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Stability and Balance

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Over the past week or so I've come to a good headspace, one of stability and balance. My escape plan from my crazy office seems to be coming together and I'm emotionally detaching from my current office. And all this week management has left me alone to - gasp! - sit at my desk and do my job. This has gone a long way to helping me get my head together and destress. I'm feeling a lot calmer and collective, but I'm also more productive across the board. I can go through my day and focus on one task at a time, including my nutrition and fitness. I'm rebuilding consistency on staying in my calorie range and getting in enough cardio and ST. I'm staying away from the scale this month because I need to focus on process instead of product, but I can tell that this consistency is having results. My favorite pants are a tad loose and my energy level has skyrocketed. I just have an overall feeling of well-being. What a huge difference over a couple of weeks!

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KITHKINCAID 4/15/2011 2:58PM

    Great job Jen - so glad to hear you're back on track!

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SAMMYSWEETPEA 4/14/2011 10:23PM

    I agree, this blog sounds like your usual happy self. I'm so glad to know you're in a better headspace. emoticon

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DITZYCHICK 4/14/2011 4:50PM

    I can tell a huge difference in you, just in how your blog is written! So happy that your escape plan is working out because your work situation just wasn't agreeing with you. It's also that you've been staying away from the scale and focusing on staying consistent with your actions. I've been doing the same thing! Haven't been on the scale in 2 1/2 weeks and feel so much stronger because of it! I've gotten out of the self sabotage stage and am feeling strong and focused in my goals again! I'm positive that you'll feel a great relief staying away from the scale too!

CONGRATULATIONS on your favorite pants becoming loose...sounds like a shopping trip is in your near future!!!

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Lovely Compliment

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Today I had lunch with a friend who is also trying to lose weight by improving his eating habits and fitness. While talking about strength training, I mentioned how much I can leg press. He was impressed and said, "Strong legs, strong heart, strong mind." That's the nicest compliment I've gotten in a very long time! Totally made my day. emoticon

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MERRIKATE 4/14/2011 12:39AM

    What a moment to treasure for a loooooooong time! Good, good friend, that, so see you so clearly and to say so.


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SAMMYSWEETPEA 4/13/2011 6:53PM

    That is a great compliment indeed! If you keep a personal journal, I'd write that one down. It would be great to look back at it when you need a pick up.

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ELLYFINT 4/13/2011 3:03PM

    Nice!!! Great to receive something that's sincere and true :) :) :)

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KSTARANNE 4/13/2011 8:29AM

    what an awesome compliment! How sweet of him!

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KITHKINCAID 4/13/2011 12:23AM

    Awww - that's so sweet :) And totally TRUE!!!

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LOTUSFLOWER 4/13/2011 12:13AM

    I love that!!! It is so true of you, too.

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DITZYCHICK 4/12/2011 11:11PM

    Awww, that's so nice...and he described you so well! You're very deserving of these compliments, enjoy them!!!

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JMUCKINHOUPT 4/12/2011 10:31PM

    Just nice to feel complimented sincerely...

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JMUCKINHOUPT 4/12/2011 10:30PM

    Just nice to feel complimented sincerely...

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March Progress Report and April Goals

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Here's a recap of last month's goals and how I did against them.

emoticon Drop to 173 pounds, a 5 pound loss.
Uh, no. 175, though, which is a 3 pound loss. I'm satisfied with that.

emoticon Do 1,000 fitness minutes.
Nope, didn't happen. I logged over 600, though, and that isn't too shabby.

emoticon Continue bootcamp strength training program.
I did for a week and then fell off the wagon.

emoticon Blog once a week.
I blogged four of the five weeks in March.

emoticon Participate in D&A fitness and weigh-in challenge.
Done and done!

emoticon Make significant progress on a UFO.
Yup - I got a big chunk done on something for DH.

emoticon Read one book.
I actually read two - Wicked by Gregory McGuire and Lady Susan by Jane Austen

emoticon Knit GrandMary's scarf.
Done and done.

emoticon Wear lingerie once.
I've rarely felt less sexy, so it didn't happen.

emoticon Do a monthly goal check-in blog.
Here it is!

emoticon Start making a wedding photo book.
I made pretty good progress on it.

emoticon Plan and prep the garden.
All we have to do now is plant the garden!

emoticon Start a job search.
Wrote a resume and started sending it out.

