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The Silver Lining- BLC Entry

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

The best thing about this BLC round is that I have thoroughly enjoyed being in this supportive group. I need that because I am insecure about my computer skills and had a terrible time finding out what to do and how to do the tasks. This has been a very trying year for me in my personal life, and I would have been back to my original high weight were it not for the support of others. My husband is always supportive, but honestly, it takes more than one person. I did not lose weight, but I know I will when things settle down a bit. I sure hope this will happen in the coming months. My health is my first concern over all; when I get that in order I will be able to focus on losing pounds.

Big NSV- my demanding Pilates instructor praised me on my improvement! And then a class member told me the same thing!

My plan for the BLC break:
Make sure to keep my kitchen stocked with the tastiest, healthiest foods I can buy.
Maintain my new habits that I have achieved thanks to months of Sparking- I no longer drink tons of diet soda, and I have been limiting processed foods. I have experiemented with new foods I did not buy before, like Italian parsley, kale, couscous, and quinoa.
Practice lowering my daily caloric intake for my upcoming vacation! Somehow I think driving hours and hours in a car do not equate one hour+ of gym workouts. I will be hiking during my vacation, but that does not seem to burn anywhere near the calories of my cardio and strenth blast workouts. I will miss one of my beloved Pilates classes too. I am pledging to practice pilates moves in my lodge, but I have to prepare and practice or I am sure this will not get done because I tend to get very tired and sleepy after long drives.

Wishing you all success, and thank you again for the support you gave.

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BKWERM 7/23/2014 12:43PM

    We were glad to have you on our team, too. You're a wonderful addition in that you're as sympathetic and supportive of us as we are of you.

Have a wonderful hiking vacation.


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Plan When I Slip Up (will be many)

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

It is very important to me to be ready for times when I consume excess calories. The more the excess, the more I have to have a clear plan. The days from May 2-17 were and are full of meals outside the home and the Mothers Day holiday. I ate between 2500-3000 calories on the average each day and to top that off I had less time to exercise than usual. So, I have gained between 1 and 1 ˝ lbs since last week's WI.

First, I will remind myself that I CAN do this based on my recent track record. I have given up consuming a liter or more of diet soda every single day. I have been willing to break out of my usual exercise routines to branch out into new areas. I started Stott Pilates and hope to join a Zumba class this Friday! The timing was fortuitous, I qualify for a senior discount. Otherwise taking a class would be out of the question. I am one who benefits from an actual class; I tend to underperform when using dvds, etc.

Next, I have to reflect on what has been my undoing for almost seven decades- when I start a binge I give up and continue that binge. That resulted in my gaining back anything I worked hard to lose and then some. That demon still lurks and I have to fight it down hourly.

Thirdly, I have to make sure I purge my kitchen of unhealthy foods and make conscious purchases of groceries. Fruit and certain vegetables help me feel full and help me get over my almost constant “fake hunger”. Sweet potato, mango, and watermelon are the most helpful. I am saving to my Favorites recipes for coming warmer weather. I like to minimize use of my range and oven, and do the opposite in the winter.

I have a calendar with big spaces devoted to food and exercise. I highlight each date I know I will be eating away from home. May is the most highlighted month of the year so far! When I am at home and tempted to eat over my plan, all I have to do is study that calendar to see how unwise that would be. I must note here that I love “social eating”, that is enjoying food with friends and loved ones. I like to be able to do that without a guilty conscience or feelings of dread of scale consequences. I bank such days by sticking to the healthiest plan I can think of on normal days and avoiding eating out on non-social days. It is a huge task timewise to do all this but I totally need to because yes, I am a lifelong food addict and need to treat myself like an addict. People like my husband never have to do such things, but thank goodness he understands when I tell him I need to!

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BROOKLYN_BORN 7/14/2014 7:16AM

    Almost 7 decades? Are we about the same age?
Seriously, I see that you haven't blogged since May. I hope the plan is working for you. It's a good one.

