Friday, November 01, 2013
As most of you are aware, the day after Halloween means stores are desperate to clear their shelves to make room for Christmas inventory, slashing their prices on leftover candy so low that they're practically GIVING it away.
When I saw $6.99 bags of candy on sale now for a buck a bag, I gave a little internal squeal of glee and grabbed four bags of the "good" mixes: Tootsie rolls, Reese's Pieces, KitKats, Aeros, Coffee Crisps, Double Bubble gum - and all other kinds of deliciousness.
Standing in line at the registers, the irony of buying candy only day after I'd announced my renewed commitment to lose weight was not lost on me. Even more amusing was the fact that I didn't actually WANT the candy - the sale was just too good to pass up! I'm a sucker (pun intended) for bargains, especially the ones that are almost too good to be true.
I had a fascinating internal dialogue with myself while I stood waiting to be called forward - weighing the pros, cons, risks, and rewards of making this 'investment'... and in an act of near defiance, (those weak of heart, avert your eyes!) decided to buy it anyway.
Owning Halloween candy adds an intriguing new element to my yet-to-be-determined diet & exercise plans and raises all kinds of questions:
What am I going to do with it?
Is this a dangerous, or valuable, tool to have in my possession?
Do I have enough willpower to fight the temptation of eating it (all in one sitting)?
Right now, I'm interpreting the candy it as a gauge by which I'll be able to judge how serious I actually am about losing weight & getting healthy.
I know I'll definitely eat at least a couple of pieces at some point (because I don't believe in denying myself the things I enjoy; I just need to work on limiting my intake when I choose to indulge)... but will I have enough control to stop there, or will I later find myself scarfing back handfuls at a time, cursing myself for my inability to stay focused?
Stay tuned. This could be interesting!
Thursday, October 31, 2013
It's been a long time since I was last active here on SP... and okay, I'll admit, active in life in general.
I've been logging in here on SP quietly on almost a weekly basis, with intentions of announcing my return and plans for getting back on track "soon"... and though I'd click around and catch a few glimmers of inspiration from other people working so hard on achieving their weight loss and fitness goals, I'd usually log out just as quietly as I'd logged in, not yet willing to admit to the status of my own (lack of) progress.
However, I've realized that in order to make myself accountable for the decisions I make with regard to my health and fitness, I can't keep waiting for a "good" time to restart my journey - I need to acknowledge where I'm at RIGHT NOW and start from here.
Monday's weigh-in was (gulp) 250 and today's is 246.8. I'm going to stick with the Mon/Thurs weigh-in schedule because it worked well for me before... and I'll be taking progress photos & developing a new diet/fitness plan soon too.
Soon, soon... what a convenient word - so full of promise and riddled with intention, but means absolutely nothing until I take action on the claims I've attached it to.
Ready or not, my "soon" is now.
This entry is me putting a deposit down for my trip to ONEderland!
(P.S. Happy Halloween!)
Thursday, March 14, 2013
I've been doing a lot of walking lately and because I haven't done it consistently in so long, my legs are in shock and get sore and stiff. To settle them down, I was doing some leg-stretches this morning behind my desk and a colleague came up and asked me what I was doing. When I told her that I was soothing sore muscles, she recommended I watch the following video, which gives a lesson on the importance of movement and stretching to maintain the sliding properties of tissues in the body.
***WARNING: The video is a little graphic because some of the tissue demonstrations are performed on a cadaver. If you're squeamish, this might not be for you - but if you leave it running in the background in a browser tab, the audio explanation alone is excellent.
"The Fuzz" by Dr. Gil Hedley, Ph.D:
The medical term for the 'fuzz' referred to in the video is fascia, which is defined as "A sheet or band of fibrous connective tissue enveloping, separating, or binding together muscles, organs, and other soft structures of the body."
