Saturday, May 19, 2012
I had to buy a new pair of slacks for my trip, and I was dismayed at how expensive clothes have gotten (I have not bought clothes in quite a while because I feel depressed scouring plus size catalogs). A scant few hours into wearing them on a hot, humid day, I noticed that they were pilling badly on the inner thighs!!! I had pilling before, but not until I had worn the pants quite a few times. I was too ashamed to even mention the clothes destruction to my husband, but I was cursing inside, "What the...!!!" I gotta plow on to reach my goal.
Friday, April 27, 2012
My biggest interests in life are travel, volunteer work and wild animal encounters. I work hard to combine the three things and have had incredible opportunities. But sometimes I start to think about smaller things in life that I am not familiar with but am curious about. One of them, lol, is to go to a casino! Some distant relatives of mine are casino regulars and I think it is a waste of good money to repeatedly gamble. That being said, I wouldn't mind trying the experience once or twice. I went to a casino on the Strip once with my adult daughter and tried to play a slot machine but my quarter kept coming back out. Obviously I was doing plenty wrong, and I am sure the people on the surveillance cameras where rolling with laughter. Just a very trivial blog post today to ease some of the anxiety packing and making last minute preparations for my volunteering trip next week.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
I am too old to be up on current hot topics, but I did get a copy of “Hunger Games” after the hype because I sure was intrigued by the title. Why, I have been hungry almost all my life because my appetite thermostat keeps telling me I am starving, especially when I am on binges! It is so contradictory, but that is how my body works. The more I overeat, the hungrier I feel. I hope they hurry and do research that might explain this bizarre phenomenon because this had made my life miserable. I have so many bad eating habits that are a real challenge to change- obsessing about food, slowing down at meals, spacing meals (this is the most important one, I think, because I tend to eat most of my calories early in the day or the starvation feelings dog me all day), and avoiding foods that make the hunger come in like crazy. In my case, it is bread, sugary food, and carbs in general including whole wheat. I can only think of one food that seems to fill me up, popcorn, because if I eat lots of it I feel full without as many calories as most other foods. Yep, I have been playing Hunger Games a lot longer than Katniss. I have read the first section of the book; saving the rest of airport and plane.
Monday, April 23, 2012
I will have to leave the comfort of my house, my gym, Spark friends and trackers, and normal routines in just eight days! I doubt I will have access to a computer or scale. I am not sure I am 100% ready to deal with foreign foods and a country I have never been to. I will be on small planes with strict weight restrictions, so I am not sure if my TRX straps will be able to crowd in with the clothes. I will weigh my carry on within a few days after the final things are packed in. No more than 25 lbs. is allowed! My plan is to go back to the pen and journal tracking method I used to lose pounds before I joined Spark. Hopefully, knowing that I will check in with you all after I return will help keep me strong. Frankly, I am scared. I gained 10 pounds in a little over a week years ago when on a trip.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
When I look into the mirror, I see that I am beginning to look like a regular human woman! But I cannot let myself slip into former eating habits. I found one way to do a reality check is to try clothes on that I think I fit in to; only to find that oops not yet... I have some "danger days" when I am worried about going on an eating binge. Maybe there are too many tempting things in the house. Then it helps to actually put on a pair of short that don't zip up fully (I bought a pair in a fit of madness recently that are WAY too tight, what was I thinking I weigh?) and keep them on for a while. I thought I would fit in to an expensive swimsuit that I never wore outside the house, but I found it is like wearing a suffocating old-fashioned corset. I am wearing it now under my house clothes. It will help keep me on track today because it feels like a bite of extra food will cause the suit to pop.
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