Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Today I had a routine annual check up. As I expected, I'm perfectly healthy but my doctor wanted to talk about two things: family planning and my weight. The good doctor knows I'm a newlywed, so he wanted to know what my family plan is. Fair enough. He assured me that I have "a little time," which is exactly my take on it. (I'm 32.) His main issue, in general and particularly in regard to pregnancy, is my weight.
Now, I fully expected him to get after me about my weight. He usually does. But the pregnancy thing is a new angle for him. I'm at 189 right now, and he'd like to see me in the 160s or 170s before I get pregnant. I told him my goal is to be in the 150s, and he reiterated 160s or 170s. So that made me feel better - my goals are higher than what is medically necessary.
The doctor asked me a series of questions about my exercise and nutrition habits. I told him what I'm doing and then mentioned that I'm using SparkPeople. He'd never heard of it, so I explained it all and told him how useful it was to me. And that he might want to recommend it to his other patients. He wrote down the web address and said he'd check it out.
Oh, and the doc also said that my plan is right on the money. He was pleased by the type and quantity of my exercise and happy with my nutrition habits. He also seemed impressed by the fact that I'm signed up for a 5K and he liked my overall goals.
I couldn't have made this much progress without it!
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
August was a lost month. I didn't gain anything, but I didn't lose either. I started the C25K program but then traveled and haven't done anything since Week 1. I did some other exercise, but not consistently or in a focused manner. My food choices were not good. My motivation was nil.
I decided to start over in September. And I did great for two days. Then I went on vacation to Texas. Despite doing a TON of walking, I still gained 2 pounds. That should tell you what my food choices were like. And DH and I had an embarrassing moment at a water park where we realized we couldn't share a tube on a waterslide: the total allowable weight was 400 pounds. DH is nowhere near 210 pounds; I wish he was. But he's got 50 pounds before he gets there. So we switched wives with another couple we were with, and that worked just fine. Still, it was pretty humiliating.
Despite all this, I still don't have much motivation. Yet I'm tired of this rut I'm in. Hmmm. The crux of the problem is that I want to get fit and slimmer, but don't want to put in the work. And I know it doesn't work that way.
Today I did a great job doing everything I know I need to be doing to get fit and healthy. My mood and thoughts about this are decidedly neutral. So I guess I just have to fake it til I make it. I figure if I just keep going through the *correct* motions, the results will get me motivated. At least that's what I'm telling myself for now. Because I'm not giving up.
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