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Empty House?

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Our youngest child has gone off to college. We are now in an "empty nest". I am so happy for my daughter...I have not shed a tear. I don't feel like this is an ending. I feel like this is a beginning. So why am I faltering on my goals? I now have all the time I need to do what I need to do but I haven't been doing it. I need to find that inner peace, set myself up for a win and move on. I think that what I am really doing is just taking a pause. Enjoying the moment, because truly I am not sad. I can make whatever I want to for supper (no complaints) set out for a early morning run (no one is looking for lunch money) go to an evening class. The possibilities are endless so I am doing nothing? I am writing this, as I know you all will hold me accountable and give me that kick in the pants I need.

I have a 10K coming up at the end of September...heat be damned. Best get my butt out there. I know what I need to do, and my pause is over...time to get back to living life.

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RUNNERRACHEL 8/30/2012 8:50AM

    Even if you are happy for your daughter moving on, it is still an adjustment so give yourself time to get used it.

Keep up the good work! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JENNKNUT 8/30/2012 8:43AM

    Happy to report I got my running gear on, went out for a quick 2 miles, and I feel really good. I am redefining myself, not just as wife, mother, but as a feels good. I also have been getting up earlier and earlier...whats up with that? Maybe just the quiet of the house? I don't know. Life is so good and I really appreciate you stopping by!

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TDEMAIO2 8/30/2012 7:17AM

    I totally understand how you are feeling :O My only child has gone off to college and I am SO lost : ( my whole world has been focused on raising him and now it time for me to get a life and I have no clue what to do or how to do it? Everyone is tell me to date :O Not so sure about that? I need to focus on me- just me and like you I am not doing to much about getting a life. But what I can tell you is I have been getting up every morning even earlier 3:30am :O that I normally do and I have been working out not only has it been good for my bootie but it has been GREAT my
head and my thinking process : ) I am taking this being single and now childless one step at a time.
NOW this is a little kick in your bootie to put on those running shoes take one step then another and start running : ) you will feel SO good and I can almost promise you will have a BIG SMILE on your face when you are done :D

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Too busy running to blog...

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

I made some changes after my last blog post. I got a second job...for the health insurance benefits. I still work with my family but with a weird twist, I now work part time in the ER that saved my life. I tell you, God does indeed work in mysterious ways. Did I know I was applying for a job in the ER? No...I just applied for a part time job with benefits and like magic...that is where I ended up. Ironic indeed. I really enjoy it, and when some of the nurses started talking about running this race or that race, I got back into running. Between my 2 jobs and training, I haven't had much time to even look at Sparkpeople, but I have told everyone that asks, how did you lose weight? Well, there is great online resource....and it's FREE. I have recommended this site more times than I can think.

Since last year, I have run a 5K in the COLD...I mean it was cold, -20 below, and it really didn't phase me, my smile was huge. Next run? How about a half marathon that May...I can add that 13.1 sticker to my car with pride. I wrote on my arm "Finishing is Winning" and I meant it. My daughter graduated highschool that following weekend, and my goal was to be able to host her open house, not break any records, and I did it. I have now signed up for a second half marathon at the end of September, and what got me back to Sparkpeople, was for the first time in a year, I found myself not wanting to do something. I don't know if I want to run another half...I need to find my spark again, and it is all of you. Reading your stories, knowing your commitment, asking for help when I need it. It is exactly what I need. I may not track online, but I do track on paper and I hold myself accountable. I have found out that I am stronger than I ever thought I could be. I am now down almost 20 pounds since the first time I logged on to Sparkpeople, and I am working on the remaining 20. I once thought that was impossible, but I KNOW I will get there. I am going to spend my life being the healthiest I can be. Thanks and love to you all!

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NDTEACHER1 8/1/2012 12:03AM

    I'm taking a class so I need to get to bed!

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ROCKYCPA 7/31/2012 8:54PM

    Congrats on such a successful year - keep up the good work.

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Almost a New Year and a New Me!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

So out of the darkness comes the horror of “New Years Resolutions”… it sneaks back into my consciousness and I want to run and join weight watchers, or some other program, but have they worked for me in the past? No, but it is almost January 1st… shouldn’t I be committing myself to a new program? For the first time, NO… I find myself recommitting to me and only me. I have to make some budget changes, which means dropping my gym membership (I have a treadmill, stationary bike, pilates machines all at my disposal) and saving $65 a mos, as well as I am letting go of my $50 per time housecleaner, monthly savings of another $100, so that is $165 less a month I want to spend on something that I can take care of myself. My health insurance went up DRASTICALLY, so my $165 a month cutback is just a drop in the bucket. I have set new goals for myself… a 5K in the spring… to drop 20 pound by my daughter’s high school graduation in 2012. I lose weight slowly so between these 2 goals I should see more movement in the scale. I have learned so much from Sparkpeople, and I am really excited for the New Year (not dreading it – like before) Happy New Years everyone!

