?

  
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_CYNDY55_ 7/28/2011 1:26AM

    Way to Go emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TROYSTATEGAL 7/20/2011 4:38PM

  Jenn,

Thanks for the encouragement. I did my first 5k ever back about 9 years ago. Haven't done one since. I have talked about wanting to do a walking one but am worried about not having a designated "time". I do have a serious goal: I am determined to do the Disney 5k next spring and my goal is to do one or two before then. What suggestions do you have? emoticon emoticon

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BETSY35 7/19/2011 2:55PM

    bahahahaa....omg you make me laugh thankyou! Not only can relate but oh so can relate to your sense of humor thanks for doing the 5k and for writing about it. I have signed up for my first one in Sept. Can't wait....but good to know...not sure what to expect.

As i am not an agressive person either but will be striving for my own personal best. This was a good thing to give heads up about!Seeing as my first one is an ARMY run....I am now thinking i may have to learn how to manouver a bit better through crowds...(gonna take the shoulder pads out of 80's wardrobe) and think great shoe sale at the end of the race as my motivator for my move move move out of my way attitude. And maybe I will be able to get through it! emoticon

Keep on writing. I do so enjoy reading them. I think you are doing wonderfully amazing!

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CINDBUG 7/17/2011 6:53PM

    I just decided last week to run my very first 5K, so this was a timely blog, and the boost I need! Thanks!

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ANDYSULLIVAN 7/15/2011 2:41PM

  My first walk was a two mile. Ran some, walked most of the way. It was the energy and excitement in the air that motivated me to be there. About 5 wks later, walked the Komen 5K with ease. Again the energy was contagious. I next plan a 5 K in October. Can't wait!!

Keep it up! It can only be a good thing. Gives us a goal to prepare for and energizes us to continue to seek health.

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GRATEFULBOB 7/14/2011 11:03PM

    emoticoni see you are progressing along . one tip for you start as close to the front as possible let the fast runners go around you . my times are not that quick but the faster ones go around and i am able to settle in on my pace emoticongood job

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SHAPEUPNOW1 7/14/2011 5:27PM

    Congrats and thanks for the insight of "moving" people outta my way!! I am training toward a half marathon in September here in Albuquerque NM!

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MISSJESSICALIN 7/14/2011 2:37PM

    Good for you!!!!! My boyfriend and I did the Komen in ST. Louis in June, my first 5k or race for that matter! It was the longest 3.some miles I had ever done! We are planning on doing another in September here in Missouri. Congrats!

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BRAVACHASER 7/14/2011 1:39PM

    Congrats on your 5k...I'm soooo not in to running...but I would love to bike in a race some day.

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CHAR1970 7/13/2011 10:51PM

    You are a riot! And that T-shirt is wayyyyyy too big for you!

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SUMMER_FOR_LIFE 7/13/2011 10:01PM

  Great job on the 5k, as was mentioned earlier 5ks are pretty crowded unless you do small local ones that probably dont have as much funding to be giving away nice shirts ( i totally know what you mean btw). 10ks however are much less crowded and at a nice 6.2 miles, it is definitely something to look forward to training for. I think you had an awesome PR and I definitely laughed out loud when you talked about chucking grannies and shoving kids, I know I feel like that when I run. Best wishes on your next 5k. Oh and a really really awesome website to get more tips on running (a.k.a my home page lol) is runnersworld.com! great site. Hope that helps emoticon

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REOVERMAN 7/13/2011 8:24PM

    I chickened out of signing up for my first race, but maybe I can still do another one...thanks for the inspiring message.

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CANNIE50 7/13/2011 8:06PM

    My suggestion is to alternate the big charity runs with some smaller races. You could do a 45 min 5k while CARRYING a double stroller on your back. You just need the room to move. Once you get a few more 5k's under your belt (or your double-layed brassieres) you know you need to search out a 10k. 10k races are less crowded and don't have nearly as much stroller traffic. Also, don't hide in the back, honey. I wouldn't suggest throwing elbows at the track kids in singlets who line up in the front, but somewhere in the middle, on the outside, tends to be a little less frustrating when you are interested in challenging yourself for a better time.

