Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Personally one of the best goals to reach when losing weight is my legs not rubbing together anymore when I walk. The first time I noticed it was in Mexico in 2009 and it was the first time I'd ever experienced it and I couldn't stand it. Then I gained 20 more pounds! Two years later and I've lost enough weight to not rub anymore and I know it's only going to get better. I did a whole two miles in high humidity with NO problems. I'll be able to walk the length of Playa and back without my legs ruining my good time. Very exciting part of the weight loss journey.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
And if all the kings horses and all the kings men couldn't fix Humpty Dumpty, then it's time for Humpty Dumpty to fix himself. Why do we need men to fix things? I think I am totally capable of fixing this bump in the road myself. This time I fell off the wagon and was laying on the ground while the wagon rolled away to the next town. I think I may have caught up to the wagon and I'm ready to climb back on.
Back in April I hit 158lbs, and now after a few weeks of whatever this was I went back up to 173 as of this morning and it has to stop. Right now I take back control, I start tracking, I leave the house, I get over him and what I thought he was going to be and I get back out there. I'm leaving for Mexico this Saturday and I don't think there's much I can do about this bit of weight. I can do some crunches and push ups until then. I booked this trip 2 weeks ago and could have done something, but I got kicked hard this time and I needed the time off.
The last two days of June ended the school year with an unexpected unsatisfactory rating for the year at work and started the summer with the guy who was talking marriage dumping me. So this is how June ends and July begins for me, unsatisfactory and dumped. It was hard to breathe and I developed a special relationship with Ice Cream again for a while. God Bless that Haagen Daaz store near Best Buy there's something special about 2 scoops of strawberry in a waffle cone with chocolate sprinkles. Hence the weight gain. No I'm not working out, yes I'm eating like a hungry whale.
Everything just started going downhill for no reason and there wasn't a thing I could do about it. I was told I was being put on permanent budget at work on March 25th, on May 13td I'm pulled from all duties because I have a bad day and then on June 28th I find out I get a Unsatisfactory rating for the year! It will take over a year to appeal the rating and I have no idea what I'm doing for September. Talk about blind sided by politics. I sent my resume to 58 schools, but with a U rating I doubt I'll get a call so I may be assigned to a random school to be a substitute in September, again.
After the U rating, I'm under the impression that everything is great with the new guy, you should have heard the way he was talking, sounded like he had everything planned. Even asked me about what kind of ring I wanted and how to get a marriage license. So it's 3pm on June 3rd and I'm on my way to my apartment to shower and get ready to see him, we had plans that evening. We had breakfast that morning and both had errands to run that day. We had a lovely morning. I get a call right when I'm on my way to my apartment and it's him. He says things are out of control and he just isn't feeling it and we should just both move on and take care. Our personalities don't mesh, we have nothing in common, we don't have good conversations. Makes no sense, I just watched us spend two months finding out we had a lot in common, we meshed just great and we talked for hours. I have no idea what happened.
Right now it's harder getting over what I thought he was going to be. I think I'm already over him, now I have to get over what could have been. He never should have talked to me like that. So he's just gone, and I'm going to Mexico on Saturday. I'll be blogging more again, so please everyone come and read. Have a great day everyone.
Monday, June 06, 2011
Okay, much stress and fall out from that one little bad day I had on May 12. I just spent three weeks waiting for the stress to end and to find out what is going on at work for me. Only seventeen days left to survive before summer vacation and I just need to stay quiet, lay low and enjoy the days. I have a book to read to pass the time, it has been very quiet at work lately and I hope to keep the next 17 days quiet and stress free.
I'm stuck right now at a 159lbs plateau that THIS week I plan to break through. I realized I'm taking way too many liberties with my diet lately and eating way too many things that are just not good for my goals. At least I managed not to gain weight, I'm too close to my goal to fail now. I know I can reach 155lbs by the end of the school year, in three more weeks I can do that.
I've been making a very purposeful effort to stay positive about everything right now and if I really concentrate, I am successful. Staying positive and focused on 3pm every day. I finally dusted off my bike and loved the ride, I need to start doing it on a regular basis.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Now that things are starting to quiet down in the afternoons for me, I have to get motivated to kick through this plateau and see myself down through the 50's now. I have 5 more weeks of what I believe is my 5th 10 week challenge and I think I can get rid of a chunk more weight if I stop eating so poorly and start working out more. My poor bike is collecting dust, granted it's been raining a lot, but there are enough breaks in the rain to get in 20 miles of riding at least 3 days a week. That is not a very difficult goal and I should try to make it this week.
Friday, May 13, 2011
This is the hardest part of a school year. The staff is getting tired but we still have to maintain control, and the students start going crazy. Especially in a school like mine with metal detectors, the students can't go out for lunch or anything, if they leave the building they're not allowed back in unless the truant officer picks them up and brings them back. Yesterday was one of those terrible days, where it's just one thing after the other all day. I was smart, I drove straight home, got into a shower, let everything wash down the drain and I wound up falling asleep for 5 solid hours. Woke up around 9pm had a lite supper and fell back asleep around 11pm and slept like a rock right through to the 5:30am alarm. Guess my brain needed the break.
The extra stress isn't making me eat bad though. In fact, I've felt the need to eat better just to feel clean inside. I haven't been working out much. When I get myself motivated on that I want to alternate bike riding and weight training now that the weather is nice and I want to do it soon, because I know as soon as I start up again I'll be annoyed I didn't start sooner. I've started to get such lovely definition in my quads from coaching volleyball, imagine after the first month of bike riding. I'll set a simple goal of 60miles per week, that's 3 quick rides I have to get in. The other 2 or 3 days I need to weight train and rest on the 1 or 2 days left over. If I'm at 159lbs now...imagine after the first MONTH of that plan what I'll start looking like?!
Being so close to my goal has really sent my self-esteem and my mood through the roof. I'm starting to like pictures of myself, so I'm starting to take them again and even send some to my new gentleman friend. He's already convinced I'm the prettiest girl he's ever seen. I like how things are going, it's been a lovely courtship so far. Two things to remember, take it slow and keep an open mind.
I have to leave for work soon and I'm glad it's Friday. I should ride my bike, but then I've said that every day this week...after work the weather has been perfect for a ride and I haven't gone. I'll try to maintain the motivation later. Have a great day everyone.
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