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When is enough enough part 2

Thursday, July 18, 2013

I really am going out of my mind right now. My suspicion was correct. I found the bedbugs and the holes in the mattress in my daughters room. I threw them away lol I just took the whole mattress out and threw them away. I told my boyfriend that when he sees his ex tomorrow to tell her thank you for allowing the kids to bring the bedbugs to our house. Before I started to see my bf I never had a problem with lice or bedbugs or anything and seeing their mom don't know how to take care of the places they live or inspect them(they live in a city that is wellknow for being infested with bedbugs). I just am disgusted right now and kinds clueless. Does anyone know how to take care of them without calling in a specialist? I have the spray and I sprayed the boards on the bed because its a bunkbed, and I sprayed near the wall and the corners and tomorrow I am going to spray again and wip everything down. But is there anything else I should do? I am going to go through my daughters toys and get all the hairy or furry ones out and I am throwing a lot of her purses or bags away just in case. But I was wondering she has a toy chest that has cloth on it should I get rid of that to? Its all stained anyways but I a worried they may bury themselves in it somewhere. I feel myself start to panic but I just take deep breaths and then I'm good. But still I am so worried about my girls. He does not understand that if there is not a safe environment for the children there are consequences and I do not want to be in that position. I have always took care of my girls good and provided a safe home but now his kids keep bringing stuff and I think to myself is it really worth this? I love him but I don't think I love him enough. emoticon emoticon

  
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NEWTINK 7/19/2013 5:11PM

    I believe if you are asking the question then you know the answer . And to be honest if he is not as worried for the welfare and safety of your children Then the question shouldnt be if you love him enough but if he loves you enough emoticon

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JENMEG 7/19/2013 9:38AM

    Thank you maybe i will send you a message. It is probably my insecurities.

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FITFRIT 7/19/2013 7:38AM

    I would do some research on bedbugs and maybe even call your local health department. They may offer advice, programs to help you take care of this, something more than I can tell you at least.
If you don't think you love him enough, what is keeping you in this relationship? Are you with him because you don't want to be alone? I'm a psych major so just picking your brain here. If you want to talk, please feel free to private message me. I will be gone this weekend to a wedding, but I'm around most of the time other than that and my specialty is marriage and family counseling.

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when is enough enough?

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

This is a venting blog. Ok I have been with my bf for 5 years. He has three kids and I have two girls. Well his kids have brought lice to our house like 4 or 5 different times and of recently I think we now have bedbugs because of them. Their mother is lazy and don't care and I am the one who cleans all this crap up after they come. I am reallyh at the end of my line. I am about to call it quits with my bf because of this. I am so sick of my kids being exposed to all this and on top of it my boyfriends son has tried to commit suicde twice and cuts himself and their aware of what he does. I feel guilty though because I love my boyfriend but I just can't deal with it anymore. On top of it we all live with my mother band between all the stresses. Its no wonder I can't lose weight. I just don't know. Does anyone have any advice?

  
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NEWTINK 7/13/2013 4:25PM

    As the parent of two cutters, I can tell you that the son needs help. Cutting is serious business and an addiction just like drugs. That will not get better till there is serious therapy. As far as the lice goes yea that is not good either it can cause serious health issues for everyone. I cant tell you what to do but to analzye out the situation and vent it out. And ask the tough questions what is he doing for you because you seem to be doing a lot for him. All I can say sweetie is emoticon and if you need an ear to vent to give me yell i will listen and help if i can. emoticon emoticon

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FITFRIT 7/9/2013 11:00PM

    Oh honey, I don't envy you. I'm sorry that you have found yourself in this situation. You have to make some decisions about what is bet for you, your children, and your mother as well from the sounds of it. Does he live with you and your children at your mothers?
I think the best thing if that is the case is for him to get his own place where you can visit him if you choose to keep seeing him. He has to handle the situation with his ex, you getting involved will likely only make matters worse. I hope you can find a happy resolution to all of this.

