Thursday, February 20, 2014
"Stay tuned," I wrote at the conclusion of my last blog entry... and then I promptly disappeared from SP for the next four months. Losing weight and getting healthy didn't interest me as much as the other things I had going on in my life during that time - winding up the work year, holiday planning, playing video games, and spending time with family and loved ones.
I'm not making excuses; it's just that I didn't feel right updating here when I really didn't give a sht about my health, and was not at all inclined to post self-indulgent statuses like, "ate chocolate cake for dinner and played video games until it was time for bed" - essentially bragging that I was packing on the pounds while others are working (out) so hard to get rid of them.
Even now, I find myself questioning whether or not I'm actually serious about losing weight this time around, given how many times I've come and gone from SP in the years I've been a member... but I know I'm not happy with where I'm at, and I definitely want to do something about it.
My diet has been crap and exercise has been practically nil, so I'm actually surprised that my weight has held steady for the past four months at around 250 - which was my EXACT weight this morning, right down to the decimal:
I'm a huge fan of numbers ending in 0 or 5, so between today's weight and calendar date (February 20) I'm interpreting it as a definite sign of good things to come. I'll make it so.
I wish I could say that I have a plan of attack for getting (and staying) on track this time, but being totally honest, I haven't yet thought that far ahead.
I know exactly what I need to do - stop eating crap and get off my ass (easier said than done, given my current sloth-like lifestyle) - but I need to start small, because the last couple of times I've tried jumping right in, I quit before I even really got started. The last few times I was active here, instead of taking the recommended "baby steps", I'd quickly scare myself off by enforcing too many 'rules' for myself right off the hop, based on what worked for me before. Eat/drink specific things before every meal, visit gym x number of times, a strict schedule for weigh-ins and progress photos.... gawd, I made everything into such a chore! With the way I'd intended to do things, I could either have weight loss or a life.., and I chose the latter.
Now, I'm looking to strike a good balance between the two; lose weight but not feel like I'm losing MYSELF to weight.
So, as of right now, off the top of my head here's my personalized two-step program to kick things off:
1. Weigh in Monday & Thursday mornings, &
2. Start a "Bite It & Write It" food tracking journal.
Totally reasonable. Two steps; let's dance.
"The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."
Friday, November 01, 2013
As most of you are aware, the day after Halloween means stores are desperate to clear their shelves to make room for Christmas inventory, slashing their prices on leftover candy so low that they're practically GIVING it away.
When I saw $6.99 bags of candy on sale now for a buck a bag, I gave a little internal squeal of glee and grabbed four bags of the "good" mixes: Tootsie rolls, Reese's Pieces, KitKats, Aeros, Coffee Crisps, Double Bubble gum - and all other kinds of deliciousness.
Standing in line at the registers, the irony of buying candy only day after I'd announced my renewed commitment to lose weight was not lost on me. Even more amusing was the fact that I didn't actually WANT the candy - the sale was just too good to pass up! I'm a sucker (pun intended) for bargains, especially the ones that are almost too good to be true.
I had a fascinating internal dialogue with myself while I stood waiting to be called forward - weighing the pros, cons, risks, and rewards of making this 'investment'... and in an act of near defiance, (those weak of heart, avert your eyes!) decided to buy it anyway.
Owning Halloween candy adds an intriguing new element to my yet-to-be-determined diet & exercise plans and raises all kinds of questions:
What am I going to do with it?
Is this a dangerous, or valuable, tool to have in my possession?
Do I have enough willpower to fight the temptation of eating it (all in one sitting)?
Right now, I'm interpreting the candy it as a gauge by which I'll be able to judge how serious I actually am about losing weight & getting healthy.
I know I'll definitely eat at least a couple of pieces at some point (because I don't believe in denying myself the things I enjoy; I just need to work on limiting my intake when I choose to indulge)... but will I have enough control to stop there, or will I later find myself scarfing back handfuls at a time, cursing myself for my inability to stay focused?
Stay tuned. This could be interesting!
Thursday, October 31, 2013
It's been a long time since I was last active here on SP... and okay, I'll admit, active in life in general.
I've been logging in here on SP quietly on almost a weekly basis, with intentions of announcing my return and plans for getting back on track "soon"... and though I'd click around and catch a few glimmers of inspiration from other people working so hard on achieving their weight loss and fitness goals, I'd usually log out just as quietly as I'd logged in, not yet willing to admit to the status of my own (lack of) progress.
However, I've realized that in order to make myself accountable for the decisions I make with regard to my health and fitness, I can't keep waiting for a "good" time to restart my journey - I need to acknowledge where I'm at RIGHT NOW and start from here.
Monday's weigh-in was (gulp) 250 and today's is 246.8. I'm going to stick with the Mon/Thurs weigh-in schedule because it worked well for me before... and I'll be taking progress photos & developing a new diet/fitness plan soon too.
Soon, soon... what a convenient word - so full of promise and riddled with intention, but means absolutely nothing until I take action on the claims I've attached it to.
Ready or not, my "soon" is now.
This entry is me putting a deposit down for my trip to ONEderland!
(P.S. Happy Halloween!)
Thursday, March 14, 2013
I've been doing a lot of walking lately and because I haven't done it consistently in so long, my legs are in shock and get sore and stiff. To settle them down, I was doing some leg-stretches this morning behind my desk and a colleague came up and asked me what I was doing. When I told her that I was soothing sore muscles, she recommended I watch the following video, which gives a lesson on the importance of movement and stretching to maintain the sliding properties of tissues in the body.
***WARNING: The video is a little graphic because some of the tissue demonstrations are performed on a cadaver. If you're squeamish, this might not be for you - but if you leave it running in the background in a browser tab, the audio explanation alone is excellent.
"The Fuzz" by Dr. Gil Hedley, Ph.D:
The medical term for the 'fuzz' referred to in the video is fascia, which is defined as "A sheet or band of fibrous connective tissue enveloping, separating, or binding together muscles, organs, and other soft structures of the body."
A buildup of fuzz/fascia is what happens when people allow themselves or parts of themselves to become sedentary and/or unstretched; the fuzz builds up and 'locks up' tissues that aren't being used, and the only way to recover them is to get them moving again. This becomes especially apparent in older adults who don't move around a lot - when (or if) they finally do, it's an incredibly slow and painful process. Kind of gives new definition to the phrase "move it or lose it", doesn't it?
I'd never really given much thought to the way body tissues work and repair themselves, so to hear it explained in the video and actually be able to SEE what's going on inside is hugely enlightening. Now that I know what happens when I DON'T stretch, it gives me incentive to make sure I do, thoroughly and often!
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