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Saturday, October 26, 2013

My biggest NSV happened today! Things got off to a poor start when I set off for the gym. I couldn't find my running top (today is 5K day on the treadmill!) so I had to put on a very, very tight one. I did not look forward to sucking my gut in while jogging for 5K. Then, when I started jogging the cord to my mp3 player got snagged on a clip and that was the end of my music. Two things I need to do my best- music and mint gum. I had neither because in a rush to do errands before the gym I forgot to take my gum too! Anyway, I managed to complete the distance. First, let me explain that over 90% of the people using my gym are regulars like me. I have seen the same people for years. I joined when it opened about 40 years ago. I do not look at people or say anything because I am always self-concious of my weight. They are nice people, but they talk to everyone but me because I must telegraph my extreme self-conciousness. Today, a handsome, buff regular initiated a nice conversation with me! When he started talking I looked behind me to see who he was talking to, but there was no one there and he was looking right at me! I felt like 2 million bucks and I sang all the way home. What amazing joy, I feel light-headed! It has got to be because I look more confident and approachable lately.
Do any of you watch “Super Fun Night”? I think Rebel Wilson is very pretty and she does an excellent portrayal of the feelings overweight women endure. I can identify with every one of the feelings of the character she portrays, although I certainly lack her sense of humor.
I still have a long, hard job ahead, but every positive event is a huge help to keep me going.

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HEALTHYSLIM2 11/28/2013 5:43PM

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Lovely NSV for you!!!!
Keep up the great work!!

Happy Thanksgiving - Enjoy!
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SIMONEKP 10/26/2013 9:22PM

    That must have been a nice feeling. Sometimes people may not speak to you at the gym because they think you don't want to be disturbed- which they might take from the fact you wear headphone when you work out.

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 10/26/2013 7:33PM

    Jenna!! That is so great!! You sound happy and the confidence is papable:) Yay you!! I am sure others feel the same at your gym.

This adds fire to your goals so keep pushing and remember this feeling. You ROCK!!! emoticon


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JANEGSN 10/26/2013 7:18PM

    Jenna, Whoo Hoo. I learned long ago if you meet eyes and give a smile, most everyone smiles back. It was me that was stopping that connection not others, and I was at a good weight at the time. I even got comfortable making jokes and talking to people at bus stops, in elevators, etc. places we normally just avoid eye contact for the few minutes we are near each other.
So now being overweight, I don't feel any difference. When I am open and welcoming, so are they.
Big experience you had, here is to you having a lot more like that!!!!

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HOPEWELLNESS 10/26/2013 6:48PM

    Yay! Jenna that's awesome! Love when we have those times... Hate that we become so invisible when we are overweight or old. I try hard to acknowledge and talk to older people because I know they get ignored a lot.

But good on ya! You are on your way!

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TRIXIETEXAS 10/26/2013 4:47PM

    So happy for you! I have definitely noticed that as I gained weight, I became invisible to most men, and as I lose weight, I get more smiles and conversation.

I love Rebel Wilson and intended to watch Super Fun Night but just haven't had time.

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JDUBLANKO 10/26/2013 3:48PM

    I watch it and love her!! Her voice is so AWESOME...she was in 'Pitch Perfect" too... soooo good...

I envy her for the fact that she is comfortable in her shell...most of the time:)

AWESOME NSV!!! I love that 2 million buck feeling...

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My Closet, My Department Store

Monday, October 21, 2013

My closet is fun when I get into it now and then (usually when I am confident about losing pounds, which sadly isn't often!). Like a department store, it is full of quite an array of sizes (all in my favorite colors and styles). I tried on what attracted my attention. Some fit well, some are a tad too tight and trying them on gives me incentive to lose a few pounds. Others are way small; they will only fit when I reach my lowest goal weight. I have my eye on a very pretty purple skirt and top that would be perfect for December parties if I just shave off 3-4 pounds by then. It fits now except the waistband of the skirt is dangerously tight, so tight the button might pop if I eat something. I also have beautiful long-sleeved running shirts that show a bit of spare tire now; it would be so cool to wear them on the treadmill when I present a better silhouette. For now, it is tee shirts only but trying on the running shirts makes me feel good. Ever notice that when they say small, medium, large, and extra large on running clothes they are much stricter than other types of clothing? Even the caps sold in running stores are smaller than others! (I miss my Camo team; can't get on the page for some unknown reason. But I am “posting” on my computer document offline. I am computer hopeless!)

