Wednesday, January 09, 2013
Well, today I am committed to sticking with this program. I have used it in the past, started to see some results, then just stopped. Not sure why I stopped, but nevertheless I did. Today, I choose to stay with my program so I can live a long healthy lifestyle. I was at the Dr today and had a stress test done and she said everything looked wonderful. So, in order to keep it that way, I need to eat healthier and exercise more often.
I have a terrible habit of not eating regularly. When I was younger unfortunately, I starved myself. this lasted for about 15 years. I ate very well while I was pregnant with my children, but as soon as I had them, I just stopped eating again. I have one picture of me holding my daughter when she was about 6 months old, and I was so, unbelievably skinny. It is not a good picture.
Now, I seem to be having the opposite problem. I still struggle daily with not wanting to eat, but in the end I do eat. Although most of the time it is not healthy. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I deprived myself for so long of anything that now that I am allowing myself to eat, I am going overboard. I have to say that after I do eat a lot, I still have that horrible guilty feeling that comes along with this disease. It is hard to deal with at times.
I am determined though, to eat 3 meals a day, and eat healthy. I have a few health problems, but nothing too serious at this time and I would like to keep it that way.
Well, I think I have said enough for today. In short, my goal for this week, is to start eating 3 healthy meals a day, and be okay with the fact that I am allowing myself to do this.