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CVALENCIA7 7/13/2011 7:30PM

    Great Job! I wanna do a 5k this year... hopefully soon, in a couple months!

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ABISMITHY 7/13/2011 3:12PM

    Half marathon in mid-August... not enough training under my belt so think this might be mostly walking... but still 21K is a great achievement for me.

Good luck with your progress!

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ABLANEY10 7/13/2011 2:51PM

  I really enjoyed your blog, you've got a great sense of humor. One of the things you can do to minimize being shoved and bumped by the other participants is to get to the event a little earlier, and line up as soon as you can. Some events have the run and the walk at the same time, and if that's the case you'll want to position yourself at the end of the runners and beginning of the walkers. If not, you can try to put yourself on the outside edge of the rest of the crowd. This may not eliminate the pushing, but it will at least minimize it from one side.

Good luck to you on your next 5k...you'll soon find you're addicted to them.

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DANYGIRL40 7/13/2011 2:10PM

    You are hysterical, your blog is fantastic and honest, I love it. I signed up for my first 5K August 28th at the Philadelphia Zoo, I'm very excited. I just hope the shirts match my shorts...lol!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 7/13/2011 12:10PM

    This made me laugh out loud....

"and that I was clean and fresh smelling for any family that might try to hug me or coworker who had an obsession with sniffing me"

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Awesome job for getting a PR on your 5k race! I know the feeling of getting through the crowds when you are working on time. It gets annoying. I actually started finding races that are less crowded just because of that fact. Of course, finding a less crowded race also means that the goodies you get with the race are next to none. (Usually cotton t-shirts too.)

I am training right now for my first duathlon. I don't know what to expect but I am excited!

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SWILLIAM621 7/13/2011 12:03PM

    I have done 3 5ks in the last 3 years and will likely do one in September which was my first 3 years ago. This is a company sponsored walk/run and I do not run the whole thing but as you said, I am doing more than some and it is for a good cause. I need to start training before the time grows short as I was NEVER a runner before 3 years ago and I have to really work at it. Time to dust off the 5K my way training sheets and get back on that treadmill!

You are doing great and have a good attitude, keep it up!

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RUNNINGAL425 7/13/2011 11:54AM

    Great job on the 5K!

This was particularly cute:
[quote] Seriously? I mean, I'm a nice person and all, but I will shove you, your charming child and your double wide stroller into the curb if it means I can shave .002 seconds off my time, so watch out! [/quote]



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MNJONES2 7/13/2011 11:53AM

    Wow I admire your determination.... I like the idea of going with friends or family.

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DANDELION33 7/13/2011 11:31AM

  I'm registered for the inaugural 5K Run for Psoriasis in Bexley, OH on Oct. 29th. Maybe I'll see you there? :)

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TREIFF 7/13/2011 11:17AM

    Hoping to do a 5K Easter 2012...that gives me plenty of time to get ready!

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HUGS2013 7/13/2011 11:01AM

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WOLFKITTY 7/13/2011 10:26AM

    Congrats! :)

I'm a fast walker, so I understand your frustration. Even still, I've actually literally been pushed during an event, and I think that's certainly not cool (not that you would, I just wanted to share).

If you really want to know your own time, do the course when the event isn't happening, or make your own 5k route and time yourself. Otherwise, try to enjoy the event for what it is. That's my strategy.