Okay, so March was not a spectacular success. But it was a HARD month. An "I had to walk uphill in the snow both ways" kind of month. So I actually accomplished quite a lot - and managed to lose 3 pounds in the process. Therefore I'm giving myself a B for March. My rewards are a Gym Boss and a little package of magnetic bookmarks.

My goals for April are similar but I'm not going to set a goal for the number of pounds to lose. And I'm cutting back on the fitness to a more manageable level. If I do more, fantastic. But my plan still puts me on track for slow but steady weight loss - and, more importantly, is what I know works for me.

emoticon Do 3 cardio sessions a week.

emoticon Do 2 ST sessions a week.

emoticon Take at least one rest day a week.

emoticon Blog once a week.

emoticon Participate in D&A team.

emoticon Make significant progress on UFO.

emoticon Read one book.

emoticon Knit FIL's hat.

emoticon Wear a special garment once.

emoticon Do monthly goal check in.

emoticonStart C25K.

emoticon Continue working on wedding photo book.

emoticon Go to church once.

emoticon Update SparkPage.

emoticon Earn my next Spark trophy.

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CHEETARA79 4/12/2011 4:05PM

    How are you doing with those goals as of now? I really should take your lead and post a similar blog!

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JMUCKINHOUPT 4/7/2011 7:57PM

    I need to follow your lead. I have yearly goals and monthly goals, but I haven't monitored my monthly goals as you have. I need to make sure I can be accountable and adjust as necessary. Thanks for the guidance.

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SAMMYSWEETPEA 4/6/2011 12:40AM

    Awesome job in March! And I love your April list.

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ELLYFINT 4/5/2011 10:56PM

    He, March wasn't too bad! And I like the range of your April goals :) Nice mix! Good luck with achieving them :)

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-FEMALE- 4/5/2011 8:46PM

    Great goals, and well done for last month.

I'm really hoping to get into knitting soon. How did you learn?

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KT-NICHOLS-13 4/5/2011 7:54PM

    Great goals for April!

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Escape Plan

Monday, April 04, 2011

Friday was a very good day at work. VERY good. I met with a manager in another office because they have a vacancy and I'm definitely interested in an in-house transfer; it's far easier than finding a new job. The manager liked me right away and thinks I would be a good fit over there.

I approached my manager about the in-house transfer with some trepidation; I didn't think he'd take kindly to the idea. As it turns out, I was wrong. He supports people broadening their skill sets by working in different parts of the organization. And he's willing to let me make the transfer as soon as late April/early May emoticon

While writing this, the manager in the other office called me to say that everything is a go over there, but they'd like me to fill out the usual paperwork and then we can work on a release date. He even said that he requested I work on his team!

I'm super excited about this opportunity. And there's a 95% chance it'll work out. The 5% is for the unexpected and the crazy, 'cuz you just never know. But I'm pretty optimistic that this new job is my ticket out of this one. emoticon

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DITZYCHICK 4/5/2011 1:47PM

    HOORAY...this is GREAT NEWS!!! Take a deep breath girl and let it all go...all fingers are crossed for you that this all goes according to plan. I'm thinking there are happier days in your very near future!!!

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PARAMAGIC66 4/4/2011 6:51PM

    That is wonderful!!! I am so happy for you. Congratulations! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KATHIERAE 4/4/2011 5:28PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonI'm so happy for you!!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 4/4/2011 5:25PM

    Great job on taking control! Sounds like a great opportunity with lots of support. WOOOOO HOOOOO.