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MYSTERY4EVER 12/29/2010 11:12AM

    It is so good that you are doing this for yourself. Good luck in reaching your goals in the New Year.

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BTRTHANEVA 12/28/2010 6:26PM

    I find myself recommitting to me and only me.*

THAT commitment will bring you the results you seek. Slow and steady - best way to go!

I'm amazed at all the tantalizing commercials for the diet food companies geared towards new years' resolutions. (and how expensive they are!!! I could feed a family of 4 for a week on their prices!)

Good for you for getting your priorities in order early!


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JOYLJL 12/28/2010 2:31PM

    way to go. no housecleaner means you get lots of exercise!

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ELAOPET 12/28/2010 1:11PM

    A gym is then more a motivational thing for you - I get that. I find that, while I know you can do strenght training in many different ways, it would help greatly to have a gym to go to, like an appointment...
NO New Years resolution! OH MY! LOL I am so happy to hear you have removed that stressful idea - as I was reading I kept thinking - you are already doing everything right! All you have to do is keep doing what you're doing - isn't that great!?
Happy 2011 - every day of it! emoticon

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KEELY128 12/28/2010 12:59PM

    You can do it, take day by day! It's not easy have patience.

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after vacation... life is good!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

So I have been A.W.O.L. for a few weeks, first there was thanksgiving and then I had a vacation. I have not given up on any of my fitness or goals... I actually made it through these weeks losing a little weight. Maybe taking a break was what I needed? I think also I just needed to take a little "computer vacation". Sometimes being on a computer too much can be part of the problem, maybe I am alone in this, but it can be a hinderance for me. I have missed you all and even while on my vacation, I hit the gym... in Mexico. I had been trying to lose weight before my vacation for MONTHS... but then it dawned on me, who cares? I am not a failure because I did not hit a number on scale, instead I am stronger and healthier than I have ever been and that is the best part of sparkpeople! I hope you all are having a marvelous holiday season!

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ELAOPET 12/15/2010 2:57AM

    God to have you back - congrats on not slacking on holliday! emoticon

Been wondering about hours at the computer myself - hmmm emoticon

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a rootcanal? ick...

Monday, November 15, 2010

So I had an amazing last week. I went to spin class a couple of times, and I went to Zumba a couple of times. In addition we went for a couple of walks and the energy that I have is amazing. Which brings me to a strange turn of events. I have been having more sensitive teeth since I was sick, apparently they pumped me full of about 60 pounds worth of cold water to keep my brain swelling down, which may be the reason why I have no brain damage... so having sensitive teeth is a minor thing! But this weekend, I was practically brought to tears by the intense pain I thought was tooth sensitivity until I couldn't take it anymore. I got in to the dentist today, I have the best dentist right around the corner from where I work, and he squeezed me in today, last minute! Anyways, I have to have an emergency root canal tomorrow with an Endodontist (we only have one in town where I live) and they also were nice to fit me into a packed schedule. I was leaving the dental office, squeezing back the tears, as my tooth hurt so bad and they called me back in and took mercy on me and gave me some pain medicine. I never ask for pain meds anymore as I always feel that I can handle it... but, honestly, this is bad. Last year, I had 5 operations, and the only one that was painful, was my skin graft, and this ranks right up there with that pain. So, I am currently missing work, waiting for the meds to kick in, and going to call and cancel my spin bike reservation. Tonight's plan is to walk on the treadmill and try and lift some weights if I am not too out of it. I am very happy that I got so many workouts in last week. Unfortunately I just got different health insurance, dropping my dental coverage, so the expense of this will be on me. I could have a lot of other things I would rather spend money on than a root canal, but if I don't get one, my root would eventually abscess and burst and the pain would be ongoing, so not getting this is out of the question.

On a side note: My husband got a call today from one of the EMT responders that worked on me... he just called to say Hi and that he was thinking of us. Isn't that nice? He apparently had stopped up a couple of times to the ICU to see me, and he was just shocked that I am doing so well. He said that my heart stopped twice over the course of a couple of hours, and that they did prolonged CPR. I am so grateful to all of the EMT's, the ER, the doctors, the nurses, etc. for just not giving up on me and letting me go. When I look back and think of what a gift I have been given it is just amazing. I hope that everyone who reads this is grateful for their gift of life and that you try and get the most out of each day, until next time, stay happy and healthy!


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