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Janueary 16 2013

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Well, things have not gone the way I thought they were going to go this time around. I have used Spark People in the past, and I started strong, staying within my calorie rang, exercising, and making healthy choices. But, I did not stick with it.
This time, I don't seem to be starting strong at all. I still, am not making healthy food choices, I do a great job during the day, then at night, I throw it out the window. I am not going to give up though. I need to lose this weight. I am just not comfortable in my skin right now, not to mention my clothes are not fitting the way I would like them too.

Today, my goal is to make healthy food choices ALL day and night. It is a little hard for me though, as I wake up constantly through the night and "sleep eat". So I have to account for all those calories and fat as well. Let me tell you, when I am half asleep eating, I definitely do not make healthy food choices.

The other problem is my husband is a candy and junk food fanatic. He keeps a stash beside the bed. I have asked him if he could not do that, but men will be men. So I have the temptation right beside me. When I have a really bad night, I sneak the junk food.

Today, though, I feel strong. I can do this and I am looking forward to it.

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TORTISE110 1/16/2013 6:47AM

    Go for it. Just one hour at a time can take you there. You deserve it!

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Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Well, today I am committed to sticking with this program. I have used it in the past, started to see some results, then just stopped. Not sure why I stopped, but nevertheless I did. Today, I choose to stay with my program so I can live a long healthy lifestyle. I was at the Dr today and had a stress test done and she said everything looked wonderful. So, in order to keep it that way, I need to eat healthier and exercise more often.
I have a terrible habit of not eating regularly. When I was younger unfortunately, I starved myself. this lasted for about 15 years. I ate very well while I was pregnant with my children, but as soon as I had them, I just stopped eating again. I have one picture of me holding my daughter when she was about 6 months old, and I was so, unbelievably skinny. It is not a good picture.
Now, I seem to be having the opposite problem. I still struggle daily with not wanting to eat, but in the end I do eat. Although most of the time it is not healthy. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I deprived myself for so long of anything that now that I am allowing myself to eat, I am going overboard. I have to say that after I do eat a lot, I still have that horrible guilty feeling that comes along with this disease. It is hard to deal with at times.
I am determined though, to eat 3 meals a day, and eat healthy. I have a few health problems, but nothing too serious at this time and I would like to keep it that way.

Well, I think I have said enough for today. In short, my goal for this week, is to start eating 3 healthy meals a day, and be okay with the fact that I am allowing myself to do this.

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KASEYCOFF 1/10/2013 3:40AM

    You really hit the nail on the head with one sentence: "Today I choose to stay with my program..." And that's what it is, making the best choices you can, one day, one hour, sometimes one minute, at a time.
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