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SIMONEKP 10/23/2013 8:58PM

    I don't have a wide range of sizes but I love being able to fit into something that I couldn't before.

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STARTINGOVER37 10/21/2013 2:22PM

    My closet is the same way, there are some clothes that are getting close to being needed to be removed. There are some that I need to lose a couple more inches and they would fit, so they are my motivation. I try them on once a month just to see where I have come in a month. I look forward to going on a shopping spree for new clothes. Keep up the good work and you will lose those 3-4 pounds by December.

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DOPAMINEJUNKIE 10/21/2013 12:33PM

    Your closet sounds like a wealth of motivation! I too noticed that work out clothing is more true to size/strict on size than other types, it can be discouraging.

Hope you're able to make your way back to Camo soon. If you can still check your sparkmail, I can post challenge info into messages for you. If there's anything else I can do, to help you feel more connected to the team, please let me know! emoticon

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Cheating yourself by choosing treadmill Spark article

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Yep, that is me. My husband is trying to coax me into a nice autumn jog with him 1-2 times a week, but he has been going alone. Running on the pavement is so much harder for me, and worse is that my husband has a much longer stride than mine so I tire out quickly. My knees hurt a lot more and for a longer period after running outside too. I might try to run with him this weekend. If I can go even 1 mile without walking, I will be happy as a start. I used to run 10 miles outside one day a week when I was between the ages of 30-40, that seems like so long ago.

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HOPEWELLNESS 10/17/2013 3:04PM

    Jenna... ALMOST Anything is possible if you work at it... it just may take time. Set that 1 mile as a goal - or even just half a mile. I like the idea of letting him go on and he can circle back around and catch you and then you can finish together, maybe... For me, at my age, and never really being a runner, I enjoy run/walks... I run as long as I feel comfortable and then walk for a bit and pick up running when I feel like it. With your knees, this may be the best route for you. It makes the time sooo much more enjoyable and I still am outdoors and running!

Good luck with it, but give yourself time and leeway. Don't expect too much, but don't stop trying! And I totally do not think it is cheating to do the treadmill once in a while!!

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JENNAAW 10/17/2013 10:48AM

    Keep me informed on your 5K plans; wishing you the best! I can do an entire 5K on the treadmill, but much much slower than I used to when younger. I fondly remember the days when the highlight of my day would either be a long run outdoors (sometimes 5 in the morning on newly fallen snow because I worked) or, 10 mile runs when I didn't. My knees have really paid a price for over 40 years of pounding. I also had a treadmill for really nasty weather days; I loved it for years until one day the belt suddenly sheared while I was doing a sprint. I and my headphones flew like ejection from a rodeo bull but I was unhurt because there were some large boxes next to me (basement) and I fell heavily on top of them. My treadmill, however, became a laundry rack thereafter.

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TRIXIETEXAS 10/17/2013 10:19AM

    If the treadmill is better for you, don't feel guilty about that. It's the fact that you are getting exercise that is most important! I do Galloway running, too. I'm currently doing a 4 minute run/1 minute walk ratio. I'm trying to work up to doing a 5K without stopping but I'm a long way from that point.

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JENNAAW 10/17/2013 7:36AM

    I appreciate your nice comment, Smitty4rl. In my peak outside running years, my husband could never keep up with me. Then I gained weight at a steady clip, stopped running outside, and got to this point after a lot of years. I used to love running outside so much. Maybe there is still hope if I gradually work back in.

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SMITTY4RL 10/17/2013 7:30AM

    I have longstanding knee issues and alternate between the treadmill and the road. But I also do the Galloway method of running and that helps, too. My husband is a lot faster than me so we will go out together but have made a pact that we will go separate ways then join up again. I used to try to keep up and it was killing me, then he started to slow down and would have to run extra--it just works out for the best this way. Hope you find a balance, and hope you keep running. emoticon

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