Best of luck!
Jocelyn

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PAWSINAZ 7/13/2011 10:00AM

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JSC143 7/13/2011 8:58AM

  Good job!!! Your first 5k is really the start of a huge addiction! I am a self proclaimed snail, and sign up for 5k and 10k races for the motivation and more importantly the DEADLINE!! Knowing I have an event coming up pushes me to get in that workout when my brain is trying to tell me the couch would feel much better. What I have found out in this journey is that my brain is simply not being truthful: I am on top of the world when I finish a workout! I am proud of you...I remember my first foray into signing up for a race....talk about a ball of nerves! Just remember: no matter how slow you are, if you run at all you can call yourself a runner. That's motivation enough!! emoticon

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METOO03820 7/13/2011 8:18AM

    Jen I needed an inspiration this morning and I just knew you'd provide me with one. Great job on the 5k. WHOOT WHOOT The amount of work you've done on your body is amazing and it's really really showing. Thanks for the laugh, pushing grannies into the gudder will stick with me all day and make my day a little less stressful. I'll probably be chuckling about it on the stair master tonight. Do you know how hard it is to keep your balance while your laughing on the stair master? LOL Have a great day!! emoticon

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CAROLCRC 7/13/2011 8:11AM

    Navigating the slow people gets easier the faster you get. There's sort of a break when you get to the 10-11/min per mile pace that puts you ahead of the walkers, and then things generally get easier... Although you still have to contend with my pet peeve, which is people who sprint for a quarter of a mile or so and then flop to a walk when they are 3 feet in front of you... You'll get good at dodging!

You are off to a great start, and the difference in your pictures is indeed noticeable!

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PETITE2BE 7/13/2011 8:03AM

  You look great and congrats on the time of the 5K. I would love to do one but I am not quite ready! You inspire me though.

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PHOENIX43 7/13/2011 7:49AM

    Go Baby Go!!!

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 7/13/2011 7:31AM

    Great Job

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GISPIN 7/13/2011 7:08AM

    Congratulations! I'm currently training for a 60 mile walk, but I've always wanted to do a 5k. You've motivated me!!

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DWILCZKO 7/13/2011 4:39AM

  great job!

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KKINNEA 7/12/2011 5:48PM

    You are melting away - congrats to you!

Many cause-related races and fun runs mean you get caught in bottlenecks unless you are walking at snails pace.

Here in Mpls, there are 2 races that come to mind that are cause related and allow you to move - the Brian Kraft 5K (supports cancer research) and the Boston Heart of Summer 10K. The second one gives you a cotton shirt but its a nice one!

There are more than I can recall above but the Twin Cities have lots of choices for races - you can run one nearly every weekend year-round.

For the races you have done and knowing about how fast you can go, I would recommend choosing to move up some on the line and staying to the outside of the pack.

This should get you ahead of some of the folks that just can't help themselves from getting into what ought to be the people who are truly running but also stay out of the way of anyone who might run you over.

Sounds like you kicked it in spite of the rude crowd - awesome job!

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WADINGMOOSE 7/12/2011 5:00PM

    I'm training for my insane moment - a half marathon. I'm excited, but I dont' think I'll be ready.

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ZUZMAJKA 7/12/2011 4:51PM

    Hi Jenn,
I for one think that you look fantastic in the green-pink combo. Also big congratulations on your 5K!

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CHICAT63 7/12/2011 4:47PM

    If you start in the middle you should be o.k., but hey every race is different. I find you need to adapt, excellent time for your 5K - woohoo. I have every confidence in you that you will bring down your time. So far this year I have not participated in official race my running best girlfriend's and I schedules ain't meshing *lol*. Nonetheless, I have kept all my racing bibs with my time written on them !!!!

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LSPIZZA 7/12/2011 12:10PM

    Great job, Jen!

I have heard the key to not needing to bob and weave at a race is to start at the right spot for your finish time. But so few people do that, so it does not seem to work for me.

Great how times improve, right? 2 years ago I would have finished a 5 K in over an hour. I finished my last 5K in 28:04. Persistence pays off!

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KAKAKALI4 7/12/2011 9:06AM

    You are amazing Jenn! Congrats on your 1st 5K .. I am training to try to do one in September .. which will be my first! Not sure I will ever be a runner .. but hey, we don't know till we try! You can see how much you have lost! Keep up the great work! Your finish line is coming up!
Teri

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LAURIE-RN 7/12/2011 7:51AM

    Congrats on your 5k!

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