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MRSRIGS1 7/9/2013 3:05PM

    Wow, you do have your hands full. Personally, I think your BF should be handling the situation with his children's mother. If their mom isn't taking proper care of them, she shouldn't have any custodial rights. However, if BF doesn't take the matter in his hands, he SHOULD, at the very least, help with the mess in your home. Perhaps this will take some of the burden of your shoulders. Otherwise, I would ask myself 'Did I really sign up for this?' Best wishes to you.

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MOTTAMAMALOU 7/9/2013 2:36PM

    You certainly do have a dilemma!

What do you think you should do?
What about your children?
When will you think you have had enough?

Only you can answer these questions.
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Mindfulness quiz result

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Well i took the mindfulness quiz and got a 2.3. According to the results that is not good. Alot of times i am unaware of what i am eating and how much. Sometimes i eat and then 5 minutes later i feel like im going to explode and sometimes it even hard to breathe and then i think to myself why the heck did i just eat that or all that. Alot at lunchtime i feel like this and often when my "nighttime binge eating". I am really trying hard to work on the nighttime binge eating. I dont know what it is after 9 i usually will feel hungry and nothing fills me up i mean even one time i had two cheese sandwiches, a bowl of cereal, and a pkg of cheeze its before i realized what the heck had i done. Then i go to bed depressed because i know what i had did and i just couldnt control it. I am trying new things of trying to correct this. Someone (herbalife coach) told me that i need to increase what i eat through the day. I often think that dieting you need to follow a strict menu. I really am trying to get out of that mind set but its hard. soemone else told me that maybe my sugar drops to low and that im trying to compensate for it. I dont know. but something has to change. So this week (all week) i am going to be mindful of what i eat and work on the nighttime binging. Knock on wood but for the past two nights I have not had a single snack after dinner so hopefully i can keep it up. *sparkling waves woohoo*

  
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ALFA_SUNSHINE 6/26/2013 4:46PM

    Have you checked out the Nutrition Tracker on here? It has some really great meal plans! Once you begin to follow the healthy eating plan you will see what it feels like to eat a healthy days worth of food. After you have mastered a plan for a few months you will be able to learn from it and tweak it to your own healthy taste. Good luck!! emoticon Namaste.

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NEWTINK 6/24/2013 11:04AM

    For me to get control I actually had to journal it . Before I would eat I would journal about what I feeling physical , emotional and mental . I would write what I wanted and then decide if I was hungry, depressed or stressed. You know there is a issue now just have to figure how to deal with it. emoticon

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JENMEG 6/23/2013 10:36PM

    THank you i will look into that eating plan ihave heard of it but never looked into it emoticon

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COOLAUNTBBW 6/23/2013 9:55AM

    I understand this completely. Been there, done that. I read up a lot on a Mediterranean type of diet, and it has been working great at curbing my hunger between meals. The key, it seems, is the olive oil. One or two teaspoons at each meal really does stop the cravings, helps to melt the belly fat (my biggest problem, no pun intended), and just generally keeps you satisfied. In fact, I have Norwegian chocolates in my fridge and haven't touched one since Tuesday. I haven't even wanted to! Look it up and check it out. It might be something you would like and could help. Good luck in whatever course you take!

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not really sure what to do? any advice?

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Ok I will start by telling alittle about what is going on. I have been with my bf for 4 years now and it has been a lot of ups and downs, a lot of uncertainy, and he's not very affectionante, and let's see he really only texts that he loves me he's only said it once to my face. When we started to go out he would talk about his ex a lot. He put her on a pestel a lot and of course he always denies this. Well I have done so much but I really don't know how much more I can take. He doesn't do any house work, he doesn't cook, he does only his laundry I do his sons that is from his ex. And most of the time he sits on the computer most of his day till it is time for him to sleep. He works thirds. His kids did not grow up the greatest with their mom and her husband. So we have the oldest living with us. Well he has had issues over the four years but now they have esculated. First he threatened to kill me because I yelled at him for just sitting down in the basement all summer when there was house work to be done. My bf never made him apologize or nothing. Now he is past the point where he cuts himself and has been diagnosed with bipolar. He's already been hospitalized once for a week but now he's cutting and my boyfriend wants me to watch him. The thing that bothers me is I. Have two girls of my own that I feel like I should put them first. I am so worried that one of them will see him doing it. I'm really worried about my youngest. But I love my bf but really I am emotionally exhausted from this relationship. Sometimes I feel selfish but then others have told me why do u stay. I mean I am so sick of being walked on and I am worried for my daughters because they do not need this. Anyone have suggestions?

