I'm going to try something new because I'm not where I should be at this point. It's frustrating but I'm not giving up. Somewhere down the line I need to learn from my experience until I find what works for ME. Everyone is different. I'm going to concentrate on my foods and tracking because I still need discipline in that area. I go off track so quick and that is bad. I don't know what it is...do I see this as a diet and not a life journey? probably. I need this to be a permanent change.
I've read many blogs from people who have achieved a large weight loss and have turned their lives around. I want that! I want to be a success story. for the first time I have all the tools and the time. The only thing standing in my way is me. I think trying to do a fitness challenge right now when I am not ready is not helping me. I need to make a few changes.
I think one change I am going to incorporate is working out because I WANT to not because I feel I have to. I do enjoy working out, getting sweaty and being outdoors but I think that when I feel I have to do it that's a problem for me. I want to associate working out with good feelings and not with feeling obligated to do it.
Maybe as I go forward I'll change my mind but for now I'm going to try readjusting my mind frame and make this whole journey more positive and more natural. I want to lose weight without "trying too hard" because this is potentially how I want to live for the rest of my life. And trust me I know its hard but I don't want to focus on that. So right now I'm going to go sweat-- dance with my lil girl on the wii and LIVE.
So this blog is a bit late as week 4 recap is tomorrow..lol.
But in week 3 I realized that I love oatmeal for breakfast!
I used to HATE oatmeal-- especially without milk and sugar...that was unheard of. Now I look forward to eat and have already run out and need to buy some for tomorrow.
I use a bit of agave instead of sugar and also rely on fresh berries and bananas for sweetness. I include protein by adding natural peanut butter (no sugar or additives just sea salt and peanuts) Let me tell you, it is so good! I also find that when I have a good bowl of oatmeal to start my day I am more inclined to eat better for the rest of it.
*I tracked all week. I tracked pretty much everything I ate and its probably the first time ever that I track after every meal for more than a couple of days so this was huge for me. It also helped me keep my calories in check. I only went over one day.
*I restarted my chalean extreme workout program. All my calories burned also were added onto what I could consume for that day..this is good in a way because I can eat more ;) but not so good in that since I do not have a heart rate monitor im not sure if what the spark fitness calculator says I burned is what I really burned...so I still am cautious about how much more I eat.
*I kept my motivation high by looking at successful sparkers, motivating blogs and even going on instagram and following people who are 'getting it done'.
What I did wrong:
*I tended to stay at the higher end of my calorie allowance. While I know this must be ok I still feel like maybe I can lose more weight if I try to eat a bit better. Two days I ate back to back crap (really high calories) for lunch. I need to stop that!
*I started my fitness program late in the week and I missed yesterdays workout since I have been potty training this week and it just couldn't happen! I was also really tired. So unfortunately only worked out one day this week.
What I can do better for week 2:
*Keep tracking and not go over my calories not even one day! No garbage meals full of calories.
*Continue with my fitness plan and workout at least 3 times this week.
Still I lost 2 lbs. and that is a success for me. Before I deleted my previous blogs (I am restarting) I noticed that way back in 2009 when I started with spark people my first weigh in was 0 lbs. lost or gained. The following weigh in was 1lb loss. I was so disheartened. I don't know what I did wrong but obviously I was doing something wrong. this time I am understanding that eating right is key and that for me tracking my calories is necessary. Even when I thought I was 'eating right' weeks before, I was still going over my calories and maintaining my high weight.
I feel like I am off to a really good start and am really looking forward to next week's recap!
So yesterday my sister snapped a picture of me at the zoo. I looked so big. I don't have a full length mirror at home ( that needs to change pronto) so I got a big reality check on my weight status. It wasn't pretty.
I look so big. There just aren't words to describe how I feel at this point. I have recommitted, restarted, tried again, came back...to spark many times. Sigh, I am going to do it again. I can only hope this time I can truly stick to the program.
Basically I am cutting out the crap and eating real foods. I am truly going to try to count my calories because in the past that has worked for me but somewhere down the road I get lazy. Hopefully I can eventually just know how much food my body can handle and won't need to count them but for now that's what I need to do.
I am starting fresh. I hope that I can be inspired and serve as inspiration to many of us who are starting fresh, recommitting, and trying again.