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HAMMLIN 4/4/2011 4:29PM

    How exciting for you! I feel like shouting with you FREEEEEDOM, like in Braveheart lol

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Mental Recalibration

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Lately I have been having bad days and worse days. Monday was a worst day. I woke up from a literal nightmare about my job (it involved corpses, a sure sign that it's time to go) and ended my workday with a figurative nightmare in which I barely restrained myself from shaking my boss's boss, who is a complete idiot. The middle wasn't much better. I was so upset that I spent an hour and a half in my mentor's office, trying to calm down. She forbade me from coming into work for the rest of the week. I think the term "breakdown" can be fairly used here.

I didn't take the whole week off; I have the time, but don't want to use it. And I was better by the end of the two mental health days. I spent them very well.

Tuesday morning I vegetated. I sat in what felt like a semi-catonic state with the cats on the couch while knitting and watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer on Netflix. My turning point came Tuesday afternoon when I got a massage. Releasing the physical tension helped me let go of the mental and emotional tension. Wednesday I was able to relax, accomplish some things I've wanted to do for a while, and think clearly about my problem. Being me, I developed an action plan.

emoticon First and foremost, ditch the sinking ship - both emotionally and physically. I will continue to go to work and do my job. But that's it. I'm not going above and beyond; no more Super Woman. Management doesn't care if we succeed, so why should I? Besides which, I'm moving on. My resume is out and I've applied to a handful of jobs. Tomorrow morning I have an exploratory meeting about a promising opportunity.

emoticon Cut short the swearing, anger, and negative thoughts. They're only making every day harder. A positive outlook will take me a long way. I'm a very verbal person, so language has an emotional impact on me. Avoiding cussing in favor of appropriate and concrete words will have a big effect on my state of mind.

emoticon Avoid to-do lists at home and make sparing use of them at work. Just seeing so many unchecked boxes makes me stress. I know what I need to do, so I'll do it one step at a time. Mindfully choose a task, do it, and move on. Celebrate what I've accomplished, not worry about what's still undone.

emoticon Do one thing a day I truly enjoy. This can be as simple as reading a book instead of the habitual evening TV watching or as involved as a date day in downtown DC with DH. This will give me something to look forward to even on the worst days.

emoticon Look for a new church. I moved to Maryland two years ago and never searched for a new church. But I need spiritual sustenance, so it's time to start.

emoticon Continue with my healthy lifestyle. Duh.

emoticon Stop weighing myself every week. The healthy lifestyle needs to be about process, not product. Pounds lost = product. Starting today I'm going to weigh in on the last day of the month, and that's it. That should take a lot of pressure off and encourage me to eat right and exercise for the sake of feeling good, not some stupid number on the scale.

emoticon Continue the goal blogs. I find them a useful construct for breaking my goals into smaller, more manageable parts. And the monthly wrap-ups usually remind me that I've done a lot more than I give myself credit for, which causes me to stop giving myself such a hard time.

This may sound like a lot, but it's really not. In most ways it's a radical simplification. Most items involve either stopping an unproductive activity/thought process or continuing a healthy practice. The only two new things - doing one thing a day I enjoy and finding a new church - are such huge positives that they definitely outweigh the time out of my day. I'm feeling better already!

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DITZYCHICK 4/1/2011 1:36AM

    emoticonSo happy to hear that you are unwinding a bit and that things are turning around. You're just too sweet to have to deal with so much crap!!! ALL fingers are crossed for you that those floating resumes turn something up. Something that is better suited for your personality and in a place that will recognize everything that you put out there. You deserve it!!!

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SAMMYSWEETPEA 4/1/2011 12:12AM

    I think this sounds like a great plan. It's structured enough to appease your (presumably) Type A personality, but not so rigid as to self-impose OCD. lol


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JMUCKINHOUPT 3/31/2011 7:05PM

    First, I always use Buffy, the Vampire Slayer to bring me calmness. People who know me can't believe that I can sit through a day of Buffy or Angel. Second, I think you are digging in. Make those goals and keep working. You can do it.

PS Thanks for your encouragement to me. I really appreciate it. Who would think a stranger saying good job, or you can do it, would impact me? But it does. Thanks.

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