A buildup of fuzz/fascia is what happens when people allow themselves or parts of themselves to become sedentary and/or unstretched; the fuzz builds up and 'locks up' tissues that aren't being used, and the only way to recover them is to get them moving again. This becomes especially apparent in older adults who don't move around a lot - when (or if) they finally do, it's an incredibly slow and painful process. Kind of gives new definition to the phrase "move it or lose it", doesn't it?
I'd never really given much thought to the way body tissues work and repair themselves, so to hear it explained in the video and actually be able to SEE what's going on inside is hugely enlightening. Now that I know what happens when I DON'T stretch, it gives me incentive to make sure I do, thoroughly and often!
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
It's been far too long since my last blog entry! I never mean to let so much time pass between what I consider "significant" updates, but lack of motivation/inspiration certainly didn't help. I've been logging in almost every day, but spinning the wheel and a half-hearted scroll through the Friend Feed has been pretty much the extent of most of my visits.
I never feel right coming here unless I'm making a genuine effort toward healthier living, which definitely hasn't been the case over the last month and a half. I'd get back on track for a couple days at a time, but then I'd lose my focus and return to being lazy and not watch what I eat. Though I had some good days, overall I'd been making very little effort toward actually losing weight, yet remained absolutely convinced that I wanted to.
No surprise, the numbers on the scale didn't change much. I've completely mastered the habit of weighing in on my designated days though - every Monday and Thursday morning immediately after my morning pee, I hop on the scale and snap a photo of the results, whether I'm in the mood for it or not. Weighing in has become such a routine that I feel incredibly guilty if I try to skip it.
Weight-wise, I've been holding steady between 225-230lbs, and I feel like I'm finally ready in mind, spirit, and body to bring those numbers down and never have to look upon them again. As of Monday, March 11th, the scale reported my weight as 225.6:
(My scale needs dusting and toenails need re-polising; both will be fixed for next time!)
I've stopped eating junk food and have been cooking more meals at home with a special focus on including lots of fruit or veggies in every meal. I've also been walking every opportunity that I get, and even with just these small changes, I'm already feeling a million times better.
I knew that one of the key steps to reaching my goal weight of 150lbs is to eat well, but I recently realized that I don't really have a complete understanding as to what that means. Sure, I could follow someone's 'eat this, not that' diet, but without a thorough understanding as to WHY and the nitty-gritty on how it works, chances are that it's not going to mean much to me and I won't be able to follow it for long. What does "eating well" mean to ME? I have to find out.
Once I got it into my head that I wanted to learn about how different foods components are used by the human body and what effects they have, I decided to do a little research. I made a trip to the library and checked out all the non-diet-specific materials I could find on good nutrition and strategies for long-term weight loss so I could educate myself on what, why, and how to do it properly:
So far, I've watched the "Food Matters" DVD, which outlines the importance of consuming lots of raw fruits & veggies and allowing the body to heal itself naturally vs. taking man-made pills and other toxins. I've also started reading and am in the fourth chapter of "Body Clutter", which follows two women's personal journeys and strategies toward eliminating the body 'clutter' they've acquired throughout the years (much like spring cleaning). Reading about other peoples' struggles and successes is so inspiring!
I think I'll be delving into "Total Nutrition For Canadians" next, because even though I have a rough idea right now of what I ought to consider 'good' and 'bad' food, I have no idea what I'm basing my opinion on because I really don't understand how food works once it's in my system.
If anyone has any suggestions on healthy lifestyle 'how-to' guides for future reading/watching, I'm all ears!
A large part of my renewed motivation to get back into healthy habits once again came from an unexpected source: looking through old photos on my computer. Most of the ones of me had been taken when I was in the 180-200lb range and I looked so much skinnier, healthier, and happier than I do right now. Seeing the images of the "past/lighter" me was very inspiring - I realized that since I'd been at that weight once and worn it well, there's absolutely no reason that I can't get there again. Skinner Jenn might have gotten lost for a little while, but she's only a few healthier choices away and it's time to bring her back!
I'll be back in ONEderland by December 31st, if not sooner. You'll see.
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