Thursday, January 24, 2013
They say that admitting it is the first step....I admit it. I totally caved and ate lunch from a drive-thru window. And let me tell you, I did not make wise choices or eat anything that remotely resembled a vegetable or fruit. Sure, I could have had the grilled chicken salad, but I went for the chicken strips. Yep, I said it deep...fried...chicken. If it were not for SparkPeople and forcing myself to be accountable and tracking my food (keepin' it real) I would not have known that my lunch including the Diet Pepsi (to hide my own personal guilt and justify that at least I did not have sugar??) was 90% of my calories FOR THE DAY! Good heavens, what have I done??
I will not beat myself up about it. I was starving, I got a flat tire running an errand, and it triggered some emotional binge festival. I guess my brain thought 'oh, donut for a tire....let's hit the drive thru!' LOL
On the flip side, tonight I laced up my sneakers and tried my best on the treadmill to burn off what I could. Live and learn. Now I know how many calories are really in that 'basket meal,' prayed for my arteries, got in some exercise, and moved on.
Break your successful and unsuccessful moments into just that....moments, and there are new moments to be had every second.
Wednesday, July 04, 2012
Today is Independance Day here in America. It is a day that is celebrated with BBQ's, potlucks, and fireworks. Fortunately for me, I've got a new attitude and celebrated the day with family and good friends in a healthy way. I volunteered for 3 parties and brought fruit and veggie trays to each. Not bad, if I do say so myself.
In the midst of a heat wave (105 heat index in the shade), I opted to spend most of my time indoors. However, I did not spend my time hovered around snack bars and buffet tablets, yet played Wii with my nieces and nephews, took pictures of friends and family. While I was outside, I jumped on the trampoline. Whew! I forgot what a workout that thing is, especially when you're 5 feet tall and trying to get up there without a step stool (added to list - work on upper body strength). LOL!
Fun was had by all, yet I remembered to track my food. Thank goodness for smart phones, I was able to use the notepad to keep a good journal of my day, so I wouldn't forget anything. Not even the "smidge of this, smidge of that."
Happy 4th of July to my American friends, and Happy Day to my Spark Friends from further away!
Tuesday, July 03, 2012
This week I started over from scratch with my goals. Went camping the 1st week of June, and when I pulled up those pictures on the computer from my camera, I almost had a heart attack! I could not believe the woman staring back at me was, in fact, me!! Where did I go? I was drowning in a body that was not mine. But, alas, it was me. As smiling and tan as I am in those pictures, just as equally sad on the inside that I let myself go and gained back all the weight I lost last year plus some. I was so busy taking care of everyone else that I left "ME" in the dust. That is not going to happen anymore. Enough is enough.
I've got Zumba class coming up which is half mile from my house, a Wii with a zillion workouts, a free gym membership, a brand new cruiser bike, and a zillion miles of free pavement in front of me.
I rearranged my shopping list this past weekend so I can rework bit by by my 'unhealthy' choices and turn them into better options. Can't do a complete overhaul because my system will go into shock...but a few things here, a few things there.
Thank you to all my Spark Friends who checked in on me, stopped by my page, or sent a SparkGoodie while was on hiatus (more like the slow lazy boat to morbidly obese island). I have now jumped off that ship...and onto the Boeing 747 heading to "Destination Jenn."
Hugs to all!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Right now, I do not know how I failed to miserably at being me. I was doing so good last year, made a lot of new friends on SP, kept up with challenges, was eating right, getting in fitness minutes every day....then....major fail. My life went topsy-turvey and I lost it all...my motivation, my strength, basically I lost grips on myself. I let it all go. Thank goodness I only came out 5 pounds heavier than I was in November.
I have no idea what happened exactly, but I do know that I want it all back. I want "me" back. The girl who pushed hard and tracked her food, kept up with her SP friends, challenged herself and encouraged others.
I don't want to be a failure and let myself down anymore. I know this is the millionth time I have had to pick myself off, dust myself off, and start again, but I am going to try again. I have to, for my health, my wellbeing, and my happiness.
I ask that my SP friends out there bear with me while I get caught up. I have gone through my email, and I want to see where everyone is at, find out what's going on my teams, and get into the swing of things so I can find my lighter, healthier me, and the happy girl surrounded by SP friendship and encouragement. SP is one of the greatest blessings in my life.
I guess it is true, that blogging does make a person feel better. I have vented, had a pity party, identified the issues, realized what I wanted, said it out loud, and now I just have to kick it into gear!
I wish you all a prosperous year!
Friday, April 15, 2011
This week on the Twilight Challenge Team we were asked to identify challenges/setbacks in our lives and how we overcome/overcame them...
Well, the hugest setback I have ever faced in my life, is my physical self. I battle with it every single day. Almost 4 years ago I wound up with serum sickness that went undiagnosed for 4 months. I basically was dying slowly but God or Buddha (maybe both) answered my prayers, as my work here on earth was not yet done. The result - health problems, including fibromyalgia and arthritis. I had (and still do have) a wonderful cheering section.
It may take me twice as much energy/effort to do even the simple things that people take for granted, like pouring milk on cereal or unloading the dishwasher, some days even getting out of bed is distressing not only physically but mentally.
I worked hard to get where I am, to take walks outside, get on the treadmill and go, use the fitness center, go to Zumba, but I do it because I can, I need to, and my body craves movement - even if it is just dancing in my living room with my Ipod by myself. Just like the saying 'move it or lose it,' I now know it is true. I am not going to bow down to physical ailments...I refuse. I have worked too hard and come too far to give up. I will never, ever quit. To overcome...I push forward, onward and upward, and lean on my friends and family, and remind myself of my goals every day - a happy, healthy-as-can-be me.
Now, for my challenge - the biggest one I face is that I am an inhome medical transcriptionist (also called 'the best career nobody ever heard of' LOL). I work out of my home in my slippers on my computer, where there are times I literally can hear the refrigerator and pantry cupboard beckoning me to come to the kitchen. It is the oddest thing. I have done this job for 17 years and for some reason sit-down job make people feel like they are constantly starving or need to be munching on something. My personal remedy is to eat small meals throughout the day (because I don't like that over-full feeling of an actual meal), I walk on my lunch, and I concentrate on drinking my water. But I have to fight with all my might to not jog into the kitchen every hour and grab a 'snack' even if it is healthy. I stop, drink some water, and ask myself, am I hungry or is it something else...
Nobody said life is easy, but I am more than capable of doing what I can within reason to make my life as active and happy as I can, and I AM doing it! That, my friend, lies in the palm of my hand everyday, I hold the key...the key to me.
As I blog, it is like unlocking little treasure chests that I had no idea what was inside, until I started turning that key.
Pick up your keys, friends, and unlock your little treasure chests - and see what is there...you'll surprise yourself at just how much you do have and how strong you really are.
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