  
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JENMEG 12/19/2012 10:47PM

    12/19/2012 Just a update in case anyones wondering. Im still with my boyfriend. I know what the heck am i thinking. I just feel guilty sometimes that i am feeling this way about his kids and i think i shouldnt let that affect my relationship. But as of yesterday everything i thought was getting better. my bf son has been on medicine for awhile and i thought he was stable but i just found out (not from my boyfriend, but it would have been nice to have heard it from him seeing his son lives here with us) that he is still cutting himself. that worries me alot. and he told my mother that he doesnt do it with knives he does it with a box cutter. his doctor has said he is classified as a "cutter". Gosh you know what i really dont know how much more i can take. I feel like im stuck and i dont know what to do. I do love my bf but do i love him enough to put up with this crap? i think thats why i havent cared about losing weight because of dealing with his stuff. Any advice? I know i will hear the same stuff but i feel stuck. i dont want to kick him out right now being so close to christmas but im so afraid that when i do kick him out am i making the right deiscion? emoticon

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LJCANNON 11/9/2012 10:52AM

    emoticon You have Daughters who are going to model their Behavior in relationships after YOURS. If you allow a Boyfriend -- Or his Children --to Walk On You or to Disrespect You, they will let their Boyfriends Walk On Them.


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5WHITEROSES 11/8/2012 5:25PM

    I agree with the others, your safety & that of your children's comes first. That is your top priority. You said you love him, but it doesn't really sound like the feeling is mutual. You deserve the best and he's not it. After you leave him, you are free to find the man who will treat you with the love & respect you deserve.

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STAR8278 11/8/2012 2:27PM

    I was in a similar situation for almost 5 years. One day I woke up and realized I deserved better.

You deserve better! Your children deserve better.


You know what you need to do, or you wouldn't be saying it out loud in a blog. You have our support.

You don't need a B/F to be a strong successful woman. You need only love yourself and your children fiercely.



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CAROL- 11/8/2012 6:23AM

    You must put your children first! I will be praying that God protects you.

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NIEKA825 11/8/2012 12:27AM

    Protect yourself and the welfare of your children.

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Day 1 and 2

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Friday: I did good friday i think i stayed with my calories and everything. I drank water all day probably not has much as i should but i did it and i did have a regular cherry pepsi but half the bottle and i had the allotted calories left so i didnt go over.
Saturday": Did pretty good in the morning and after noon quite busy but im tryin did good for dinner but as i sit here i can feel the munchies come on but i think i will go grab a cold glass of water if that doesnt work then i have the calories left for a small bowl of cereal. Today was such a beautifull day though it was sunny and probably high 70s. I took the kids to the park where we walked around for 45 minutes and then they played for an hour . I love when its sunny and warm. I know theres probably some laughing out there when i say high 70s are warm but i live in michigan were its usually cold right now and this is nice good weather but i have a feeling that summer is going to be ahot one and probably alot of storms. Ok i sorry i got off the road there in this conversation lol. emoticon

  
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THEBRIGHTERSIDE 4/13/2012 3:42PM

    Good for you! Keep up the good work! Its always nice if we can add our kids in on the mix!

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GUNIVERA 3/19/2012 2:18PM

    I'm loving the warmth and sunshine here in PA, too. :) Sounds like a good two days!

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 3/17/2012 9:32PM

    great days for eating and moving! and yes, I'm thoroughly enjoying this Michigan winter/spring but feel like I"m watching over my shoulder for the frigid temps to sneak up and attack!

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