Saturday, October 26, 2013
My biggest NSV happened today! Things got off to a poor start when I set off for the gym. I couldn't find my running top (today is 5K day on the treadmill!) so I had to put on a very, very tight one. I did not look forward to sucking my gut in while jogging for 5K. Then, when I started jogging the cord to my mp3 player got snagged on a clip and that was the end of my music. Two things I need to do my best- music and mint gum. I had neither because in a rush to do errands before the gym I forgot to take my gum too! Anyway, I managed to complete the distance. First, let me explain that over 90% of the people using my gym are regulars like me. I have seen the same people for years. I joined when it opened about 40 years ago. I do not look at people or say anything because I am always self-concious of my weight. They are nice people, but they talk to everyone but me because I must telegraph my extreme self-conciousness. Today, a handsome, buff regular initiated a nice conversation with me! When he started talking I looked behind me to see who he was talking to, but there was no one there and he was looking right at me! I felt like 2 million bucks and I sang all the way home. What amazing joy, I feel light-headed! It has got to be because I look more confident and approachable lately.
Do any of you watch “Super Fun Night”? I think Rebel Wilson is very pretty and she does an excellent portrayal of the feelings overweight women endure. I can identify with every one of the feelings of the character she portrays, although I certainly lack her sense of humor.
I still have a long, hard job ahead, but every positive event is a huge help to keep me going.
Monday, October 21, 2013
My closet is fun when I get into it now and then (usually when I am confident about losing pounds, which sadly isn't often!). Like a department store, it is full of quite an array of sizes (all in my favorite colors and styles). I tried on what attracted my attention. Some fit well, some are a tad too tight and trying them on gives me incentive to lose a few pounds. Others are way small; they will only fit when I reach my lowest goal weight. I have my eye on a very pretty purple skirt and top that would be perfect for December parties if I just shave off 3-4 pounds by then. It fits now except the waistband of the skirt is dangerously tight, so tight the button might pop if I eat something. I also have beautiful long-sleeved running shirts that show a bit of spare tire now; it would be so cool to wear them on the treadmill when I present a better silhouette. For now, it is tee shirts only but trying on the running shirts makes me feel good. Ever notice that when they say small, medium, large, and extra large on running clothes they are much stricter than other types of clothing? Even the caps sold in running stores are smaller than others! (I miss my Camo team; can't get on the page for some unknown reason. But I am “posting” on my computer document offline. I am computer hopeless!)
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Yep, that is me. My husband is trying to coax me into a nice autumn jog with him 1-2 times a week, but he has been going alone. Running on the pavement is so much harder for me, and worse is that my husband has a much longer stride than mine so I tire out quickly. My knees hurt a lot more and for a longer period after running outside too. I might try to run with him this weekend. If I can go even 1 mile without walking, I will be happy as a start. I used to run 10 miles outside one day a week when I was between the ages of 30-40, that seems like so long ago.
Sunday, October 06, 2013
Woke up this morning to find I gained back all the weight I lost since joining the Camo team. I did quite a lot of after-hours stress eating. On the positive side, none of the food I ingested was junk food, it was healthier stuff. I am meeting my other goals- no diet soda again! The weather was nasty all day, so I did (rather reluctantly) 20 minutes of floor exercises (planks, wobble board, yoga). We had loud thunder last night but I managed six hours of sleep, which for me is terrific.
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
I just read the Spark article "9 Ways to Control Emotional Eating". It was a good one to read since I am reeling from yet another tragedy in my family. I am getting so much better in controlling emotional eating. I did have things I know are not part of my plan- diet soda and chips- but the triumph for me here is that I was able to not eat the whole bag! For me this is quite an achievement because I ate the entire bag each time for decades. Part of my emotional eating problem involved being a closet eater (eating in secret) but I ate the chips in front of my husband, who is thankfully non-judgemental but supportive of my goals. Not trying to conceal my binge was a relief
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